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1 00:00:39 "You are a carcinogen,"
2 00:00:41 I would say to her.
3 00:00:44 "You are a tumor,
4 00:00:46 "whose malignancy has defined
5 00:00:48 "the ebb and flowof all I've done,
6 00:00:51 "of all I've tried to do.
7 00:00:53 "And yet, in spite of that,
8 00:00:54 "do you know how much spaceyou occupy
9 00:00:56 "in the entirety of me?
10 00:00:59 "This much.
11 00:01:01 "You define my life,
12 00:01:02 "and yet, this is how muchyou matter to me.
13 00:01:06 "If you hadn't shown upon my door this morning,
14 00:01:08 "I'd have gladly gonethe rest of my days
15 00:01:11 "thinking of you regularly,
16 00:01:12 "but from a distance,
17 00:01:14 "flung from your orbit.
18 00:01:16 "But now...
19 00:01:18 "you are here
20 00:01:20 "and the bile is risingand taking the form of words.
21 00:01:25 "And what these words mean is,
22 00:01:27 "never have I known
23 00:01:28 "how closely loveand hate are bound
24 00:01:30 "than when I think of youand realize
25 00:01:33 "you deserve neither."
26 00:01:59 ♪ I'll kill you softly ♪
27 00:02:04 ♪ So sweetly, kindly ♪
28 00:02:09 ♪ I'm mesmerizing ♪
29 00:02:13 ♪ It's terrifying ♪
30 00:02:29 ♪ This black suit fitslike a glove ♪
31 00:02:30 ♪ I was born to bethe widow of love ♪
32 00:02:33 ♪ Won't lose myselfto a touch ♪
33 00:02:35 ♪ I was born to bethe widow of love ♪
34 00:02:38 ♪ This black suit fitslike a glove ♪
35 00:02:39 ♪ I was born to bethe widow of love ♪
36 00:02:42 ♪ My red heart freedlike a dove ♪
37 00:02:43 ♪ But you tell methat it's never enough ♪
38 00:02:45 ♪ This is your burial ♪
39 00:02:54 ♪ This is your burial ♪
40 00:03:03 ♪ This is your burial ♪
41 00:03:41 ♪ This black suit fitslike a glove ♪
42 00:03:42 ♪ I was born to bethe widow of love ♪
43 00:03:45 ♪ Won't lose myselfto a touch ♪
44 00:03:46 ♪ I was born to bethe widow of love ♪
45 00:03:49 ♪ This black suitfits like a glove ♪
46 00:03:51 ♪ But your teethtell me I'm not enough ♪
47 00:03:53 ♪ This is your burial ♪
48 00:04:10 I hadn't seen herin over 10 years.
49 00:04:12 But I could tell she wascoming from a mile away.
50 00:04:17 More than a mile.
51 00:04:19 A thousand miles.
52 00:04:21 I woke up that morningwith a taste in my mouth
53 00:04:24 I hadn't felt in years.
54 00:04:34 Is it... Is it a bit too rigidhere at the waist?
55 00:04:36 How do you feel?You feel okay?
56 00:04:39 Yeah. I just... It's...
57 00:04:40 - I do love how bold it is.- Yeah.
58 00:04:43 A whole new you.
59 00:04:46 I cast itout of my mind,
60 00:04:48 but as the day went on,
61 00:04:51 the taste left my mouth
62 00:04:53 and traveledto that space behind my eyes
63 00:04:56 where it settledand turned thick.
64 00:04:59 By the time the late flightsfrom LAX to Heathrow
65 00:05:02 were coming infor their landing,
66 00:05:04 I felt as if a secret twinhad grown in my skull.
67 00:05:21 What's wrong?Are you okay?
68 00:06:05 It was calling,
69 00:06:07 shouting,
70 00:06:11 screaming,
71 00:06:15 telling me
72 00:06:17 it was coming.
73 00:06:20 She was coming.
74 00:06:24 She was here.
75 00:07:12 Uh, hi. Excuse me.Hi. Can I help you?
76 00:07:14 I'm looking for Sam.
77 00:07:15 Oh, I'm afraidSam isn't available right now.
78 00:07:19 Are you...
79 00:07:20 Does Sam know you were coming?
80 00:07:22 No, no.
81 00:07:23 Okay, uh...
82 00:07:24 Well, then could I justask you to just wait, uh...
83 00:07:28 Sam?
84 00:07:29 Sam?
85 00:07:31 Um...
86 00:07:33 - Sam?- Sorry, you really can't...
87 00:07:35 Uh...Sam?
88 00:07:37 Sam's notseeing anybody
89 00:07:38 - right now.- Sam?
90 00:07:44 Sam, I'm so sorry.
91 00:07:46 I didn't see her coming,she just came in.
92 00:07:51 Sam, I need a dress.
93 00:07:56 Just landed?
94 00:07:58 Yes.From LA?
95 00:08:00 Yes, I just came from...
96 00:08:02 Would you likesomething to eat?
97 00:08:04 - Uh... No, I...- Hilda,
98 00:08:07 do we... do we have anythingto eat here?
99 00:08:10 Um, not really, no.
100 00:08:12 Okay.Well, there you go.
101 00:08:16 Does anyone know you're here?
102 00:08:19 - No.-I... I...
103 00:08:21 I must say,I wish you had called.
104 00:08:24 You might have noticedwe're a little underwater
105 00:08:26 - at the moment.- Would you have answered?
106 00:08:27 No,but somebody would have.
107 00:08:29 And they could have told youwe're very busy.
108 00:08:32 Sam has her show coming up.
109 00:08:35 Oh.
110 00:08:37 Sorry.
111 00:08:38 For not callingor for just showing up?
112 00:08:42 In general.
113 00:08:43 Wouldn't you rather getmore specific?
114 00:08:47 I just never had the chanceto say it before,
115 00:08:50 - so...- So the onus is on me then,
116 00:08:53 to list off your offensesone by one
117 00:08:55 and cross-check them
118 00:08:56 against the totalityof your "I'm sorry"?
119 00:09:01 Oh, well.
120 00:09:02 That hardly seems worth it,does it?
121 00:09:06 Making me do all the work,
122 00:09:08 - just like you always do.- I can go
123 00:09:10 if you want.
124 00:09:11 If you want to go, go.
125 00:09:14 If you want to stay, stay.
126 00:09:16 If you want to apologize,you go for it.
127 00:09:18 But if you stay,
128 00:09:19 please stop doing
129 00:09:20 that hovering thingyou always do,
130 00:09:22 because it makes mevery nervous.
131 00:09:25 - Sorry.- You already said that.
132 00:09:29 - I mean it.- Say it two more times,
133 00:09:31 so I believe you.
134 00:09:34 But not yet.
135 00:09:37 Catch me by surprisewith your sincerity.
136 00:09:42 Now, why don't you startwith why you're here?
137 00:09:46 I really do need a dress.
138 00:09:48 What, you don't havea whole coterie of stylists
139 00:09:50 to take care of that for you?
140 00:09:52 No, I do. But it's not...
141 00:09:57 working out.
142 00:09:58 And this performance,when is it?
143 00:10:00 The 31st.
144 00:10:02 - That's on Sunday?- Yes.
145 00:10:05 And today is?
146 00:10:09 Thursday.
147 00:10:12 Well, that's impossible.
148 00:10:14 What's wrongwith the dress you have?
149 00:10:16 I'm assuming you have one.
150 00:10:18 It's just all wrong.
151 00:10:20 May I see it?
152 00:10:24 - So that's it?-Yes.
153 00:10:27 It's not a dress at all.
154 00:10:29 Who made it?
155 00:10:30 Saracen & Pare.
156 00:10:34 Hmm.
157 00:10:36 Tell me three thingsthat are wrong with it.
158 00:10:40 It doesn't feel like me.
159 00:10:43 Okay. It doesn'tfeel like you. That's one.
160 00:10:47 That's it.
161 00:10:49 That's it?
162 00:10:51 - Yes.- So you,
163 00:10:53 who have been dressedby everyone
164 00:10:57 and worn everything,
165 00:10:59 who once paraded downa red... ...carpet
166 00:11:01 wearing nothingbut freshly poured honey,
167 00:11:04 you have somehow found
168 00:11:06 the one outfitin all of creation
169 00:11:09 that doesn't feel like you?
170 00:11:11 Yes.
171 00:11:12 And you've comecrawling back to me
172 00:11:15 because you knowI can do better?
173 00:11:17 - Yes.- Because I, above all others,
174 00:11:20 know you?
175 00:11:21 Because I didn't knowwhere else to go.
176 00:11:23 Truly?
177 00:11:26 Yes.
178 00:11:33 Will you let me dowhatever I like?
179 00:11:38 Yes. But...
180 00:11:39 Will you do exactly as I say?
181 00:11:41 Yes, within...
182 00:11:43 And will you wear what I make?
183 00:11:46 Yes.
184 00:11:48 And can you stop time?
185 00:11:53 Just did.
186 00:11:57 This is reallygoing to take some doing,
187 00:11:59 if we're gonna pull this off.
188 00:12:02 Just tell mewhat I can do.
189 00:12:04 You can justkeep talking.
190 00:12:06 That's how this works.
191 00:12:07 You tell me somethinglike how you're feeling,
192 00:12:10 and I'll take those feelingsand turn them into a dress.
193 00:12:13 The transubstantiationof feeling.
194 00:12:17 That's what we're doing here.
195 00:12:21 Here we are.
196 00:12:23 Now, as you can see,
197 00:12:25 I've enteredmy Ms. Havisham period
198 00:12:27 very much ahead of schedule.
199 00:12:29 This is where I come to crymy eyes out in the dark.
200 00:12:40 Stand here, please.
201 00:12:50 Now, uh...
202 00:12:52 I haven't had a new ideain ages.
203 00:12:56 Not a good one, at least.
204 00:12:57 So if we're to do this,
205 00:12:59 I'm just gonnahave to fasten things to you
206 00:13:02 until inspiration strikes.
207 00:13:07 There we go.
208 00:13:13 Uh, can I takeyour sweater?
209 00:13:17 Yes.
210 00:13:18 - Thank you.- Mmm-hmm.
211 00:13:21 So...
212 00:13:23 So tell me moreabout this dress we're making.
213 00:13:26 What do you see in your head?
214 00:13:30 Just...
215 00:13:33 me.
216 00:13:34 Just you?
217 00:13:35 But...
218 00:13:38 But all of me.
219 00:13:40 I was thinking more like,"What color?"
220 00:13:44 - Uh...- Hold still.
221 00:13:48 Whatever you like.
222 00:13:50 But no red.
223 00:13:51 Do you have to be ableto move?
224 00:13:54 - Yes.- Dance?
225 00:13:55 - Yes.- Any stunts or harnesses?
226 00:13:58 No.
227 00:13:59 Backup dancers?
228 00:14:00 - Nine.- I'm not making
229 00:14:01 - anything for them.- I know.
230 00:14:02 There's simplynot enough time.
231 00:14:03 I know. You don't have to.Just me.
232 00:14:06 Arms up.
233 00:14:11 What song are you singing?
234 00:14:15 Spooky Action.
235 00:14:16 Hmm. I don't rememberthat one.
236 00:14:19 - 'Cause it's new.- Oh.
237 00:14:21 That explains it then.
238 00:14:22 Did you write it?
239 00:14:24 Yes.
240 00:14:28 I'll play it for youif you want.
241 00:14:30 Yes, maybe later.
242 00:14:34 It's good.
243 00:14:35 I am sure it is.
244 00:14:38 It might bethe best song ever written
245 00:14:40 - in the history of songs.-Mmm.
246 00:14:42 Lift your shirt upfor me, please.
247 00:14:55 You've gotten so tiny.
248 00:14:57 The tiniest intruder.
249 00:15:01 You're exactly the same.
250 00:15:03 Oh, no, I'm not.
251 00:15:05 You'll see.
252 00:15:07 You'll see how I've changed.
253 00:15:11 What the yearshave made of me.
254 00:15:16 Okay. That's good for now.Thank you, Hilda.
255 00:15:26 - Hilda.- Yes?
256 00:15:28 Hilda, would you run backto the main house
257 00:15:31 - and grab a few things for me?- Mmm-hmm.
258 00:15:35 What does this matter?
259 00:15:38 - You know what I need?- Of course.
260 00:15:40 Uh, what about you?Can we get you anything?
261 00:15:41 - I'm fine. Thank you.-Okay. Good.
262 00:15:44 Okay.I'll be right back.
263 00:16:04 She's not gonna tell anyone...
264 00:16:06 No. Don't worry.
265 00:16:08 There are no spiesin our midst.
266 00:16:09 I just need herto bring me some things.
267 00:16:14 Some old bric-a-brac,a few bolts of fabric,
268 00:16:17 and a good pair of scissors
269 00:16:18 in case one of us hasthe sudden desire to...
270 00:16:28 Okay.
271 00:17:05 How's your mum?
272 00:17:08 She died.
273 00:17:12 I'm sorry.
274 00:17:15 How are you?
275 00:17:22 Same.
276 00:17:23 You've been laying low.
277 00:17:25 Am I right that this will beyour first outing
278 00:17:28 - since...- Since?
279 00:17:30 Since whatever happenedhappened.
280 00:17:33 What do you think happened?
281 00:17:35 Well, I... I saw that video.
282 00:17:38 Everyone saw that video.
283 00:17:41 Is there more to it than that?
284 00:17:45 Yes.
285 00:17:48 And when it first happened,people kept asking me,
286 00:17:51 what do I know,
287 00:17:52 had I heard anything,"Did she trip, did she jump?"
288 00:17:58 What'd you say?
289 00:17:59 People... saidyou had a breakdown.
290 00:18:02 I said, "No. She probablyjust needed a break."
291 00:18:04 Yeah. That was part of it.
292 00:18:09 What are the other parts?
293 00:18:13 I don't want to tell you.
294 00:18:15 Why?
295 00:18:17 Because you'd laugh.
296 00:18:19 - No, I wouldn't.- Yes, you would.
297 00:18:21 You're laughing right now.
298 00:18:23 I'm just...
299 00:18:24 I'm just picturingthe worst possible thing
300 00:18:26 that could have made you dowhat you did.
301 00:18:28 I...
302 00:18:31 - What is it?- It's not worth mentioning,
303 00:18:33 but it's very funny.
304 00:18:35 Well, that's whyI'm not gonna tell you.
305 00:18:37 Except you will.
306 00:18:39 Because you never would have
307 00:18:41 brought it upin the first place
308 00:18:42 if you didn't want to.
309 00:18:44 No, you want to tell me.
310 00:18:46 You want me to know so badly,you can hardly stand it.
311 00:18:48 But it's okay. I can wait.
312 00:18:56 Mmm. Mmm.
313 00:19:03 No.
314 00:19:08 No.
315 00:19:13 Mmm.
316 00:19:45 No.
317 00:19:51 Right. No red.
318 00:19:55 No red.
319 00:19:57 What about your hair,what's going on there?
320 00:19:59 We should...
321 00:20:01 We should talkabout your halo.
322 00:20:02 No halo.
323 00:20:04 At all?
324 00:20:05 I want to get backto the basics.
325 00:20:08 I mean, it doesn't getmuch more basic than that.
326 00:20:11 It's sort of your thing.
327 00:20:12 It was never meantto be my thing.
328 00:20:14 It was your thing.
329 00:20:15 That's... that's nothow I recall it.
330 00:20:18 But whatever the case,
331 00:20:19 you've donepretty well with it.
332 00:20:20 - We'll do well without it.- Will anyone recognize you
333 00:20:22 without it?
334 00:20:24 I don't know if anyoneactually truly comprehends
335 00:20:26 - the shape of your...- They hurt.
336 00:20:34 Well, that's because whoever'smaking them for you now
337 00:20:37 keeps trying to up the ante.
338 00:20:40 They're not doing it right.
339 00:20:41 I could make you a new one
340 00:20:42 - in two seconds flat...- No.
341 00:20:44 - Right. But, don't you...- I said...
342 00:20:46 Yes, I know what you said.
343 00:20:48 You don't want to wear one,
344 00:20:49 but what if I want youto wear one?
345 00:20:55 ♪ I can't believewhat I found ♪
346 00:20:59 ♪ I'm staring into the darkso powerful... ♪
347 00:21:04 ♪ My knees are pressedto the ground ♪
348 00:21:08 ♪ I'm holdin' onfor dear life ♪
349 00:21:11 ♪ It's mythical ♪
350 00:21:13 ♪ Are you there?Are you mine? ♪
351 00:21:15 ♪ Do you feel holy? ♪
352 00:21:17 ♪ Are you real or divine? ♪
353 00:21:20 ♪ Do you feel holy? ♪
354 00:21:22 ♪ Are you there?Are you mine? ♪
355 00:21:24 ♪ Do you know? ♪
356 00:21:26 ♪ Your spirit is calling me ♪
357 00:21:30 What are we doing here?
358 00:21:32 Are we reinventing you?
359 00:21:37 No.
360 00:21:41 No, I...
361 00:21:44 Just...
362 00:21:48 I... I want to be...
363 00:21:52 - Revelatory.- No. I just, like... I want...
364 00:21:57 Profundity.
365 00:21:59 Mmm, more, um...
366 00:22:03 - Authenticity.- No. It's like...
367 00:22:12 Clarity.
368 00:22:15 - Yes.- Clarity.
369 00:22:16 - So, reducing?- Yes.
370 00:22:19 - Peeling away everything...- Yes. Yes.
371 00:22:22 - ...that's accumulated.- Yes.
372 00:22:24 - Old skin.- Yes.
373 00:22:26 - Barnacles.- Yes
374 00:22:27 Dead hair.
375 00:22:28 Yes.
376 00:22:30 All the old yous.
377 00:22:32 I want to be sharp.
378 00:22:33 You want meto make you into a knife?
379 00:22:36 I want to have a point.
380 00:22:39 Got it.
381 00:22:42 If this werethe first performance
382 00:22:44 I ever gave,how would you dress me?
383 00:22:46 I did dress youfor your first performance.
384 00:22:49 If it weremy last performance?
385 00:22:50 Is that what this is?
386 00:22:53 - Maybe.- 'Cause I could make you
387 00:22:54 a funeral gown,
388 00:22:56 if that's whatyou really wanted.
389 00:22:58 I could build you a pyre
390 00:22:59 the likes of whichthe world has never seen
391 00:23:01 if that's the wayyou see things going.
392 00:23:07 I sort of do.
393 00:23:11 We are still speaking in...
394 00:23:13 abstractions, aren't we?
395 00:23:17 I think so.
396 00:23:18 Are you depressed?
397 00:23:20 - No. No.- Is this a cry for help?
398 00:23:22 So you're not planningon self-immolating
399 00:23:24 on my doorstep?
400 00:23:26 - No.- Good.
401 00:23:27 But if I did, it would bekind of a great way to go.
402 00:23:29 No, not for me. I'd be the oneto have to clean you up.
403 00:23:31 No peeking.
404 00:23:36 If it's really that bad,
405 00:23:38 just quit.
406 00:23:39 I can't quit.
407 00:23:41 Yeah, you can.
408 00:23:42 People sayquitting is for cowards,
409 00:23:44 but it's actuallyone of the bravest things
410 00:23:45 - anyone can do.- No.
411 00:23:48 I can't quit. I don't knowhow to do anything else.
412 00:23:56 I just wishI was happy doing it.
413 00:23:58 Oh, yes, I remember.
414 00:24:00 Used to be so happysinging sad songs. Well...
415 00:24:05 things are never gonnabe like that ever again.
416 00:24:09 Nevertheless...you will go on.
417 00:24:12 This won't beyour last performance ever
418 00:24:13 but it will be your best.
419 00:24:15 You will be radiant,
420 00:24:17 and transcendent.
421 00:24:19 And when you open your mouthand sing about your sadness,
422 00:24:22 it will be everyone's sadness,
423 00:24:23 and it will be writas large as the goddamn sky
424 00:24:27 because that'swhat you give people.
425 00:24:30 It's whatyou can do for people
426 00:24:32 and since they pay you for it,
427 00:24:34 it's more or less your job,so quit...
428 00:24:37 or do a good job.
429 00:24:45 See?
430 00:24:47 This is what you do.
431 00:24:50 This is why you havenothing to worry about.
432 00:24:54 You give people the giftof giving a shit about you.
433 00:24:59 I am humbledby your munificence.
434 00:25:07 Uh...
435 00:25:09 Is someone playing before you?
436 00:25:12 Yes.
437 00:25:14 Who?
438 00:25:15 Miel Contrera.
439 00:25:17 What's she sing?
440 00:25:18 - Paper Moon.- Oh, right. Yeah, I like her.
441 00:25:22 Everyone likes her.
442 00:25:24 You sound bitter.
443 00:25:27 No, I don't.
444 00:25:29 She's my friend.
445 00:25:31 - Is she?- Yes.
446 00:25:32 - We sang together at the...- Yeah.
447 00:25:34 But she was just a child then.
448 00:25:36 Now I see hereverywhere I look.
449 00:25:37 Her tits are spilling outover Soho in Givenchy.
450 00:25:40 She's successful
451 00:25:42 and I'm proud of her.
452 00:25:43 And I'm very happyto be in her company.
453 00:25:46 Good.
454 00:25:47 But?
455 00:25:49 You're going to lay wasteto her, aren't you?
456 00:25:52 - What?- Oh.
457 00:25:54 Poor girl doesn't knowwhat she's in for.
458 00:25:56 Why would you even say that?
459 00:25:58 Because it's true.
460 00:25:59 No, it's not.
461 00:26:00 Oh,it's already happened.
462 00:26:02 You don't even have to try.
463 00:26:04 This is what you do.You're always picking
464 00:26:05 - and picking and scratching...- It's part of my job.
465 00:26:08 I need to seewhat I'm meant to cover.
466 00:26:09 You mean you need to seewhat you want to find.
467 00:26:11 And if you don't find it,you put it there
468 00:26:13 because it suits youand what you want to make,
469 00:26:14 - which is why...- Which is why I'm here
470 00:26:17 - and you're there.- No.
471 00:26:18 I'm here because I wantwhat you want,
472 00:26:20 but I want you to want itfor the right reasons.
473 00:26:22 Which are?
474 00:26:23 I want youto have an open heart.
475 00:26:24 -Mmm-hmm. Mmm.- And no fear.
476 00:26:26 And what am I afraid of?
477 00:26:28 Of this.
478 00:26:30 - Me.- Yeah.
479 00:26:31 Hey,you're fucking terrifying.
480 00:26:34 This is what you do.
481 00:26:36 This is what you do whenyou don't know what to do.
482 00:26:38 This is whatyou've always done,
483 00:26:39 which is why I'm tryingto lay it all out for you.
484 00:26:42 But I asked youto lay it out for me
485 00:26:44 so that I'd know what to do.
486 00:26:47 - So, here it is.- Thank you.
487 00:26:53 Miel Contrerawill sing before me.
488 00:26:56 She will sing Paper Moon,and it'll be beautiful.
489 00:27:00 And then,
490 00:27:02 at five minutes to midnight,the lights will go down.
491 00:27:06 And I...
492 00:27:10 Mmm-hmm.
493 00:27:15 I'll do whatever it isthat I'm gonna do.
494 00:27:20 Sing your new song?
495 00:27:23 Yes.
496 00:27:25 Maybe not.
497 00:27:27 - No, I'm gonna sing it.- Oh, good.
498 00:27:30 Because you soundeduncertain there for a moment.
499 00:27:34 No, it's just...
500 00:27:37 It's not good enough yet?
501 00:27:43 You want to hear it?
502 00:27:45 The... the song?
503 00:27:46 - Yes.- No.
504 00:27:50 No. No music.
505 00:27:52 Not right now.
506 00:27:54 - Why?- Because if I did,
507 00:27:56 I'd make a dress for the song.
508 00:27:58 And you want me to makea dress for you, don't you?
509 00:28:00 So, better not to hear it.
510 00:28:05 You might like it.
511 00:28:07 Mmm, I'm in an ascetic phaseright now.
512 00:28:10 I'm trying not liking things.
513 00:28:15 Why is it calledSpooky Action anyway?
514 00:28:18 Is it about particle physics?
515 00:28:21 Large Hadron Colliders?
516 00:28:25 No. It's more like...
517 00:28:29 connections we can't explain.
518 00:28:31 And what led you to write it?
519 00:28:37 I had a connectionand I couldn't explain it.
520 00:28:41 To a person?
521 00:28:43 Maybe.
522 00:28:44 Are you being coy?
523 00:28:46 No.
524 00:28:48 And you really candance to it?
525 00:28:51 - Yes.- Hmm.
526 00:28:54 Show me.
527 00:28:57 - The dance?- Yeah.
528 00:28:59 Could you?
529 00:29:01 Honestly, it'll be good for meto see how you move
530 00:29:04 to make sureI'm accommodating.
531 00:29:11 Okay.
532 00:29:12 I'm sure you're supposed to bedrilling it anyway.
533 00:29:38 Do you have a speakeror anything I can plug into?
534 00:29:41 Yeah.
535 00:29:42 But do it without the song.
536 00:29:47 Why?
537 00:29:48 Because I told you,I don't want to hear it.
538 00:29:51 - But it's all set to the...- I'm sure you've got it down.
539 00:29:55 Why won't you just let meplay it for you?
540 00:29:57 'Cause I don't wantto break my streak.
541 00:29:59 Of what?
542 00:30:00 Of not listeningto your music.
543 00:31:44 Ooh. Okay.
544 00:31:45 - Well, I think that's...- I'm not done yet.
545 00:33:26 How on earthare you gonna sing
546 00:33:29 while you do all that?
547 00:33:33 Practice.
548 00:33:51 You know,
549 00:33:54 if you're going for...
550 00:33:56 burn-it-all-downlast-will-and-testaments,
551 00:34:01 what we should do is
552 00:34:04 we should make youa beautiful dress
553 00:34:06 that is simple and elegant,
554 00:34:07 and whatever elseit needs to be,
555 00:34:09 but attached to it...
556 00:34:12 is a train.
557 00:34:14 You know how I love...
558 00:34:18 a good train,and this one is, say,
559 00:34:20 um, just a quarter-mile long.
560 00:34:23 And maybemost people don't notice,
561 00:34:26 but a keen eye will detect
562 00:34:29 that at a certain point,the fabric of the gown fades
563 00:34:33 from one thing
564 00:34:35 into something else.
565 00:34:37 Something more familiar.
566 00:34:40 It's so seamlessyou don't even see it.
567 00:34:42 But once you do,
568 00:34:44 you realize
569 00:34:46 the entire gown is made upof every dress
570 00:34:51 you've ever
571 00:34:52 worn.
572 00:34:54 The storyof how you got to right here,
573 00:34:57 right now,
574 00:34:59 in this exact moment,
575 00:35:02 stepping out on stage,
576 00:35:03 Mother Mary......in the new millennium.
577 00:35:06 You walk...
578 00:35:08 ...down the...Where is the show?
579 00:35:09 - At the Palladium.- That's perfect. So...
580 00:35:13 Miel Contrerafinishes singing,
581 00:35:15 and it's beautifuland it's well-liked,
582 00:35:18 but now, here you come,
583 00:35:22 marching down that aisle,
584 00:35:25 marchingfrom far beyond the aisle,
585 00:35:27 from outside the theater,
586 00:35:29 coming down the street,
587 00:35:30 dragging your whole historybehind you.
588 00:35:35 The doors swing open,
589 00:35:37 and you enter the theater
590 00:35:38 and you walk upthe steps to the stage,
591 00:35:41 and when you get to the top...
592 00:35:43 What's this?
593 00:35:46 Something catches.
594 00:35:48 The train is pulled tight.
595 00:35:51 It's caughton all of your history.
596 00:35:56 And as you takeyour final step
597 00:35:59 and complete your ascension,
598 00:36:02 the entire gown,
599 00:36:04 we'll set itso it just shears away,
600 00:36:07 and there you are.
601 00:36:09 You are standing nakedunder the lights,
602 00:36:15 free of everythingyou've been carrying,
603 00:36:18 of everything that's beenweighing you down.
604 00:36:21 And, of course,the plugs will get pulled
605 00:36:23 and the broadcast would cutbut that's on them,
606 00:36:26 it's not on you.
607 00:36:27 Mmm-mmm.
608 00:36:29 You're doingwhat you were born to do.
609 00:36:32 You open your mouth
610 00:36:34 and you dance your dance.
611 00:36:38 You sing your song.
612 00:36:41 Or maybe...
613 00:36:44 you don't even do that.
614 00:36:47 Maybe you don't need to.
615 00:36:51 You don't needthe song at all,
616 00:36:55 because this...
617 00:36:58 is all about...
618 00:37:02 you.
619 00:37:12 But...
620 00:37:19 isn't that kind of...
621 00:37:27 - obvious?- No.
622 00:37:29 Mmm. This is...
623 00:37:33 clarity.
624 00:37:35 ♪ Bad conversations ♪
625 00:37:40 ♪ Cigarettes ♪
626 00:37:43 ♪ Words I don't mean ♪
627 00:37:47 ♪ Empty threats ♪
628 00:37:49 ♪ Chewing gum ♪
629 00:37:51 ♪ I'm so empty ♪
630 00:37:56 ♪ You're the one for me ♪
631 00:38:00 ♪ You see ♪
632 00:38:02 ♪ But it's been a while ♪
633 00:38:09 ♪ My mouth is lonely for you ♪
634 00:38:16 ♪ My mouth is lonely for you ♪
635 00:38:22 ♪ You ♪
636 00:38:26 ♪ My mouth ♪
637 00:38:31 ♪ My mouth is lonely for you ♪
638 00:39:50 ♪ You said go findall the things that you want ♪
639 00:39:53 ♪ Find all the thingsthat you need ♪
640 00:39:54 ♪ If you can't find them in mego find anywhere, please ♪
641 00:39:58 ♪ Unroll the mapclimb up the trees ♪
642 00:40:00 ♪ Scale the mountaindo or don't breathe ♪
643 00:40:02 ♪ But you mustfall to your knees ♪
644 00:40:04 ♪ Don't cry to the starsyou must summon the deep ♪
645 00:40:06 ♪ Lose all the peopleyou keep ♪
646 00:40:08 ♪ Lose your will to believe ♪
647 00:40:09 ♪ And once again believe ♪
648 00:40:10 ♪ And if in the endyou're not free ♪
649 00:40:12 ♪ Cut a deal, please ♪
650 00:40:13 ♪ Used to walk with you ♪
651 00:40:16 ♪ Till I sawsomething bigger ♪
652 00:40:19 ♪ I jumpedinto the flames ♪
653 00:40:21 ♪ And I shook handswith forever ♪
654 00:40:25 ♪ Had to cut ties ♪
655 00:40:30 ♪ To be star-light ♪
656 00:40:36 ♪ He blessed mewith his gaze... ♪
657 00:40:38 That was a very specificmoment in time,
658 00:40:42 wasn't it?
659 00:40:45 Why do we say that?
660 00:40:48 Every moment in timeis specific.
661 00:40:50 Yeah, but it's hard to tellone from the next. Mmm?
662 00:40:54 Every now and then, though,
663 00:40:57 something happens.
664 00:41:00 And it makes usprick up our ears
665 00:41:02 and say,"That was a moment."
666 00:41:06 And what I thinkwe're really saying...
667 00:41:09 ...is for that moment,
668 00:41:12 we were...
669 00:41:15 together.
670 00:41:19 Did you really meanwhat you said?
671 00:41:22 About what?
672 00:41:24 About not listeningto my music.
673 00:41:30 Yes.
674 00:41:32 Is it a surprise?
675 00:41:33 I don't exactly see youat the runway.
676 00:41:35 Did I really hurtyour feelings so badly?
677 00:41:38 Yeah.
678 00:41:39 And that's fine.
679 00:41:41 That's what feelings are for.
680 00:41:43 I just wish you would havetold me yourself.
681 00:41:47 Told you what?
682 00:41:48 That, um...
683 00:41:51 That Mother Mary no longerneeded me.
684 00:41:53 - I did need you.- No, you...
685 00:41:55 - And I did tell you.- You told me
686 00:41:57 by not telling me.
687 00:41:58 You told me by saying nothing
688 00:42:00 and letting everyonewho suddenly had your ear
689 00:42:02 do all the talking.
690 00:42:03 I told you I needed a change.
691 00:42:04 Yes, but you didn't tell meyou'd already made it.
692 00:42:07 By the timeI figured that out,
693 00:42:09 you'd already closed the door.
694 00:42:11 The door was always open.
695 00:42:13 No.
696 00:42:14 No, it wasn't.
697 00:42:16 No, it wasn't. It was shut
698 00:42:19 and locked.
699 00:42:20 And you werea million miles away.
700 00:42:23 And there I was...
701 00:42:25 who knew you and...
702 00:42:29 who loved you,
703 00:42:32 trying to pick up the pieces.
704 00:42:36 Except there weren'teven any pieces
705 00:42:38 'cause everything I had was...
706 00:42:41 wrapped up in you.
707 00:42:43 You never knowhow little you matter
708 00:42:46 until you realize
709 00:42:48 that everything you've done
710 00:42:49 has been in the service
711 00:42:51 of someonethe whole world loves
712 00:42:54 just as much as you.
713 00:42:59 Oh, yeah. And tell yourselfyou're doing good work.
714 00:43:03 Tell yourselfwhat you're doing counts
715 00:43:05 'cause you're the onethat's doing it,
716 00:43:06 but really, step by step,
717 00:43:09 stitch by stitch,
718 00:43:12 you're obliterating yourself.
719 00:43:20 I wanted you
720 00:43:22 to look like Joan of Arc.
721 00:43:27 When I heard you sing,
722 00:43:29 that's what I saw.
723 00:43:32 That's what I set outto design for you.
724 00:43:37 And to that,
725 00:43:39 I added bits and pieces
726 00:43:43 of me.
727 00:43:46 Silly things,
728 00:43:49 like my holy communionwhen I was seven.
729 00:43:52 Feeling like a queen
730 00:43:53 even though I'd spilled wine
731 00:43:54 all downmy beautiful white dress.
732 00:44:00 All of that
733 00:44:02 is in there.
734 00:44:05 That's my story.
735 00:44:08 And no,
736 00:44:10 I don't expect you to tell it.
737 00:44:13 But I... would have expecteda little bit credit.
738 00:44:26 - I didn't mean to cut you out.- But you did.
739 00:44:30 Yes.
740 00:44:32 I did.
741 00:44:36 - But...- What?
742 00:44:38 But I'm the onewho wore that dress,
743 00:44:42 who wore all the dresses.
744 00:44:46 I let you make
745 00:44:47 - something of me.- No. No.
746 00:44:50 - We did that together.- And...
747 00:44:52 And I liked it.
748 00:44:54 I liked it.
749 00:44:58 I liked how you saw me.
750 00:45:03 I liked how it felt...
751 00:45:07 when you dressed me.
752 00:45:09 But you were makingyour own Mother Mary,
753 00:45:13 and she...
754 00:45:14 she was beautiful.
755 00:45:17 But I'm the onewho had to go out
756 00:45:19 in front of all those people
757 00:45:21 and sing my songs
758 00:45:23 and feel them, so, yes...
759 00:45:27 ...I wanted to change for her.
760 00:45:31 But I was never done with us.
761 00:45:34 You closed that door.
762 00:45:35 No, there was never a doorat all until you opened it.
763 00:45:38 The door doesn't exist.
764 00:45:39 These metaphorsare exhausting.
765 00:45:45 You went somewhere...
766 00:45:47 - I couldn't follow.- Yes, but you had all this.
767 00:45:50 Yeah, I had to build thisso I had something.
768 00:45:52 But that's good, isn't it?
769 00:45:53 Yeah.
770 00:45:55 Except that it took mehating you to do it.
771 00:46:05 Uh-uh.
772 00:46:24 You can't really hate me.
773 00:46:25 Oh, yes, I can.
774 00:46:27 It's very easyto flip that switch.
775 00:46:30 Is that what we're doing here?
776 00:46:32 You're making me a hate-dress?
777 00:46:34 Maybe.
778 00:46:36 Maybe.
779 00:46:37 So what do we have to doto flip that switch back?
780 00:46:40 I don't know. Maybe we can't,maybe it's a one-time thing.
781 00:46:42 No.
782 00:46:44 You already have.
783 00:46:45 You wouldn't let mein the door otherwise.
784 00:46:47 The real dooror the metaphorical one?
785 00:46:50 - Your front door.- Oh.
786 00:46:51 Well... I didn't let you in.
787 00:46:55 Hilda did.
788 00:46:56 And why do I have to bethe one to open the door
789 00:46:59 or flip a switch or whatever?
790 00:47:03 Can't you do it?
791 00:47:07 Can't you do the work?
792 00:47:10 Make me love you again.
793 00:47:14 Can you let me try?
794 00:47:17 Can you stop putting up walls?
795 00:47:19 Can you let me playthis fucking song?
796 00:47:22 Oh, you can't doanything else?
797 00:47:24 I don't have anything else.
798 00:47:26 What else is there?
799 00:47:28 I can... send you flowers,
800 00:47:30 I can write you a note,or I can buy you a house,
801 00:47:32 or I can sing you a song.That's it.
802 00:47:40 That's all I got.
803 00:47:45 Well, I could dowith a new house.
804 00:47:47 This one's falling apart.
805 00:47:50 Pick one outand send me the listing.
806 00:47:52 Oh, you know, I thinkI'll pay for it myself.
807 00:47:54 Thank you very much.
808 00:47:56 You see, the problem is,
809 00:47:58 and it's not a problem,
810 00:48:01 but the problem is...
811 00:48:04 I am very stubborn.
812 00:48:09 Clearly.
813 00:48:11 And I don't...
814 00:48:13 I'm no goodat changing on the spot.
815 00:48:18 I'm not...
816 00:48:20 like you.
817 00:48:23 I can't be what other peoplewant me to be
818 00:48:25 at the drop of a hat.
819 00:48:27 Good.
820 00:48:30 Because it wears you down.
821 00:48:31 And I've been getting onquite well without you.
822 00:48:34 If I hear you on the radio,I change the channel.
823 00:48:37 If I see you on the telly,I just turn it off.
824 00:48:41 All or nothing.
825 00:48:44 All or nothing.
826 00:48:48 Everyone else needs you.
827 00:48:51 I don't.
828 00:48:58 Would you like to knowwhat happened
829 00:49:00 the last timeI heard you sing?
830 00:49:03 Sure.
831 00:49:04 It's gonna soundlike another metaphor,
832 00:49:06 even though it's not.
833 00:49:08 Okay.
834 00:49:11 Do you rememberwhen you played in Hyde Park
835 00:49:15 at the beginningof your Ecstatic Tour?
836 00:49:19 - Yeah.- I was there.
837 00:49:22 Front row.
838 00:49:35 I wonderedif you'd spot me,
839 00:49:37 but... you never did.
840 00:49:41 Or if you did,you didn't let on.
841 00:49:44 And now I'm letting on now
842 00:49:47 you were amazing.
843 00:49:50 The whole crowd was crying.
844 00:49:54 You were crying.
845 00:49:56 And I was crying,
846 00:49:58 but for a different reason.
847 00:50:01 Because I was seeingsomething beautiful
848 00:50:04 that I had once been a part of
849 00:50:06 and... never would be again.
850 00:50:11 You were radiant.
851 00:50:14 I was miserable.
852 00:50:18 And by and by,
853 00:50:19 that misery resolvedinto a very sharp pain
854 00:50:24 in my upper mandible.
855 00:50:27 My jaws were clenched so tight
856 00:50:30 that my top left wisdom toothcracked wide open,
857 00:50:34 and the pain that it gave me
858 00:50:37 was pure
859 00:50:40 and sharp.
860 00:50:43 And I could think of no wayto describe it other than you.
861 00:50:54 Oh, it was you.
862 00:50:56 And I had to cut you out.
863 00:51:02 So I fled.
864 00:51:06 Before the encore.
865 00:51:08 Before you played Holy Spirit,
866 00:51:10 the one song I thoughtmight make me feel better.
867 00:51:15 Mary! Mary!
868 00:51:18 I ran home,
869 00:51:20 grabbed some pliers,
870 00:51:23 and...
871 00:51:35 See?
872 00:51:39 All gone.
873 00:51:42 Jesus!
874 00:51:43 I'm only exaggerating.
875 00:51:47 I went to the dentist.
876 00:51:49 Yeah, they put me under,
877 00:51:52 and when I woke upin the chair,
878 00:51:55 my tooth was gone.
879 00:51:59 And the anesthesiawas wearing off,
880 00:52:03 and I felt very sad.
881 00:52:06 Like I was...
882 00:52:08 in the midst of saying goodbyeto something dear.
883 00:52:12 You know, when I was little,
884 00:52:15 and we'd move,
885 00:52:18 and I'd feel myselfbeing pulled away from a house
886 00:52:23 I'd made time to love.
887 00:52:30 Hmm.
888 00:52:34 Now...
889 00:52:37 this is where it gets
890 00:52:39 strange.
891 00:52:41 That night,
892 00:52:45 I had a visitor.
893 00:52:48 I woke up very suddenly
894 00:52:49 to find that my gumswere bleeding again.
895 00:52:53 There was blood all over.
896 00:52:56 There was a little trailof it, in fact,
897 00:52:59 streaked across the duvet.
898 00:53:02 It was like something hadcrawled out of my mouth,
899 00:53:06 across the bedspread,
900 00:53:08 down onto the floor.
901 00:53:11 Now...
902 00:53:13 I've always beenopen to ghosts.
903 00:53:15 If any house was haunted,you'd think it'd be this one,
904 00:53:17 but I haven't seen one before.
905 00:53:20 Until now.
906 00:53:22 And I can saywithout a doubt,
907 00:53:24 there was a ghostat the foot of my bed.
908 00:53:31 What did it look like?
909 00:53:33 I couldn't say.
910 00:53:35 She was likesix different things at once.
911 00:53:39 "She"?
912 00:53:40 Yes. She was a she.
913 00:53:44 I think.
914 00:53:46 Or maybe the idea of a "she."
915 00:53:51 And she was red.
916 00:53:54 Not red like a color.
917 00:53:56 More like...
918 00:53:59 red like a feeling.
919 00:54:09 Oh, and she wasthe most beautiful thing.
920 00:54:16 I couldn't let her stay.
921 00:54:21 So I opened the door,
922 00:54:24 and I watched her go,
923 00:54:29 down the hallway,
924 00:54:32 out the house,
925 00:54:35 into the woods,
926 00:54:37 a smudge of red in the dark.
927 00:54:42 Oh, and with her goesthe pain in my mouth,
928 00:54:48 the knot in my stomach,
929 00:54:52 and the hole in my heart.
930 00:54:58 And after that I stoppedlistening to your music.
931 00:55:04 I stopped thinking about you.
932 00:55:07 I stopped dreaming about you.
933 00:55:10 And everything's been betterever since.
934 00:55:17 Where did she go?
935 00:55:19 Oh.
936 00:55:22 Oh, I don't know.
937 00:55:24 Where do ghosts go
938 00:55:25 when you don'tneed 'em anymore?
939 00:55:28 That's where.
940 00:55:29 But are you saying thatthis is just another metaphor?
941 00:55:32 Did you really see something?
942 00:55:34 Look, I'm not sayingthat I saw the spirit
943 00:55:37 of somerecently deceased individual
944 00:55:39 or that my houseis haunted by an ancestor.
945 00:55:44 If someone else...
946 00:55:45 If Hilda, say, had been there,would she have seen it?
947 00:55:49 Probably not.
948 00:55:51 But I did.
949 00:55:54 Whatever neuronsin my head differentiate
950 00:55:56 between imaginationand perception
951 00:55:58 tell me that I did.
952 00:56:00 And if you wereto ask me why I did,
953 00:56:05 I would saybecause I needed to.
954 00:56:09 Perhaps I manifested her.
955 00:56:11 Perhaps she wasmy subconscious,
956 00:56:15 sending me a message
957 00:56:16 in the only wayit knew I would listen.
958 00:56:20 Perhaps she was a ghost.
959 00:56:23 Yeah.
960 00:56:27 But she was my ghost.
961 00:56:31 Except...
962 00:56:33 I think I saw her too.
963 00:56:37 You saw what?
964 00:56:38 Your ghost.
965 00:56:41 - I saw her.- I was being serious.
966 00:56:43 So am I.
967 00:56:44 So what?
968 00:56:47 You can't even let mehave my own ghost story?
969 00:56:50 No. No, it is yours.
970 00:56:52 It is, but I thinkI might be a part of it.
971 00:56:55 You're making me feel
972 00:56:57 - very foolish.- I promise I don't mean to.
973 00:56:59 I saw what you saw.
974 00:57:02 I saw a ghost or a spiritand she was red.
975 00:57:08 And when was this?
976 00:57:10 - The first time was...- Ooh. "The first time"?
977 00:57:15 The first time was in Dublin.
978 00:57:19 96th stop of the tour.
979 00:57:21 I was so worn out, but...
980 00:57:26 it was my birthday.
981 00:57:31 And I wanted to dosomething special.
982 00:57:40 I love you, Dublin!
983 00:57:42 Goodnight!
984 00:58:09 - Thank you.-Here, here, here.
985 00:58:11 I've got it. I've got it.I've got it.
986 00:58:12 Careful.
987 00:58:16 How does this keep happening?
988 00:58:19 Oh, shit. Um,
989 00:58:20 - there's blood on your...- Huh?
990 00:58:22 -Hey, MM!- Blood...
991 00:58:23 - Oh, um, yeah.-Look who I found!
992 00:58:26 Ooh.
993 00:58:27 Oh, my gosh!
994 00:58:29 - Are you...- Hi.
995 00:58:30 - Hi! Hi, hi, hi!- I'm Imogen. Hi.
996 00:58:33 Happy birthday.
997 00:58:35 Thank you. Thank you. Yes.
998 00:58:37 - So nice to meet you.- So nice to meet you.
999 00:58:38 Yes. Oh, my gosh.We are so excited for tonight.
1000 00:58:41 - Me too.- Everyone says
1001 00:58:42 you are very special.
1002 00:58:44 - Well, that sounds very kind.- Okay.
1003 00:58:46 She was satin the regular seat,
1004 00:58:47 that's why PJ couldn'tfind her.
1005 00:58:48 - Ah.-How long did you say
1006 00:58:49 - you waited in line?-Oh?
1007 00:58:51 Only two hours.But it's fine. I had fun.
1008 00:58:54 - I met people.- I'm so sorry.
1009 00:58:56 Yeah. Okay.
1010 00:58:57 - I like meeting people.- Thank you.
1011 00:58:59 Oh, well, now you're hereand you're with us.
1012 00:59:02 Did you like the show?
1013 00:59:04 - Oh, it was incredible.-Mmm.
1014 00:59:05 It was like,like a religious experience
1015 00:59:08 or like going to church,
1016 00:59:10 - but in a good way.- Yeah.
1017 00:59:13 And at the same time,all I could think is
1018 00:59:16 when you havethat many people...
1019 00:59:18 - Yeah.- How many people were there?
1020 00:59:20 Uh, 18,210.
1021 00:59:23 There were even morein New York.
1022 00:59:25 And they're all there,
1023 00:59:27 all at once,putting out all that energy,
1024 00:59:31 all of those ups and downs,
1025 00:59:33 and all of it islaser-focused right at you.
1026 00:59:39 Mmm. It's intense.
1027 00:59:42 How do you handle that?
1028 00:59:44 You don't.
1029 00:59:46 Uh, I mean, you do.
1030 00:59:48 But you just...
1031 00:59:49 You sort of, um,
1032 00:59:51 take it
1033 00:59:53 and...
1034 01:00:00 Yes, but...
1035 01:00:03 what does it do to you?
1036 01:00:08 It's like the same, same thing
1037 01:00:10 over and over againin circles.
1038 01:00:14 Sounds like shit.
1039 01:00:15 Don't askwhy he chose me, but he did.
1040 01:00:17 But you have seenghosts here before, right?
1041 01:00:19 Ah, yes.
1042 01:00:21 There are spirits here
1043 01:00:23 and I've met most of them.
1044 01:00:24 But the walls hereare very thin.
1045 01:00:27 You never knowwho might come knocking.
1046 01:00:29 Now, can somebodyget the lights?
1047 01:00:32 Do ghosts really need the dark
1048 01:00:34 or is it justto make it spookier?
1049 01:00:36 Oh, it's not for them.
1050 01:00:38 They're already here.
1051 01:00:40 We're the onesthat are opening up to them.
1052 01:00:58 What does that mean?
1053 01:00:59 What does that mean?
1054 01:01:00 It means
1055 01:01:01 - reveal yourselves.- Reveal yourselves.
1056 01:01:03 -We mean you no harm.- We mean you no harm.
1057 01:01:06 Can I say it too?
1058 01:01:08 Yeah, sure.
1059 01:01:10 How does it go again?
1060 01:01:55 No. No.
1061 01:01:56 Sorry, sorry. That was me.
1062 01:01:58 - Fuck you.- Oh, my God.
1063 01:01:59 I slipped. I slipped.I'm sorry.
1064 01:02:01 I hate this.
1065 01:02:02 I hate everything about this,Emily. Really?
1066 01:02:05 Shh.
1067 01:02:08 Wait, wait, wait.
1068 01:02:10 What is it?
1069 01:02:14 Is someone here?
1070 01:02:16 Do you feel it?
1071 01:02:18 I feel nothing.
1072 01:02:20 What are we supposed to feel?
1073 01:02:23 She's not from here.
1074 01:02:26 "She"?
1075 01:02:28 She's from somewhere...
1076 01:02:33 far away.
1077 01:02:39 But she's very nearly here.
1078 01:02:43 Who are we talking about now?
1079 01:02:46 Who is she?
1080 01:02:49 Do you know?
1081 01:02:52 No.
1082 01:02:58 No.
1083 01:03:05 - No.- No.
1084 01:03:07 Okay, we should...Maybe this is just...
1085 01:03:08 - It's not real.- She's just fucking with us.
1086 01:03:10 No, she isn't.
1087 01:03:15 Imogen...
1088 01:03:18 What do you wantto tell us?
1089 01:03:21 Do you have a message? Or...
1090 01:03:25 What do you want us to know?
1091 01:03:30 We're here for you.
1092 01:03:38 I'm here for you.
1093 01:03:44 I've been...
1094 01:03:47 looking...
1095 01:03:49 for you,
1096 01:03:51 my dearest one.
1097 01:03:57 I've come so far.
1098 01:04:04 I've traveled
1099 01:04:06 across land and sea.
1100 01:04:30 - My feet are bleeding.-...bleeding.
1101 01:04:37 My bones...
1102 01:04:39 -Ache.- ...ache.
1103 01:04:41 My head...
1104 01:04:43 My head is heavy.
1105 01:04:51 - See...-See...
1106 01:04:53 in my hair...
1107 01:04:56 - a braid made of woe.-A braid made of woe.
1108 01:05:01 See all your sorrows
1109 01:05:06 - hang over my shoulders.-Hang over my shoulders.
1110 01:05:09 - And all of their kin...- And all of their kin...
1111 01:05:12 - ...bite at my heels.- ...bite at my heels.
1112 01:05:35 But soon...
1113 01:05:39 soon my journeywill see me through.
1114 01:05:45 And I will rest
1115 01:05:48 on a bed spun of gold.
1116 01:06:02 For you...
1117 01:06:05 are finally at hand.
1118 01:06:15 Listen.
1119 01:06:19 Do you hear me?
1120 01:06:25 Do you...
1121 01:06:29 feel me?
1122 01:06:35 Now...
1123 01:06:38 you must open the door
1124 01:06:44 and let my love...
1125 01:06:53 in.
1126 01:07:00 She stabbed you.
1127 01:07:04 No.
1128 01:07:10 She opened a door.
1129 01:07:18 Everything was a blurafter that.
1130 01:07:21 They bandaged me up.
1131 01:07:25 Security did their rounds,
1132 01:07:28 and eventually everyone elsewent to bed.
1133 01:07:35 I wanted to go to sleep too.
1134 01:07:38 I wanted to.
1135 01:07:41 I wanted to so badly.
1136 01:07:48 But I couldn't.
1137 01:07:53 Those words kept runningthrough my mind.
1138 01:07:58 She was very nearly here.
1139 01:08:03 She was very nearly here.
1140 01:08:07 She was very nearly here.
1141 01:08:11 She was very nearly here.
1142 01:08:15 And then she was...
1143 01:09:43 So I run.
1144 01:10:15 Someone asks meif I want to stop,
1145 01:10:17 but I say no.
1146 01:10:20 Hmm?
1147 01:10:21 I keep going.
1148 01:10:24 I sing my songs.
1149 01:10:27 This is what I do.This is what I do.
1150 01:10:32 This is what I do.
1151 01:10:39 This is what I do.This is what I do.
1152 01:10:42 This is what I do.This is what I do. This is...
1153 01:14:24 ♪ You got that cold feeling ♪
1154 01:14:29 ♪ Your sacred heart's blue ♪
1155 01:14:34 ♪ Do you knowwhat to pray for anymore? ♪
1156 01:14:40 ♪ Or if you canmake it through? ♪
1157 01:14:47 ♪ But me ♪
1158 01:14:51 ♪ I was raised up to believe ♪
1159 01:14:57 ♪ You could fill a cathedralwith what I thought was true ♪
1160 01:15:04 ♪ Those churchesall came crashing down ♪
1161 01:15:10 ♪ As they do ♪
1162 01:15:13 ♪ So now ♪
1163 01:15:22 ♪ I believe in you ♪
1164 01:15:28 ♪ Did you ever feelyou're holy? ♪
1165 01:15:31 ♪ Did you ever feel it?Did you ever feel it? ♪
1166 01:15:33 ♪ Did you ever feelyou're holy? ♪
1167 01:15:36 ♪ Did you ever feel it? ♪
1168 01:15:38 ♪ Did you ever feel the signof your mind ♪
1169 01:15:40 ♪ Could matchthe prayer of your lips ♪
1170 01:15:41 ♪ Lord forgiveour wasted time ♪
1171 01:15:43 ♪ Did you ever feel it? ♪
1172 01:15:44 ♪ Did you ever feelthe sway of my hips ♪
1173 01:15:46 ♪ The press of my fingertips ♪
1174 01:15:47 ♪ No, I ain't gonnawin this fight ♪
1175 01:15:49 ♪ Did you ever feel it? ♪
1176 01:15:50 ♪ Babe, I spent my whole lifePraying for my whole life ♪
1177 01:15:52 ♪ I've never feltlike this before ♪
1178 01:15:55 ♪ Babe, I spent my whole lifePraying for my whole life ♪
1179 01:15:58 ♪ I've never kneltlike this before ♪
1180 01:16:01 ♪ Did you ever feelyou're holy? ♪
1181 01:16:04 ♪ Did you ever feel it?Did you ever feel it? ♪
1182 01:16:07 ♪ Did you ever feelyou're holy? ♪
1183 01:16:10 ♪ Did you ever feel it? ♪
1184 01:16:11 ♪ So, come on, babyPut your spirit in me ♪
1185 01:16:14 ♪ Tongue the fire in meRip me open, let me breathe ♪
1186 01:16:17 ♪ Come on, babyPut that heart into mine ♪
1187 01:16:19 ♪ Press your knees into mine ♪
1188 01:16:21 ♪ Press my needsinto the ground ♪
1189 01:16:33 ♪ Did you ever feelyou're holy? ♪
1190 01:16:36 ♪ Did you ever feel it?Did you ever feel it? ♪
1191 01:16:38 ♪ Did you ever feelyou're holy? ♪
1192 01:16:41 ♪ Did you ever feel it?Did you ever feel it? ♪
1193 01:16:48 ♪ My sacred heart'sbeen feelin' blue ♪
1194 01:16:55 ♪ Should I have faithin anything? ♪
1195 01:17:00 ♪ Oh, I'll cut myselfto make some room ♪
1196 01:17:05 ♪ And let out allthat wasn't you ♪
1197 01:17:11 I've watchedthe videos of that night
1198 01:17:15 a hundred times.
1199 01:17:18 Thousands of camerasall see the same thing.
1200 01:17:23 I know she wasn'treally there.
1201 01:17:29 But I also know what I saw.
1202 01:17:32 And I think somehow...
1203 01:17:38 all those things are true.
1204 01:18:40 Where is she now?
1205 01:18:56 And I can't sleep.
1206 01:18:59 I can't heal.
1207 01:19:06 I'm on...
1208 01:19:09 who knows how many pills.
1209 01:19:16 And every minute
1210 01:19:19 of every day...
1211 01:19:23 I feel her...
1212 01:19:26 inside me.
1213 01:19:32 She's always there, like...
1214 01:19:37 a cloud or...
1215 01:19:41 a stone.
1216 01:19:44 And I don't know.I think, like...
1217 01:19:50 maybe I'm supposedto keep her there.
1218 01:19:54 Like...
1219 01:19:58 Like, that'swhat I have to do.
1220 01:20:00 That's my job now.
1221 01:20:11 But I don't knowhow much longer I can do it.
1222 01:20:35 Do you believe me?
1223 01:20:45 How far is itfrom London to Dublin?
1224 01:20:51 Five, six hundred kilometers?
1225 01:20:55 How long would it taketo walk that far...
1226 01:20:59 for a person?
1227 01:21:00 You'd have to cross the sea.
1228 01:21:02 I suppose the sea wouldslow you down.
1229 01:21:08 And how long was it
1230 01:21:10 from the time you playedin Hyde Park
1231 01:21:12 until your 97th show?
1232 01:21:16 Four years?
1233 01:21:23 Hmm?
1234 01:21:35 I can't reada single one of these.
1235 01:21:39 Mmm-mmm.None of them seem right.
1236 01:21:44 Mmm.
1237 01:21:54 Let's double-check.
1238 01:22:17 How long havewe known each other?
1239 01:22:23 Twenty-four...
1240 01:22:25 Twenty-five years?
1241 01:22:30 That number seems so small...
1242 01:22:33 when you say it.
1243 01:22:38 So...
1244 01:22:41 let's say there is somethinginside of you.
1245 01:22:45 It came from somewhere
1246 01:22:47 and traveled across oceansto find you.
1247 01:22:52 And maybe...
1248 01:22:54 that somewhere...
1249 01:22:57 was me.
1250 01:23:09 But if that's true,
1251 01:23:13 it also stands to reason...
1252 01:23:19 that all these...
1253 01:23:21 coming and goings...
1254 01:23:25 are just how our little minds
1255 01:23:29 process the ebb and flow
1256 01:23:34 of somethingthat's always been there.
1257 01:23:46 Maybe...
1258 01:23:50 we came...
1259 01:23:53 to it.
1260 01:23:56 And you think...
1261 01:23:58 you need to hold it close...
1262 01:24:03 and keep it inside.
1263 01:24:07 But not me.
1264 01:24:14 I want her out.
1265 01:24:18 So let's stop.
1266 01:24:27 Let's cast her out.
1267 01:24:37 How?
1268 01:24:38 It can't be that hard.
1269 01:24:40 We've seen enough films.
1270 01:24:50 No. I don't like this.
1271 01:24:52 There is nothingto be scared of.
1272 01:24:55 We'll stopif it gets dangerous.
1273 01:25:00 I just...
1274 01:25:04 I just wanna...
1275 01:25:06 I just wanna work on my dress.
1276 01:25:07 That's what I came here for.
1277 01:25:08 This is working on the dress.
1278 01:25:11 Because you wantthe dress to look like you,
1279 01:25:15 and this is a partof who you are right now.
1280 01:25:18 This spirit,
1281 01:25:21 this woman in red,
1282 01:25:22 she's who you wroteyour song about, isn't she?
1283 01:25:28 - Yes.- So...
1284 01:25:31 let's make the dressabout her, too.
1285 01:25:36 Let's see...
1286 01:25:38 what she wants to tell us.
1287 01:25:41 Now, do we need three of us?Should I call Hilda?
1288 01:25:44 - No.- No, no, you're right.
1289 01:25:46 The two of us must bethe ones to do it.
1290 01:25:49 I don't want to.
1291 01:25:52 You said I needto open my heart.
1292 01:25:55 So here I am,
1293 01:25:58 opening it
1294 01:26:00 as far as I can.
1295 01:26:02 And I say to you, my friend...
1296 01:26:06 ...we are going to do this.
1297 01:26:37 What's all that?
1298 01:26:39 Offerings, totems.
1299 01:26:42 Things to focus our energy.
1300 01:26:45 There is nothing magicalabout any one object
1301 01:26:47 other than what we bringto it.
1302 01:26:50 In fact,there is no true meaning
1303 01:26:52 to any object at allwithout our prescription.
1304 01:26:55 So...
1305 01:26:58 these shears are not shears.
1306 01:27:01 They're a key
1307 01:27:03 to open whatever doorswe may come to.
1308 01:27:07 And this, this is a chain
1309 01:27:11 to bind usto whomever we meet.
1310 01:27:15 And this...
1311 01:27:19 this is a sword
1312 01:27:21 for protection.
1313 01:27:26 Hmm.
1314 01:27:45 And this...
1315 01:27:48 is the oil...
1316 01:27:52 with which...
1317 01:27:55 we will anoint ourselves...
1318 01:27:58 as we await...
1319 01:28:01 the day...
1320 01:28:04 of our Pentecost.
1321 01:28:38 Why are you doing this?
1322 01:28:41 I'm not doing anything.
1323 01:28:45 We are doing this.
1324 01:28:48 Because if we don't,
1325 01:28:50 we'll regret it forever.
1326 01:28:54 When are you and I ever gonnabe in the same room again
1327 01:28:57 after all this is done?
1328 01:29:01 You'll take your dress
1329 01:29:03 and you'll go away,
1330 01:29:05 and I'll be here,
1331 01:29:08 haunting my own house,
1332 01:29:12 all alone.
1333 01:29:15 We have to do this nowwhile we can.
1334 01:29:20 Now...
1335 01:29:21 ...what was that spellyou chanted?
1336 01:29:40 Oh,a rose is a rose is a rose.
1337 01:29:42 Just give me your hands.
1338 01:29:45 Yes.
1339 01:29:49 Close your eyes
1340 01:29:51 and breathe with me.
1341 01:29:57 And out.
1342 01:30:02 Breathe.
1343 01:30:07 Breathe.
1344 01:30:13 Breathe.
1345 01:30:18 Breathe.
1346 01:30:52 Spirit...
1347 01:30:55 if you're here,
1348 01:30:57 give us something.
1349 01:31:01 Give us a sign.
1350 01:31:08 Spirit...
1351 01:31:12 if you are with us...
1352 01:31:16 know you are welcome...
1353 01:31:20 and well-loved.
1354 01:31:23 Spirit...
1355 01:31:26 if you are here,
1356 01:31:29 know that you have a home,but it is not within us.
1357 01:31:33 We cannot be your respite.
1358 01:31:37 Our house is full,
1359 01:31:40 so let my voice be your light
1360 01:31:44 as you make your waytowards the door.
1361 01:31:53 Listen, as I namethe rungs of your ladder.
1362 01:31:59 Come On & On.
1363 01:32:02 Mother Mary.
1364 01:32:06 Magnificat.
1365 01:32:10 Abashed The Devil.
1366 01:32:15 Poor Thing.
1367 01:32:19 Cut Me Out.
1368 01:32:23 Exhalation.
1369 01:32:28 The Greatest Hitsfrom the years of Our Lord
1370 01:32:31 2003 to 2015.
1371 01:32:37 The Third Mary.
1372 01:32:53 Past that...
1373 01:32:54 is the door.
1374 01:32:57 And it is open.
1375 01:32:59 And the world outside...
1376 01:33:04 is brighter...
1377 01:33:06 and more beautiful than ever.
1378 01:33:12 So come out.
1379 01:33:14 Out.
1380 01:33:16 Out.
1381 01:33:19 Out.
1382 01:33:21 Out.
1383 01:33:22 Sam.
1384 01:33:24 Out.
1385 01:33:26 Sam.
1386 01:33:28 Out.
1387 01:33:29 Sam, she can't hear you.
1388 01:33:31 She can. Just listen.
1389 01:33:33 - Out. This is going to work.- Sam.
1390 01:33:36 - Out.- Sam.
1391 01:33:37 Clear your mind.
1392 01:33:39 - She's coming.- Sam.
1393 01:33:41 - She's coming.- You forgot something.
1394 01:33:44 What?
1395 01:33:49 She needs a way out.
1396 01:34:23 Now what?
1397 01:34:25 I don't know.
1398 01:34:27 Maybe she needs more.
1399 01:34:37 A key...
1400 01:34:39 to open the door.
1401 01:37:57 Jesus fucking Christ.
1402 01:39:44 Hey.
1403 01:39:47 Get some rest, huh?
1404 01:39:50 Get a nice bit of sleep
1405 01:39:52 and when you wake up,
1406 01:39:54 I might just have somethingto show you.
1407 01:39:57 You will.
1408 01:40:00 And it'll be perfect.
1409 01:40:40 What's the time?
1410 01:40:42 Almost 12:00.
1411 01:40:45 Tell me what's happening.
1412 01:40:48 Well...
1413 01:40:50 right about now,
1414 01:40:52 Miel Contrera is probablyfinishing Paper Moon.
1415 01:41:00 She's waving goodnightto the audience.
1416 01:41:04 - What time is it?-Darkness is falling.
1417 01:41:06 All right, it's six minutesto midnight, everyone.
1418 01:41:15 But then there's a light.
1419 01:41:19 Not on the stage, but...
1420 01:41:21 from the back of the theater.
1421 01:41:24 Everyone turns to look.
1422 01:41:27 There she is.
1423 01:41:30 Mother Mary.
1424 01:41:33 Shining bright.
1425 01:41:36 She's coming down the aisle.
1426 01:41:39 She's coming from far beyondthe aisle.
1427 01:41:44 From across the ocean.
1428 01:41:47 From another world.
1429 01:41:50 Now she's taking the stage.
1430 01:41:53 The light's in her eyes,it's too bright.
1431 01:41:57 She looksto the audience and...
1432 01:42:00 she says,
1433 01:42:02 "I've missed you all so much.It's so good to be back."
1434 01:42:08 But what she really wantsto say is...
1435 01:42:14 What she really meansto say is...
1436 01:42:18 What she's saying is...
1437 01:42:22 "This song isn't for you.
1438 01:42:34 "It's for you."
1439 01:42:53 - Hey, what the fuck?- Wait, wait, wait, wait.
1440 01:42:56 What is she doing?
1441 01:43:13 And then she closes her eyes,
1442 01:43:16 at five minutes to midnight.
1443 01:43:20 She opens her mouth.
1444 01:43:22 - She's gonna sing the song.- She's gonna sing her song.
1445 01:43:25 She's gonna sing her song.
1446 01:43:26 And she sings your song.
1447 01:43:33 And it's the greatest songin the history of songs.
1448 01:44:08 Hey, Sam?
1449 01:44:10 Yes?
1450 01:44:14 I'm sorry.
1451 01:44:17 I'm sorry.
1452 01:44:19 I'm sorry.
1453 01:44:42 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪
1454 01:44:45 ♪ Everybody has a true angel ♪
1455 01:44:48 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪
1456 01:44:51 ♪ Everybodyhas a dark cradle ♪
1457 01:44:53 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪
1458 01:44:57 ♪ Everybody has a secret ♪
1459 01:45:00 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪
1460 01:45:02 ♪ Everybodyhas a dark cradle ♪
1461 01:45:20 ♪ Everybody hurts ♪
1462 01:45:23 ♪ Everybody crawls ♪
1463 01:45:26 ♪ Every heart will twist kneesto the stone ♪
1464 01:45:29 ♪ Dark eyes will cry ♪
1465 01:45:32 ♪ Everybody aches ♪
1466 01:45:35 ♪ Everybody writhes ♪
1467 01:45:38 ♪ Every wrist is blessed ♪
1468 01:45:40 ♪ Behind a back, then tied ♪
1469 01:45:42 ♪ We can never stopthe clocks on time ♪
1470 01:45:45 ♪ History is rooteddeep inside us ♪
1471 01:45:48 ♪ Intertwined together ♪
1472 01:45:51 ♪ Pass the bladeand make the sacrifice ♪
1473 01:45:54 ♪ Now I got the tasteof blood in my mouth ♪
1474 01:45:57 ♪ Hate the way you cut me ♪
1475 01:45:58 ♪ But I ain't gonnaspit you out ♪
1476 01:46:00 ♪ I've been runningbut I fall to the ground ♪
1477 01:46:02 ♪ We go round and round ♪
1478 01:46:04 ♪ And roundand round and round ♪
1479 01:46:06 ♪ Now I got the tasteof blood in my mouth ♪
1480 01:46:09 ♪ Kiss me like you love me ♪
1481 01:46:10 ♪ While you're pulling medeeper down ♪
1482 01:46:12 ♪ Tied together hereforever we're bound ♪
1483 01:46:14 ♪ We go round ♪
1484 01:46:15 ♪ And round and roundand round and round ♪
1485 01:46:20 ♪ Every tired cry ♪
1486 01:46:23 ♪ Every wild desire ♪
1487 01:46:26 ♪ Every moment feelsso brutal ♪
1488 01:46:29 ♪ When it's you and I ♪
1489 01:46:32 ♪ My whole body aches ♪
1490 01:46:35 ♪ Every single time ♪
1491 01:46:38 ♪ Every broken dancewe do brings me to life ♪
1492 01:46:42 ♪ We can never stopthe clocks on time ♪
1493 01:46:45 ♪ History is rooteddeep inside us ♪
1494 01:46:49 ♪ Intertwined together ♪
1495 01:46:51 ♪ Pass the bladeand make the sacrifice ♪
1496 01:46:54 ♪ Now I got the tasteof blood in my mouth ♪
1497 01:46:57 ♪ Hate the way you cut me ♪
1498 01:46:58 ♪ But I ain't gonnaspit you out ♪
1499 01:47:00 ♪ I've been runningbut I fall to the ground ♪
1500 01:47:02 ♪ We go round and round ♪
1501 01:47:04 ♪ And roundand round and round ♪
1502 01:47:06 ♪ Now I got the tasteof blood in my mouth ♪
1503 01:47:09 ♪ Kiss me like you love me ♪
1504 01:47:10 ♪ While you're pulling medeeper down ♪
1505 01:47:12 ♪ Tied together hereforever we're bound ♪
1506 01:47:14 ♪ We go round and round ♪
1507 01:47:16 ♪ And roundand round and round ♪
1508 01:47:18 ♪ All of the power in meleads to the power in you ♪
1509 01:47:30 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪
1510 01:47:33 ♪ Everybody has a true angel ♪
1511 01:47:36 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪
1512 01:47:39 ♪ Everybodyhas a dark cradle ♪
1513 01:47:42 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪
1514 01:47:45 ♪ Everybody has a true angel ♪
1515 01:47:48 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪
1516 01:47:51 ♪ Everybodyhas a dark cradle ♪
1517 01:47:54 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪
1518 01:47:57 ♪ Everybody has a secret ♪
1519 01:48:00 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪
1520 01:48:03 ♪ Everybodyhas a dark cradle ♪
1521 01:48:06 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪
1522 01:48:09 ♪ Everybody has a true angel ♪
1523 01:48:12 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪
1524 01:48:15 ♪ Everybodyhas a dark cradle ♪
1525 01:48:33 ♪ Blue flame ♪
1526 01:48:35 ♪ Is burning out ♪
1527 01:48:38 ♪ She's reaching out ♪
1528 01:48:44 ♪ Your name ♪
1529 01:48:46 ♪ Was in my mouth ♪
1530 01:48:49 ♪ She took it out ♪
1531 01:48:55 ♪ Blue flame ♪
1532 01:48:57 ♪ Is burning out ♪
1533 01:48:59 ♪ She's reaching out ♪
1534 01:49:05 ♪ Your name ♪
1535 01:49:08 ♪ Was in my mouth ♪
1536 01:49:10 ♪ She took it out ♪
1537 01:49:15 ♪ Don't speak ♪
1538 01:49:18 ♪ Look at us now ♪
1539 01:49:21 ♪ Beautiful sounds ♪
1540 01:49:23 ♪ Above the ground ♪
1541 01:49:25 ♪ Oh, don't speak ♪
1542 01:49:29 ♪ Look at us now ♪
1543 01:49:32 ♪ She took it out ♪
1544 01:50:42 ♪ Blue flame ♪
1545 01:50:44 ♪ Is burning out ♪
1546 01:50:47 ♪ She's reaching out ♪
1547 01:50:52 ♪ Your name ♪
1548 01:50:55 ♪ Was in my mouth ♪
1549 01:50:57 ♪ She took it out ♪
1550 01:51:00 ♪ She took it out ♪
1551 01:51:03 ♪ Blue flame ♪
1552 01:51:06 ♪ Is burning out ♪
1553 01:51:08 ♪ She's reaching out ♪
1554 01:51:11 ♪ She's reaching out ♪
1555 01:51:14 ♪ Your name ♪
1556 01:51:16 ♪ Was in my mouth ♪
1557 01:51:19 ♪ She took it out ♪