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1 00:01:25 ♪ Earth stood hard as iron ♪
2 00:01:31 ♪ Water like a stone ♪
3 00:01:37 ♪ Snow had fallen ♪
4 00:01:40 ♪ Snow on snow ♪
5 00:01:43 ♪ Snow on snow ♪
6 00:01:46 Stand up straight.
7 00:01:50 Meant to be quiet.
8 00:01:51 ♪ In the bleak midwinter ♪
9 00:01:54 - Liam! Liam!- Ba-a-a!
10 00:01:56 ♪ Long, long ago ♪
11 00:01:57 - Ba-a-a!- Sh-sh-sh!
12 00:01:58 - Hi!- What are you doing?
13 00:02:01 Ba-a-a!
14 00:02:03 Ba-a-a!
15 00:02:04 ♪ Heaven cannot hold Him ♪
16 00:02:07 ♪ Nor earth sustain ♪
17 00:02:25 OK, everyoneinto your position.
18 00:02:27 I'm missing a sheepand an angel.
19 00:02:30 Has anyone...
20 00:02:31 Oh, there you are.
21 00:02:33 Liam, Lacey.
22 00:02:34 Do you wannacome join us?
23 00:02:36 Not really.
24 00:02:37 But we need you.
25 00:02:39 What?
26 00:02:40 Do you know how we cometo church once a year?
27 00:02:42 - Do you wanna come every Sunday?- No!
28 00:02:45 Sh-sh-sh! OK.
29 00:02:46 We have to maketonight count.
30 00:02:50 - Go make me proud.- OK.
31 00:03:06 ♪ The holly and the ivy ♪
32 00:03:09 ♪ When they areboth full grown ♪
33 00:03:11 Quiet!
34 00:03:13 ♪ Of all the trees thatare in the wood ♪
35 00:03:15 - Come on, where's your Christmas spirit, Liam?- Quiet!
36 00:03:17 ♪ The rising of the sun ♪
37 00:03:19 Quiet!
38 00:03:21 ♪ And the runningof the deer ♪
39 00:03:33 Hey, you guys. You guys.
40 00:03:36 Good kids...
41 00:03:38 get better gifts.
42 00:03:40 Wait a minute.You did not just do that.
43 00:03:43 I did. You noticedthat, didn't you?
44 00:03:44 - I did it because it works.- That's not fair.
45 00:03:46 - It worked on you for years.- You didn't do it to me.
46 00:03:48 Always, always.
47 00:03:49 Look, we're home!
48 00:03:53 What?
49 00:03:56 What the...
50 00:03:59 Oh, my God.
51 00:04:03 Mom. Mom.No. Don't!
52 00:04:14 Oh, my God.I can't believe it.
53 00:04:18 Hi, Mom.
54 00:04:19 Oh, let me see you.Is it you?
55 00:04:21 Is that Ben?
56 00:04:26 Come on. Look.
57 00:04:28 - It's Ben.- Yeah, it is Ben.
58 00:04:29 Take hold of my hand.Come on. Hurry!
59 00:04:31 Oh, my God.I was just...
60 00:04:32 I was truly just wondering.
61 00:04:34 Just wondering what if.
62 00:04:36 Ben!
63 00:04:38 Don't let go.
64 00:04:46 So, my roommate,Timmy, has two years,
65 00:04:48 and is, like,a recovery rockstar.
66 00:04:50 And he offers mea free ride.
67 00:04:52 And I was like,"Yeah, I'm down."
68 00:04:54 But I'm thinkin', there's no waymy sponsor's gonna go for this.
69 00:04:58 But he did?
70 00:04:59 But he did becausethat's how good I'm doing.
71 00:05:01 Wow, honey.
72 00:05:03 So, Timmy's mom and dad andhis little brother pick us up.
73 00:05:05 I'm squeezed in the middle.
74 00:05:07 They're very Christian.
75 00:05:08 They're all super healthy.
76 00:05:09 They don't evendrink caffeine.
77 00:05:11 Great.
78 00:05:12 Mom, Ben is feeding Ponce.
79 00:05:14 Oh, yeah. Guilty.
80 00:05:15 Bread is bad for his teeth.
81 00:05:17 I think a littlebit is OK, honey.
82 00:05:19 OK. Go on.
83 00:05:21 OK, so we're, like,10 minutes into the ride,
84 00:05:23 and suddenlythere's this smell
85 00:05:26 that just hangs there.
86 00:05:27 And it's a...
87 00:05:28 And just whenit starts to clear,
88 00:05:30 another cloud of... ofstink is unleashed.
89 00:05:33 - Wait, it's human?- Mm-hmm.
90 00:05:35 - Oh, my God.- It was the silent but deadly kind.
91 00:05:36 Oh, my God.
92 00:05:37 That's the worst kind.
93 00:05:39 This is great.So great.
94 00:05:41 You know, Ponce,
95 00:05:42 all of us inthe kitchen.
96 00:05:44 You happy.
97 00:05:46 Zip me, please.
98 00:05:47 Oh, you got one on.
99 00:05:48 Good job. OK.
100 00:05:49 Leave these on.
101 00:05:50 - OK? All right.- Bye!
102 00:05:52 - Be smart.- Bye!
103 00:05:53 All right.
104 00:05:54 - Then what happened?- OK, so,
105 00:05:56 we're trapped in the back andthe farts just keep on coming.
106 00:05:58 Front door.
107 00:06:00 And so, I'm thinking, surelysomeone is gonna say sorry.
108 00:06:02 - Or excuse me...- Excuse me. Yes.
109 00:06:04 Or, like, maybecrack a window.
110 00:06:05 But, no, they act likenothing is wrong.
111 00:06:07 Oh, my God.
112 00:06:08 So, I just said,
113 00:06:09 "You know, you canlet me out here."
114 00:06:11 Mom?
115 00:06:12 It's not that funny.
116 00:06:14 But it is.
117 00:06:15 So, I just hiked therest of the way home.
118 00:06:17 You didn't!
119 00:06:20 Oh, they did it again. Ugh.
120 00:06:22 - Rascals.- All right. You're gonna regret this.
121 00:06:25 Oh, go get 'em.
122 00:06:28 The big brother.
123 00:06:30 Aah!
124 00:06:50 Mom? Mom?
125 00:06:51 Did you see? He's gainedsome weight and...
126 00:06:54 he's got the sparkleback in his eyes.
127 00:06:56 He's clearly doing better.
128 00:06:58 Then why are youhiding everything?
129 00:06:59 You know why.
130 00:07:00 Sad. Having to hide.
131 00:07:02 Well, I would dothe same for you.
132 00:07:05 But you'll never have to.
133 00:07:07 Sweetie, I've got a verygood feeling about this.
134 00:07:10 Well, I don't.
135 00:07:11 Listen. This time willbe different. You'll see.
136 00:07:14 It will.
137 00:07:16 Mom?
138 00:07:17 Why is he here anyway?
139 00:07:19 Weren't we supposed togo visit him tomorrow?
140 00:07:23 OK, you need togo watch him.
141 00:07:24 No.
142 00:07:26 No, he'll thinkI'm spying.
143 00:07:27 No, then just, uh, filmhim on your phone then.
144 00:07:30 Hmm?
145 00:07:32 Are you serious?
146 00:07:33 Yes, Ivy.
147 00:07:34 Now.
148 00:07:37 - Yeah?- I want hot chocolate.
149 00:07:46 Go, go, go!
150 00:07:49 What are you doing?
151 00:07:50 I'm making a videoof holiday highlights.
152 00:07:56 - Run!- No, hurry!
153 00:08:12 Hurry, hurry!
154 00:08:23 Come here, boy!
155 00:08:24 Come on, Ponce!
156 00:08:28 Let's go!
157 00:08:42 Don't do that.
158 00:08:43 No...
159 00:08:58 ♪ When Ben was ten ♪
160 00:09:03 ♪ Lacy was a baby ♪
161 00:09:08 ♪ When Ben was ten ♪
162 00:09:12 ♪ Liam was a maybe ♪
163 00:09:15 What about Ivy?
164 00:09:19 ♪ And now we're all here ♪
165 00:09:22 ♪ So let's go crazy ♪
166 00:09:25 ♪ Let's go crazy! ♪
167 00:09:28 ♪ Who's gonna help me today? ♪
168 00:09:31 Neal?
169 00:09:33 ♪ We're going crazy ♪
170 00:09:36 I got it under control.
171 00:09:38 Ivy called, texted.Why didn't you?
172 00:09:41 ♪ Let's go crazy ♪
173 00:09:43 ♪ Let's go crazy! ♪
174 00:09:50 Hey, Neal.
175 00:09:52 Hey, Ben.
176 00:09:55 How about 15 extra minutes ofscreen time starting right now?
177 00:09:58 Yay!
178 00:10:04 We better hurry up!
179 00:10:08 I'm... I'm confused.
180 00:10:12 I thought we hadan understanding.
181 00:10:16 The therapists.
182 00:10:18 The doctors.
183 00:10:19 Everyone, even... evenyou, agreed that it's in
184 00:10:22 your best interest
185 00:10:24 not to be home yet.
186 00:10:26 I know.
187 00:10:27 There's too manytriggers for you here.
188 00:10:30 That was months ago.
189 00:10:32 And, and, andyour sponsor said...
190 00:10:33 Please, let... let Bentell me, please.
191 00:10:36 Please, honey.
192 00:10:37 OK, I know...
193 00:10:40 I know I really fucked uplast Christmas.
194 00:10:42 And the one before that.
195 00:10:46 It's true.
196 00:10:47 Yeah, I know I've madea lot of mistakes.
197 00:10:51 But...
198 00:10:54 Now, since I'm doing so good,
199 00:10:55 and... and with all the supportI'm getting and...
200 00:10:59 w-with my sponsor?
201 00:11:02 I honestly didn'tthink I'd ever...
202 00:11:05 feel this good again.
203 00:11:11 What? You don't believe me?
204 00:11:13 Sweetie, we do.
205 00:11:14 Which is why she hid allthe meds and the jewelry.
206 00:11:17 I was just removingthe temptation.
207 00:11:21 Wow. Fuck. You're allstill scared of me.
208 00:11:26 Which is the last thingI wanna make any of you feel.
209 00:11:33 You should just... youshould take me back.
210 00:11:43 Mom, take me back.
211 00:11:48 Front door.
212 00:11:52 - Mom?- You should have known better.
213 00:11:54 Don't blame him.
214 00:11:56 It's my fault.
215 00:11:58 When he called and askedwhat I wanted for Christmas,
216 00:12:00 I shouldn't havesaid him home.
217 00:12:03 That's what you said?
218 00:12:04 I wanted him to knowI missed him.
219 00:12:06 I didn't... I neverdreamed he would just...
220 00:12:08 show up.
221 00:12:10 Is he in the car?
222 00:12:11 Yup.
223 00:12:13 It's not like hecame home to stay.
224 00:12:15 Obviously, that can'thappen right now.
225 00:12:17 It wouldn't begood for him.
226 00:12:19 He needs to go back.
227 00:12:20 I agree.
228 00:12:22 And if it weren't Christmas...
229 00:12:23 It's the rightthing, honey.
230 00:12:25 It is, Mom.
231 00:12:26 We hope. We don't know.
232 00:12:28 I mean, honestly...
233 00:12:29 I'm so goddamn angry atthe two of you right now.
234 00:12:32 I am.
235 00:12:33 What did I do?
236 00:12:34 You gave up on him.
237 00:12:35 You both have.
238 00:12:37 This is not giving up.
239 00:12:39 - It is.- It's... no, it... it's giving a shit,
240 00:12:41 which we do, aboutwhat's best for him.
241 00:12:44 And for you.
242 00:12:45 You have a problemwith him, Neal.
243 00:12:46 No, I'm rooting for him,but I'm frustrated.
244 00:12:49 He's lucky,and we're...
245 00:12:50 - We're playing loose with it.- OK, Neal.
246 00:12:52 If he were black,he would be in jail by now.
247 00:12:54 Maybe this isn't the time.
248 00:12:56 We said we weren'tgoing to do this again.
249 00:12:58 Remember?
250 00:13:01 I remember.
251 00:13:09 Holly?
252 00:13:11 Here's the list.
253 00:13:12 I don't carewho gets what.
254 00:13:14 Just get it done.
255 00:13:15 Yeah.
256 00:13:29 God, damn it!
257 00:13:32 God, damn it!
258 00:13:35 We're all set.
259 00:13:48 It's okay, Mom.
260 00:13:49 It's for the best.
261 00:13:53 Seat belt, please.
262 00:14:07 Mom.
263 00:14:09 Mom!
264 00:14:18 What?
265 00:14:21 I'm thinking.
266 00:14:35 All right. Come on.
267 00:14:48 OK.
268 00:14:49 Here's the deal, andit is not negotiable.
269 00:14:52 You get a day.
270 00:14:55 Are you sure?
271 00:14:56 So long as you pass the drugtest I'm about to administer.
272 00:14:59 Stay clean while you're here,
273 00:15:00 and that this time tomorrowyou are back in Sober Living.
274 00:15:03 Yeah, OK.
275 00:15:04 Now, I'm not done.
276 00:15:05 These are our terms,
277 00:15:06 and I don't give a shitif you hate these rules.
278 00:15:09 You do not leavemy sight ever.
279 00:15:11 You do not closethe door to your room,
280 00:15:14 where, by the way, I willbe sleeping on the floor,
281 00:15:16 and if you tryto sneak off,
282 00:15:17 if your bed so muchas make squeak,
283 00:15:19 I will be all over you
284 00:15:21 because, for the next 24 hours,you are mine. All mine. Got it?
285 00:15:26 I got it.
286 00:15:28 Good.
287 00:15:29 Let's get you tested.
288 00:15:38 Mom.
289 00:15:40 Relax, I'm not going to belooking at your privates.
290 00:15:42 OK, then.
291 00:15:43 I will be keepingmy eyes on you.
292 00:15:45 Just like I said.
293 00:15:51 This is so not cool.
294 00:15:52 Nothing about thisis cool, Ben.
295 00:15:59 Come on, pee-pee time.
296 00:16:00 Shut up.
297 00:16:03 Do you want me toturn the faucet on?
298 00:16:05 Stop.
299 00:16:09 - Shh.- All right, all right, all right.
300 00:16:11 - Sometimes it helps.- Mm-hmm.
301 00:16:14 - What are you doing?- OK.
302 00:16:15 - There's a surprise coming.- What surprise?
303 00:16:19 Do you trust me?
304 00:16:20 - Yes!- Yes, I do.
305 00:16:21 Awesome. That's awesome.
306 00:16:22 Good. Good to hear.
307 00:16:24 All right.
308 00:16:25 - You close your eyes.- Yeah.
309 00:16:27 - Can you see anything?- No.
310 00:16:29 OK, no peaking.
311 00:16:33 I hear something.
312 00:16:35 - When I was your age, this was my favorite.- It's gross.
313 00:16:37 Ivy, chill out.
314 00:16:39 Liam doesn't like crust.
315 00:16:42 There's a crust-less option
316 00:16:44 in the works.
317 00:16:46 Oh, really?
318 00:16:49 Are you two ready?
319 00:16:50 Yes.
320 00:16:51 Back door.
321 00:16:53 OK, open your eyes and feast.
322 00:17:00 - Yum!- Right?
323 00:17:02 It's really good.
324 00:17:04 What have you done?
325 00:17:05 I know. I know.There's no going back.
326 00:17:07 Mm-hmm. More, please!
327 00:17:11 But Ashley'swings have glitter.
328 00:17:13 Well, we are going to bedazzlethese things like crazy.
329 00:17:17 Mom, seriously,they're so good.
330 00:17:18 I don't want to brag.
331 00:17:20 Well, yeah, I do.These are gonna be good.
332 00:17:26 Ben?
333 00:17:40 Boy. Hey, buddy.
334 00:17:47 Hi Mama.
335 00:17:48 You knew it.
336 00:17:50 You came back for Ponce.
337 00:17:52 Busted.
338 00:17:54 Actually, no.
339 00:18:05 OK, let's party.
340 00:18:12 You know, I reallywouldn't appreciate it if you leave me.
341 00:18:13 - Holly.- Hi.
342 00:18:14 How'd the test go?
343 00:18:15 - Negative.- That's great.
344 00:18:17 Yeah.
345 00:18:18 And he'shelping out with chores.
346 00:18:20 - Really?- Mm-hmm.
347 00:18:23 OK, well...
348 00:18:24 I left word withSober Living.
349 00:18:26 OK.
350 00:18:28 It hurts to think aboutthe shit I've done.
351 00:18:33 And what I'm learning inrecovery is I can't undo
352 00:18:35 what I've done, but I cando it differently now.
353 00:18:38 I think we're good here.
354 00:18:40 One... just one sec, Ivy.
355 00:18:41 What I mean is, isI have to be present.
356 00:18:43 I have to be present.
357 00:18:44 - It's about this log.- OK.
358 00:18:46 - It's about this log. It's...- That's enough.
359 00:18:48 It's about taking care ofthis log and placing it here.
360 00:18:50 And I have to takeit one log at a time,
361 00:18:52 - No, stop.- otherwise it's not gonna...
362 00:18:54 Ben, stop!
363 00:19:05 Aah!
364 00:19:06 - God!- Come on. You got this.
365 00:19:08 Come on.
366 00:19:10 Fine. Just leave it.We don't need anymore, Ben.
367 00:19:13 Cleaning up your mess.
368 00:19:14 - We'll do it. We're gonna do it.- Aah!
369 00:19:18 - It's so heavy!- I got it. I got it.
370 00:19:20 - You're good. You're good.- Ponce!
371 00:19:23 Nice. OK.
372 00:19:28 We're in no dangerof it burning out.
373 00:19:30 What the fuck is this?Where did our ornaments go?
374 00:19:33 They don't sharethe current aesthetic.
375 00:19:35 Is there a problem?
376 00:19:37 Ben was just asking whereour old ornaments are.
377 00:19:41 Did you throw them away?
378 00:19:50 Come with me.
379 00:19:57 Be quick andbe careful, yeah?
380 00:19:59 - Mommy!- Yes, yes. OK.
381 00:20:13 Do you see 'em?
382 00:20:17 It should be right there.
383 00:20:31 Ben?
384 00:20:33 Fuck!
385 00:20:34 Ben?
386 00:20:35 Can you come up?
387 00:20:44 - That's it.- I hate it up here.
388 00:20:47 OK, then let's go already.
389 00:20:48 Wait...
390 00:20:50 I need you to check.
391 00:20:52 I'm, uh...
392 00:20:55 I used to stashmy... my, um...
393 00:20:57 OK.
394 00:21:05 Back there?
395 00:21:09 If there's something there, thenyou have to make it go away.
396 00:21:21 Nothing.
397 00:21:29 We're good.
398 00:21:31 I'll help you down.
399 00:21:36 Come on. Let's go.
400 00:21:56 Oh, wow. Ben.
401 00:21:59 Nice.
402 00:22:01 Liam, I havea pine cone nose.
403 00:22:05 This is better.
404 00:22:09 - Yeah.- Yeah, cotton balls.
405 00:22:11 Ben, Ivy, can youtwo come with me, please?
406 00:22:16 I know, I went alittle overboard this year.
407 00:22:19 - Mom?- Keep wrapping.
408 00:22:22 Hello?
409 00:22:23 - Hey, honey.- Yeah?
410 00:22:25 They only have regular.
411 00:22:26 No.
412 00:22:27 Organic cranberries.
413 00:22:29 Mom, we don'thave to be 100%...
414 00:22:32 It's important.
415 00:22:34 - Got it.- OK.
416 00:22:35 Thank you.
417 00:22:38 Ugh, gotta love that Neal.
418 00:22:40 Mom?
419 00:22:41 Running all my last-minuteerrands so we can just...
420 00:22:43 - stay here till church.- Mom. Mom, I wanna do some shopping of my own.
421 00:22:46 Why?
422 00:22:46 I wanna get themsomething from me.
423 00:22:49 Well, sweetie,you are the present.
424 00:22:52 Something thatthey can unwrap.
425 00:22:54 Well, OK. Let's just say theseare from you, then.
426 00:22:56 But they're not really from me.I didn't pick them out.
427 00:22:58 They'll never know.
428 00:22:59 But I'll know.
429 00:23:01 All right. Well, honestly,they have everything they need.
430 00:23:04 They really don'tneed anything more.
431 00:23:06 So true.
432 00:23:07 OK, but...
433 00:23:09 if I didn't pick them out,then they're not really from me,
434 00:23:11 which makes me a liar.
435 00:23:13 And the whole point of this
436 00:23:15 is to be honest.
437 00:23:16 It's no good ifI'm not honest.
438 00:23:35 This is nice.
439 00:23:37 Getting to spend a littlequality alone time together.
440 00:23:45 What do you thinkyou'll wear tonight?
441 00:23:48 This is all I brought.
442 00:23:49 Oh, well, no worries.We can pick up a sweater
443 00:23:53 or maybe evena whole new ensemble.
444 00:23:57 Ensemble?
445 00:24:00 That way you'll... I wantyou to be comfortable.
446 00:24:03 Oh, I'm okay with just...
447 00:24:04 No, come on.
448 00:24:06 It's Christmas Eve. We'regonna be in a front pew.
449 00:24:14 Hey, Burns!
450 00:24:16 What's going on?
451 00:24:17 - Hey, man.- Wow, it's been a long time.
452 00:24:21 I thought you were dead.
453 00:24:25 What's new?
454 00:24:26 - I'm... I'm good.- Yeah?
455 00:24:30 Dude, it's... it'sreally good to see you.
456 00:24:32 - Yeah.- And you look good.
457 00:24:34 Oh, thank you.
458 00:24:35 OK.
459 00:24:41 He was a little full ofhimself, don't you think?
460 00:24:43 He's all right.
461 00:24:45 And what's his drug of choice?You know he has one.
462 00:24:48 - Speed? Weekend cocaine?- Mom.
463 00:24:50 - High caffeinated energy drinks?- Mom.
464 00:24:53 All I'm saying is youforget how special you are.
465 00:24:58 You just don't... you don't...
466 00:24:59 Well, people look up toyou, and they love you.
467 00:25:01 You're a natural leader,and you are so, so smart.
468 00:25:04 No, Mom, Ivy is smart.
469 00:25:06 Well, nobody wantsto be that smart.
470 00:25:08 It's not like she's having atremendous amount of fun, hmm?
471 00:25:12 What was my point?
472 00:25:13 You don't have a point.
473 00:25:14 I do have a point.
474 00:25:15 My point is, look,you lick this,
475 00:25:17 and who knowshow far you can go
476 00:25:19 and what you can do.
477 00:25:21 There's so much tolook forward to.
478 00:25:34 OK, honey, you'vebarely touched your breakfast.
479 00:25:37 You've got to eat this.Come on now.
480 00:25:40 Mrs. Crane.
481 00:25:41 Dr. Crane.
482 00:25:43 Oh, hello.
483 00:25:45 Do I know you?
484 00:25:47 Holly Burns.
485 00:25:49 Yes. Oh, yes.
486 00:25:52 He doesn't always remember.
487 00:25:55 Holly is the mother of Ivy,whose singing we love.
488 00:25:59 She was your patient.
489 00:26:01 I remember.
490 00:26:02 You mustbe so proud of her.
491 00:26:05 I am proud of allof my children, yes.
492 00:26:17 Oh, fuck.
493 00:26:24 Oh, look, I needto get a napkin. I...
494 00:26:26 I'll sit with him.
495 00:26:27 You're a dear.
496 00:26:29 Be right back.
497 00:26:32 So, if you remember Ivy, thenyou must remember my son, Ben.
498 00:26:37 Right over there.
499 00:26:39 Who?
500 00:26:43 - I don't remember him.- Hmm.
501 00:26:44 I understand.You had so many patients.
502 00:26:48 But when was 14,he had a small
503 00:26:50 snowboarding injury.
504 00:26:52 And you prescribedpainkillers.
505 00:26:54 And when I asked, you toldme they weren't addictive
506 00:26:58 and kept upping his dose,and he got hooked,
507 00:27:00 and it fucked up his life.
508 00:27:01 So, you can pretendyou don't remember,
509 00:27:03 but I won't forget.
510 00:27:05 I hope you diea horrible death.
511 00:27:11 Merry Christmas.
512 00:27:13 I'm just here for a day.
513 00:27:17 OK. Yeah.
514 00:27:18 I will.
515 00:27:20 OK. Yes. I gotta go.I gotta go.
516 00:27:24 Who was that?
517 00:27:26 Um, my... my sponsor.
518 00:27:28 I'm feeling...I'm feeling shaky.
519 00:27:30 So, I... that'swhy I called him.
520 00:27:32 He told me togo to a meeting.
521 00:27:34 They all say that.
522 00:27:35 Whenever you feel shaky,get to a meeting.
523 00:27:38 OK, well, let's justget your clothes...
524 00:27:40 I gotta find a meeting. Now.
525 00:27:45 Did you hear me?
526 00:27:47 OK.
527 00:27:49 I'm so proud of you.
528 00:27:51 Knowing what you need.
529 00:27:53 I just, I thinkit's so great.
530 00:27:55 Like they say, it'sworking when you...
531 00:27:58 What do they say?
532 00:28:00 It works if you work it.
533 00:28:01 It works if you work it.
534 00:28:02 Well, you are working it.
535 00:28:03 Oh, let's go in.
536 00:28:04 You're not coming in.
537 00:28:05 No, why? Of course I am.
538 00:28:07 No, Mom, I-I'm... I'm good.
539 00:28:08 It's... it's a... it's a meeting.
540 00:28:10 I'm gonna come rightout afterwards. No.
541 00:28:11 I may just tag along.
542 00:28:12 - Hi!- Mom.
543 00:28:14 - Hey, yo, what's up, baby?- Hello.
544 00:28:15 - How are you?- Hey, how you doing?
545 00:28:17 Stop.
546 00:28:18 Never hurts tobe friendly.
547 00:28:19 Dial it down.
548 00:28:20 OK.
549 00:28:21 Maybe I'll just... Hi!
550 00:28:22 - Hi, guys.- Hello.
551 00:28:25 Everybody seems so nice.
552 00:28:32 The minute I think I have it,
553 00:28:34 the minute I thinkI've got this, uh...
554 00:28:37 it's waiting, you know?
555 00:28:38 It's out there, doingpush-ups right now
556 00:28:40 while we're sitting inthese folding chairs.
557 00:28:42 So, I'm really, really gratefulto be here with all of you.
558 00:28:45 And I-I thank youfor keeping me clean.
559 00:28:48 Thank you forletting me share.
560 00:28:50 So, uh...
561 00:28:51 Thank you.
562 00:28:55 Go on to show of hands?
563 00:28:57 I have a deepfear of using.
564 00:28:59 I have a deep fear of goingback into those dark places.
565 00:29:03 This fellowship,this group of people,
566 00:29:06 is what keeps me alive.
567 00:29:07 You know, I have twonew baby nieces,
568 00:29:10 and they're going to meetme for the first time.
569 00:29:13 I'm just so grateful thatthey'll never know me high.
570 00:29:18 They'll just knowme as... as me.
571 00:29:22 Hi, I'm Ben, and I,um, I'm an addict.
572 00:29:25 Hey, Ben.
573 00:29:27 I got 77 days.
574 00:29:33 And, uh, that'smy most ever.
575 00:29:36 So, I just wantto get to 78...
576 00:29:38 right now.
577 00:29:40 Um, so, I, uh...
578 00:29:42 I called my sponsor and...
579 00:29:45 the thing about my sponsor isthat he's a... he's a loud talker.
580 00:29:49 And, so, uh, I say,"Hey," and he goes,
581 00:29:53 "What's up?"
582 00:29:55 And I was like, "Well,I-I got big news.
583 00:29:57 I just bought presents that Iactually picked out for someone."
584 00:29:59 And he was like, "Oh, well,you're feeling pretty good, huh?"
585 00:30:03 And I was like, "Yeah, you know,I actually feel like I'm being honest."
586 00:30:06 And, well, he said,"If you were honest, Ben,
587 00:30:09 you'd look in the mirror andsay, I'm a great big phony."
588 00:30:13 So, I was like, "OK."
589 00:30:14 "Because Ben you'rea fucking addict,
590 00:30:16 and you're the last person whoshould believe his own bullshit.
591 00:30:18 So, now get to a meeting."
592 00:30:20 So, here I am.
593 00:30:22 77 days clean.
594 00:30:25 Some things are better now.
595 00:30:28 Like I can actuallytake a shit.
596 00:30:32 Yeah, uh, evenbetter than that,
597 00:30:35 I'm waking up more oftenthan not with an erection.
598 00:30:40 Sorry, Mom.
599 00:30:41 And my... yeah, my mom's here.
600 00:30:45 Um...
601 00:30:48 I've put herthrough a lot, um...
602 00:30:53 This summer, she found meupside down on the stairs
603 00:30:56 with, um, a needle in my arm.
604 00:31:00 And, uh...
605 00:31:03 with my dog tryingto keep me awake.
606 00:31:05 So...
607 00:31:07 The doctor said that ifit weren't for my dog,
608 00:31:09 I... I would be dead.
609 00:31:11 Um, and my mom.
610 00:31:14 Without her, I wouldn't behere right now in this room.
611 00:31:18 Uh, the things thatI've done to myself
612 00:31:24 and others.
613 00:31:28 Uh, so, I don't...Why am I still...
614 00:31:32 here?
615 00:31:36 There's gotta be a reason.
616 00:31:38 Maybe it's to...
617 00:31:39 come back and... and makethis Christmas right
618 00:31:42 or maybe thisis the biggest
619 00:31:44 fucking mistake of my life.
620 00:31:47 Um, anyways,here I am.
621 00:31:50 Still here.
622 00:31:51 So, thank you.Thank you for...
623 00:31:58 ...grant us the serenity
624 00:32:00 to accept the thingswe cannot change,
625 00:32:03 the courage to changethe things we can,
626 00:32:06 and the wisdom toknow the difference.
627 00:32:08 Keep coming back.It works if you work it.
628 00:32:19 Ben?
629 00:32:21 - Ben. Good job, sweetie.- Thanks.
630 00:32:23 And you coming backwas not a mistake.
631 00:32:25 Someone wiser than me, yoursponsor, said you can do this.
632 00:32:29 OK.Yeah. That's right.
633 00:32:32 I think some peoplewant to talk to you.
634 00:32:34 I'll just wait over here.
635 00:32:35 OK.
636 00:32:38 Hey, man.Thanks for your share.
637 00:32:40 It's been a long time, yo.
638 00:32:41 - Yeah.- That really hit home.
639 00:32:45 - Thanks, man.- Thank you.
640 00:32:52 Hey.
641 00:32:54 I-I loved what you said.
642 00:32:55 You were... youwere very funny.
643 00:32:57 There's not enoughfunny around here.
644 00:33:00 Thanks.
645 00:33:02 - You're the mom?- Yes.
646 00:33:04 I am.
647 00:33:05 It's great youcame with him.
648 00:33:06 Aw, I hope so.
649 00:33:07 No, my mom died beforeI ever got clean.
650 00:33:09 I would have given anything forher to see me get my shit together.
651 00:33:12 I'm sure.
652 00:33:18 It was honest.
653 00:33:19 And it was you saying it.Someone young and hot. Oh, shit.
654 00:33:25 - Oh, uh, it's... that's okay.- Oh, I'm blushing... I'm blushing now.
655 00:33:29 That makes me nervous.
656 00:33:32 - Is it your first meeting?- Uh, yeah.
657 00:33:33 - I'm, you know, new to it all, so...- Yeah?
658 00:33:36 Well, you shouldget a sponsor.
659 00:33:37 Um, it shouldbe a woman.
660 00:33:39 It should be someonereally tough, who will
661 00:33:42 you know, call youon your bullshit, and
662 00:33:44 it's all about, you know,rigorous honesty.
663 00:33:49 Oh, they're justtalking program.
664 00:33:50 It's how we helpeach other.
665 00:33:53 OK.
666 00:33:53 So, nothing toworry about then.
667 00:33:55 Oh, I didn't say that.
668 00:34:00 You don't remember, do you?
669 00:34:08 You were my dealer.
670 00:34:11 Oh, fuck.
671 00:34:12 Oh, my. I'm sorry.
672 00:34:13 No, it's fine.I'm, uh...
673 00:34:16 I'm going to rehab theday after Christmas, so,
674 00:34:18 that's why I, um, I,you know, I related to
675 00:34:20 so much to whatyou were saying.
676 00:34:22 It was very inspiring, so...
677 00:34:27 I just want... I just want toget high just one last time.
678 00:34:30 That's normal.
679 00:34:31 I'm not going to, though.
680 00:34:33 Good. Don't.
681 00:34:36 Unless I coulddo it with you.
682 00:34:49 - Hey.- Hi.
683 00:34:50 - Have a good one.- Merry Christmas.
684 00:34:59 I think this one will work.
685 00:35:02 Or this.
686 00:35:04 And they have itin light blue.
687 00:35:06 And everybody looksgood in light blue.
688 00:35:09 - Ben?- What?
689 00:35:10 Which?
690 00:35:11 Yes.
691 00:35:12 Good.
692 00:35:13 OK, light blue.
693 00:35:19 Looks like she's gonna haveyou try on the whole store.
694 00:35:24 Thank you so much.
695 00:35:25 You're welcome.
696 00:35:27 These will both complementyour complexion as a gift
697 00:35:29 from your mother.You're welcome.
698 00:35:31 - Coat, please.- OK.
699 00:35:32 Nice. I'm good.
700 00:35:34 Come on.
701 00:35:43 Pockets.
702 00:35:52 This is humiliating.
703 00:35:54 Shh.
704 00:35:55 No, this is love.
705 00:35:59 All right.Free to go.
706 00:36:04 You didn't check my shoes.
707 00:36:14 That's not funny.
708 00:36:16 It was a joke, Mom.
709 00:36:17 Ben.
710 00:36:18 - Mom, it was a joke.- It's not funny.
711 00:36:20 Excuse me?
712 00:36:21 Can I get a keyto this door, please?
713 00:36:23 Unlock the door, Ben.Right now.
714 00:36:25 Ben.
715 00:36:27 Open the door.
716 00:36:29 This is not funny.
717 00:36:30 Open this fucking door
718 00:36:32 right now.
719 00:36:33 Ben. God, damn it.
720 00:36:34 Open this fucking door.
721 00:36:39 What is going on?
722 00:36:44 What's going on?
723 00:37:01 Fuck. You stupid fuck.
724 00:37:04 Hey.
725 00:37:04 Where did you get this?
726 00:37:06 - I've been with you the whole time.- Excuse me.
727 00:37:07 The... the... the girlat the meeting.
728 00:37:09 The one thatyou're helping.
729 00:37:10 She was gonna use, now,so I took it from her.
730 00:37:12 Excuse me.I'm gonna have to
731 00:37:13 ask you two to leave.
732 00:37:14 She was gonna use.Now she can't.
733 00:37:16 Mom, the last time I didn'thelp someone they died.
734 00:37:18 Ma'am?
735 00:37:23 You think I'm an idiot.
736 00:37:25 - Can you please just exit the store?- Yes!
737 00:37:27 Fuck. Maybe she's a dealer.
738 00:37:28 - What?- Maybe she played me.
739 00:37:31 - You can't trust addicts, Mom. All we do is fucking lie.- What do I do with that?
740 00:37:34 I don't... I don't know.I don't know.
741 00:37:35 Mind your ownfucking business.
742 00:37:39 Mom. What...?
743 00:37:41 Get out of the car.
744 00:37:42 What is this?
745 00:37:47 What're we doing here?
746 00:37:48 Get out of the car.
747 00:37:50 Now.
748 00:37:52 - Why are you...- Because I'll be too angry to do it at the time.
749 00:37:55 Huh? So, where?
750 00:37:57 Where do you wanna be?
751 00:37:58 Oh.
752 00:37:59 Don't say next to grandpa.That's prime placement.
753 00:38:01 And you don't getthat when you OD.
754 00:38:02 - I'm not gonna OD.- So, where?
755 00:38:04 The new section is nice,
756 00:38:05 or do you want tobe near a tree?
757 00:38:07 I don't know.
758 00:38:09 Well, you betterfigure it out.
759 00:38:10 OK, why... why don't youcremate me and sprinkle me over
760 00:38:13 Mrs. Blink, my second gradeteacher? She was pretty hot.
761 00:38:15 - No, you don't get to be a smart ass about this, young man.- Ow!
762 00:38:17 I wasn't gonna use.
763 00:38:18 I was... I-I'mnot gonna use.
764 00:38:20 - You just...- I'm just... Mom.
765 00:38:22 You just told me.
766 00:38:23 I should never believe you.
767 00:38:25 Don't say anotherfucking word.
768 00:38:29 Just tell me, son,
769 00:38:32 where you wantme to bury you.
770 00:38:38 I'll wait all day.
771 00:38:40 I'm not going to die.
772 00:38:43 That's right.You will, and soon.
773 00:39:08 Mommy's here!
774 00:39:10 They didn't like myspaghetti special, for some reason.
775 00:39:14 Go figure.
776 00:39:16 Ben, they only wantedyour sandwich.
777 00:39:18 What did you put in it?
778 00:39:20 Drugs.
779 00:39:20 It's not funny.
780 00:39:22 - It was a joke.- Still not funny.
781 00:39:25 The kids are watching TV?
782 00:39:27 Yeah, they'rewatching TV.
783 00:39:28 You OK?
784 00:39:29 You come with me.
785 00:39:32 Hi, sweethearts.
786 00:39:33 Hi, Mommy!
787 00:39:35 - Ben is gonna watch some TV with you.- Yay!
788 00:39:37 - Mom, can I talk to you for a second?- Sit down.
789 00:39:41 ...out of a canonand now we can't find her anywhere.
790 00:39:43 Come on.
791 00:39:44 Right in the middle.
792 00:39:47 Stay.
793 00:39:49 Everyone grab on to me,and I'll swing on this tree branch
794 00:39:52 into the pond!
795 00:39:59 You fucking monster.
796 00:40:04 Honey, you OK in there?
797 00:40:06 Yes, just getting changed.
798 00:40:09 How'd it go? How'she... how's he doing?
799 00:40:14 Great. He's doing great.
800 00:40:16 How are you doing?
801 00:40:18 I am doing great.
802 00:40:21 OK.
803 00:40:24 Honey, I... I better get ready.
804 00:40:26 Of course.
805 00:40:27 You get ready.I will take care of the chores.
806 00:40:30 Thank you.
807 00:40:35 Would you just?
808 00:40:43 No. No, not those slacks.
809 00:40:44 The ones fromwhen you were skinny.
810 00:40:46 Skinnier.
811 00:40:48 Ivy?
812 00:40:49 What?
813 00:40:50 I need your big safety pins.There's some in the kitchen.
814 00:40:54 - It sounded great, by the way.- Mm-hmm.
815 00:40:56 Thank you.
816 00:40:58 I'm feeding Ponce.
817 00:41:00 Oh, I'm so glad.Thanks, honey.
818 00:41:01 - Mom!- Yes, sweetie.
819 00:41:03 It itches.
820 00:41:04 - Where?- Everywhere!
821 00:41:06 I wish I'd known that earlier. Mommycan't do anything about it now.
822 00:41:09 But it's everywhere.
823 00:41:11 Well, it's just partof being a sheep.
824 00:41:13 Hey, buddy. The thing aboutan itch is just don't scratch.
825 00:41:17 - Um...- Shh. Ivy!
826 00:41:19 Thank you.
827 00:41:20 I beg your pardon.
828 00:41:26 I'm gonna need a sweater.
829 00:41:27 OK. Coming right up.
830 00:41:30 All right, everybody.Let's get going.
831 00:41:32 We don't want to be late.
832 00:41:35 I'm so sorry.
833 00:41:37 Don't.
834 00:42:10 Stay put.
835 00:42:19 I'm so sorry, Beth.
836 00:42:22 This has gotta hurt.
837 00:42:30 Maggie was an angel.
838 00:42:34 We think about her.
839 00:42:41 Hold on tight.
840 00:42:44 I am.
841 00:43:08 What'd she say?
842 00:43:12 No one blames you.
843 00:43:16 There wereshepherds out in the field
844 00:43:18 keeping watch overtheir flock by night.
845 00:43:21 And an angel of the Lordappeared to them...
846 00:43:23 Ben. Hi, Ben!
847 00:43:25 shone around them, andthey were filled with fear,
848 00:43:28 and the angel said tothem, "Be not afraid.
849 00:43:31 I bring you goodnews of a great joy,
850 00:43:33 which will come toall the people.
851 00:43:35 For to you is bornthis day in the city
852 00:43:38 of David, a savior,who is Christ the Lord.
853 00:43:41 You will find a babewrapped in swaddling clothes
854 00:43:45 and lying in a manger.
855 00:43:51 ♪ O, Holy night ♪
856 00:43:54 ♪ The stars arebrightly shining ♪
857 00:43:59 ♪ It is the night ♪
858 00:44:01 ♪ Of our dear savoir's birth ♪
859 00:44:07 ♪ Long lay the world ♪
860 00:44:10 ♪ In sin and error pining ♪
861 00:44:15 ♪ Till He appear'd andthe soul felt its worth ♪
862 00:44:23 ♪ A thrill of hope ♪
863 00:44:26 ♪ The weary world rejoices ♪
864 00:44:30 ♪ For yonder breaks ♪
865 00:44:34 ♪ A new and glorious morn ♪
866 00:44:38 ♪ Fall on your knees ♪
867 00:44:44 ♪ And hear the angel voices ♪
868 00:44:51 ♪ O, night divine ♪
869 00:44:57 ♪ O, night whenChrist was born ♪
870 00:45:05 ♪ O, night divine ♪
871 00:45:12 ♪ O, night ♪
872 00:45:16 ♪ O, night divine ♪
873 00:45:22 Hey!
874 00:45:23 Ivy, by the way, thatwas your best singing ever.
875 00:45:26 I think thetwo of you were great.
876 00:45:29 Yeah, they're completely right.You were amazing.
877 00:45:32 - Yeah, you were awesome!- Really amazing.
878 00:45:34 - Yes!- And you, little buddy.
879 00:45:35 - You think so?- Yes.
880 00:45:37 For a second there,I literally thought
881 00:45:38 that you were a sheep.
882 00:45:40 And, and, and you didn'teven have to pretend
883 00:45:43 because you're an angel.
884 00:45:46 Front door.
885 00:45:51 All right, kiddos.
886 00:45:53 Jammies and teethbrushed right now, please.
887 00:45:55 - Start jammin'.- All right. Come on.
888 00:45:59 What happened?
889 00:46:00 Oh, my God.
890 00:46:01 - OK, kids.- Stay right here.
891 00:46:03 - Shh, sit down. Sit down.- Why?
892 00:46:04 - Don't move.- Sit down.
893 00:46:05 Sit down,sit down right here.
894 00:46:07 - Mom.- Sit down.
895 00:46:08 It's okay.It's okay, honey.
896 00:46:10 There's broken glass.
897 00:46:12 - Don't be scared. Daddy's just checking...- Ben.
898 00:46:15 Be careful.
899 00:46:26 Come on. Fuck.Come on.
900 00:46:28 This can't behappening. Not again.
901 00:46:29 Stay right here. Don't move.It's okay. I know. Don't move.
902 00:46:32 - I'm scared.- It's okay. It's okay.
903 00:46:36 Come on, motherfucker.
904 00:46:43 What?
905 00:46:46 I was at church.
906 00:46:50 Coast is clear.
907 00:46:53 We still got the TV,
908 00:46:55 and we got the computers,
909 00:46:56 and, most importantly,we got the presents.
910 00:47:01 Yeah, it was probablyjust neighborhood kids.
911 00:47:04 Just a practical joke.
912 00:47:06 Neal?
913 00:47:08 No, no real damage.
914 00:47:09 That's a relief.
915 00:47:11 Where's Ponce?
916 00:47:12 I don't know.
917 00:47:13 I'm sure he'shere somewhere.
918 00:47:15 - Mom? Where's Ponce?- You just checked the whole house.
919 00:47:17 - Yeah.- He's probably just hiding.
920 00:47:19 You didn't see him?
921 00:47:20 - No.- I wanna find Ponce.
922 00:47:23 - You know what? It's way past our bed time.- Ponce!
923 00:47:24 - Shh, upstairs.- But mo-o-om.
924 00:47:26 Ponce!
925 00:47:27 - I wanna find Ponce.- No, shh, upstairs.
926 00:47:30 Fuck.
927 00:47:32 Ponce!
928 00:47:34 Come on, Poncey!
929 00:47:36 Come on, Poncey!
930 00:47:38 I bet he just...
931 00:47:39 you know, wentout exploring.
932 00:47:40 No, he didn't.
933 00:47:42 Sweetie, he is just havinga Christmas adventure.
934 00:47:46 All right?
935 00:47:47 Come on, boy!
936 00:47:49 Ponce!
937 00:47:50 OK, snuggled in.
938 00:47:53 Front door.
939 00:47:55 I can't find him anywhere.
940 00:47:58 And he'd never run off.
941 00:47:59 Someone took him.
942 00:48:02 Who would steal our dog?
943 00:48:04 You come back, andthen this happens?
944 00:48:09 This is on you.
945 00:48:28 Front door.
946 00:48:31 Tomorrow,when you wake up,
947 00:48:33 it's gonna be Christmas.
948 00:48:34 With presents and Ponce.
949 00:48:38 All right. I love you.
950 00:48:40 Try to sleep, and I'llbe right back, OK?
951 00:48:42 Love you.
952 00:48:43 Leave the light on.
953 00:48:44 Of course I will.
954 00:48:59 What are you doing?
955 00:49:01 You aren't callingthe cops, are you?
956 00:49:03 I am.
957 00:49:04 No, Neal.No cops. Not yet.
958 00:49:07 Where is he?
959 00:49:08 Why wasn'tthe alarm on?
960 00:49:10 Because Ben was with us.
961 00:49:11 He's the reason we got thealarm in the first place.
962 00:49:14 Where is he?
963 00:49:15 He left.
964 00:49:23 Go.
965 00:49:27 Holly.
966 00:49:31 Holly?
967 00:49:32 Left door.
968 00:49:41 Jesus. Ben!
969 00:49:45 Ben!
970 00:49:46 Every fucking thingI do turns to shit.
971 00:49:49 - No, honey...- No, no matter how
972 00:49:51 hard I try, everythingjust turns to shit.
973 00:49:53 Please, just get in the car.
974 00:49:55 I didn't do it.
975 00:49:56 Obviously.
976 00:49:57 But I'm... I'm the reasonthat somebody did.
977 00:49:59 I put you in danger.
978 00:50:00 I put my... I put myfamily in danger.
979 00:50:04 And...
980 00:50:05 And I should'veknown. I'm so stupid.
981 00:50:07 No, you're not.Please, get in the car.
982 00:50:11 Jesus.Where are you going?
983 00:50:15 Ben!
984 00:50:16 Will you stop?
985 00:50:18 I have to fix it.I have to fix it.
986 00:50:19 I gotta find Ponce.
987 00:50:21 OK, well, just think.
988 00:50:22 I am. God, damn it.
989 00:50:23 What?
990 00:50:24 H-How?
991 00:50:26 You don't understand.
992 00:50:27 There are so many peoplethat it could be.
993 00:50:33 All right, well, we'll justtake it one asshole at a time.
994 00:50:37 Well, get in the car.
995 00:50:48 Seat belt.
996 00:51:00 No, don't turn here.Don't turn on Elm.
997 00:51:06 Not Pleasant.
998 00:51:07 All right. Just tellme where to turn.
999 00:51:11 Tell me where.
1000 00:51:12 - Fuck!- What?
1001 00:51:13 I've... I've used there.
1002 00:51:24 I robbed someone there. I...
1003 00:51:41 This place?
1004 00:51:42 - Yeah.- What's here?
1005 00:51:44 You cannot ask, Mom.
1006 00:51:45 If we're...
1007 00:51:47 If we're doing this together,
1008 00:51:49 you cannot ask.
1009 00:51:50 OK, I won't ask.
1010 00:51:52 I'll just... OK.
1011 00:51:53 No. No, Mom.
1012 00:51:59 But I'm not lettingyou out of my sight.
1013 00:52:01 You won't have to.Just stay here.
1014 00:52:25 Well.
1015 00:52:28 It's about time.
1016 00:52:30 Come in.
1017 00:52:41 Did you take...did you take my dog?
1018 00:52:57 No luck.
1019 00:52:58 Who was that?
1020 00:53:00 Mom, we had a deal.
1021 00:53:02 Let's go.
1022 00:53:12 - I recognize him.- Mom.
1023 00:53:14 I know I know him.
1024 00:53:18 God, he looks so familiar.
1025 00:53:21 Mr. Richman.
1026 00:53:22 Your history teacher?
1027 00:53:23 Yeah.
1028 00:53:30 His mother had cancer.
1029 00:53:31 Hospice.
1030 00:53:33 He had lots of oxy.Jars full, and endless supply.
1031 00:53:39 We had an arrangement.
1032 00:53:46 Oh, God.
1033 00:53:48 Oh, my God.
1034 00:53:52 Oh, that piece of shit.
1035 00:54:17 Mom, we gottakeep going.
1036 00:54:56 I think it's...
1037 00:55:00 What's here?
1038 00:55:01 Maggie's dad livesin one of these.
1039 00:55:06 Why would hetake Ponce?
1040 00:55:09 Who hates me more?
1041 00:55:19 It's one of these.
1042 00:55:34 That's him.
1043 00:55:43 No Ponce.
1044 00:55:54 Heartbreaking, that.
1045 00:55:58 Sometimes it catches.
1046 00:56:00 - Why don't you let me try?- I got it.
1047 00:56:04 Just... you're being tooherky-jerky with it.
1048 00:56:05 I'm not beingherky-jerky.
1049 00:56:07 Sweetie, I'm notcriticizing you.
1050 00:56:08 I'm just saying.
1051 00:56:10 - Mom, I know how to...- I don't... apparently not this exact seatbelt
1052 00:56:12 - you know how to put on.- Holy...!
1053 00:56:14 - Shit!- Oh, my God!
1054 00:56:16 What the fuck areyou doing here?
1055 00:56:19 You fucking junkiepiece of shit!
1056 00:56:21 Get the fuck out!
1057 00:56:22 Oh, the fuck?!
1058 00:56:30 We are going tohave to talk about this.
1059 00:56:32 I mean, I get toask questions.
1060 00:56:34 I get...
1061 00:56:36 I'm gonna have to explainthe window to Neal.
1062 00:56:38 He tried to bash inmy head, and he should.
1063 00:56:42 Don't say that.
1064 00:56:43 If you were him,you'd want me dead
1065 00:56:45 for what I did.
1066 00:56:47 All right, well, then you'regoing to have to help me here.
1067 00:56:49 What did you do?
1068 00:57:08 Who are welooking for?
1069 00:57:10 You'll know when I know.
1070 00:57:15 Thank you.
1071 00:57:27 I got Maggie hooked.
1072 00:57:37 I told her howgreat it was.
1073 00:57:42 Did you tie her down andstick a needle in her arm?
1074 00:57:44 - No, but...- And, at that time,
1075 00:57:46 didn't you think it wasthe best thing ever?
1076 00:57:52 Then, youtold her the truth.
1077 00:57:54 At that time,that was your truth.
1078 00:57:58 But it was wrong.
1079 00:57:59 Didn't you just wanther to be happy?
1080 00:58:02 This... this is so twisted.
1081 00:58:04 Well, what didyou want her to feel?
1082 00:58:08 Do you hearyourself right now?
1083 00:58:11 What did you wanther to feel?
1084 00:58:20 Safe.
1085 00:58:24 Loved.
1086 00:58:26 Alive. Whole.
1087 00:58:31 Something that nobody...
1088 00:58:33 not even you could ever...
1089 00:58:36 make me feel.
1090 00:58:42 OK.
1091 00:58:47 You know whatyou did wrong.
1092 00:58:51 You lived,and she didn't.
1093 00:58:55 And we'll never know why.
1094 00:58:58 It should've been me.
1095 00:59:00 No.
1096 00:59:03 You ready to order?
1097 00:59:05 Um, yes, I will haveyou soup of the day
1098 00:59:09 and a combo, please.
1099 00:59:16 Hi, honey, I wasabout to call you.
1100 00:59:18 I'm going out of my mind.Where are you?
1101 00:59:22 Um, I'm... I'm with Ben.
1102 00:59:24 It took me a while to findfind him, but I did, and, uh,
1103 00:59:28 We're justgetting a bite.
1104 00:59:29 - Daddy.- We're supposed to be a united front.
1105 00:59:32 We are.You just have to trust me.
1106 00:59:35 Well, you're makingthat very hard.
1107 00:59:36 You need to come home.
1108 00:59:38 Not without Ponce.
1109 00:59:39 Those kids are wakingup with their dog.
1110 00:59:43 And there's no needfor cops because
1111 00:59:45 we've got this,Ben and I.
1112 00:59:47 Don't we, Ben?
1113 00:59:48 You've got this.
1114 00:59:49 - You and the drug addict. You got this.- Daddy?
1115 00:59:51 Please...
1116 00:59:54 Baby.
1117 00:59:55 Here's an ideal, Neal.
1118 00:59:57 Why don't you takecare of our kids?
1119 00:59:59 And I'll deal with mine.
1120 01:00:00 Hm?
1121 01:00:02 I'm going to bed.
1122 01:00:05 Neal.
1123 01:00:13 What?
1124 01:00:15 He's a bit of a dick.
1125 01:00:17 Wow.
1126 01:00:18 Weren't you justcomplaining?
1127 01:00:19 No, I can thinkor say about him
1128 01:00:23 whatever I want becausehe is my husband,
1129 01:00:25 and I love him,but you...
1130 01:00:28 God, you clearlydon't get it.
1131 01:00:30 You're here,
1132 01:00:32 and without Neal,you wouldn't be.
1133 01:00:35 Mm, don't be so sure.
1134 01:00:36 How many rehabsis it now?
1135 01:00:38 I couldn't've paid for it.
1136 01:00:39 Insurance won't anymore.
1137 01:00:40 The governmentdoesn't give a fuck.
1138 01:00:42 And, heaven help youif you're poor,
1139 01:00:45 which, because of Neal,we aren't anymore.
1140 01:00:48 He took out a second mortgage onthe house to pay for you this time.
1141 01:00:53 The only thing you shouldsay about Neal is thank you.
1142 01:00:58 No way, man.
1143 01:00:59 Go!
1144 01:01:01 - Relax.- No, I'm not relaxing. Go.
1145 01:01:03 I said get out.
1146 01:01:04 What is it?
1147 01:01:05 Oh, shit.
1148 01:01:07 What's going on?
1149 01:01:28 Who'd you tell?
1150 01:01:29 About what?
1151 01:01:30 - That I'm back.- Everyone knows you're back.
1152 01:01:32 'Cause of you.
1153 01:01:33 Where's my dog?
1154 01:01:34 Who took my dog?
1155 01:01:36 Oh, so you can steal otherpeople's shit all you want?
1156 01:01:37 But someone stealsyours you get all holy?
1157 01:01:40 OK, was it Tommy?
1158 01:01:43 No.
1159 01:01:44 Was it Bumgarner?
1160 01:01:45 Jail.
1161 01:01:46 Was it Clayton?
1162 01:01:55 Who's that?
1163 01:01:58 My mom.
1164 01:02:01 Oh, oh, hey, Mrs. B.
1165 01:02:03 Long time.
1166 01:02:05 Spencer?
1167 01:02:06 I... I go by Spider now, Mrs. B.
1168 01:02:08 Feels more like me.
1169 01:02:11 You look terrible.
1170 01:02:14 You always say itlike it is, Mrs. B.
1171 01:02:19 Oh, my God.
1172 01:02:21 I'm sorry, Mrs. B.
1173 01:02:36 Oh, God, that little shit.
1174 01:02:38 It's okay.
1175 01:02:39 Let me just help.
1176 01:02:41 - It's not helping.- OK.
1177 01:02:43 I know who has Ponce.
1178 01:02:45 - Well, that's great. That's something.- No, no.
1179 01:02:48 It's the person Ihoped it wouldn't be.
1180 01:03:00 It's gonna take more.
1181 01:03:03 That's my daily limit.
1182 01:03:05 I can write a check, but...
1183 01:03:07 these aren't checkpeople, are they?
1184 01:03:11 No.
1185 01:03:16 Take this.
1186 01:03:20 It's worth a lot.
1187 01:03:22 It's just a thing.
1188 01:03:28 I'm sorry.
1189 01:03:31 I never liked it.
1190 01:03:41 Turn your lights off.
1191 01:03:44 All right. Let's...You know what?
1192 01:03:45 Let's just... let's justturn right around
1193 01:03:48 because Ponce was a rescue,and we had a good run.
1194 01:03:50 You did notjust say that.
1195 01:03:52 Yes, I did.Ponce is just a dog.
1196 01:03:53 I love five people,and Ponce is two of them.
1197 01:03:56 OK, well, he isa pee in the house,
1198 01:03:58 crap on the carpet dog,
1199 01:03:59 and you areso much more.
1200 01:04:00 Fuck, what are we doing?This is madness.
1201 01:04:03 No. No, this is manageable.
1202 01:04:05 It's Clayton.We go way back.
1203 01:04:07 I'll pay up,
1204 01:04:08 and maybe we'llhave a good laugh.
1205 01:04:09 You don't believe that.
1206 01:04:11 If I don't deal with this,
1207 01:04:12 then it could be worse nexttime for you and the family.
1208 01:04:18 OK, you go in,pay the man,
1209 01:04:21 get Ponce, and getright back out.
1210 01:04:26 You're coming out.
1211 01:04:28 Yeah, I'm coming out.
1212 01:04:34 Be careful.
1213 01:04:39 Lock the door.
1214 01:04:40 Lock the door.
1215 01:05:28 Just be calm.
1216 01:05:32 I can't be calm.
1217 01:05:33 I'll just go in.
1218 01:06:01 Mom.
1219 01:06:02 Mom, what are you doing?
1220 01:06:04 Oh, my God.
1221 01:06:05 Get over here.
1222 01:06:06 What happened?Where's Ponce?
1223 01:06:07 All right, I got in,and I got out.
1224 01:06:09 And that's the good news.
1225 01:06:10 What's the bad?
1226 01:06:11 I just need youto drive, OK?
1227 01:06:13 Let me do the thinking.
1228 01:06:14 OK.
1229 01:06:16 Oh, Jesus.
1230 01:06:24 Oh, my God.
1231 01:06:26 Easy. Easy, Mom.
1232 01:06:28 You're trying too hard.
1233 01:06:30 OK, of course I am.
1234 01:06:31 It's what I do.
1235 01:06:33 Stop. Stop, you'reflooding the engine.
1236 01:06:35 You've gottagive it a rest.
1237 01:06:36 Oh, sorry.
1238 01:06:37 Clayton doesn't dealout of here anymore.
1239 01:06:39 He's gone up the chain,and he's not happy with me.
1240 01:06:42 Oh, my God.
1241 01:06:43 But I got a plan,so I need you to listen to me.
1242 01:06:46 I can't help but think ifI hadn't left your dad...
1243 01:06:48 He left us, so justplease listen to me.
1244 01:06:49 You took it sohard you blamed yourself.
1245 01:06:51 OK, just stop.
1246 01:06:52 It was somethingthat... it changed you.
1247 01:06:54 Just move... move over.
1248 01:06:59 A boy needs a dad.
1249 01:07:03 A boy needs a dad.
1250 01:07:04 Mom.
1251 01:07:05 No, it... that'swhat you needed.
1252 01:07:07 Not that dad.
1253 01:07:12 Fuck, we need gas.
1254 01:07:15 You tried so hardto keep me happy.
1255 01:07:17 And what kid wouldn't crackunder the weight of that.
1256 01:07:20 Mom.
1257 01:07:23 What?
1258 01:07:24 What is it?
1259 01:07:40 You need to go home.
1260 01:07:41 Not without you.
1261 01:07:43 You cannot gowhere I'm going.
1262 01:07:44 It's not safe.
1263 01:07:45 Then I'm definitely going.
1264 01:07:46 No. No.
1265 01:07:48 Go home.
1266 01:07:49 I'll be there soon.
1267 01:07:50 No, I don't believe you.
1268 01:07:51 OK, so now youdon't believe me.
1269 01:07:53 No, I don't.
1270 01:07:55 Mom, you don't knowwhat you're doing.
1271 01:07:57 - I do.- You don't know what you're doing.
1272 01:08:00 I'm not worth it.
1273 01:08:01 If you really knew me,you'd be done with me.
1274 01:08:03 No, honey, I wouldn't.
1275 01:08:04 - And I know you...- No.
1276 01:08:06 - I know you.- You don't, Mom. You don't know me.
1277 01:08:08 You don't.
1278 01:08:10 My sponsor told menot to come back.
1279 01:08:13 He said it wasa shit idea.
1280 01:08:15 That I was not ready.
1281 01:08:17 That's not true.
1282 01:08:18 Yes, it is.It is true.
1283 01:08:19 And I didn't get thedrugs from the girl.
1284 01:08:22 They were in the attic
1285 01:08:23 above Liam andLacey's room.
1286 01:08:26 And within an hourof coming home,
1287 01:08:28 they were in my pocket.
1288 01:08:33 I told you notto believe me,
1289 01:08:35 and you didn'tfucking listen.
1290 01:08:39 Do you... I mean, I could...I could... I could go on.
1291 01:08:41 Do you wantme to go on?
1292 01:08:43 There's so much more.
1293 01:08:44 I killed Maggie.
1294 01:08:45 - It's not working.- I killed Maggie!
1295 01:08:47 It's not working.
1296 01:08:50 Please, go home!
1297 01:08:51 You have to gohome, please.
1298 01:08:54 Please. I'm notworth it, please.
1299 01:08:57 Please, go home.
1300 01:08:58 I will not leave you.
1301 01:09:32 Get whatever you want.
1302 01:09:41 Oh, and I knowyou are not open,
1303 01:09:43 so you havea Merry Christmas!
1304 01:09:45 You, too.
1305 01:09:46 Can you get me thatblue drink I really like?
1306 01:09:48 Yeah.
1307 01:09:51 Mom, you're the best.
1308 01:10:00 So, its just thesetwo and one more.
1309 01:10:06 Honey, which one is it?
1310 01:10:07 Because there is morethan one choice.
1311 01:10:15 Ben?
1312 01:10:31 Hey, it's Ben.You know what to do.
1313 01:10:35 No. No, I don't, Ben.I don't know what to do.
1314 01:10:38 Get fucking backhere right now.
1315 01:10:47 No!
1316 01:11:17 I'm sorry.
1317 01:11:22 I... I... I didn't knowwhere else to go.
1318 01:11:25 He took my car.
1319 01:11:28 And he's gone somewhereand I don't know what to do.
1320 01:11:35 Come... come in.
1321 01:11:44 I can't tell my husband.He'll call the cops.
1322 01:11:47 Someone took our dog,
1323 01:11:49 and Ben's just outtrying to find our dog.
1324 01:11:52 Come on, Holly.
1325 01:11:54 He's an addict.
1326 01:11:56 And he's out there.
1327 01:12:04 Stay put.
1328 01:12:25 Holly, you'll needto listen closely.
1329 01:12:28 He has a shelf-lifeof 18 to 24 months,
1330 01:12:31 and it's been overtwo years, but...
1331 01:12:33 It should be strong enoughif it's the only kit available.
1332 01:12:36 I'm such a smug bitch.
1333 01:12:37 I'd never thoughtI'd need this.
1334 01:12:40 First you pull offthe yellow caps.
1335 01:12:43 You screw in theapplicator tip.
1336 01:12:45 You take off this cap,
1337 01:12:47 and insert it here.
1338 01:12:48 Half a dose ineach nostril.
1339 01:12:50 I c... I can't. I don'tknow what I'm doing.
1340 01:12:53 I'd... If you couldn'tsave Maggie...
1341 01:12:55 We can't save them.
1342 01:12:59 But you'll hate yourselfif you don't try.
1343 01:13:15 Go find him.
1344 01:14:18 Now's starting tofeel like Christmas.
1345 01:14:23 Here.
1346 01:14:28 This is my mom's.
1347 01:14:31 And it's worth a lot.
1348 01:14:37 I'm good for the rest,and I'll make it right.
1349 01:14:44 Yeah, well...
1350 01:14:47 It's not just aboutthe money, Burns.
1351 01:14:51 I mean, I had big plansfor you. You were my guy.
1352 01:14:55 I know.
1353 01:15:04 Look, just giveme my dog back,
1354 01:15:05 and leave my familyout of this because
1355 01:15:08 they didn't do anything.
1356 01:15:09 I wish it were that easy.
1357 01:15:11 It can be.
1358 01:15:18 Fuck it. It's Christmas, right?
1359 01:15:24 All right. Come on.
1360 01:15:25 Take this.
1361 01:15:28 All I need is for you to dome just one more little favor.
1362 01:15:36 What's that?
1363 01:16:04 Merry Christmas.How can I help you?
1364 01:16:06 So, I have this, and it's expired.I need it replaced.
1365 01:16:20 Excuse me, ma'am.
1366 01:16:23 Ma'am.
1367 01:16:24 We don't carry this.
1368 01:16:27 What do you meanyou don't carry it?
1369 01:16:28 You need to tryanother pharmacy.
1370 01:16:30 No, you're theonly one open.
1371 01:16:31 What do you meanyou don't carry it?
1372 01:16:33 It's our policy not to encourageirresponsible behavior.
1373 01:16:38 All right, well, then why don'tyou discontinue the oxys,
1374 01:16:41 the perk 30s, and the...the... the benzo cheerios
1375 01:16:44 or whatever you call them.
1376 01:16:46 If you'd like to file acomplaint, there is a...
1377 01:16:47 I'm fucking filing one!
1378 01:16:52 God, fucking damn it.
1379 01:17:25 Yo. Yo, yo, yo.
1380 01:18:08 Spare some change?
1381 01:18:20 Mrs. B. Mrs. B, I'm... I'm...I'm... I'm not gonna hurt you.
1382 01:18:23 I'm not gonna hurt you.I-I-I'm t-too sick.
1383 01:18:27 Spencer.
1384 01:18:29 Get in the car.
1385 01:18:35 Where is he?
1386 01:18:38 I'm sorry, Mrs. B.I-I-I'm not...
1387 01:18:40 I'm not doingmy best thinking.
1388 01:18:43 I need... I need to get well.
1389 01:18:45 You mean get high.
1390 01:18:46 Fuck, there'sno high anymore.
1391 01:18:49 I just don't want...I just don't wanna be sick.
1392 01:18:52 Help me. H-Help me.
1393 01:18:54 I just... I just... I just needa little... a little money.
1394 01:18:57 OK, I will help you,but you have to help me.
1395 01:19:02 Where can I find him?
1396 01:19:03 He used to run for Clayton.
1397 01:19:06 You don't... you don'tleave Clayton.
1398 01:19:09 That's where Ben went.
1399 01:19:10 Shit.
1400 01:19:12 - I j... I just snitched.- No, I-I-I...
1401 01:19:14 I need more. Tell meeverything you know.
1402 01:19:16 I can't.
1403 01:19:27 You can.
1404 01:19:32 - Where is he?- OK.
1405 01:19:35 Go to the pawn shopacross the bridge.
1406 01:19:39 It's in Yonkers.Ask around.
1407 01:19:42 And that's all I could... Icould tell you Mrs. B.
1408 01:19:45 Anything else,and they'll kill me.
1409 01:19:47 OK?
1410 01:19:49 You said you'dhelp me get well.
1411 01:19:54 Your mother andI were friends
1412 01:19:56 when you andBen were babies.
1413 01:19:58 I changed your diaper.
1414 01:19:59 This is so fucked.
1415 01:20:01 Yeah, Mrs. B. It is.
1416 01:20:02 Call you mother, and tellher that you're not dead.
1417 01:20:27 Honey, are you OK?
1418 01:20:28 Just... Just tellme you're OK.
1419 01:20:30 You need to be calm.
1420 01:20:32 I'm calm. Are you OK?
1421 01:20:35 Yup, we are on it.
1422 01:20:38 Just totally safe,
1423 01:20:39 and closing in.
1424 01:20:42 OK. OK.
1425 01:20:43 Is that my mom?
1426 01:20:44 Where are you? BecauseI'm coming to get you.
1427 01:20:46 No, Neal.
1428 01:20:48 - Is that my mom?- OK. Yes, it is.
1429 01:20:49 Can I pleasetalk to her?
1430 01:20:51 Yes, you may.Hold on one second.
1431 01:20:55 Mommy?
1432 01:21:07 You need to be in bed.
1433 01:21:08 Ben and I have thisthis under control,
1434 01:21:10 and we will see youin the morning.
1435 01:21:13 Why are you lying?
1436 01:21:15 I'm not.
1437 01:21:17 Mom, I'm the one who set upthe phones for everybody.
1438 01:21:22 You're not with Ben.
1439 01:21:23 Ben is in a wholeother town.
1440 01:21:25 And I've been callingyou and texting you
1441 01:21:28 and you won't pick up.
1442 01:21:29 And I didn't tell Nealbecause he'll call the cops,
1443 01:21:32 but now I'm freaking outbecause you lied to me.
1444 01:21:37 We split up to covermore ground.
1445 01:21:42 I don't believe you.
1446 01:21:43 Ivy?
1447 01:21:44 What am I... what amI supposed to do?
1448 01:21:47 All right, sweetheart.
1449 01:21:48 You need to becalm and hang up.
1450 01:21:50 Deal with Neal.
1451 01:21:51 Call me back assoon as you can
1452 01:21:53 from your own phone.
1453 01:21:54 All right?
1454 01:21:56 Yeah?
1455 01:21:57 Ivy?
1456 01:21:59 OK.
1457 01:22:34 Hi, honey.
1458 01:22:35 Hi, Mom.
1459 01:22:37 OK, I want you to help mefind your brother, yeah?
1460 01:22:39 Keep going, and, um, ifyou turn left on Millwood.
1461 01:22:46 Keep going straight...
1462 01:22:49 and turn righton 23rd street.
1463 01:22:51 Do you see that?
1464 01:22:52 This is 23rd street,right? OK.
1465 01:22:57 OK, and, um...
1466 01:22:59 just keep goingstraight for a bit.
1467 01:23:03 You're doing great, Ivy.
1468 01:23:06 You're getting really close.
1469 01:23:10 OK, turn beforethe intersection.
1470 01:23:12 Mom, turn now.
1471 01:23:21 You're really close.Do you see him?
1472 01:23:26 Mom?
1473 01:23:29 He should be right there.
1474 01:23:33 I'm gonna call his phone.
1475 01:23:35 OK, good idea.
1476 01:23:41 OK, it's ringing.
1477 01:23:47 Do you hear it?
1478 01:23:51 I'll call you right back.
1479 01:23:53 Don't hang up.
1480 01:23:54 No. Mom?
1481 01:24:17 I got him.
1482 01:24:19 OK, God.
1483 01:24:20 So, so, so, we'regood, sweetie.
1484 01:24:22 Can I just talk tohim really quick?
1485 01:24:25 We gotta keep moving.
1486 01:24:26 We're going to be homeso soon with Ponce.
1487 01:24:31 Let me talk to Ben.
1488 01:24:32 No, we gotta keepmoving, honey.
1489 01:24:34 No, Mom.
1490 01:24:35 Sweetie, listen, I just... Ineed you to go to sleep.
1491 01:24:40 I can tell there'ssomething wrong.
1492 01:24:42 Everything's going tobe OK. Just trust me.
1493 01:24:46 Mom.
1494 01:24:47 OK, sweetie.
1495 01:24:50 OK, I'll see you.
1496 01:25:08 Excuse me.
1497 01:25:11 Excuse me.
1498 01:25:14 I'm looking for my son.
1499 01:25:17 His name is Ben.I know he was just here.
1500 01:25:24 Over by the river.
1501 01:25:27 That's wherethey all end up.
1502 01:25:49 Hey! Get up!
1503 01:26:22 Ben?
1504 01:26:25 Ben.
1505 01:26:53 Mmm, you did good.
1506 01:26:56 Hey, he did good, right?
1507 01:26:59 You made a lot ofpeople happy today.
1508 01:27:06 For all your hard work.
1509 01:27:07 Just give me my dog, man.
1510 01:27:56 Holly.
1511 01:27:57 Holly?
1512 01:27:59 I lost him.
1513 01:28:01 What?
1514 01:28:03 I didn't want totell you I've been...
1515 01:28:06 lying to you.
1516 01:28:11 I've looked everywhere,and I-I-I can't find him.
1517 01:28:16 But I tried.
1518 01:28:22 I know you did.
1519 01:28:24 I lost him a longtime ago. I just...
1520 01:28:28 I don't know where tolook, and I'm so tired.
1521 01:28:32 And I don't knowwhat to do.
1522 01:28:36 Tell me where you are.I'm coming to get you.
1523 01:28:39 And we'll findhim together.
1524 01:28:44 No, I'm co... I'mcoming home.
1525 01:28:50 I'm just gonnacome home.
1526 01:29:03 Hey, boy. Hey, boy.
1527 01:30:33 Anything else?
1528 01:31:07 Here, bud.
1529 01:32:03 Excuse me.
1530 01:32:05 Excuse me. I'm sorry.I need help, please.
1531 01:32:06 Ma'am, need towait your turn.
1532 01:32:08 No, I can't... I can't wait my turn becausemy son, who's... he's not a bad kid.
1533 01:32:10 No, no, no, no, I can't. There'snot time for that right now.
1534 01:32:13 He stole my car.
1535 01:32:14 Please.
1536 01:32:15 Excuse me, sir.
1537 01:32:17 Ma'am, hold on a second.
1538 01:32:18 - Can you find...?- Hello. Hold on one second.
1539 01:32:20 Ma'am, standing there
1540 01:32:22 - won't help you...- I just need you to
1541 01:32:24 please find my sonand arrest him!
1542 01:32:27 I'm begging you!
1543 01:32:30 [Ponce barking
1544 01:32:40 If you just wanna calm down andhave a seat, I'll start the form.
1545 01:32:44 Thank you.I'm sorry.
1546 01:32:59 Hello?
1547 01:33:47 Good boy.Good boy.
1548 01:33:50 Oh, my God.
1549 01:33:52 Honey?
1550 01:33:54 Wake up, Ben.
1551 01:33:56 Wake up, honey.
1552 01:33:57 Come on.
1553 01:34:01 OK.
1554 01:34:02 All right.
1555 01:34:04 We've got this. OK.
1556 01:34:06 All right.
1557 01:34:12 Come on.
1558 01:34:14 Come on. Hang in there.
1559 01:34:15 Come back to me.
1560 01:34:16 Come on.
1561 01:34:18 Fuck.
1562 01:34:23 Just stay with me.
1563 01:34:27 OK. OK.
1564 01:34:29 OK. Ready?
1565 01:34:36 OK.
1566 01:34:37 Wake up.
1567 01:34:38 Wake up.
1568 01:34:43 Please.
1569 01:34:58 Please. Please, come back.
1570 01:35:00 Come back.Please, come back.
1571 01:35:02 Please.
1572 01:35:09 Oh, my boy.Please.
1573 01:35:11 Please. I knowyou can do this.
1574 01:35:20 Ben.
1575 01:35:23 My boy. Please.