最幸运的女孩 Luckiest Girl Alive(2022)(EN)Subtitles
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1 00:00:27 ["Sunny" by Blake Swann playing faintly]
2 00:00:34 [woman] It's 2015,and people still act like marriage
3 00:00:37 is some sort ofcrowning achievement for women.
4 00:00:41 That is a trap I did not fall into.
5 00:00:43 Some people prefer to really feel likethey're holding a knife in their hands.
6 00:00:47 [grunts, chuckles]
7 00:00:49 [woman] I dove in headfirst.
8 00:00:51 [salesman]Most professional chefs, they prefer…
9 00:00:53 [woman] I don't normally quiverfor cutlery,
10 00:00:55 but I'm getting married in six weeks,so here we are.
11 00:00:58 -[fiancé] Does that mean it's sharper?-[salesman] Scary sharp.
12 00:01:01 And she ain't cheap,but she is the superior blade.
13 00:01:05 Well, baby, we can't start married lifewith inferior blades.
14 00:01:09 So you wanna choose a knifethat feels comfortable in your hand.
15 00:01:13 What do you think of the Zwilling?
16 00:01:17 [ominous music sting]
17 00:01:19 [woman breathing heavily]
18 00:01:21 [people panting]
19 00:01:22 [muffled screams]
20 00:01:24 [people panicking]
21 00:01:26 [woman] Snap out of it, psycho.
22 00:01:27 [inhales sharply]
23 00:01:30 It's heavier.
24 00:01:31 [salesman] She has the touch.
25 00:01:33 Oh… Well…
26 00:01:34 I think being a petite woman,you'll find the Miyabi easier to manage.
27 00:01:41 [woman] I've managedto not eat lunch for six years
28 00:01:43 just to have this joker call me petite.
29 00:01:46 Petite is what they call short fat girls.
30 00:01:49 -[beeps]-I should know. I used to be one.
31 00:01:53 -[mimics gunshot]-[fiancé laughs]
32 00:01:55 [intriguing music playing]
33 00:02:00 [indistinct chatter]
34 00:02:01 Text your mom.
35 00:02:02 -Let her know we're officially registered.-Okay.
36 00:02:04 [woman] Luke Harrison the Fourthplayed D1 lacrosse at Colgate,
37 00:02:08 kite surfs on Nantucket,
38 00:02:09 and skis in Vail because Aspenis lousy with the nouveau riche.
39 00:02:13 [intriguing music continues]
40 00:02:22 [woman] Mmm.
41 00:02:23 He calls me "babe"with the finest of intentions.
42 00:02:26 -Let's go, babe.-Yeah.
43 00:02:29 Heretofore, it is his birthright to marrya blond insect of Norwegian descent
44 00:02:34 with a gender-ambiguous name,like Landry or Devon,
45 00:02:38 who can spot my grift a mile away.
46 00:02:41 Hey, can we get pizza?
47 00:02:45 Who are you, and what have you donewith my fiancée?
48 00:02:48 [woman] I'm not to the manor born,
49 00:02:49 but I have somethingno trust fund can buy…
50 00:02:53 the edge.
51 00:02:54 It doesn't take much in Luke's world.
52 00:02:56 Love your work, hate babies,even the cute ones,
53 00:03:00 have a few lurid secrets,
54 00:03:02 and be eternally grateful that Lukeknows all of them and still loves me.
55 00:03:08 [Luke] Um, my mom is askingif the invites went out.
56 00:03:10 Mm. Yeah, once I approve the font.
57 00:03:14 -Once you approve the font?-Yes.
58 00:03:16 Oh. Once Ani approves the font.
59 00:03:18 -Thank you.-[phone chimes]
60 00:03:22 [phone chimes]
61 00:03:23 Oh, she's sayingthey should go out six weeks before.
62 00:03:26 -Jesus, are we at six weeks already?-Yeah.
63 00:03:29 [Luke] Whoa, we are at six weeks.
64 00:03:31 [ominous music sting]
65 00:03:34 [breathing heavily]
66 00:03:36 [server] All done here?
67 00:03:38 -Yeah, maybe just a box, please.-Sure.
68 00:03:42 [indistinct chatter]
69 00:03:44 -Loo.-[Ani] Okay.
70 00:03:49 [unsettling music playing]
71 00:03:56 [Ani] Someone once called me an animal.
72 00:03:59 One wrong move and Luke will see it too.
73 00:04:07 Hmm.
74 00:04:09 [Ani clears throat]
75 00:04:12 You can just take that. Thank you.
76 00:04:21 [tense music playing]
77 00:04:23 [clatters]
78 00:04:26 Jesus. What happened?
79 00:04:28 Waitress spilled sodaall over the pizza and my dress.
80 00:04:31 [Luke] Oh no.
81 00:04:33 It's gonna be okay, babe. Okay?
82 00:04:36 Come on, I'll help you.
83 00:04:39 Baby, I love you.
84 00:04:41 Oh! Oh my God.
85 00:04:43 -I'm so full.-You hardly ate anything.
86 00:04:46 [Ani] Okay, so maybe I keepsome secrets from him,
87 00:04:49 but no one has ever made me feel so safe.
88 00:04:52 [Luke] I'm proud of youfor eating carbs, babe.
89 00:04:54 I wanna see every one of youdripping in sweat.
90 00:04:58 Nothing is so bad that you can't do itfor ten more seconds.
91 00:05:01 ["Keep It Movin'"(feat. Rell Rock) playing]
92 00:05:03 [breathing heavily]
93 00:05:05 [door creaks]
94 00:05:06 [glass shards crunching]
95 00:05:07 ["Keep It Movin'" (feat. Rell Rock) byStanton Warriors & Tony Quattro continues]
96 00:05:12 [grunting]
97 00:05:13 -[traffic noise]-Ugh! Nineteen minutes?
98 00:05:16 Some people have jobs to get to.
99 00:05:18 I mean, not me, but some people.
100 00:05:20 But I can't be late today.
101 00:05:22 Oh my God. Are you meetingthe documentary director today?
102 00:05:25 [Ani] Yes.
103 00:05:25 Okay, well,you're not gonna be late on my watch.
104 00:05:28 [Ani] Nell Rutherford has been fosteringme since freshman year of college.
105 00:05:32 I know you never take the subway.
106 00:05:34 Oh God, no, no, no.I-I really-- I really hate this.
107 00:05:36 Okay. By your side.
108 00:05:38 [Ani] Nell is a natural blondwith a trust fund.
109 00:05:41 I'm a try-hard former financial-aid kid.
110 00:05:44 We both hate where we came from.
111 00:05:46 Your mom's coming this weekend, right?
112 00:05:48 Oh, yes.
113 00:05:49 She's been to TJ Maxx three times
114 00:05:51 to try to find an outfit for my fittingat Saks Fifth Avenue on the 5th Avenue.
115 00:05:57 Wow, what is the opposite of a legend?
116 00:06:02 Okay, I think this one is the most you.
117 00:06:06 [Ani] What? Only You Pro?
118 00:06:08 [woman] Oh.
119 00:06:15 Would you pick it?
120 00:06:16 I mean, I'm not getting marrieduntil we have a woman for president,
121 00:06:20 so I guess we'll know soon enough.
122 00:06:23 Uh…
123 00:06:24 [unsettling music playing]
124 00:06:26 [train honking]
125 00:06:29 [unsettling music continues]
126 00:06:31 I, uh… I'm still scaredI'm making a mistake.
127 00:06:35 Getting married?
128 00:06:37 No. No, like is Only You Prothe font of a trash slut
129 00:06:41 who doesn't know how to passthe salt and pepper shakers together.
130 00:06:44 Oh my God, there is no such thingas a slutty font. It doesn't exist.
131 00:06:48 God, I can't breathe.
132 00:06:50 Oh my God.
133 00:06:54 -[gunshot]-[glass shattering]
134 00:06:55 -[uneasy music playing]-[train stops]
135 00:06:58 It's okay.
136 00:06:59 [Ani] Oh my God. Oh my God.
137 00:07:01 This is normal. Okay?This happens all the time.
138 00:07:03 [conductor] We are experiencing a delay…
139 00:07:05 -It's no big deal.-…due to train traffic ahead of us.
140 00:07:08 Thank you for your patience.
141 00:07:10 -You okay?-[power turns on]
142 00:07:11 There we go. See?
143 00:07:13 [conductor]Next stop 34th Street-Herald Square.
144 00:07:16 -And we're moving. Okay.-Oh my God.
145 00:07:18 [upbeat music playing]
146 00:07:34 [elevator dings]
147 00:07:37 [Ani] Ugh! Eleanor Whitman.Brought in from The Atlantic
148 00:07:40 to elevate the overly-sexfashion glossy where I work.
149 00:07:44 How was your weekend?
150 00:07:46 [scoffs] I feel like I ran a half-marathonthrough Williams-Sonoma.
151 00:07:49 -Williams-Sonoma?-Yeah.
152 00:07:51 You should register for a few piecesat Scully & Scully if you can.
153 00:07:54 I'm sure Luke's familywould go in on them.
154 00:07:56 [Ani] The fuck is Scully & Scully?
155 00:07:59 [scoffs] Obsessed with Scully & Scully.
156 00:08:02 My bedroom sconces are from there.
157 00:08:03 -[elevator dings]-Mmm.
158 00:08:05 [elevator opens]
159 00:08:09 [Ani] Eleanor gets to write about topicswith gravitas,
160 00:08:12 like the wage gapand women in Afghanistan.
161 00:08:15 I'm on another equally important beat.
162 00:08:18 Your voice, Miss FaNelli…
163 00:08:21 is simply peerless.
164 00:08:25 [Ani's boss] My jaw hurtsafter reading that. [laughs]
165 00:08:31 [Ani] This is what sells our magazine.
166 00:08:34 Apparently men's pleasureis of global importance.
167 00:08:40 [indistinct chatter]
168 00:08:48 [phone ringing]
169 00:08:52 So a recent studyin the American Journal of Public Health
170 00:08:54 found that last year,30% of sexual assault survivors
171 00:08:59 had to pay $940 for their own rape kits.
172 00:09:02 That's a girl's whole paycheck.
173 00:09:03 Right. So I was thinking
174 00:09:05 "The Real Cost of Sexual Assault"as the cover line.
175 00:09:07 Oh! Lavender. Retch.
176 00:09:11 Hmm. [sighs]
177 00:09:13 How about, "When Your RapeCosts More than Your Rent"?
178 00:09:17 Now that gets us on The Today Show.
179 00:09:21 Mm… [grunts]
180 00:09:23 Miss FaNelli, give me something skankyto keep the lights on.
181 00:09:27 [chuckles] Okay.
182 00:09:29 Let's see, skanky…
183 00:09:31 [inhales sharply]
184 00:09:32 Okay, a new studyin the Journal of Kinesiology
185 00:09:35 found that nasal breathingis optimal for sports performance
186 00:09:39 and is used by someof the top athletes around the world.
187 00:09:41 So, "Five Weeks to an Olympian Blow Job:
188 00:09:46 Breathe Like a Top Athlete
189 00:09:48 to Last Longer and Go Deeper than His Ex."
190 00:09:54 [soft chuckle]
191 00:09:55 When I count my blessings,I count you twice.
192 00:09:58 -Draft by the end of the week?-Yeah.
193 00:10:01 -Thank you, everyone.-[indistinct chatter]
194 00:10:03 Come with me.
195 00:10:05 [indistinct chatter]
196 00:10:09 It's gonna be your name on the mastheadof The New York Times Magazine.
197 00:10:13 Lower than mine, but it beatsa Cuisinart for a wedding gift.
198 00:10:18 [Ani] I am this closeto becoming Ani Harrison,
199 00:10:21 senior editorat The New York Times Magazine,
200 00:10:24 to becoming someone people can respect.
201 00:10:29 [indistinct chatter]
202 00:10:31 [intriguing music playing]
203 00:10:37 Abstaining from lunch allows me to squatin Eleanor's office when I need it.
204 00:10:54 One day, I'll have a corner officewith my own insufferable display
205 00:10:58 of prestigiousand frankly phallic-looking awards.
206 00:11:02 Until then, I pretend I'm important.
207 00:11:11 [exhales sharply]
208 00:11:12 The rock was Luke's grandmother's.
209 00:11:14 Oh. Pardon me, his Nana's.
210 00:11:18 He told meI could reset it in a diamond band,
211 00:11:21 what all the girls are doing now.
212 00:11:23 Exactly why I will never.
213 00:11:25 I intend to send a very clear message.
214 00:11:28 This is an heirloom.
215 00:11:31 We don't just have money.We come from money.
216 00:11:35 -Take your best shot.-[door opens]
217 00:11:37 Hey, Ani. Good to see you again.
218 00:11:39 Sorry to make youcome all the way to Midtown.
219 00:11:41 Katie, thank you so much.
220 00:11:43 Can you please remind Benjaminthat I need the art
221 00:11:45 for the wage-gap story?
222 00:11:47 Um, the what story?
223 00:11:48 [Ani] The smart story I just made upto sound more impressive.
224 00:11:52 Ask Penelope.
225 00:11:56 -Sit, please.-I appreciate you making the time.
226 00:11:59 -[Ani] Mm-hmm.-Uh…
227 00:12:02 I know you said that the documentarywas not the right choice at the moment,
228 00:12:05 but there's been a pretty sizabledevelopment since the last time we spoke.
229 00:12:09 Your former classmate, Dean Barton,has signed on to be interviewed.
230 00:12:13 [Ani] Keep it the fuck together, FaNelli.
231 00:12:15 I guess it shouldn't be a surprisehe has a new book to promote.
232 00:12:17 I'm sure you saw his speechbefore Congress this summer.
233 00:12:20 [Ani] Only 200 times.
234 00:12:21 No.
235 00:12:23 Oh, it was a plea to tightenfirearm background checks in Pennsylvania.
236 00:12:27 [Ani] Your ring. Show him your ring.
237 00:12:29 I'm afraid I've been preoccupiedthis summer with planning the wedding
238 00:12:36 and the magazine's initiativewith Hillary's campaign.
239 00:12:40 I can't imagine what it's liketo have people grilling you about it
240 00:12:42 so many years later.
241 00:12:45 You're a survivor of the deadliestprivate-school shooting in history.
242 00:12:48 And the reason it continuesto captivate public interest
243 00:12:51 is because there are stillso many questions you never answered.
244 00:12:54 People wanna know were you a heroor an accomplice?
245 00:12:58 I had absolutely nothing to do with it.
246 00:12:59 -Then why does Dean say you did?-I don't know.
247 00:13:02 Don't you wanna tell your sideof the story?
248 00:13:04 -[door opens]-Miss FaNelli. Right at home, I see.
249 00:13:06 I need three to five cover line triesfor the simultaneous orgasm story
250 00:13:09 by the time I get back from lunch.
251 00:13:17 LoLo Vincent,editor-in-chief of The Women's Bible.
252 00:13:20 Aaron Wickersham, independent filmmaker.
253 00:13:22 Oh, that's right. I saw your short at theToronto Film Festival a few years back.
254 00:13:26 Are you our hot guy of the monthfor December?
255 00:13:29 Actually, I'm working on a documentaryabout gun violence in schools.
256 00:13:33 I'm hoping to talk to…
257 00:13:34 [Ani] Don't say it.
258 00:13:35 …TifAni.
259 00:13:37 Oh.
260 00:13:38 I always forget that's your name.
261 00:13:42 Ani's pithier.
262 00:13:49 My team has spent the last year
263 00:13:51 researching the incidentat your high school.
264 00:13:53 My intention is not to upset youby saying this,
265 00:13:55 but we've uncovereda very different side to the story.
266 00:13:58 I promise you,I'm only after the truth here.
267 00:14:01 I give you my word that our work togetherwill not cause you further harm.
268 00:14:04 [Ani] As long as you getyour sensational story.
269 00:14:06 [scoffs]
270 00:14:07 I'm sorry, but there's just no way thatyou can promise me something like that.
271 00:14:15 What if I said I believe you, Ani?
272 00:14:20 Thank you.
273 00:14:27 [pensive music playing]
274 00:14:34 [sighs]
275 00:14:35 [phone ringing]
276 00:14:37 [indistinct chatter]
277 00:14:47 [phone ringing]
278 00:14:50 [keyboard clacking]
279 00:14:54 [mouse clicks]
280 00:14:55 [somber music playing]
281 00:15:00 [mouse clicks]
282 00:15:02 [somber music continues]
283 00:15:06 [mouse clicks]
284 00:15:11 [Ani's mom]Oh, it looks like a castle, TifAni.
285 00:15:15 I always think they're gonna drivenicer cars in the Main Line.
286 00:15:17 It's such a hoity-toity area.
287 00:15:19 [exhales] Mom.
288 00:15:20 Hmm.
289 00:15:21 One hundred percent of the studentswho received this writing scholarship…
290 00:15:28 -Ended up at a tier-one university.-…ended up…
291 00:15:30 I know you think I'm a broken record,but college is where you meet the people
292 00:15:34 who are gonna be in your lifefor a very long time, TifAni,
293 00:15:37 and the caliber of menis just not there at a state school.
294 00:15:40 Okay, Mom.
295 00:15:42 This is it. This is the beginning.
296 00:15:44 Bye.
297 00:15:46 ["I Think I'm Paranoid"by Garbage playing]
298 00:15:48 [students chattering]
299 00:15:52 You're alreadythe prettiest girl in school.
300 00:15:54 [young Ani] Mom! Shh!
301 00:15:57 ♪ I don't think I like you much ♪
302 00:16:01 ♪ Heaven knows what a girl can do ♪
303 00:16:05 ♪ Heaven knows what you've got to prove ♪
304 00:16:08 ♪ I think I'm paranoid ♪
305 00:16:11 [Ani] I spent the first few weeksat the esteemed Brentley School
306 00:16:14 navigating the various cliques.
307 00:16:16 There were the popular kids…
308 00:16:18 -Hi.-Hi.
309 00:16:20 …the smart kids,
310 00:16:21 and everybody else.
311 00:16:23 Plus the very cool teacherwho noticed my talent right away.
312 00:16:27 "Holden is what we callan unreliable narrator,
313 00:16:29 someone whose versionof the truth can't be trusted."
314 00:16:33 That's a line from the exceptional essayby TifAni FaNelli.
315 00:16:37 Welcome to Brentley. Congratulations.
316 00:16:40 ♪ She's a genius in a bottle, baby ♪
317 00:16:42 -[girl] Stop.-[kids laugh]
318 00:16:43 [upbeat music playing]
319 00:16:46 Oh, thanks.
320 00:16:53 [Ani] The one thingthey all had that I didn't?
321 00:16:56 Pedigree.
322 00:16:58 Yo, Hilary.
323 00:16:59 -Yo, Dean.-Get me some Swedish Fish.
324 00:17:10 Oh.
325 00:17:12 Don't worry, I got you.
326 00:17:14 Uh… Don't use a tray.
327 00:17:18 -Thanks.-Yeah.
328 00:17:21 Okay.
329 00:17:27 Come on, come sit with us.
330 00:17:29 [young Dean] Liam! Over here.
331 00:17:31 Peyton, take that.
332 00:17:32 -[girl] Hey, girl.-Hey.
333 00:17:35 -What's up, TifAni?-Shit, homeboy's already called dibs.
334 00:17:38 I showed her where the language room wasthis morning, shitbrain.
335 00:17:42 [young Dean sighs]
336 00:17:43 -What do I owe you, Finny?-Finny?
337 00:17:45 Tif-Finny. [laughs]
338 00:17:49 Don't worry about it.
339 00:17:50 Only Dean would let a financial-aid kidbuy him lunch.
340 00:17:53 Oh.
341 00:17:55 It's a writing scholarship.
342 00:17:57 That only low-income studentscan apply for.
343 00:18:00 [Hilary] Liv…
344 00:18:00 Hmm. And yet, you're John D. Rockefeller'sgreat-great-great-granddaughter,
345 00:18:07 and you still lostthe Salinger Essay Award to, uh--
346 00:18:10 Okay.
347 00:18:11 Uh, Olivia had to change her last namefrom Rockefeller to Kaplan
348 00:18:14 due to a kidnapping threat.
349 00:18:16 -It's been a harrowing time for her.-Jesus. Finny, watch out for this freak.
350 00:18:21 [boy] Choke on your Swedish Fish, Dean.You're such a dick.
351 00:18:29 [Rachel] …gun control. And they equate itwith an effort to take away their guns.
352 00:18:34 -[door opens]-And I used to be one of them, Rachel,
353 00:18:37 until I realized that the billwe are proposing
354 00:18:40 wouldn't have threatenedmy constitutional rights.
355 00:18:42 But it would have ensuredthat the gun that severed my spinal cord
356 00:18:45 was registered,locked away in a safe place,
357 00:18:47 out of the hands of the dangerous,mentally-unstable individuals that…
358 00:18:52 Why are we watching this?
359 00:18:53 [Rachel] We… We so appreciate you--
360 00:18:55 That director reached out again.
361 00:18:57 Oh. [chuckles]
362 00:18:59 What does he want?
363 00:19:01 Dean's doing the documentary now.
364 00:19:05 Nice.
365 00:19:08 It's a last-ditch effortto get you to do it.
366 00:19:11 You're the story. You're the onewho's never gone on record.
367 00:19:14 He needs you.
368 00:19:18 Hey.
369 00:19:22 You should do itif you feel you need to do it.
370 00:19:26 But remember, you don't have todefend yourself to me
371 00:19:29 or to anyone who really knows you.
372 00:19:32 Who cares what anyone else thinks?
373 00:19:33 [Ani sighs] So easy to saywhen everyone loves you, Luke.
374 00:19:37 -Can I give you some good news?-Yeah.
375 00:19:43 They wanna make the London offerattractive to both of us.
376 00:19:46 [Ani] Luke's firm wants to pay himfuck-your-feelings-money
377 00:19:48 to move to London,
378 00:19:50 where I'll be barefootand pregnant in a year.
379 00:19:52 John said this is ranked number sixglobally when it comes to MFA programs.
380 00:19:55 Come on, Luke.
381 00:19:57 You know MFA programsare just for white girls
382 00:20:00 who can't get paid to write.
383 00:20:02 I thought you'd be elated.
384 00:20:04 It's just, um… LoLo mentioned todaythat she's in the final stages
385 00:20:10 of reviewing her contractwith The New York Times Magazine.
386 00:20:14 [sighs] I'm sorry, Ani,but how many times have you heard this?
387 00:20:18 Until there's an offer on the table,none of it is real.
388 00:20:22 London is real.
389 00:20:24 This is a real opportunity for you.
390 00:20:30 Okay, I'll think about it.
391 00:20:33 -Think about it. Going for a run.-Okay.
392 00:20:38 [Luke] Think of it as a fresh start, babe.
393 00:20:41 [crowd cheering]
394 00:20:43 -[party music blasting]-[students screaming, laughing]
395 00:20:46 [girl] This is so fun.
396 00:20:48 [girls squealing, whooping]
397 00:20:49 [hip-hop music playing]
398 00:20:54 -Go. You got it.-All right. All right.
399 00:20:56 Watch this.
400 00:20:58 Oh my God. [laughs]
401 00:21:01 [girl 1] Liam is, like, doinga mating dance or something.
402 00:21:05 [girl 2] He is so yummy right now.
403 00:21:07 -[laughter]-[student whooping]
404 00:21:10 [girl 3] Move your legs!
405 00:21:11 Hey, yo, Peyton, watch this. [laughs]
406 00:21:13 -Oh! Oh! Hey! Oh.-Okay.
407 00:21:18 -[laughs] Ah!-What…
408 00:21:20 -What the fuck?-Relax.
409 00:21:21 You're fucking weird.Get the fuck away from me.
410 00:21:24 -Relax, man.-This fucking guy.
411 00:21:26 -Come on.-I'm gonna kill him.
412 00:21:27 Ah!
413 00:21:28 Hey.
414 00:21:30 -[boys laughing]-He's so cute!
415 00:21:32 [upbeat music playing]
416 00:21:34 Arthur, I think I might be pregnant.
417 00:21:37 Oh, yeah. You guys' kidsare gonna need a fucking tutor.
418 00:21:40 Why… Why do I feel likeyou just did something ill-advised?
419 00:21:43 Dude, you promised no horseshit tonight.
420 00:21:45 Well, promises are meantto be broken, mon chéri.
421 00:21:48 [laughter]
422 00:21:50 Oh!
423 00:21:51 ["Put It In Your Mouth"by Akinyele playing]
424 00:21:53 [all cheering]
425 00:21:57 He's got a flask. Let's go.
426 00:22:03 -Oh, Arthur. Arthur. Arthur.-Arthur.
427 00:22:04 Arthur, stop.
428 00:22:06 You need to come with me, now.
429 00:22:11 Come with me.
430 00:22:13 Hilary!
431 00:22:14 [hip-hop music continues]
432 00:22:19 -[giggles]-[Hilary] Come on.
433 00:22:21 Don't stop. Don't stop. [giggles]
434 00:22:24 Girls. If you leave school property,I have to call your parents.
435 00:22:28 My mom knows I'm going to Dean's house.
436 00:22:30 I mean, she's best friendswith Mrs. Barton.
437 00:22:32 -Yeah.-Tiff's sleeping over after.
438 00:22:35 -Call Hilary's mom if you want.-Yeah.
439 00:22:38 Yeah, call my mom.
440 00:22:41 [phone ringing]
441 00:22:43 -Okay.-[all giggling]
442 00:22:44 [phone beeps]
443 00:22:48 Yes, I'm here.
444 00:22:48 Go, go, go. Come on.
445 00:22:50 -[giggling]-[young Dean] Hey!
446 00:22:52 [Hilary] Hi!
447 00:22:53 [girls laughing]
448 00:22:55 -Hi, Mr. Larson!-[young Ani] No, don't!
449 00:22:57 -Don't do that!-Thank you!
450 00:22:58 He's gonna call my mom.
451 00:22:59 -[music blasts on radio]-I love this song!
452 00:23:01 [laughing, cheering]
453 00:23:03 [girls squealing]
454 00:23:07 [Ani's mom]Halter is a good style for her.
455 00:23:10 She can wear anything.
456 00:23:12 Even with the breast reduction,she's still broad in the shoulders.
457 00:23:19 [inhales sharply]
458 00:23:21 [exhales deeply]
459 00:23:24 [Nell] Wow.
460 00:23:26 Marry me.
461 00:23:27 [chuckling]
462 00:23:28 [Ani's mom] Mmm.
463 00:23:31 [Ani's mom sighs deeply]
464 00:23:34 What about a belt?
465 00:23:35 You just need some embellishmentsor something 'cause it's so plain.
466 00:23:40 If you just would've waitedfive more seconds,
467 00:23:42 you wouldn't have had to insult my dress.
468 00:23:45 I did not insult her dress.Did you hear me insult her dress?
469 00:23:49 You just want her popping.
470 00:23:51 Nell gets it.
471 00:23:52 I was watchingSay Yes to the Dress the other day,
472 00:23:56 and the girl on there
473 00:23:58 had, um, this tulle princess skirtyou could tie on or tie off.
474 00:24:05 Kate Middleton didn't wear a tulleprincess skirt to her wedding.
475 00:24:09 Neither should the expectingchild brides of Ohio.
476 00:24:11 [Ani's mom laughs]
477 00:24:13 Thank you.
478 00:24:14 Yes, she was about six months along.
479 00:24:16 -[Ani groans]-Mmm.
480 00:24:19 Still, I think I would do that over this,um… The bolerino thing.
481 00:24:24 Bolero.
482 00:24:25 [whispers] Bolero.
483 00:24:27 Have another.
484 00:24:29 [Nell] Ani.
485 00:24:31 [clicks tongue]
486 00:24:32 Excuse me for trying to celebratethe most important day of your life.
487 00:24:36 I'm gonna go check out the sales upstairs.
488 00:24:38 I'm afraid you can't bring glassoutside the bridal boutique, ma'am.
489 00:24:46 Okay, don't kill me,but I sort of agree with her.
490 00:24:51 I mean, you're sexier than this, right?
491 00:24:55 I'm getting marriedin the whale print capital of the world.
492 00:24:57 I don't wanna embarrass Lukein some sequined mermaid dress.
493 00:25:01 [Nell] Embarrass Luke?Ugh! Fucking yikes, Ani.
494 00:25:05 Nell, I'm… I'm five weeks out.
495 00:25:07 Why would you tell methat my dress is wrong now?
496 00:25:10 No, it's not wrong. Okay?Nothing about you is wrong.
497 00:25:12 Jesus. Unclench, okay?
498 00:25:15 Yeah, well, that's impossible,
499 00:25:17 what with the real housewifeof Pennsyltucky in town.
500 00:25:19 [Nell laughs]
501 00:25:21 Be nice to your mother.
502 00:25:24 [Ani's mom] That cut looks nice on you.
503 00:25:26 More forgiving across the middlethan some of your other stuff.
504 00:25:31 [phone ringing]
505 00:25:32 [Nell] Whoa!
506 00:25:34 It's the director. It's Aaron.
507 00:25:36 -[phone rings]-Let it go to voicemail.
508 00:25:41 I thought you told him no.Why is he calling you?
509 00:25:43 [Ani sighs] I did,
510 00:25:46 but I just wanted to knowif I change my mind,
511 00:25:50 when I would need to be available.
512 00:25:52 [exhales sharply] Holy shit.
513 00:25:56 -Ani.-Like, good "shit"?
514 00:26:00 Babe, you wanna expose Dean Bartonfor the sanctimonious prick that he is.
515 00:26:06 This is no-dairy-for-a-month shit.
516 00:26:10 Single-wipe shit.
517 00:26:12 No. Uh, I don't know. I, um…I'm not ready.
518 00:26:17 -Come on, what will it take?-Oh.
519 00:26:19 Let's see. Uh, Dean's makingviral speeches at Congress,
520 00:26:22 and I have a story due Monday about how topleasure an uncircumcised penis.
521 00:26:26 They're more sensitivethan the ones without their turtlenecks,
522 00:26:28 according to the experts.
523 00:26:30 Nobody believed me back then,
524 00:26:31 because I wasa Wet Seal wearing gutter rat.
525 00:26:34 If I'm gonna do this,I need to be bulletproof.
526 00:26:37 I need to be able to saythat I work at The New York Times,
527 00:26:41 that I live in an elevatordoorman building in Tribeca,
528 00:26:44 and that my name is Ani Harrison
529 00:26:45 because I marriedthe lacrosse captain of Nantucket.
530 00:26:48 And how dare anyone believeI did what Dean said I did
531 00:26:51 while wiping away a single tearwith this hand in particular.
532 00:26:54 [breathing deeply]
533 00:26:58 Four out of five.
534 00:27:01 Not that you need any of itto make you credible.
535 00:27:04 [scoffs]
536 00:27:05 You don't,
537 00:27:07 but I do.
538 00:27:10 I do.
539 00:27:14 [sighs]
540 00:27:17 My God, they have attitude in here.
541 00:27:22 It's like, you work retail.
542 00:27:25 -I'm gonna make a quick call.-Okay.
543 00:27:28 -You're fine.-Oh, thank you.
544 00:27:33 Sucker's a hall pass.
545 00:27:36 [message tone]
546 00:27:37 [Aaron] Hi, Ani. I'm so glad you called.
547 00:27:39 I didn't feel good aboutthe way we ended things in your office.
548 00:27:42 The new headmaster's allowing us to filmon campus the second week of September.
549 00:27:45 We're just finalizing the schedule.We'd love to know if you're in.
550 00:27:48 -Oh, cute, Spencer.-Call me back when you get a chance.
551 00:27:51 Oh, excuse me.You look exactly like my daughter.
552 00:27:55 Uh, people are always mistaking mefor someone else.
553 00:27:59 While I have you…
554 00:28:02 -That one.-[woman] Hmm.
555 00:28:04 Nice eye.
556 00:28:22 Hi, Aaron?
557 00:28:25 I always stay at the Ritz Carltonwhen I come home.
558 00:28:30 Great.
559 00:28:31 [mellow music playing]
560 00:28:57 [unsettling music playing]
561 00:29:06 [echoing laughter]
562 00:29:13 Baby, here we go!
563 00:29:15 -Oh!-[cheers and shouts]
564 00:29:19 [whistles, laughter]
565 00:29:20 [shouts]
566 00:29:22 [girl] Shots!
567 00:29:24 Come on!
568 00:29:25 -Cheers!-Cheers!
569 00:29:27 Oh, yeah!
570 00:29:29 [girl 1] I'll take that one too.
571 00:29:32 -All right, let's go.-[girl 2] Hilary.
572 00:29:33 Hilary, your mom's here.
573 00:29:35 -My mom's here. Fuck, my mom's here!-What?
574 00:29:37 We have to go.
575 00:29:38 What? I've got to go.
576 00:29:40 -Tif, are you coming?-[Liam] You can't have her.
577 00:29:42 I'm sorry, you can't have her!
578 00:29:44 [laughs]
579 00:29:46 Tif!
580 00:29:47 [mouthing]
581 00:29:48 He won't let me go.
582 00:29:50 Finny, drink! Let's go.
583 00:29:52 Come on! My house, my rules.
584 00:29:55 [LoLo's assistant] Ani?
585 00:29:59 [phone ringing]
586 00:30:01 [mouse clicks]
587 00:30:06 [sighs]
588 00:30:14 [LoLo] Fucking corporate.
589 00:30:15 Okay, the latest edict iswe can't say clit, but clitoris is fine.
590 00:30:19 Okay.
591 00:30:21 Oh, but you don't need to know that,because you no longer work here.
592 00:30:28 We're going to The New York Times.
593 00:30:30 Oh, fuck yes! Yeah!
594 00:30:33 Whoo!
595 00:30:34 [upbeat music playing]
596 00:30:35 Thank you.
597 00:30:39 [Luke] Hi.Reservation for four for Harrison.
598 00:30:43 Should be eight o'clock.
599 00:30:44 [upbeat music playing]
600 00:30:49 -Hey.-Hey.
601 00:30:50 Hi.
602 00:30:52 -You're in a good mood.-Okay, so I have some good news.
603 00:30:55 -One member of your party is at the bar.-Oh.
604 00:30:57 Okay, I'll, um… I'll tell you after.
605 00:30:59 Here you go. Thank you so much.
606 00:31:04 That's her. That's-- That's the wife.
607 00:31:06 [Ani] Okay. [laughs]
608 00:31:09 [Luke] Whitney.
609 00:31:10 -Luke. Hi.-[Luke] Good to see ya.
610 00:31:11 Mm. Andrew's running a few minutes late.
611 00:31:14 -This is Ani, my fiancée.-Hi, Whitney.
612 00:31:16 -Nice to meet you.-Nice to meet you.
613 00:31:18 [both laugh]
614 00:31:19 Excuse me, but I have been stuck at homewith a 16-month-old.
615 00:31:23 A 16-month-old?
616 00:31:26 You look amazing.
617 00:31:28 [Ani] Luke calls me the wife-whisperer.
618 00:31:29 Do you have any photos?
619 00:31:30 [Ani] Like it's so hard.
620 00:31:32 Literally, all you do is act likethey invented motherhood.
621 00:31:35 [Whitney] Scroll to the right.
622 00:31:36 [Ani] There's a special place in hellfor women who can't show you
623 00:31:39 just one picture of their children.
624 00:31:41 Oh my God, come on.Look at this little munchkin.
625 00:31:43 -Baby, look at it.-Cute. Can I have a beer, please?
626 00:31:46 [indistinct bar chatter]
627 00:31:49 Is this your husband?
628 00:31:52 As far as I know.
629 00:31:54 Sorry. My God, 5th was a parking lot.
630 00:31:57 -[Luke] There he is.-Luke.
631 00:31:59 -Good to see ya.-[Luke] Great to see ya.
632 00:32:01 -Honey.-Hey.
633 00:32:03 This is Ani.
634 00:32:04 Nice to meet you. Andrew.
635 00:32:07 Mr. Larson, it's me.
636 00:32:10 TifAni.
637 00:32:11 TifAni?
638 00:32:12 [breathing heavily]
639 00:32:14 [Whitney] Uh, "Mr. Larson?"Was he your teacher?
640 00:32:18 [Mr. Larson] TifAni.
641 00:32:20 Uh… I didn't recognize you. You look…
642 00:32:25 [Ani] Like none of it ever happened.
643 00:32:27 We can seat you now.
644 00:32:30 So… I'm sorry, wait a second.Did you change your name or--
645 00:32:34 No, this is, um, TifAni,from when I left Brentley.
646 00:32:38 Oh.
647 00:32:38 Oh God.
648 00:32:40 -God, I'm so sorry for…-Oh God.
649 00:32:41 -You know, everything.-It's okay.
650 00:32:44 -What happened to you, I just---Oh, I understand.
651 00:32:47 [Ani] Make it stop, Luke.
652 00:32:48 I'm so sorry. I…
653 00:32:51 Well, if it's any consolation,
654 00:32:53 thanks to you, my do-gooder husbandgot into credit derivatives.
655 00:32:58 [chuckles]
656 00:33:00 You know, TifAniwas the strongest writer in my class.
657 00:33:03 Well, now she's senior editorat The Women's Bible.
658 00:33:05 -The Women's Bible?-Yeah.
659 00:33:08 -That's fantastic.-Thank you.
660 00:33:09 I used to have to hide thatfrom my mother growing up.
661 00:33:12 [chuckles] "The past is never dead.It's not even past."
662 00:33:16 To what Confucius said.
663 00:33:18 [Ani] Huh, Faulkner.
664 00:33:20 -[Luke] Cheers.-[Whitney] Cheers.
665 00:33:22 [glasses clinking]
666 00:33:23 [Mr. Larson] Cheers.
667 00:33:25 Mmm. So, Ani, you have to tell us,
668 00:33:28 what do you think of the directorin the skinny jeans?
669 00:33:34 -You're doing the documentary?-[Mr. Larson] They got to you too, huh?
670 00:33:38 [Ani grunts]
671 00:33:42 Please tell me you are.
672 00:33:48 Yeah.
673 00:33:49 It's long overdue.
674 00:33:51 Thankfully, the timing worked out.
675 00:33:53 We might be moving to Londonafter the wedding.
676 00:33:56 -[Mr. Larson] London?-Yeah.
677 00:33:58 Luke has been asked to runBlackRock's European desk.
678 00:34:01 -Luke, congratulations.-Thank you.
679 00:34:04 -[Whitney] Exciting.-We're still figuring out the details.
680 00:34:07 Will you be able to writefor the magazine from over there?
681 00:34:12 Actually, I… just got accepted
682 00:34:16 into the Goldsmith's MFA program
683 00:34:19 -at the University of London.-[Whitney] Ah!
684 00:34:21 To teach, I hope.
685 00:34:22 -Oh!-[Whitney] Oh!
686 00:34:24 -[groans]-[Whitney] Ugh! Enough, Mr. Larson.
687 00:34:28 [Ani] Sometimes I feellike a wind-up doll.
688 00:34:30 Turn my key, and I'll tell youexactly what you wanna hear.
689 00:34:40 [sniffles]
690 00:34:42 [doorknob clicks]
691 00:34:50 [low-key music playing]
692 00:34:52 [Ani] For someone who so easily could,
693 00:34:55 Mr. Larson has never oncemade me feel ashamed.
694 00:34:58 [indistinct chatter, laughter]
695 00:35:05 Hey.
696 00:35:07 Our spouses went to 7th to get a cab.
697 00:35:11 -Can I tell you something?-Sure.
698 00:35:14 I got a job offerfrom The New York Times Magazine today.
699 00:35:17 Brava.
700 00:35:18 [laughs]
701 00:35:20 I mean, I had nothing to do with it,but I couldn't be more proud.
702 00:35:24 Thanks. [chuckles]
703 00:35:27 [Mr. Larson]What about London and the MFA?
704 00:35:31 I'll figure it out.
705 00:35:34 Tif, I know how these things usually go.
706 00:35:39 Don't acquiesce.
707 00:35:42 -I'm glad you're doing the doc.-It's a balancing act with him.
708 00:35:49 He doesn't trustthe director in skinny jeans.
709 00:35:52 So you acquiesce?
710 00:35:55 Am I allowed to call you a bastard now?
711 00:35:57 You should be allowedto do anything you want.
712 00:35:59 [siren wails in distance]
713 00:36:03 Okay.
714 00:36:04 It was good to see you.
715 00:36:09 [car honking]
716 00:36:13 [car honking]
717 00:36:20 Hey, man, is the AC on?
718 00:36:23 [driver] Should be getting colder now.
719 00:36:27 [sighs]
720 00:36:29 Did you meanwhat you said back there about London?
721 00:36:34 [scoffs]
722 00:36:36 [Luke sighs]
723 00:36:39 You know, sometimes I feel likeanother box you have to check off
724 00:36:43 so you look like you've done okay.
725 00:36:49 I'm not some prickwho doesn't respect your career
726 00:36:51 just because you don't makeas much money as I do.
727 00:36:53 -[scoffs]-[Luke] You know that, right?
728 00:36:57 I think you are so talentedand so creative,
729 00:37:00 and I love that about you.
730 00:37:04 It's one of the reasonsI want us to go to London.
731 00:37:06 I think you are limited where you are,and frankly, you're better than it.
732 00:37:10 All I have to showfor the past nine years of my career
733 00:37:13 is 15,000 ways to touch a cock.
734 00:37:16 I never would've gotten the offerfrom The New York Times
735 00:37:18 if LoLo hadn't grandfathered me in.
736 00:37:20 You got the offer?
737 00:37:21 Yeah.
738 00:37:25 What is it? Where is it?
739 00:37:31 Is this right?
740 00:37:34 -Yeah.-It's not even a 10% raise.
741 00:37:36 [scoffs] It's The New York Times.I wouldn't be going there for the money.
742 00:37:39 Well, this makes me thinkthey don't value you at all.
743 00:37:41 It's not personal. There's no moneyleft in publishing anymore.
744 00:37:45 [Luke chuckles] Well, exactly.
745 00:37:46 Listen, you go to London and get your MFA.You can write a book.
746 00:37:50 Something that's yours,that you have equity in.
747 00:37:52 Wouldn't you rather be knownfor something you've created
748 00:37:55 than this thingthat happened to you so long ago?
749 00:37:59 No.
750 00:38:01 No, I… I wanna be rememberedfor what really happened to me.
751 00:38:05 I want vindication.It's all I think about.
752 00:38:08 I know you've thought long and hardabout doing this documentary,
753 00:38:10 and I'm not saying you shouldn't do it,
754 00:38:12 but Dean has taken this very bad thingthat happened to him
755 00:38:16 and done something good with it.People respect that and they respect him.
756 00:38:21 You know what I'm saying.
757 00:38:23 Yeah.
758 00:38:25 Yeah, it's the blow-job editorversus the gun-safety savior.
759 00:38:28 [Luke sighs]
760 00:38:29 No, God, of course. Ugh!
761 00:38:31 Oh God, if there was just a way for meto write about more important issues
762 00:38:35 for a place of worldwideinfluence and acclaim,
763 00:38:37 then maybe, just maybe,
764 00:38:39 people can hold mein the same esteem as Dean.
765 00:38:42 Gosh, if there was just a wayfor me to work at this elusive place.
766 00:38:46 You're so angry. I can't talk to youwhen you're this angry.
767 00:38:49 Ugh! It's so hot in here.
768 00:38:52 [exhales sharply]I'm gonna walk the last few blocks.
769 00:38:59 [Ani] Sir, can you pleasejust keep driving?
770 00:39:14 -[faint upbeat music playing]-[water dripping]
771 00:39:21 [water dripping]
772 00:39:25 [young Ani breathes heavily]
773 00:39:27 [young Ani breathes shakily]
774 00:39:31 [faint upbeat music continues]
775 00:39:36 -[breathing heavily]-[door opens]
776 00:39:38 Shit, Peyton.
777 00:39:40 Yo, holy fuck, you're still at it?What the… [laughs]
778 00:39:43 [Peyton] Fuck off, Liam.
779 00:39:45 [young Ani shudders, pants]
780 00:39:48 [squeals and laughter in distance]
781 00:39:55 We'll hang out, okay?
782 00:39:59 [sighs]
783 00:40:02 [young Ani breathing heavily]
784 00:40:06 [young Dean] What the fuck?
785 00:40:09 Oh my God, I can't watch. [snickers]
786 00:40:11 [Peyton] Come on, someone do something.
787 00:40:13 [young Dean] No, that's you, buddy.
788 00:40:14 -[indistinct chatter]-[young Ani breathing heavily]
789 00:40:18 -[boys laughing]-[panting]
790 00:40:21 [young Dean] Aw. Holy fuck.
791 00:40:23 Shit.
792 00:40:26 [Peyton] Take care of your girl, Liam.
793 00:40:29 Hey.
794 00:40:31 -Aw.-[young Ani panting]
795 00:40:35 Hey. Come on, I got you.
796 00:40:38 [breathing heavily]
797 00:40:43 [young Ani grunting, panting]
798 00:40:47 -[young Ani] Ow! Ow…-[Liam grunting]
799 00:40:50 [breathing heavily]
800 00:40:53 [young Ani groaning] Ow!
801 00:40:56 -[kisses]-[young Ani panting]
802 00:41:01 [young Ani breathing heavily]
803 00:41:06 Ow! [sobbing, panting]
804 00:41:12 [party music playing in distance]
805 00:41:21 [faucet squeaks]
806 00:41:30 [turns off faucet]
807 00:41:35 [dripping]
808 00:41:42 [indistinct chatter, laughter in distance]
809 00:41:47 [running footsteps]
810 00:41:50 [panting]
811 00:41:55 [clattering]
812 00:41:59 [breathing heavily]
813 00:42:08 [breathing shakily]
814 00:42:12 Hi. Um, Dean…
815 00:42:13 -I just really need some water.-You…
816 00:42:15 You should really get some sleep.
817 00:42:17 Yeah, I'm just really thirsty.
818 00:42:19 Uh… Dean! [screams]
819 00:42:21 Wait, stop!
820 00:42:22 Wait! Wait! Wait!Stop! Stop! Stop! [sobbing]
821 00:42:25 Stop! Stop! Stop! Wait. Wait.
822 00:42:27 Dean, wait. Stop! Stop!Stop! Please. [sobs]
823 00:42:30 Stop! Stop! Wait! Wait, no!
824 00:42:32 [sobbing] Please! Please!
825 00:42:35 Please, stop! Stop!
826 00:42:37 [grunting]
827 00:42:40 [exhales heavily]
828 00:42:41 [breathing heavily]
829 00:42:47 [young Ani grunting]
830 00:42:48 -[young Dean] Oh, fuck!-[young Ani whimpers]
831 00:42:50 [groaning]
832 00:42:52 -Motherfucker.-[young Ani panting]
833 00:42:54 Finny!
834 00:42:56 Shit.
835 00:42:58 [grunts] Finny.
836 00:42:59 Fuck! Fucking crazy ass bitch! Get out!
837 00:43:02 -Hot in here! Fucking piece of shit! Agh!-[metal clanking]
838 00:43:05 [driver] What the fuck?Fucking ass bitch! Get out!
839 00:43:08 -Get her out!-Honey, get out!
840 00:43:10 Don't fucking touch me!
841 00:43:12 Fuck you!
842 00:43:13 Don't fucking touch me!
843 00:43:15 [tires screeching]
844 00:43:17 [Luke] You're so fucking nuts.
845 00:43:19 [siren wailing in distance]
846 00:43:26 [somber music playing]
847 00:43:30 -[exhales sharply]-[siren wailing in distance]
848 00:43:34 [somber music continues]
849 00:43:36 [panting]
850 00:43:45 [door lock chiming]
851 00:43:47 Excuse me.
852 00:43:50 Do you know how to getto the Brentley School from here?
853 00:43:53 [Mr. Larson] TifAni?
854 00:43:57 [breathing shakily]
855 00:44:00 [breathing heavily]
856 00:44:02 Hey. Hey.
857 00:44:04 -Hey. What happened?-[breathing shakily]
858 00:44:07 Hey, what happened?
859 00:44:11 TifAni, what happened?
860 00:44:12 [young Ani shuddering]
861 00:44:15 [crickets chirping]
862 00:44:18 [electricity buzzing]
863 00:44:30 [water running]
864 00:44:49 [breathing shakily]
865 00:44:53 [knocking on door]
866 00:44:59 You can come in.
867 00:45:02 They're a little big but they're clean.
868 00:45:09 [Mr. Larson] Look, can I please,
869 00:45:11 please take you to the hospital now?
870 00:45:21 -I gotta call your mother.-No.
871 00:45:23 [phone beeps]
872 00:45:29 Look, you… you can't be here.
873 00:45:31 It-- it's not…
874 00:45:37 Look, I can get into a lot of trouble.
875 00:45:44 [indistinct chatter]
876 00:45:54 -[metal banging]-[gasps]
877 00:45:56 -[metal ringing]-[machine whirring]
878 00:46:05 Thanks.
879 00:46:07 Dean is hoping to meet with you.
880 00:46:10 No fucking way.
881 00:46:11 -[Aaron] Just hear me out.-No.
882 00:46:13 He's willing to take back his claimthat you're involved in the shooting.
883 00:46:15 He's going to vindicate you, Ani.
884 00:46:18 He wants to sit down with youon camera and apologize.
885 00:46:21 [Ani] Ugh. I hate your soft voice so much.
886 00:46:24 [sighs]
887 00:46:25 Sorry. Um…
888 00:46:28 What--
889 00:46:29 Why?
890 00:46:31 Maybe you have some sense?
891 00:46:33 [Ani] For fuck's sake, will you justput this guy out of his misery?
892 00:46:38 My money's on the gang rape.
893 00:46:43 There. I said it. No going back now.
894 00:46:46 [Aaron] I've gathered enoughto know that that event
895 00:46:49 was framed as somethingthat you participated in. I'm…
896 00:46:52 I'm so sorry, Ani. It makes me sick.
897 00:46:54 Yeah, no participation trophy for me.
898 00:46:57 [Aaron] TifAni… Uh, I mean, Ani,
899 00:47:01 if you wanna do this,
900 00:47:02 it'd be easy enough to tack onan extra day to the schedule.
901 00:47:05 I'll make sure to keep you both separateuntil you give me permission.
902 00:47:08 You'll call the shots.
903 00:47:10 [Ani] What's the point of being at yourfighting weight if you're not gonna fight?
904 00:47:15 Okay.
905 00:47:25 And your safety and comfortis our highest priority.
906 00:47:28 We do not wanna see you re-traumatized.
907 00:47:30 We could look into getting youa victims' advocate.
908 00:47:33 Sorry. I should probably askif you prefer "survivor" to "victim."
909 00:47:36 -I know that's a big thing these days.-Oh.
910 00:47:39 Survivor? Gross.
911 00:47:43 So victim then?
912 00:47:44 Yeah.
913 00:47:47 Victim.
914 00:47:49 [sentimental music playing]
915 00:48:09 [Ani's mom] Mmm.
916 00:48:11 Definitely this one.
917 00:48:13 It's less oaky. I hate oak.
918 00:48:16 Hmm. Gosh, Mom.I never once wondered if I was adopted.
919 00:48:19 [all laughing]
920 00:48:21 [chuckling]
921 00:48:24 Did you know it's broo-sket-ta,not broo-shet-ta?
922 00:48:28 TifAni taught me that.She and Nell lived in Rome for a time.
923 00:48:31 -[Ani's mom chuckles]-[Ani] Keep it cute, FaNelli.
924 00:48:34 That must have beena wonderful experience for you girls.
925 00:48:36 Oh, I just love Italy.
926 00:48:38 And from London,it's just such a short flight.
927 00:48:40 Oh!
928 00:48:43 You didn't tell me.You made a decision about London?
929 00:48:46 Mom, no, we didn't makea decision yet, remember?
930 00:48:49 -Oh, I apologize. I misunderstood.-[phone chimes]
931 00:48:55 Uh, um…
932 00:48:59 I'll be… I'll be just a minute.
933 00:49:03 [Ani's mom] Okay.
934 00:49:11 -This is nice. Cheers.-[glasses clink]
935 00:49:15 [reporter on TV]And now here to comment is Dean Barton.
936 00:49:17 [Dean] Every day that Congressfails to work together
937 00:49:20 to create universal background checks
938 00:49:22 is another daythat a student risks their life
939 00:49:25 just trying to get an education.
940 00:49:27 [Ani's mom] TifAni?
941 00:49:27 [Dean] It's outright negligence.
942 00:49:29 What are you doing?
943 00:49:30 -We owe these kids so much more.-I came to check on you.
944 00:49:33 Why?
945 00:49:36 [Ani's mom sighs]
946 00:49:38 [inhales deeply]
947 00:49:41 [exhales deeply]
948 00:49:43 My little bambina.
949 00:49:45 Really starting to freak outabout seeing Dean.
950 00:49:47 Right.
951 00:49:49 What if when I see him in a wheelchair,I can't be angry anymore?
952 00:49:53 I don't wanna feel bad for him.
953 00:49:55 It's so much cleanerif I could just hate him.
954 00:49:58 Oh.
955 00:50:00 [both sigh deeply]
956 00:50:02 I say we go out thereand get Drunken Ship-faced.
957 00:50:06 Hmm? [chuckles]
958 00:50:10 Come on. You're aboutto read Dean Barton for fucking filth.
959 00:50:14 Where's the registry for that?
960 00:50:16 [woman] Where's the blushing bride?
961 00:50:18 [Ani groans]
962 00:50:19 Jesus Christ,how am I gonna get through this?
963 00:50:24 [woman] Here comes the bride. Finally.
964 00:50:27 Hey, lady. Oh…
965 00:50:29 [Ani] Hallsy's Luke'spoorly preserved aunt
966 00:50:32 who ceased to be a lady20 tennis-pro dicks ago.
967 00:50:36 Why is everyone so anti-oak these days?
968 00:50:40 Ooh! I have a buttery chard just for you.
969 00:50:42 About the only thingCalifornia's good for.
970 00:50:45 And do me one more solid,don't sit me with the Gilmartins.
971 00:50:49 -What'd you do this time?-I didn't do anything.
972 00:50:51 They're being snowflakesover the new park.
973 00:50:54 No offense, you two.
974 00:50:55 [Mrs. Harrison]Well, it will be very loud for them.
975 00:50:58 They've agreed to put insoundproof buffers.
976 00:51:00 What kind of a parkneeds a soundproof buffer?
977 00:51:03 A shooting park, Dinah.
978 00:51:05 Can't blame gun owners for wantingto enjoy their hobby responsibly.
979 00:51:09 As a woman, I feel more empoweredwhen I'm shooting a gun
980 00:51:11 than I do bitchingabout every little thing.
981 00:51:14 [bangs table] Okay, I'm gonna go inside.Would anybody like some water?
982 00:51:17 I'll take one. No ice.
983 00:51:20 [Ani] Don't worry,I won't sit you with the Gilmartins.
984 00:51:22 You'll be at table 12
985 00:51:24 with the rest of the flabby cougarswhere you belong.
986 00:51:28 -[Dinah] TifAni.-[Nell] Oh, boy.
987 00:51:30 [Luke] Oh my God.
988 00:51:33 Oh fuck.
989 00:51:45 She's…
990 00:51:47 She's really tired.
991 00:51:49 It's been a long week, so…
992 00:51:52 [somber music playing]
993 00:51:56 [Dinah] Ani!
994 00:51:58 Stop!
995 00:51:59 [seagulls squawking]
996 00:52:01 Ani.
997 00:52:03 Ow! Goddamn it!
998 00:52:07 [Dinah groans]
999 00:52:08 Ani!
1000 00:52:10 Stop!
1001 00:52:13 Damn it.
1002 00:52:20 Do you like your life, TifAni?
1003 00:52:22 Yes, Mom, I have builta very nice life for myself.
1004 00:52:26 How much do you make in a year?
1005 00:52:28 What?
1006 00:52:30 How much do you make in a year, honey?
1007 00:52:35 Uh… 80K.
1008 00:52:36 Sometimes a little bit moreif I guest-edit a brand extension, okay?
1009 00:52:41 Okay, so let's be generous.Let's call it 90K.
1010 00:52:44 How much did you pay for that watch?
1011 00:52:46 You don't think I noticedyou got the Cartier?
1012 00:52:48 Don't you know it's gauche to askhow much something costs, Mom?
1013 00:52:52 Oh, I know. I know you'd thinkI didn't do anything with my life.
1014 00:52:56 But you know, when you're spending$1,500 a month to exercise,
1015 00:53:01 and your mortgage is $12,000…
1016 00:53:05 This 90k that I was able to squirrel awayfrom alimony payments
1017 00:53:12 so I could stay home with youand not have to pay for childcare?
1018 00:53:16 I put that money towards your education,
1019 00:53:17 and that put you in roomswhere you met a guy like Luke.
1020 00:53:21 And I am… I am doing my best here
1021 00:53:24 to try to connect with the Harrisons.It's not easy.
1022 00:53:28 And now with this documentary?
1023 00:53:31 -What's that have to do with this?-Everything.
1024 00:53:33 Everything, TifAni. Everything.
1025 00:53:35 You think you're embarrassed of me now,don't try to say that you're not,
1026 00:53:39 imagine what it's gonna be likewhen they find out about what happened.
1027 00:53:43 They had boys.
1028 00:53:45 They didn't have a girlwho developed early
1029 00:53:47 and was hell-bent on taking risks.
1030 00:53:51 They can't imagine what that was like.
1031 00:53:54 I did everything in my powerto protect you.
1032 00:53:57 I did. I did.
1033 00:53:59 That's why I hadall those rules in place that I did.
1034 00:54:02 But you didn't wanna follow those.
1035 00:54:04 That was your choice.
1036 00:54:07 So fine, you know?
1037 00:54:08 Just-- just-- just…
1038 00:54:09 At least just leave my name out of it.
1039 00:54:14 I did what any half-decent motherwould have done.
1040 00:54:17 I did.
1041 00:54:18 You'll find out someday.
1042 00:54:21 You'll find out how hard it is.
1043 00:54:25 Okay.
1044 00:54:27 Although if you keep pushing Luke away,maybe you won't.
1045 00:54:30 At the very least, you won't havesomeone else's pile of money to stand on
1046 00:54:33 while you call me gauche.
1047 00:54:36 Excuse me.
1048 00:54:43 TifAni.
1049 00:54:46 Wait.
1050 00:54:51 [Luke sighs]
1051 00:55:01 [Ani] I'm sorry.
1052 00:55:08 [exhales sharply]
1053 00:55:14 [inhales sharply]
1054 00:55:15 My mom asked me what a cougar is.
1055 00:55:17 [both chuckling]
1056 00:55:19 [both laughing]
1057 00:55:24 [sighs]
1058 00:55:35 [Ani moaning]
1059 00:55:37 [both grunting]
1060 00:55:39 [both breathing heavily]
1061 00:55:43 -[Ani grunting]-[Luke] Ah!
1062 00:55:51 -[Ani moans]-Okay.
1063 00:55:53 -[Ani grunts]-Ow!
1064 00:55:55 [both breathing heavily]
1065 00:55:57 -Babe?-Yeah?
1066 00:55:58 [sighs]
1067 00:56:00 [exhales] Can we just do it the nice way?
1068 00:56:05 Yeah.
1069 00:56:09 [breathing heavily]
1070 00:56:20 [Ani moans]
1071 00:56:27 Okay.
1072 00:56:29 Okay.
1073 00:56:31 I can't do this. Please get off me.
1074 00:56:33 Please just get off of me.I'm sorry. I can't…
1075 00:56:37 [sighs]
1076 00:56:38 Oh my God.
1077 00:56:42 [groans]
1078 00:56:51 [breathing deeply]
1079 00:56:52 I may not say everything right,
1080 00:56:54 but when I try to be respectful,it's like you can't handle it.
1081 00:57:02 [sighs]
1082 00:57:08 Thanks for taking me.
1083 00:57:13 You only have a 30% chanceof getting pregnant,
1084 00:57:15 but it's good to be on the safe side.
1085 00:57:17 [engine starts]
1086 00:57:18 Oh.
1087 00:57:19 Never heard that before.
1088 00:57:20 [gears shifting]
1089 00:57:26 [engine revving]
1090 00:57:37 Liam?
1091 00:57:39 I just wanted you to know, I didn't meanto hook up with anybody else.
1092 00:57:43 [chuckles] Dude, it's no big deal.
1093 00:57:51 But I also feel like…
1094 00:57:54 I think I was raped.
1095 00:57:58 [scoffs]
1096 00:58:00 Are you insane?
1097 00:58:04 Are you actually insane? Like…
1098 00:58:08 Do you even know what rape is?
1099 00:58:15 [car stops]
1100 00:58:18 Why would you even say that to me?
1101 00:58:19 I'm sorry.I… I don't think that about you.
1102 00:58:23 -Finny!-There she is.
1103 00:58:25 -[boys laughing]-[boys banging door]
1104 00:58:27 Finny, if I'm still hungover,you're definitely still hungover.
1105 00:58:30 [Peyton] Hey, come on,come on, come on. Let's go.
1106 00:58:33 Milady.
1107 00:58:37 You are an animal, FaNelli.
1108 00:58:39 Hey, you two… gotta step it up.
1109 00:58:42 -You are such a loser.-Loser?
1110 00:58:44 -I think that was your job last night.-Did you win any games at all?
1111 00:58:47 -[Hilary] Yeah, I won two. Yeah.-[young Dean] I don't think so.
1112 00:58:50 I mean, if I'd lost as much as you had,then I would have left long ago.
1113 00:58:54 Oh, come on.
1114 00:58:58 [somber music playing]
1115 00:59:00 [Ani] Luke?
1116 00:59:06 [sighs]
1117 00:59:18 [seagulls squawking]
1118 00:59:21 [somber music continues]
1119 00:59:30 "Oh, honey,why do you have a cut on your lip?"
1120 00:59:35 "Hmm. It's 'cause I'm betrothedto a sexual deviant, Mother."
1121 00:59:39 [indistinct chatter]
1122 00:59:48 [seagulls squawking]
1123 00:59:53 [Mr. Larson]TifAni, I've told Headmaster Mayer
1124 00:59:56 about the eventswith the three boys this weekend.
1125 01:00:00 [Mr. Mayer] Are you talking aboutreporting this, TifAni?
1126 01:00:02 [door lock clicks]
1127 01:00:04 How does that work? What happens?
1128 01:00:08 [Mr. Mayer] The boyswill be questioned by the police. [sighs]
1129 01:00:12 It will need to be disclosed on theircollege applications, potentially.
1130 01:00:17 [inhales] If you decide to go that route,
1131 01:00:20 you need to be absolutely surewhat you're saying,
1132 01:00:22 and that can be difficult to determinewith so much alcohol involved.
1133 01:00:26 The situation has been obfuscated.
1134 01:00:29 There was no obfuscation,Headmaster Mayer.
1135 01:00:33 She said no.
1136 01:00:36 [Mr. Mayer] Is that true? Did you say no?
1137 01:00:39 [somber music playing]
1138 01:00:43 I-I don't know.
1139 01:00:45 I don't know.
1140 01:00:48 I didn't want to.
1141 01:00:50 [breathing shakily]
1142 01:00:52 I said, "Ow."
1143 01:00:54 I just remember always saying, "Ow."
1144 01:00:56 I remember screaming at Dean. Uh…
1145 01:00:59 I tried to push Liam off of me,
1146 01:01:00 but he thought I was, like,touching his face so he kissed me.
1147 01:01:06 He was really drunk too.
1148 01:01:10 [telephone clattering]
1149 01:01:12 [Mr. Mayer punching phone buttons]
1150 01:01:15 -What… What are you doing?-[Mr. Mayer] I'm calling your mom.
1151 01:01:18 Legally, I can't contactthe police regarding a minor
1152 01:01:21 unless the guardian is informed.
1153 01:01:25 [telephone clattering]
1154 01:01:27 [inhales sharply] Stop.
1155 01:01:30 Stop.
1156 01:01:33 No.
1157 01:01:36 No.
1158 01:01:40 I changed my mind.
1159 01:01:49 [panting]
1160 01:01:51 [doorknob clattering]
1161 01:01:54 Mr. Larson got fired. [breathing heavily]
1162 01:01:57 They said he shouldn'thave let us leave the school dance.
1163 01:02:00 [Arthur] He's the scapegoat.Dean's fucking untouchable.
1164 01:02:03 Come in.
1165 01:02:12 Hey! Hey, hey, hey!
1166 01:02:14 Um, that… that belonged to his dad.
1167 01:02:15 Yeah. Legacy to Columbiaand a surefire way out of this hellscape
1168 01:02:18 is the only thing he ever gave me.
1169 01:02:20 -Want some?-No.
1170 01:02:24 [young Ani] I can't breathe.
1171 01:02:26 Should we tell her?
1172 01:02:30 Tell me what?
1173 01:02:32 Um…
1174 01:02:33 -Ar-Arthur, can we… can we just not?-Come on, we're among friends.
1175 01:02:37 Two summers ago, Dean and Peyton showed up
1176 01:02:39 to Kelsey Quick'seighth grade graduation party.
1177 01:02:41 They were all 16 and fucked upand, you know, like--
1178 01:02:44 -I thought that they were being nice.-Oh, they were not being nice.
1179 01:02:47 They said they wanted to smoke up with us.
1180 01:02:49 You always leave that part out to make melook like I'm a fucking idiot for going.
1181 01:02:54 Going where?
1182 01:02:55 Well, into the woods,where Peyton pinned Ben to the ground,
1183 01:02:58 and Dean took a shit on Ben's chest.
1184 01:03:00 I heard that he atea burrito that day in preparation.
1185 01:03:02 Fuck you, Arthur!You're such a fucking prick, man.
1186 01:03:07 Yeah, okay.Then he ran straight to Suburban Square,
1187 01:03:09 went to the Rite Aid,bought a pack of razors,
1188 01:03:11 and slit his wrists in the bathroom.
1189 01:03:13 [door closing]
1190 01:03:18 Is that really true?
1191 01:03:19 Yeah.
1192 01:03:22 What? He obviously didn't cut deep enoughto do any real damage.
1193 01:03:24 His parents sent him off to makemacaroni art for the rest of the summer.
1194 01:03:27 Why are you like that to him?You're acting like you're mad at him.
1195 01:03:31 -I am fucking mad at him.-Why?
1196 01:03:33 He didn't do anything about it.
1197 01:03:34 I mean, it's gotta be a crime,biological warfare.
1198 01:03:38 He just wanted it dropped.
1199 01:03:42 And now here it is happening again,
1200 01:03:47 and here you are,
1201 01:03:49 keeping that runway free and clearfor it to keep happening.
1202 01:04:00 My mom can't know.
1203 01:04:03 She would hate me.
1204 01:04:04 Okay. Yeah, that's what everybody thinks.
1205 01:04:07 My ass got suspended, my mommystill thinks the sun shines out of it.
1206 01:04:09 No. You don't understand what she's like.
1207 01:04:14 Yeah, I really don't.
1208 01:04:16 What kind of mother doesn't strapthose babies into a cable knit?
1209 01:04:27 ["This Must Be the Place(Naive Melody)" playing]
1210 01:04:29 [Ani gasps]
1211 01:04:34 Baby, check this out.
1212 01:04:37 Oh good, another cable knit.
1213 01:04:39 [laughs]
1214 01:04:41 -You like this for the first dance, right?-No.
1215 01:04:44 -What? I thought we agreed?-No. No, we never agreed.
1216 01:04:46 -We sure did.-Oh my God! [laughs]
1217 01:04:48 We talked about this. Oh my God!
1218 01:04:51 [both laughing]
1219 01:04:52 -Oh my God. Okay, what's next?-And then…
1220 01:04:55 [Luke] Okay, well, this is the list.
1221 01:04:56 -Wedding Playlist Party.-Okay.
1222 01:04:58 -[music plays]-No, do not play.
1223 01:05:00 -No?-Do not play.
1224 01:05:01 -[new song pops on]-Definitely do not play.
1225 01:05:04 -You don't like this song?-No, I…
1226 01:05:06 I do like the song,but the guy's a pedophile.
1227 01:05:09 -You can still like the song though.-Right, I do like the song.
1228 01:05:13 What are you not getting?
1229 01:05:15 You think what you just saidmakes any sense?
1230 01:05:17 [song continues]
1231 01:05:18 -Turn it off.-No.
1232 01:05:21 Turn off the song…
1233 01:05:23 Luke, turn off the fucking song!
1234 01:05:25 -Fine.-[song stops playing]
1235 01:05:29 Happy?
1236 01:05:32 [laptop clatters]
1237 01:05:39 [slams]
1238 01:05:41 [students chattering]
1239 01:05:44 Aw. It's my two favorite people.
1240 01:05:47 [Peyton sighs]
1241 01:05:49 You tell the headmasterhow much you loved it?
1242 01:05:51 [young Dean]That's so cute. That's adorable.
1243 01:05:54 [boys laughing]
1244 01:05:56 Damn, you really do have a wide load.
1245 01:05:59 [young Dean laughs]
1246 01:06:01 Oh, thanks, I've been doing squats.
1247 01:06:03 [chuckles]
1248 01:06:05 Stop. Stop, let's go.
1249 01:06:08 -[grunts]-[thuds]
1250 01:06:09 -Oh my God.-[Arthur] You're cute when you're mad.
1251 01:06:11 Come on, hit me. No one's gonna stop you.No one ever stops you.
1252 01:06:15 -[Arthur grunts]-[students oohing, shouting]
1253 01:06:17 Oh, fuck him up!
1254 01:06:19 -[young Dean grunting]-[Arthur groaning]
1255 01:06:21 [girl 1] It's all your fault!
1256 01:06:22 [students shouting]
1257 01:06:24 [boy] Come on!
1258 01:06:25 [grunts, groans]
1259 01:06:27 [students shouting]
1260 01:06:30 [teacher groans]
1261 01:06:32 [Arthur] Shit.
1262 01:06:32 [Peyton] Dean, go. Go!Get the fuck out of here.
1263 01:06:34 [girl 2] Go.
1264 01:06:36 Oh, fuck.
1265 01:06:37 -[girl 3] Go. Get out.-[girl 4] What is going on?
1266 01:06:43 [teacher groaning]
1267 01:06:46 Ow!
1268 01:06:50 You didn't know it was Mrs. Hurst.Why can't you just apologize?
1269 01:06:54 Oh, like you did? And everythingis just peachy keen for you now?
1270 01:06:57 Oh, come on,it's better than getting expelled.
1271 01:07:00 Think you're gonna get into Columbia now?
1272 01:07:02 Okay, kindly adjust your tone, young lady.
1273 01:07:04 I was standing up for my friend.
1274 01:07:09 [sighs]
1275 01:07:11 I know.
1276 01:07:18 Thank you.
1277 01:07:20 [inhales sharply]
1278 01:07:22 I don't want you to thank me,
1279 01:07:24 I want you to actlike you have a smidge of dignity.
1280 01:07:27 Just a tiny microscopic smidge.
1281 01:07:29 I mean, you have to havethat much at least, right?
1282 01:07:37 [sighs]
1283 01:07:40 You can't be mad at me.I didn't ask you to do any of this.
1284 01:07:42 You should be mad at you.
1285 01:07:44 You had a chance to take him down,and you didn't
1286 01:07:46 'cause you're so fucking desperateto redeem yourself.
1287 01:07:50 -You sound so fucking stupid right now.-Yeah, I'm the stupid one.
1288 01:07:53 I'm not gonna take Dean down.It doesn't fucking work like that, Arthur.
1289 01:07:58 You apologized to Liam, for fuck's sake.
1290 01:08:00 You apologized to your own fucking rapist.
1291 01:08:03 I mean, seriously,how can you live with yourself?
1292 01:08:09 [young Ani] Fuck you.
1293 01:08:11 TifAni, wait, no.
1294 01:08:13 TifAni, wait. TifAni.
1295 01:08:18 [young Ani] Here.You're such a fucking loser.
1296 01:08:23 [door opens, closes]
1297 01:08:26 [Luke] Hey, babe,I just wanna say good luck today.
1298 01:08:29 I know you're nervous,but it's gonna be okay.
1299 01:08:32 You deserve closure on this.
1300 01:08:34 Love you. Bye.
1301 01:08:44 [car door shuts]
1302 01:08:50 [pensive music playing]
1303 01:08:55 [sighs]
1304 01:08:58 [students chattering]
1305 01:09:08 Ani, you ready?
1306 01:09:10 [pensive music continues]
1307 01:09:22 Just up here.
1308 01:09:24 Uh, if you need anything,you can feel free to tell me.
1309 01:09:30 Uh…
1310 01:09:38 -Set?-Set.
1311 01:09:42 [man] Rolling.
1312 01:09:47 [Aaron] Okay, uh, Ani, you ready?
1313 01:09:52 Can you tell us your personal experienceof that tragic day?
1314 01:09:56 Whenever you're ready.
1315 01:10:00 You know, I… I always thought
1316 01:10:01 the most vulnerableyou'll ever see a person is from behind.
1317 01:10:07 [Ani] Like, you can autopsy every pore,every hair,
1318 01:10:12 like they're defenseless.
1319 01:10:14 I always thought it was cute
1320 01:10:16 that the back of Dean's neckhad blonde hairs
1321 01:10:19 when everywhere elsewas dark and coarse, when he jumped.
1322 01:10:23 [loud blast]
1323 01:10:27 [glasses shattering]
1324 01:10:43 [students breathing heavily]
1325 01:10:45 [students groaning, sobbing]
1326 01:10:48 [water running]
1327 01:10:51 [students coughing]
1328 01:10:53 -[moaning]-[ears ringing]
1329 01:10:56 [breathing shakily]
1330 01:10:59 [young Ani's friend] Tif! Tif! Tif![grunts]
1331 01:11:03 Come on! Come on! Come on!
1332 01:11:05 [young Ani] Olivia! [whimpers]
1333 01:11:07 [students whimpering]
1334 01:11:09 -[gunshot]-[students screaming]
1335 01:11:12 -[gun firing]-[panicked shouts, cries]
1336 01:11:15 [boy panting]
1337 01:11:18 -[young Ani's friend] Come on!-[both panting]
1338 01:11:20 Go, go, go!
1339 01:11:23 [lights flickering]
1340 01:11:28 [door squeaking]
1341 01:11:32 [floorboard creaking]
1342 01:11:42 [dull thud in distance]
1343 01:11:44 -[girl panting]-[door opens]
1344 01:11:47 [Peyton] He had a gun. I saw him.
1345 01:11:49 -Okay, okay, okay.-[Olivia] Who has a phone?
1346 01:11:52 Phone? Okay, okay, okay.
1347 01:11:56 [panicked chatter]
1348 01:11:58 -[boy] Ben!-[commotion]
1349 01:12:01 No bars! [breathing shakily]
1350 01:12:03 [glass shattering]
1351 01:12:05 [gasps]
1352 01:12:06 [Ani] You're sad about that.
1353 01:12:08 Look sad.
1354 01:12:10 She didn't deserve that.
1355 01:12:12 [clattering]
1356 01:12:13 [glass crunching, clinking]
1357 01:12:20 [young Ani breathing shakily]
1358 01:12:22 Witnesses claim that Ben said…
1359 01:12:25 -Hey, Tif.-[young Ani gasps]
1360 01:12:27 [breathing heavily]
1361 01:12:31 As though the two of youhad an understanding.
1362 01:12:34 Is that true?
1363 01:12:36 Yes.
1364 01:12:40 [Aaron] What was that understanding?
1365 01:12:42 [Ani] I wanted revenge too.
1366 01:12:45 That he was a victim too.
1367 01:12:47 [exhales sharply]
1368 01:12:56 Hey, Peyton.
1369 01:13:01 -Do you wanna go to the woods, man? Hmm?-[Peyton whimpers]
1370 01:13:05 -Smoke some pot, man?-Ben. [sobs]
1371 01:13:07 Ben, I am so, so sorry--
1372 01:13:09 -[gunshot]-[gasps]
1373 01:13:10 -[breathing heavily]-[whimpering]
1374 01:13:16 [Arthur] Ben?
1375 01:13:18 Ben!
1376 01:13:20 [breathing nervously]
1377 01:13:25 What were you feeling when he walked away?
1378 01:13:28 Was it just this total collective relief?
1379 01:13:32 You know… we all came togetherat that moment,
1380 01:13:37 'cause we… we knewthat we had to help Peyton.
1381 01:13:39 [young Ani's friend shudders]
1382 01:13:44 Oh my God.
1383 01:13:45 -Hey.-No. No, no. [sobs]
1384 01:13:48 [Liam] How is this happening?
1385 01:13:50 How is this happening?
1386 01:13:52 We need to get out of here.
1387 01:13:55 [utensils clanging]
1388 01:13:57 [breathing heavily]
1389 01:14:00 What the fuck's that gonna do?
1390 01:14:02 [sobbing]
1391 01:14:05 [young Ani] We need to get out of here.
1392 01:14:07 [sobbing]
1393 01:14:11 -[Liam] Up or down?-The old dorm rooms are up.
1394 01:14:13 Would he have gone up?
1395 01:14:16 [young Ani breathing shakily]
1396 01:14:21 I vote down.
1397 01:14:24 [unsettling music playing]
1398 01:14:26 [door closes]
1399 01:14:27 [foreboding music playing]
1400 01:14:31 -[gun firing]-[screaming]
1401 01:14:32 [both panting]
1402 01:14:34 -Go, go! Come on! Run! Run!-Go, go, go!
1403 01:14:36 Come on! [breathing heavily]
1404 01:14:39 [young Ani] Hurry, come on!
1405 01:14:41 [breathing shakily]
1406 01:14:44 [breathing heavily]
1407 01:14:47 [whimpers, breathes shakily]
1408 01:14:50 [unsettling music playing]
1409 01:14:57 [lock clicks]
1410 01:14:58 [gunshot]
1411 01:15:02 You didn't hold the door openfor Liam Ross.
1412 01:15:06 I wanna give you the chanceto explain why.
1413 01:15:08 [Ani] Because I wasn't going to putmy life on the line for one of my rapists.
1414 01:15:12 I guess I wasn't brave enough.
1415 01:15:18 [sloshing]
1416 01:15:23 [somber music playing]
1417 01:15:27 [young Ani's friend] Oh my God. Oh my God!Dean! Dean! Dean!
1418 01:15:30 [water pattering]
1419 01:15:35 Dean.
1420 01:15:37 -[gun fires]-[screams]
1421 01:15:38 [cocks gun]
1422 01:15:40 Ladies.
1423 01:15:42 -There you are.-[sprinkler bursts]
1424 01:15:46 [young Ani's friend] Arthur.
1425 01:15:47 Beth. Get out of here. I like you.
1426 01:15:52 [Beth breathing shakily]
1427 01:15:55 -You…-[whimpers]
1428 01:15:56 Girl with spaghetti for a spine.
1429 01:16:00 [breathing shakily]
1430 01:16:06 You know you want to.
1431 01:16:07 [whimpers]
1432 01:16:10 [Ani] Is it so bad that I did?
1433 01:16:16 [young Ani breathing shakily]
1434 01:16:20 [breathing nervously]
1435 01:16:25 [whimpering]
1436 01:16:28 Please.
1437 01:16:30 -[Arthur grunts]-[young Ani whimpers]
1438 01:16:33 [young Dean screams] Fuck!
1439 01:16:35 [young Dean groans]
1440 01:16:36 [young Ani breathes shakily]
1441 01:16:38 [young Ani grunts]
1442 01:16:39 [gasping]
1443 01:16:45 [breathing heavily]
1444 01:16:48 [Arthur wheezing]
1445 01:16:50 -[young Ani whimpers]-[Arthur gasping]
1446 01:16:53 -[young Ani grunting]-[wheezing]
1447 01:16:58 [whimpering]
1448 01:17:01 [somber music playing]
1449 01:17:05 [breathing heavily]
1450 01:17:17 You know, the look on his face,like… he was so confused,
1451 01:17:21 like I was doing it to the wrong person.
1452 01:17:27 You know, to this day,I can't hold a knife in my hand
1453 01:17:29 without seeing his face.
1454 01:17:38 [Aaron] My goodness, Ani.
1455 01:17:40 Thank you.
1456 01:17:55 [somber music playing]
1457 01:18:01 [Dinah] It's going to be fine.
1458 01:18:03 You did a brave thing, TifAni.
1459 01:18:07 Please don't say that.
1460 01:18:14 [somber music continues]
1461 01:18:39 [girl 1] I can't believe she showed up.So disgusting.
1462 01:18:43 [girl 2] Can you believe that?
1463 01:18:44 [Ani] I didn't realize I walked intothe funeral with a target on my back.
1464 01:18:51 Dean's version of eventsdidn't exactly match mine.
1465 01:18:56 [Aaron] And Dean's version of events was?
1466 01:19:00 [Ani] That he didn't wanna be my boyfriend
1467 01:19:02 after I slept with himand his two best friends.
1468 01:19:05 That I was jilted.
1469 01:19:07 Due to TifAni having relationshipswith more than one of these boys…
1470 01:19:10 [Ani] That I got my revenge by helpingBen and Arthur plan a massacre.
1471 01:19:14 Hell have no furylike a woman scorned and whatnot.
1472 01:19:20 [cop] Let me escort you back to your car.
1473 01:19:22 [indistinct police radio chatter]
1474 01:19:28 [young Ani] Beth?
1475 01:19:34 And for the grand finale,we were all gonna shoot ourselves.
1476 01:19:38 Although only Ben managed to do that.
1477 01:19:45 You know, Dean was never gonna walk again,
1478 01:19:48 so who would dare call him a liar?
1479 01:19:55 [Dinah] Is it true?
1480 01:19:57 I had no idea Arthurwas gonna do something like that--
1481 01:19:59 Not that part, the part about the boys!
1482 01:20:04 [young Ani] I didn't want to, Mom.
1483 01:20:06 -I was drunk. They're lying.-Oh my God, TifAni.
1484 01:20:09 This is why I say no drinking!
1485 01:20:12 Well, I'm gonna call a lawyeras soon as I get home.
1486 01:20:16 Oh, what are people gonna say?
1487 01:20:23 You're never chargedas an accomplice. But…
1488 01:20:25 What about your claims against the boys?
1489 01:20:27 Why didn't you file charges back then?
1490 01:20:31 I just thoughtthey weren't worth pursuing.
1491 01:20:33 Mom.
1492 01:20:36 -Mom---[Dinah] No, TifAni.
1493 01:20:39 No, no.
1494 01:20:41 -You disgust me.-[sobs]
1495 01:20:44 I'm sorry.
1496 01:20:49 You are not the daughter that I raised.
1497 01:20:58 You're lucky you have a motherwho got you a lawyer and supported you.
1498 01:21:02 Not everyone has that.
1499 01:21:03 Hmm. Yes.
1500 01:21:06 Very lucky.
1501 01:21:08 Luckiest girl alive right here.
1502 01:21:11 Do you wish your motherdid more to help you?
1503 01:21:15 [Ani] I wish she hadn't looked at melike I was rode hard and put away wet.
1504 01:21:19 [unsettling music playing]
1505 01:21:22 Ani, do you wanna say more about that,or should I move on?
1506 01:21:25 [wheelchair clattering]
1507 01:21:28 [gasps]
1508 01:21:29 -Aaron, what the fuck?-Hi, Finny.
1509 01:21:31 I swear, he's not supposed to be hereuntil tomorrow.
1510 01:21:33 -You need to get outta here.-[Dean] Wait.
1511 01:21:34 Finny, please. Just give me five minutes.
1512 01:21:37 [Aaron] What are you doing here?This is not what we talked about.
1513 01:21:39 Ani, stay. Ani, don't go. He should bethe one to go. I'm getting him outta here.
1514 01:21:42 -[Dean] Finny.-No, no. Don't worry about it.
1515 01:21:44 -[Aaron] Ani.-Please.
1516 01:21:46 [Aaron] Ani, wait.
1517 01:21:51 Ani, wait. Ani.Don't let Dean run you out of here.
1518 01:21:54 Think about all the womenyou're gonna help by telling your story.
1519 01:22:00 You're standing up for them too.
1520 01:22:03 All the women will be fine.
1521 01:22:10 [pensive music playing]
1522 01:22:31 [Ani] My mother insistedI stick it out at Brentley.
1523 01:22:34 It was a lonely two years.
1524 01:22:36 My classmates and Ihad survived this life-changing event
1525 01:22:39 that few people could understand.
1526 01:22:42 [whooping]
1527 01:22:44 They could lean on each other.
1528 01:22:48 But I had no one.
1529 01:22:52 My senior year,we took a field trip to New York City,
1530 01:22:55 where I had this… experience.
1531 01:23:00 [woman] I don't need to impress him.
1532 01:23:02 So do you know when the samplesare actually arriving?
1533 01:23:06 -You okay?-Sorry.
1534 01:23:07 No, the sampleshave to be there by Friday.
1535 01:23:10 Yes, Friday. Did you not schedule it?
1536 01:23:15 [Ani exhales]I'd never seen a woman like that before.
1537 01:23:18 A woman who threatened peopleon the phone,
1538 01:23:21 who could buy herself expensive things,
1539 01:23:24 who cut a path through New York Citysimply because she looked like
1540 01:23:27 she had more important places to bethan anyone else.
1541 01:23:30 I just had to get to that, I decided…
1542 01:23:34 [somber music playing]
1543 01:23:38 And no one could ever hurt me again.
1544 01:23:45 [siren wails in distance]
1545 01:23:55 [man 1] Oh, come on.
1546 01:23:56 -[men chatter indistinctly]-[game playing on TV]
1547 01:24:01 -[Luke] Who wants another one?-[man 1] Yeah, grab me one.
1548 01:24:03 [Luke] One, two, three, four more?
1549 01:24:05 -[man 2] Yes, sir. Thank you.-[man 3] Here we go, boys.
1550 01:24:07 [indistinct chatter]
1551 01:24:11 [man 1] There it is. I told you.
1552 01:24:14 -You're home.-[men] Yeah!
1553 01:24:16 -[Ani] Yeah.-[men laughing]
1554 01:24:17 I left.
1555 01:24:18 [game playing on TV]
1556 01:24:20 I'm done.
1557 01:24:22 It just, um…
1558 01:24:25 It just didn't feel right.
1559 01:24:28 You know, I'm thinking aboutactually writing something myself.
1560 01:24:32 Get it out of my system that way.
1561 01:24:36 [exhales sharply]
1562 01:24:38 I think that's really smart.
1563 01:24:40 [somber music playing]
1564 01:24:46 [smooches]
1565 01:24:48 -[men chatter indistinctly]-Uh…
1566 01:24:53 You want a drink?
1567 01:24:56 Martini, straight up,three olives, no vermouth.
1568 01:25:01 -Vodka, olives coming right up.-Okay.
1569 01:25:07 [men laughing]
1570 01:25:08 [man 1] Exactly. I didn't say that.
1571 01:25:16 Thank you for your service.
1572 01:25:21 Please don't be mad,but I think I'm moving to London.
1573 01:25:26 [exhales sharply] You think?
1574 01:25:29 Well, guess what?I am mad, so deal with it.
1575 01:25:39 What's that?
1576 01:25:40 I've written something.
1577 01:25:44 You think The Times would want it?
1578 01:25:47 [LoLo scoffs]
1579 01:26:08 [paper rustling]
1580 01:26:23 You know what I wish I knew 38 years ago?
1581 01:26:27 It's a lot easierto be angry with the guy.
1582 01:26:34 My high school boyfriend…
1583 01:26:41 could be creative.
1584 01:26:45 I'm sorry, LoLo.
1585 01:26:46 [sighs] It's all right.There's no need to make a scene.
1586 01:26:50 Your guys, I mean,they rot in the ground or whatever,
1587 01:26:53 but the people who love you,
1588 01:26:55 who failed you so miserably,
1589 01:26:57 stop trying to protect themwith this vague half-assery,
1590 01:27:00 and you might actuallyhave something there.
1591 01:27:01 But for now, let me be perfectly clear,
1592 01:27:04 an approximation of honesty
1593 01:27:06 doesn't make the cutat the paper of record.
1594 01:27:08 So, you know, take another swing at it.
1595 01:27:11 Write it like no one will ever read it.
1596 01:27:13 Not Luke, not your musty in-laws,definitely not your parents.
1597 01:27:16 That is how you writesomething worth reading.
1598 01:27:21 I mean, no one'smaking you write about it.
1599 01:27:24 I mean, go to London.Go live your life with Luke.
1600 01:27:26 Just decide something.
1601 01:27:29 Decide.
1602 01:27:30 I'm… I'm trying.
1603 01:27:32 [scoffs]
1604 01:27:34 Look, I'll make it very simple for you.
1605 01:27:38 You just say what it is that you want,
1606 01:27:41 not what everyone else wants,
1607 01:27:43 and then you do that.
1608 01:27:49 -If you tell anyone what I just told you---I won't.
1609 01:27:52 No, about it being 38 yearssince I was a teenager,
1610 01:27:54 I will hunt you downand make you eat a carb.
1611 01:28:10 I had a choice to make on that day.
1612 01:28:14 I could blame the worldfor what happened to me,
1613 01:28:18 or I could find the opportunity.
1614 01:28:21 Every challenge, every heartache,
1615 01:28:24 every tragedy in life
1616 01:28:26 offers an opportunityto do something different,
1617 01:28:30 to do something kind.
1618 01:28:31 [whispers] I told you.So inspiring, right?
1619 01:28:33 I haven't heard a word he's said. [laughs]
1620 01:28:36 -…no one can ever take away that choice.-[woman] Shh.
1621 01:28:40 [audience applauding]
1622 01:28:43 [indistinct chatter]
1623 01:28:49 [somber music playing]
1624 01:29:05 [softly] Look, I could admit that I liedabout your involvement in the shooting.
1625 01:29:11 I was young a-and scared, confused.
1626 01:29:15 People will understand that.
1627 01:29:19 But… I don't know how the hellI'm gonna explain what happened with us.
1628 01:29:25 I have a wife.
1629 01:29:26 [Ani] Three, two--
1630 01:29:28 Daughters.
1631 01:29:29 Mmm. Right at the buzzer.
1632 01:29:31 And this would destroy them.
1633 01:29:36 But me, I was fair game?
1634 01:29:39 I was just trying to get out ahead of you.
1635 01:29:42 I was scared that you'd tell the copsabout that night at my house.
1636 01:29:46 Plus, I was stuck in this,and you weren't.
1637 01:29:49 So I was so angry at you.
1638 01:29:54 Do you know the difference between meand someone like you, Dean?
1639 01:30:01 Between me and an Arthur?
1640 01:30:03 Because I was angry too,so fucking angry you wouldn't believe it.
1641 01:30:07 But my anger is like carbon monoxide.
1642 01:30:11 It's odorless, tasteless,colorless, and completely toxic
1643 01:30:17 but only to me.
1644 01:30:20 See, I don't take my anger outon anyone other than my fucking self.
1645 01:30:24 Shh.
1646 01:30:28 [whispers]I didn't mean for it to happen like that.
1647 01:30:31 I was… drunk, you know?
1648 01:30:35 I didn't even understand thatthat is what I was doing.
1649 01:30:39 Not when I was crying?
1650 01:30:41 Not when I was begging you to wait. Wait.
1651 01:30:45 Wait, like we were gonna… we were gonnatalk about it, figure it out.
1652 01:30:50 Do you know that every timeI start to feel
1653 01:30:52 just a little bit good about myself,I remember that I begged…
1654 01:30:57 and there that goes.
1655 01:31:02 If you talk about that night,I'll deny it…
1656 01:31:07 and I'll double down on my claimthat you planned it with Arthur and Ben.
1657 01:31:12 And there's a lot of peoplethat are gonna believe me.
1658 01:31:17 Are you seriouslytrying to threaten me right now?
1659 01:31:21 I'm trying to offer you a deal.
1660 01:31:24 Okay?
1661 01:31:25 You don't talk aboutwhat happened that night.
1662 01:31:29 And I'll say you had nothingto do with the shooting.
1663 01:31:32 There it is.
1664 01:31:34 Look, I know I was an asshole back then,
1665 01:31:37 but I have made it my missionto make up for that every day.
1666 01:31:44 Does that…Does that not count for anything?
1667 01:31:47 [sniffles, sighs]
1668 01:32:02 [Dean] Thank you.
1669 01:32:05 [sniffles]
1670 01:32:06 See, I was a victim too…
1671 01:32:10 but no one ever treated me like one.
1672 01:32:15 So let's just stopwith your self-pitying bullshit.
1673 01:32:21 Do you know how many timesI've said the word "rape" in my life?
1674 01:32:25 I know, I fucking hate that word too.Makes me wanna peel my skin off.
1675 01:32:30 I wonder if you've ever used it,
1676 01:32:33 even once.
1677 01:32:35 Probably not.
1678 01:32:36 Probably not.
1679 01:32:40 So I'm gonna sit here and watch you squirm
1680 01:32:42 while you make ita part of your vocabulary.
1681 01:32:46 [scoffs]
1682 01:32:49 [whispers] Fine.
1683 01:32:50 Fine.
1684 01:32:52 You win.
1685 01:32:55 I, uh…
1686 01:32:57 I raped you.
1687 01:33:00 Okay?
1688 01:33:04 [pensive music playing]
1689 01:33:16 [indistinct chatter]
1690 01:33:22 [fan] It's really just an honorto meet you.
1691 01:33:25 Um, thank you so much.You're such an inspiration.
1692 01:33:30 [indistinct chatter]
1693 01:33:36 [recording rewinding]
1694 01:33:41 [Ani] So I'm gonna sit hereand watch you squirm
1695 01:33:43 while you make ita part of your vocabulary.
1696 01:33:47 [Dean] Fine. You win.
1697 01:33:49 I, uh…
1698 01:33:50 I raped you.
1699 01:33:52 [somber music playing]
1700 01:34:03 [indistinct chatter]
1701 01:34:10 [car door slams]
1702 01:34:13 [Luke grunts]
1703 01:34:14 Need a lift?
1704 01:34:17 [Luke grunts]
1705 01:34:27 [wistful music playing]
1706 01:34:30 [Ani sighs]
1707 01:34:46 [inhales deeply]
1708 01:34:51 [Ani] Good riddance, TifAni FaNelli,
1709 01:34:54 welcome, Ani Harrison.
1710 01:34:58 [guests chattering]
1711 01:35:07 [Ani] You belong here.
1712 01:35:10 You do.
1713 01:35:11 ♪ Ooh ♪
1714 01:35:16 [guests applauding]
1715 01:35:20 ♪ Ooh ♪
1716 01:35:26 [applauding continues]
1717 01:35:29 ♪ Ooh ♪
1718 01:35:34 [inaudible]
1719 01:35:37 ♪ Ooh ♪
1720 01:35:46 [instrumental orchestral music playing]
1721 01:35:54 [inaudible]
1722 01:35:59 [indistinct chatter]
1723 01:36:01 [phone ringing]
1724 01:36:03 I'm sorry. One second.
1725 01:36:10 One moment.
1726 01:36:13 Yeah. Of course.
1727 01:36:16 Okay.
1728 01:36:18 Yeah. Thank you.
1729 01:36:21 ♪ Ooh ♪
1730 01:36:25 [gasps] Oh my God!
1731 01:36:32 [indistinct chatter]
1732 01:36:36 -Um, I'll… I'll catch up with you.-Yeah, yeah, yeah.
1733 01:36:41 Hey.
1734 01:36:43 Um…
1735 01:36:45 Can we go talk?
1736 01:36:47 ♪ Ooh ♪
1737 01:36:58 [music fading]
1738 01:37:00 [guests chattering in distance]
1739 01:37:05 [sighs]
1740 01:37:09 This is running in The New York Times?
1741 01:37:12 Yeah.
1742 01:37:18 How could you not tell me about this?
1743 01:37:22 [sighs]
1744 01:37:23 I'm sorry.
1745 01:37:24 [sighs]
1746 01:37:26 I guess I… I just don't understand. I…
1747 01:37:29 I always thoughtyou had moved on from all this.
1748 01:37:33 I admired you for that.I thought you were so tough.
1749 01:37:38 So tough that I try to skip the partwhere I hurt about this?
1750 01:37:44 No. Until I do that, I'm just a fraud.
1751 01:37:47 Fine, but can't youwork that out privately?
1752 01:37:49 Do you have to get into the nitty-grittydetails for the whole world?
1753 01:37:54 Those guys… were going aroundmaking fun of the shape of my pubic hair.
1754 01:38:01 They were making funof the sounds I was making.
1755 01:38:04 -So yes, the nitty-gritty matters to me.-They're dead.
1756 01:38:08 And one of them is in a wheelchair.Haven't they paid for their mistakes?
1757 01:38:12 -Their mistakes?-They fucked up. I'm agreeing with you.
1758 01:38:14 No, no, no. A-- A fuck-up is when you takeyour parent's car without permission
1759 01:38:18 and… and scratch the paint.
1760 01:38:20 A fuck-up doesn't even beginto encompass what they did to me.
1761 01:38:23 Ani, it's our fucking rehearsal dinner.
1762 01:38:25 How are we talking about this right now?
1763 01:38:29 God! You used to be so different.You used to be so fun.
1764 01:38:33 [sobs]
1765 01:38:35 -Fun?-Yes, fun.
1766 01:38:38 We used to have fun together. I miss that.
1767 01:38:45 I don't know if I'm fun.
1768 01:38:49 I don't know what's me
1769 01:38:52 and what part I inventedto make people like me.
1770 01:38:57 God, I used to be so proud of that. I-I…
1771 01:39:01 I thought it was this chameleonwho was so much smarter than everyone.
1772 01:39:05 [sobs] So much smarter thatI don't even know a thing about myself.
1773 01:39:08 Hey, hey. I don't believe that.
1774 01:39:10 -We can get back there. Hey, stop.-[Ani sobs]
1775 01:39:12 [sniffles]
1776 01:39:13 We can get back there.
1777 01:39:16 I love you. You love me.We can figure it out.
1778 01:39:24 [Ani] No.
1779 01:39:27 Do you remember the timeyou said you felt like a box
1780 01:39:31 that I just checked off?
1781 01:39:34 [sighs]
1782 01:39:37 I do love you…
1783 01:39:41 [inhales deeply]
1784 01:39:44 But I've been using you. [whimpers]
1785 01:39:49 I resent you.
1786 01:39:51 It's not… It's not fair.
1787 01:39:53 You're not the one who hurt me,but I… but I take it out on you.
1788 01:39:57 -I've never felt like you resent me.-Because I'm like a wind-up doll.
1789 01:40:00 Turn my key, and I'll tell youexactly what you wanna hear.
1790 01:40:06 I have denied myselfand denied myself. [sniffles]
1791 01:40:12 I'm fine.
1792 01:40:14 I'm not hurt.
1793 01:40:16 And it has… it has built upthis rage inside of me.
1794 01:40:22 Look, I… I should've faced upto all of this sooner.
1795 01:40:25 I… I just think that I need to do it now
1796 01:40:27 without worrying about what youor anyone else thinks about it.
1797 01:40:33 Is this really happening right now?
1798 01:40:37 [inhales sharply]
1799 01:40:42 [exhales sharply]
1800 01:40:44 [somber music playing]
1801 01:40:47 [sobbing]
1802 01:40:56 [groans]
1803 01:40:59 [somber music continues]
1804 01:41:21 [somber music continues]
1805 01:41:27 [Ani] It's like LoLo said,
1806 01:41:29 an approximation of honestywon't make the cut.
1807 01:41:32 And that's what I had with Luke.
1808 01:41:35 I hate that I hurt him,
1809 01:41:38 but this is where I belong.
1810 01:41:41 This is what I always wanted.
1811 01:41:50 I'd be lying if I said I wasn't suffering
1812 01:41:52 from a mild case of phantom limb syndrome.
1813 01:41:56 But maybe things are brighter without it.
1814 01:42:00 -[doorknob rattling]-[door opening]
1815 01:42:04 "If you read one thing today,
1816 01:42:06 it should be Ani FaNelli's essayin New York Times Magazine."
1817 01:42:10 "I sent it to every woman I know,and so should you!"
1818 01:42:14 -[laughter]-[Nell] Oh, Dean Barton is so fucked!
1819 01:42:16 Oh my God!
1820 01:42:17 -Ooh! Get up!-I'm up!
1821 01:42:19 You're going viral!
1822 01:42:21 -Oh my God.-Ugh! Wait, do you… do you have any OJ?
1823 01:42:24 [Ani] Yeah, I keep the Sunny Din the side door.
1824 01:42:27 [Nell] Ha-ha-ha-ha!
1825 01:42:28 She's a funny writer girl.
1826 01:42:34 [acoustic music playing]
1827 01:42:35 [door closing]
1828 01:42:44 [acoustic music continues]
1829 01:42:50 Look it!
1830 01:42:51 -[squeals]-Look at this!
1831 01:42:53 [Nell] You look amazing. [laughs]
1832 01:42:54 Ah! I'm so proud of you.
1833 01:42:58 [cars honking]
1834 01:42:59 [commenter 1] I just finished readingyour piece and am utterly haunted.
1835 01:43:04 Thank you for speaking up.
1836 01:43:06 From someone who has always felt likeno one would listen to her anyway.
1837 01:43:11 [indistinct PA announcement]
1838 01:43:16 [commenter 2] I cried reading your essay.
1839 01:43:20 Thank you for putting it outinto the world.
1840 01:43:26 [commenter 3] I was also assaultedby a guy I thought was a friend.
1841 01:43:30 Hearing your story gives me hopethat one day I can tell mine too.
1842 01:43:36 [commenter 4]I was raped while completely unconscious.
1843 01:43:39 The lines about coming to
1844 01:43:43 hit me so hard.
1845 01:43:47 [wistful music playing]
1846 01:43:50 [commenter 5] I never told anyone,
1847 01:43:53 not even my husband.
1848 01:43:55 [wistful music continues]
1849 01:44:19 [elevator dings]
1850 01:44:25 [Ani] When I sat down to write this essay,the goal was to avenge my reputation,
1851 01:44:30 maybe stick it to the people who hurt me.
1852 01:44:34 But it's become so much more than that.
1853 01:44:37 -Ani. So nice to meet you.-So much more than me.
1854 01:44:40 Of course. Thank you.
1855 01:44:42 [Rachel] Now, I read your op-ed…
1856 01:44:44 [Ani] It's about the importanceof all of us speaking freely,
1857 01:44:47 even if people wanna silence us.
1858 01:44:50 So that we can become the kind of womenour younger selves would admire.
1859 01:44:54 I'm hearing from womenwho have never shared their stories,
1860 01:44:57 from women who have carriedthis horrible thing
1861 01:44:59 with them alone for 38 years,
1862 01:45:02 and I just hope that no onehas to ever do that again.
1863 01:45:07 I hope that peoplefeel compelled to share their stories,
1864 01:45:10 to talk about what happened to them,
1865 01:45:13 and to knowthat you have nothing to be ashamed of.
1866 01:45:17 [pensive music playing]
1867 01:45:23 [Rachel] Wow.
1868 01:45:25 Ani, thank you so much for being here.
1869 01:45:27 -Of course.-[Rachel] Truly inspiring story.
1870 01:45:28 Thank you.
1871 01:45:36 [exhales deeply]
1872 01:45:41 [gentle music playing]
1873 01:45:45 [indistinct chatter]
1874 01:45:52 TifAni FaNelli, right?
1875 01:45:55 Yeah.
1876 01:45:55 Sarah Gardener.I cover public health for Bloomberg.
1877 01:45:59 [Ani] Okay.
1878 01:45:59 Gun control is under my domain.
1879 01:46:02 I've covered Dean Barton's careerquite extensively.
1880 01:46:05 He's helped a lot of peopleover the years.
1881 01:46:09 [clicks tongue] Let's hopeyour 15 minutes of fame will too.
1882 01:46:12 Nice to meet you.
1883 01:46:14 Nice to meet you.
1884 01:46:19 Excuse me. I'm so sorry. I…
1885 01:46:21 I would love to stay in touch,but I already forgot your name.
1886 01:46:24 -It's Sarah Gard---That's okay.
1887 01:46:25 I'll just remember you as the womanI told to go fuck herself on 5th Avenue.
1888 01:46:31 [Ani] Gotta workon that delivery, FaNelli,
1889 01:46:34 but fuck that felt good.
1890 01:46:36 ["I Know Where I've Been"by Elle King playing]
1891 01:46:40 ♪ Not gonna stay here anymore ♪
1892 01:46:44 ♪ Stronger than I was before ♪
1893 01:46:49 ♪ I can finally breathe ♪
1894 01:46:52 ♪ Through all the crazy and the strange ♪
1895 01:46:57 ♪ With bare feet on the pavement ♪
1896 01:47:00 ♪ Out of control ♪
1897 01:47:04 ♪ Oh, I was frightened ♪
1898 01:47:08 ♪ Of letting it go ♪
1899 01:47:12 ♪ Now I'm free ♪
1900 01:47:16 ♪ Yeah, I'm free ♪
1901 01:47:20 ♪ Oh, I’m free ♪
1902 01:47:24 ♪ From everyone ♪
1903 01:47:29 ♪ No secret where I've been ♪
1904 01:47:33 ♪ 'Cause the weight of my skin ♪
1905 01:47:36 ♪ Is like a memory ♪
1906 01:47:40 ♪ That keeps reminding me ♪
1907 01:47:45 ♪ Can't undo what I can't forget ♪
1908 01:47:49 ♪ Can't know what happens next ♪
1909 01:47:52 ♪ I found a way out ♪
1910 01:47:56 ♪ Yeah, I made my way out ♪
1911 01:48:00 ♪ Now I'm free ♪
1912 01:48:04 ♪ Yes, I'm free ♪
1913 01:48:08 ♪ Oh, I’m free ♪
1914 01:48:12 ♪ From everyone ♪
1915 01:48:16 ♪ Yeah, I'm free ♪
1916 01:48:20 ♪ Oh, I’m free ♪
1917 01:48:24 ♪ Yeah, I'm free ♪
1918 01:48:28 ♪ From everyone ♪
1919 01:48:33 ♪ Oh ♪
1920 01:48:37 ♪ Oh ♪
1921 01:48:41 ♪ Oh ♪
1922 01:48:45 ♪ Oh ♪
1923 01:48:56 ♪ Yeah, I'm free ♪
1924 01:49:00 ♪ Yeah, I'm free ♪
1925 01:49:05 [vocalizing]
1926 01:49:09 [vocalizing continues]
1927 01:49:12 ♪ Yeah, I'm free ♪
1928 01:49:16 ♪ From everyone ♪
1929 01:49:20 ♪ Yeah, I'm free ♪
1930 01:49:24 ♪ Yeah, I'm free ♪
1931 01:49:28 ♪ Oh, I’m free ♪
1932 01:49:32 ♪ From everyone ♪
1933 01:49:36 ♪ Yeah, I'm free ♪
1934 01:49:40 ♪ Oh, I’m free ♪
1935 01:49:44 ♪ Finally letting it go ♪
1936 01:49:48 ♪ By letting you know ♪
1937 01:50:03 [music fading]
1938 01:50:22 [wistful music playing]
