放下旅程 Good Grief(2023)(EN)Subtitles
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1 00:00:17 ♪ Just hear those sleigh bells ringing... ♪
2 00:00:19 [man] So, Alisdair went away to Berlinfor a week
3 00:00:22 and came back talking aboutall this great art he'd made there.
4 00:00:26 I'm playing supportive partner,and I ask him where it is.
5 00:00:29 He says, "Where what is?"
6 00:00:30 I'm like, "Well, you do mixed media,I run a gallery."
7 00:00:35 - Okay.- [Thomas] It's a short film of him
8 00:00:38 and this hairy older Cuban man having...
9 00:00:43 very slippery sex on a greased-up tarpin what looks like an empty shoe store.
10 00:00:47 - Putting the eggnog down.- Marc, they made seven short films.
11 00:00:52 - Did they have sex in all of them?- It's to do with the eroticism of greed,
12 00:00:57 or capitalism,or something cloyingly well-intentioned.
13 00:01:00 Joke's on me if I stay.
14 00:01:03 - So you're gonna break up with him?- Mm.
15 00:01:05 - No. No, it's too much hassle.- [laughs]
16 00:01:08 - I'll just let him do it eventually.- [sighs]
17 00:01:10 Are there any decent men in this city?
18 00:01:12 Thomas...
19 00:01:13 - Oh.- ...how many times do I have to tell you?
20 00:01:16 You don't get to chime in on thisbecause you've made your own eggnog.
21 00:01:20 And your hot, wealthy husband
22 00:01:22 is about to lead a sing-alongby a roaring fire.
23 00:01:24 So... that question was intendedto just float there for a second.
24 00:01:28 [laughs]
25 00:01:29 It's the only box with your name on it.
26 00:01:31 [woman] Oh. [sighs]
27 00:01:34 I didn't know this was a gifts thing.
28 00:01:37 I forgot to bring wine.Don't tell Terrance I told you that
29 00:01:40 because we got in a fight about iton the way here.
30 00:01:42 Oh yeah. Considering we practicallyshare my husband,
31 00:01:44 I thought it only right.
32 00:01:46 Marc doesn't deserve you.
33 00:01:48 - You know that, right?- [chuckles]
34 00:01:50 And listen,if things go south between you two,
35 00:01:52 I'm not going anywhere.I'll be right here.
36 00:01:54 Okay. Well, I'm sureTerrance will be happy about that.
37 00:01:56 - Oh, he'd understand.- [grunts]
38 00:01:59 If this is a check for my rent,I swear to God...
39 00:02:04 - [Sophie] Mmm.- [Oliver] Incoming.
40 00:02:06 What the fuck are these?
41 00:02:07 Oh.
42 00:02:08 Well, those are hand-crafted maracas.
43 00:02:12 After last year,I thought it would be nice
44 00:02:14 if you could still participatein the carols.
45 00:02:17 - [chuckles]- Do you know what? This is actually abuse.
46 00:02:20 That song that you picked last yearwasn't in my key. Not on me.
47 00:02:24 My love, your voice is like a church organsomeone threw out of a window.
48 00:02:27 [Marc snickers]
49 00:02:29 Suing this householdfor emotional damages actually.
50 00:02:31 - Empty threats, empty threats.- [Sophie] No.
51 00:02:33 - What are we suing for this time?- I think it's high time I put me first.
52 00:02:37 Oh, as opposed to all the other timesyou don't put yourself first?
53 00:02:40 - Thank you.- From your husband.
54 00:02:43 I'm being silenced.
55 00:02:44 Why would you do that to her?
56 00:02:45 These are actually really beautiful.
57 00:02:47 Thank you.
58 00:02:48 Honestly, the gaslightingaround my singing is unbelievable.
59 00:02:51 - [Marc] Ooh.- No, no, no.
60 00:02:52 You are absolutely tone-deaf.
61 00:02:55 And loud.
62 00:02:56 Really fucking loud,and I love you for it.
63 00:03:00 How many drinks have you had?
64 00:03:01 None of your goddamn business.Give me that.
65 00:03:03 - Okay.- [glass clinking]
66 00:03:05 May I request the honorof everyone's attention, please?
67 00:03:10 Daddy.
68 00:03:11 [all laugh]
69 00:03:13 We all know what time it is.
70 00:03:16 [all cheer]
71 00:03:19 Yeah!
72 00:03:20 So, come. Jackie, darling, would you getthe sheet music off the piano
73 00:03:23 and pass it around to everybody?
74 00:03:25 You should also have received,and I know you have,
75 00:03:27 is my email with the audio filesof all of your parts...
76 00:03:31 If I hear about the audio filesone more time.
77 00:03:34 ...generously arrangedby the magnificent Peter Finley,
78 00:03:36 former lover turned friend,turned Academy Award-nominated composer...
79 00:03:41 [all cheering and applauding]
80 00:03:43 ...who has taken time awayfrom his very busy schedule
81 00:03:46 scoring the new Victoria Valentine film...
82 00:03:49 [all cheering]
83 00:03:50 ...to accompany us this evening.
84 00:03:52 - We love you, Petey.- [glass clinks]
85 00:03:55 No, but truly,
86 00:03:56 thank you all for making thisone of the great nights of the year.
87 00:04:00 - [Marc] Hmm.- And to my darling Marcus.
88 00:04:03 My love, may I one day be worthy.
89 00:04:07 - [all] Aw.- Okay, Petey!
90 00:04:09 [playing "Everyday Will Be Like a Holiday"by William Bell]
91 00:04:12 [Oliver] Loud and proud.
92 00:04:15 [all singing] ♪ Everyday ♪
93 00:04:19 ♪ Will be like a holiday ♪
94 00:04:22 Beautiful!
95 00:04:25 ♪ When my baby ♪
96 00:04:30 ♪ When my baby comes home ♪
97 00:04:38 ♪ Now he's been goneFor such a long time ♪
98 00:04:44 - ♪ Ever since you've been gone ♪- Gorgeous!
99 00:04:46 [harmonizing]
100 00:04:50 ♪ I got a letter today ♪
101 00:04:53 ♪ Just about noon ♪
102 00:04:55 - ♪ It said, "Don't worry, baby" ♪- Angelic!
103 00:04:58 ♪ "I will be home" ♪
104 00:05:00 ♪ Everyday ♪
105 00:05:02 [instruments playing jazz tune]
106 00:05:04 ♪ Will be like a holiday ♪
107 00:05:08 You sound glorious!
108 00:05:10 ♪ When my baby ♪
109 00:05:16 - ♪ When my baby comes home ♪- ♪ When my baby comes home ♪
110 00:05:21 - Key change!- [all vocalizing]
111 00:05:23 ♪ Everyday ♪
112 00:05:27 ♪ Will be like a holiday ♪
113 00:05:31 [man] ♪ Will be like a holiday ♪
114 00:05:33 [all] ♪ When my baby ♪
115 00:05:36 ♪ When my baby ♪
116 00:05:39 ♪ When my baby comes home ♪
117 00:05:45 - ♪ When my baby comes home ♪- ♪ When my baby comes home ♪
118 00:05:50 ♪ When my baby comes home ♪
119 00:05:57 Ow!
120 00:05:58 [all cheering and applauding]
121 00:06:04 - Another shimmering success.- [Marc] Mm.
122 00:06:10 Sophie is starting to hiccup.
123 00:06:11 [chuckles] What's your point?
124 00:06:13 [Oliver] Catch up. You deserve it,as you do most things in this life.
125 00:06:17 You should shag the barman.I saw him eyeing you up.
126 00:06:21 Probably because he's never seena single human eat so many sausage rolls.
127 00:06:24 [Oliver chuckles]
128 00:06:25 And I'd rather shag you, if that's okay.
129 00:06:27 - What, right now?- [Marc] Mm.
130 00:06:29 Give Mrs. Bandini one more reasonto call the police
131 00:06:31 - on the puffs across the road.- [Marc chuckling]
132 00:06:34 I'll be back at the start of the week.
133 00:06:37 We'll have lots to discuss.
134 00:06:38 I'm off, you animals. Make big mistakes.
135 00:06:41 - [all exclaiming]- [laughs]
136 00:06:43 [Oliver] Please. I love you madly.
137 00:06:45 I love you.
138 00:07:00 [car door shuts]
139 00:07:03 ["A Whiter Shade of Pale"by Procol Harum playing]
140 00:07:07 When do I get that?
141 00:07:08 My boyfriend?
142 00:07:10 You know, I think he experimentedin drama school, didn't like it.
143 00:07:14 - Really?- [Sophie] Mm.
144 00:07:15 I just mean like a decent human being.Because, like, you've got that.
145 00:07:18 Me and you break up,and now you're 15 years into all this.
146 00:07:21 - What have I got?- Oh, honey.
147 00:07:22 So Terrance asked me to move in with him.
148 00:07:25 That took long enough.
149 00:07:26 Yeah, I haven't gotten back to him yet.
150 00:07:28 Why?
151 00:07:29 Ah, too clean.
152 00:07:31 I feel like I can't be myself there,do you know what I mean?
153 00:07:34 No.
154 00:07:35 Be yourself, like what? Live in squalor?
155 00:07:37 - Throw garbage on the floor?- Maybe.
156 00:07:40 If that's what I wanted to do, you know?
157 00:07:42 Hey, babe.
158 00:07:45 Talking about you.
159 00:07:47 Cool. We're, uh, talking about you too.
160 00:07:50 [Marc] Hmm.
161 00:07:52 If only you could seehow you look from across a room.
162 00:07:55 [inhales] Take your fucking breath away.
163 00:07:58 - [Sophie exclaims]- Up close? Big old mess.
164 00:08:01 [chuckles]
165 00:08:02 By the way, Marc,this eggnog is... [inhales] ...delightful.
166 00:08:06 Thank you.You're the only one that tried it.
167 00:08:08 Merry Christmas.
168 00:08:10 - [Sophie chuckles]- Fuck.
169 00:08:13 Looks like someone had one too manybefore driving home tonight.
170 00:08:15 - [siren wailing]- [Sophie] Oh, Jesus.
171 00:08:18 [Thomas] Hmm?
172 00:08:22 It's Oliver's cab.
173 00:08:29 ["A Whiter Shade of Pale"by Procol Harum playing]
174 00:08:38 ♪ As the miller told his tale ♪
175 00:08:44 ♪ Mm, that her faceAt first just ghostly ♪
176 00:08:49 ♪ Turned a whiter shade of pale ♪
177 00:08:56 [song stops abruptly]
178 00:09:23 [gentle music playing softly]
179 00:09:52 [Oliver] Lily Kaynehas gone and had her tits done.
180 00:09:54 - [Marc laughing]- And the studio is having a meltdown
181 00:09:58 because Victoria Valentinenow has implants.
182 00:10:03 What do they expect me to do?
183 00:10:04 I write the books, they make the movies,
184 00:10:06 and you, my love,redo our gorgeous kitchen.
185 00:10:09 - [Marc] I redo the kitchen?- Mm-hmm.
186 00:10:11 I redo the kitchenon top of illustrating all of your books,
187 00:10:14 and doing the covers,
188 00:10:17 and fending offthrongs of sobbing teenage girls
189 00:10:21 knocking on our doorwondering when you're going to finish
190 00:10:23 - the next two books you promised them.- [Oliver laughs]
191 00:10:29 [Oliver] I owe you my life,Marcus darling.
192 00:10:31 [Marc] I know you do.
193 00:10:32 [Oliver] And thank Godfor those teenage girls.
194 00:10:33 [Marc] No, not tonight. Not when they'retaking you away from your own party early.
195 00:10:38 [Oliver] It's our party,
196 00:10:40 because you planned it knowing full well
197 00:10:43 that I had a book signing in Parisin the morning.
198 00:10:46 [Marc] It's a signing.You could have pushed a signing.
199 00:10:49 [Oliver] You don't push a Christmassigning at the Louvre, my love.
200 00:10:54 Have I told youhow handsome you look tonight?
201 00:10:56 [Marc] Not enough, honestly.
202 00:11:00 Tell me the piano got tuned.
203 00:11:03 - [softly] The piano got tuned.- Mmm.
204 00:11:07 Even the funny key?
205 00:11:08 [Marc laughs]
206 00:11:12 - [softly] Replaced.- [exclaims]
207 00:11:15 [grunts] I have longed for people before...
208 00:11:17 [Marc] Mm-hmm.
209 00:11:18 I've loved people before
210 00:11:22 But not like this
211 00:11:23 It was not this
212 00:11:25 Give me a worldYou've taken the world I was
213 00:11:33 Did you just come up with that?
214 00:11:34 - No, Anne Carson.- Ah.
215 00:11:37 I'd give up this houseto have written that.
216 00:11:39 [Marc] Well, we don't want that.We just redid our kitchen.
217 00:11:42 [Oliver] Too right.
218 00:11:43 [gentle music continues]
219 00:11:47 Thank you for the party.
220 00:12:14 [woman] Oliver changedso many people's lives.
221 00:12:21 Especially mine.
222 00:12:24 I remember readingpart of the first Victoria Valentine book
223 00:12:27 for my audition for the film and thinking...
224 00:12:31 "This character
225 00:12:33 is why I wanted to be an actress."
226 00:12:39 She's strong.
227 00:12:41 Smart.
228 00:12:43 She's a truth-seeker.
229 00:12:45 Literally.
230 00:12:47 She's telepathic.
231 00:12:49 But I'm sure you all know that. [chuckles]
232 00:12:53 And now he's gone.
233 00:12:56 And my heart breaks.
234 00:12:59 For his family.
235 00:13:02 And for our movie. [cries]
236 00:13:04 All of us wondering,"Why? Why did this have to happen?"
237 00:13:10 He had so many more stories to tell.
238 00:13:15 But life fucking sucks.
239 00:13:18 Now we don't know if we'll end upshooting the fifth and sixth movies
240 00:13:20 because he was still writing them.
241 00:13:24 So...
242 00:13:27 Oliver...
243 00:13:30 you little slut. [chuckles]
244 00:13:31 Okay.
245 00:13:33 I hope the studio green-lights themin your honor,
246 00:13:35 and that we get to continue to tellyour stories for many years to come,
247 00:13:40 because we...
248 00:13:43 need them.
249 00:13:49 Oliver's first word was "move."
250 00:13:56 As in, "Out of my way."
251 00:14:01 He can't have been more than one.
252 00:14:06 I was blocking his pathto our little back garden and, uh,
253 00:14:12 he was determinedto get to the snapdragons.
254 00:14:17 He loved squeezing their heads,making them talk.
255 00:14:24 He didn't know it at the time,
256 00:14:26 but he was telling stories,even before he could speak.
257 00:14:32 Growing up, he'd share his writingwith his mom and me.
258 00:14:38 Always about princessesin search of things.
259 00:14:44 Um...
260 00:14:47 I've been thinking a lot these days
261 00:14:49 about all the times I encouraged himto write about something else.
262 00:14:56 Something boys would write about.
263 00:15:00 He was, uh, quite defiant.
264 00:15:05 "I'm a boy."
265 00:15:07 "And this is what I want to write about."
266 00:15:11 I can hear him now,scolding me for underselling his stories.
267 00:15:18 I, uh... had a tendency to do that, and, uh...
268 00:15:26 he'd be right.
269 00:15:31 It's not...
270 00:15:34 a light thing...
271 00:15:36 to know that your child succeededin spite of you.
272 00:15:43 I only wish I could have told him
273 00:15:45 how much I regretblocking his path to the snapdragons.
274 00:15:55 I hope you're having a laughwith your mom up there.
275 00:16:00 What I wouldn't doto take your place, son.
276 00:16:07 I love you.
277 00:16:09 And I'm proud of you.
278 00:16:14 I'm so...
279 00:16:17 proud of you.
280 00:16:20 [tender music playing softly]
281 00:16:43 [Thomas] I've always loved your sketches.
282 00:16:47 How many timeshave you promised me new work?
283 00:16:53 There'll always be space for youwhen you're ready.
284 00:16:58 [exhales heavily]
285 00:17:02 Thank you for coming to stay.
286 00:17:07 Well, it's a huge burden...
287 00:17:09 - [Marc chuckles]- ...to get to use your kitchen
288 00:17:11 and sleep on an expensivememory foam mattress,
289 00:17:13 - but you said you wanted company.- Mm-hmm.
290 00:17:18 [exhales]
291 00:17:19 You okay?
292 00:17:25 So, that's a yes. [clears throat]
293 00:17:30 - She's just through here.- [Marc] Thank you.
294 00:17:32 Thank you for coming in.
295 00:17:35 Of course.
296 00:17:36 So, before we get into everything,
297 00:17:40 I wanted you to be aware
298 00:17:41 that Oliver's publishersare trying to get out of his deal,
299 00:17:44 as he won't be deliveringhis next two books.
300 00:17:47 It's been a month.
301 00:17:49 People are disgusting.
302 00:17:52 It's a big advance.
303 00:17:54 But yes, the Americanshave never been known for their tact.
304 00:17:59 Lawyers are on it.We'll have more for you soon.
305 00:18:02 Okay.
306 00:18:06 [woman] And you?
307 00:18:09 Haven't been sleeping?
308 00:18:10 [Marc] Mm.
309 00:18:12 [inhales deeply]
310 00:18:13 I've been, uh, reading thatthe brain is like a muscle.
311 00:18:19 That's why getting over a deathis so hard,
312 00:18:22 because your brain has been trainedto feel things for a person.
313 00:18:27 And when they go away,your head is still operating
314 00:18:31 under the impressionthat it should feel those things...
315 00:18:34 for that person. Like...
316 00:18:39 muscle memory.
317 00:18:42 So I'm just trying to train my brainto not feel as much for right now.
318 00:18:48 Just to get me through the next year
319 00:18:49 so that I'm not constantly remindedof the fact that I am now both an orphan
320 00:18:55 and a widow-er.
321 00:19:00 Why, does it look likeI haven't been sleeping? [scoffs]
322 00:19:03 I think we'll hold off on the willfor today.
323 00:19:09 [gentle music playing]
324 00:19:21 - I'm going to murder you for this.- You got this.
325 00:19:23 You have got this, babe, I believe in you.
326 00:19:25 [man] All right, guys.All done setting up the bars.
327 00:19:28 Bring yourselves over here,
328 00:19:29 we'll go throughwhat we're going to do today.
329 00:19:31 Sit on the ankles.
330 00:19:33 Good. On the third rep,pause at the bottom.
331 00:19:36 Hands on the inside of the knees.
332 00:19:39 Good. Lovely. In this position,I want you to cough for me.
333 00:19:42 [all coughing]
334 00:19:44 Feel your abdominals.
335 00:19:47 - Nice. Are you okay?- She's not doing it properly.
336 00:19:49 No, you might needto just check your pose,
337 00:19:51 - lift your chest a bit higher.- [snickers]
338 00:19:53 Oh, no.
339 00:19:54 Slowly back down.
340 00:19:56 - Good. One more. Up.- [mouthing] I love you.
341 00:19:58 [man] Breathe in on the way down.
342 00:20:00 Down.
343 00:20:01 And stand.
344 00:20:05 [imperceptible]
345 00:20:12 So my hair's just like yours?So I want to be just like you?
346 00:20:15 I want to understand it.
347 00:20:16 - I want to... a lot of different guys...- [Thomas chuckles]
348 00:20:19 ...party until 5:00 in the morning?
349 00:20:20 You know, it's almost Shakespearean,
350 00:20:23 if you think about it,the levels of betrayal,
351 00:20:26 and yet they continueto show up to these dinners.
352 00:20:31 [TV continues indistinctly]
353 00:20:33 [gentle music continues]
354 00:21:15 What do you mean I have to pick a song?It's a dating app.
355 00:21:19 The song playsover a montage of pictures of you.
356 00:21:23 Well, is there... Thank you.Is there an option not to?
357 00:21:26 I mean, what kind of songs do people pick?
358 00:21:29 Radiohead. An awful lot ofcreative directors picking Radiohead.
359 00:21:33 It's only been six months.He doesn't have to do this.
360 00:21:36 Thank you very much.
361 00:21:37 Toni Braxton, "You're Makin' Me High."Works every time.
362 00:21:40 - [laughs]- [Marc] How do you know?
363 00:21:41 - Nabbed me this one, didn't it? Hmm?- [Thomas chuckles]
364 00:21:44 [Terrance] It was the picturesthat worked for me.
365 00:21:47 I can assure you it was the pictures.
366 00:21:50 Although, had I knownwhat I was getting myself into--
367 00:21:52 Anyway, I had a legendary slideshow.
368 00:21:54 - Men love a thong strap, God love them.- [Thomas] Mm-hmm.
369 00:21:57 Aw, you've kept his nudes.
370 00:22:00 - [Marc] Give me that.- [Sophie] That's so sweet.
371 00:22:03 What? It's fucking romantic.
372 00:22:05 I'm sorry, I was justlooking for photos of you,
373 00:22:07 and I can't find any of youalone without him, and I...
374 00:22:10 It feels weird cropping him out.
375 00:22:14 Do I look older to you?I feel like I've aged a lot.
376 00:22:17 - No--- [Sophie] Yes. Your husband just died.
377 00:22:19 You're allowed, my God.
378 00:22:23 I believe her.
379 00:22:27 ["Thank You" by Bonnie Raitt playing]
380 00:22:34 ♪ Sittin' here thinking, baby, about you ♪
381 00:22:40 ♪ I'm wonderin' how I everGot through my life without you... ♪
382 00:22:45 ["Thank You" continues over speakers]
383 00:22:46 [door opens, closes]
384 00:22:49 [Sophie] Hi.
385 00:22:50 Hi.
386 00:22:51 I think we should go out.
387 00:22:55 Oh, and, uh... I ended things with Terrance.
388 00:23:00 What? What happened?
389 00:23:01 [Sophie] It was a long time coming, Marc.
390 00:23:03 You know, and I'm feeling good.Feeling great, actually.
391 00:23:06 It was bringing me down. All of it.
392 00:23:09 I just... refuse to be trappedby the system, you know?
393 00:23:12 I don't want rules. I don't want threats.
394 00:23:14 He threatened you?
395 00:23:15 Who he is threatened me, Marc. Who he is.
396 00:23:20 I just can't be his kind of wife.
397 00:23:22 - Wife?- I just said I can't be that right now.
398 00:23:24 He proposed to you?
399 00:23:25 Terrance proposed?
400 00:23:27 [Marc] No. No, no, no.Apparently, they've just broken up.
401 00:23:29 What?
402 00:23:30 It's not it. Heart said no. Get dressed.
403 00:23:34 I told AlisdairI'd stop by this art thing,
404 00:23:36 it's like a group exhibitChristmas party in a warehouse.
405 00:23:39 Sounds like a nightmare.
406 00:23:42 [Marc] Thomas.
407 00:23:45 Alisdair broke up with you last year.
408 00:23:48 On your birthday.Why are you doing this to yourself?
409 00:23:50 Because I'm thinkingof signing him to the gallery.
410 00:23:54 And my one true love is chaos.
411 00:23:56 Mine too. Marc, come on, get your shit.
412 00:23:59 No, I cannot go out tonight.I have work to do.
413 00:24:02 What the fuck kind of workyou got on a Friday night?
414 00:24:05 My therapist has given me some work to do
415 00:24:08 in preparationfor the anniversary of the time
416 00:24:11 I watched my husbandget pried out of a car like escargot.
417 00:24:15 Okay, so...
418 00:24:16 He's going to be readingOliver's Christmas card.
419 00:24:20 I'm reading the card.
420 00:24:21 Oh my God, that fucking cardhasn't been opened yet.
421 00:24:24 - [Thomas] That's what I said.- Can you both relax, please?
422 00:24:27 Marcus...
423 00:24:29 Lovey,
424 00:24:31 we have been here for youwhenever you've needed us
425 00:24:35 for almost a year now.
426 00:24:38 We built you the nest,
427 00:24:40 and we sat on you for a year.
428 00:24:45 It's time to hatch, my little lovely.
429 00:24:47 Open that card.
430 00:24:49 Cry it out.
431 00:24:51 Throw on something expensiveand meet us there.
432 00:24:55 Hmm?
433 00:24:57 We love you.
434 00:25:00 This is us... loving you.
435 00:25:07 [tender music playing]
436 00:25:19 [exhales]
437 00:25:24 [sighs]
438 00:25:59 [music fades to silence]
439 00:26:03 [exhales sharply]
440 00:26:05 [dramatic percussive music playing]
441 00:26:07 [shouting, grunting]
442 00:26:27 - No, thank you.- [scoffs]
443 00:26:29 Why? Are you scared?
444 00:26:32 Always. You?
445 00:26:34 - Terrified.- Of what?
446 00:26:36 Everything beyond this.
447 00:26:39 Well, you should be.
448 00:26:41 And from my experience, all of thiswill just leave you dizzy and embarrassed.
449 00:26:48 Dick.
450 00:26:51 [shouting, grunting continues]
451 00:27:03 ["With Every Heartbeat" by Robyn playing]
452 00:27:06 [indistinct chatter]
453 00:27:31 ♪ Maybe we could make it all right ♪
454 00:27:33 Um... Two red wine, please.
455 00:27:39 ♪ We could make it better sometime ♪
456 00:27:42 [man] Thanks.
457 00:27:46 I bought you a drink.
458 00:27:47 ♪ Maybe we could make it happen, baby... ♪
459 00:27:50 Okay.
460 00:27:52 Do you make a habitout of pissing off performance artists?
461 00:27:55 [Marc chuckles]
462 00:27:57 Can't say the work is very fresh,but they're trying.
463 00:28:00 Aren't we all?
464 00:28:03 I think they're just looking for company.
465 00:28:06 Unlike you, it seems.
466 00:28:10 You bought me this drink.
467 00:28:11 You didn't really give memuch of a choice.
468 00:28:13 I can give it to someone else.
469 00:28:15 There's a man downstairspainting with his cock.
470 00:28:20 Does this mean thatyou want to keep me company?
471 00:28:22 Because I can assure youthat is a huge mistake.
472 00:28:26 [man laughs]
473 00:28:27 ♪ Tell me would it make you happy, baby... ♪
474 00:28:35 Do you work in art?
475 00:28:39 I used to paint.
476 00:28:41 More recently,I've been illustrating children's books.
477 00:28:44 Why did you stop painting?
478 00:28:47 That's a big questioncoming from a stranger.
479 00:28:49 Oh, my apologies.
480 00:28:51 I can compliment your jacket instead.
481 00:28:56 My mom died, and I found it too painful.So I stopped.
482 00:29:03 Fun party chat.
483 00:29:04 And you never thoughtabout painting through it?
484 00:29:07 [chuckles]
485 00:29:09 No, I'm too tired for masochism.
486 00:29:11 I don't know...
487 00:29:13 I don't want to soundlike a pretentious asshole,
488 00:29:15 but isn't arta kind of commemoration of pain?
489 00:29:21 Where does it go otherwise?
490 00:29:23 - You're very lucky you're French.- [laughs]
491 00:29:31 I guess I put it into my marriage,which was a mistake.
492 00:29:34 So you're married?
493 00:29:38 I was.
494 00:29:40 He died as well, last year.
495 00:29:42 - Sorry to hear.- Mm.
496 00:29:48 I don't even know your name.
497 00:29:50 Theo.
498 00:29:52 Marc.
499 00:29:54 Should I have complimented your jacket?
500 00:29:59 No.
501 00:30:00 So can I ask youto have a drink with me this week?
502 00:30:03 I'm here for a few daysbefore heading back to Paris.
503 00:30:08 I don't think so.
504 00:30:11 But I will put my number in your phone.
505 00:30:15 [indistinct chatter]
506 00:30:21 [Theo] Their parents bought them the spaceto keep them busy.
507 00:30:24 Like a big, expensive sandbox.
508 00:30:27 The sad thing is...
509 00:30:29 [whispering] They knowthey're not very good.
510 00:30:35 [Sophie] Marcus.
511 00:30:40 - It was nice to meet you.- Mm. And you, Marc.
512 00:30:45 Where the hell were you?
513 00:30:47 I've been here for 45 minutes.
514 00:30:50 Who was that?
515 00:30:53 I don't know.
516 00:30:55 Hmm. How was everything at home?
517 00:30:58 [Sophie] Alisdair has a new boyfriend.
518 00:31:01 Brought him tonight.
519 00:31:02 Waved him around in front of Thomas
520 00:31:04 like a ribbon in a goddamnrhythmic gymnastics routine.
521 00:31:07 It was a whole thing.
522 00:31:08 - You didn't know he was seeing somebody?- No, I... I'm fine. Okay?
523 00:31:12 It wasn't a whole thing.
524 00:31:14 I don't care about him.
525 00:31:15 [Sophie] It was a whole thing.
526 00:31:17 Meanwhile, I may now besingle and unemployed,
527 00:31:21 but I've lifted the veil,and mine eyes can see.
528 00:31:23 I'm sorry, you've lost your job?
529 00:31:25 I love the fact that you jumpto the conclusion that I was fired.
530 00:31:28 - [chuckles softly]- Look at these hands. Hmm?
531 00:31:31 Look at the calluses I have from lacing up25 white women's corsets every day.
532 00:31:35 You studied costume design.
533 00:31:36 You're working on a Keira Knightley movie.
534 00:31:38 Precisely. I need to bedoing my own thing.
535 00:31:42 [inhales] Guys, I'm feeling really clear.Like, really free.
536 00:31:46 She's on molly and a bottle of wine.
537 00:31:48 I'm fine.
538 00:31:50 I literally have never felt better.
539 00:31:53 I might need to stay with you guysfor, like, two weeks to six months,
540 00:31:56 just till I figure out my next move.
541 00:32:00 It'll be chic.
542 00:32:03 [Marc and Thomas chuckle]
543 00:32:05 ["It's the Most Wonderful Timeof the Year" by Andy Williams playing]
544 00:32:11 ♪ It's the most wonderful timeOf the year ♪
545 00:32:18 ♪ With the kids jingle belling... ♪
546 00:32:19 I apologize about the restaurant.
547 00:32:22 The office flooded yesterday.The place smells like a septic tank.
548 00:32:28 Thank you.
549 00:32:29 I hope you got the cheese basketI sent you last week.
550 00:32:32 I did.
551 00:32:34 - My neighbor appreciated it immensely.- [Marc] Mm.
552 00:32:38 I'd have kept it for myselfwere it not for the Crohn's.
553 00:32:40 [waitress] Hi. Can I get you anything?
554 00:32:42 A tea. Green.
555 00:32:44 Some water, thank you.
556 00:32:47 Now, as we are aware,
557 00:32:50 Oliver's publishing contractwas terminated
558 00:32:53 when he becameunable to fulfil his obligation.
559 00:32:56 - When he died.- [Imelda] Mm.
560 00:32:57 They've invoiced a substantial amountto be reimbursed by the end of the year.
561 00:33:02 I thought it best to discuss strategyto protect the estate.
562 00:33:07 To that point, we did noticesome irregular spending on food delivery.
563 00:33:12 That was me.
564 00:33:14 Fascinating.
565 00:33:16 I feel it advantageous to consider pruningsome of yours and Oliver's investments
566 00:33:22 so as to best safeguard your savingsfrom here on out.
567 00:33:26 Okay.
568 00:33:27 Now, the lease on pied-à-terre in Paris
569 00:33:32 is up at the end of the month,and I recommend--
570 00:33:34 What pied-à-terre in Paris?
571 00:33:39 Um, leased at the beginning of Decemberof last year.
572 00:33:43 I assumed you were aware
573 00:33:45 as some of the chargesreflected spending for two.
574 00:33:55 - You are not that second person.- No. I'm not.
575 00:34:00 Did he tell you he had met someone else?
576 00:34:04 I make it my business to knowas little about people as possible.
577 00:34:08 What... What am Isupposed to say to... to my friends?
578 00:34:14 They've wasted a year of their livestrying to help me through this.
579 00:34:19 I have lost a year of my life.
580 00:34:23 This might not be the best venuefor you to--
581 00:34:25 - I'm 38!- [table thuds]
582 00:34:28 Should be in the prime of my life.
583 00:34:35 Would you be able to email meall the information on Paris, please?
584 00:34:38 I can do that.
585 00:34:40 I'm sorry.
586 00:34:42 Sorry you had to...witness all of this. Sorry.
587 00:34:48 ♪ ...of the year ♪
588 00:34:57 [song ends]
589 00:35:01 - [horn honks]- God.
590 00:35:03 Oh, thank you. Sorry. [sniffles]
591 00:35:07 Sorry, thanks.
592 00:35:12 [muttering]
593 00:35:14 [sighs in exasperation]
594 00:35:17 [exhales]
595 00:35:22 What?
596 00:35:24 Terrance wanted my stuff out.
597 00:35:26 Are you okay?
598 00:35:27 Hmm? Yeah.
599 00:35:29 Just... I wanted out, you know,and I'm out and good. [sighs]
600 00:35:32 Sorry, I don't knowwhat the fuck is going on.
601 00:35:36 He just wasn't therewhen I left, you know?
602 00:35:39 To help with the bags.He just wasn't there.
603 00:35:43 Someone talk about something else,please. Anything.
604 00:35:47 [Marc] Are you sure?
605 00:35:48 Yes, Marc, please. Just go.
606 00:35:51 Okay.
607 00:35:53 Um, I wanted to thank you bothfor this year.
608 00:36:00 So, I would like to take us to Parisfor the weekend, on Oliver.
609 00:36:04 Spend his money recklessly.
610 00:36:06 It's what he would be doingif he were there right now.
611 00:36:10 And I can't thinkof a more appropriate way
612 00:36:12 to mark the one-year anniversary.
613 00:36:15 Yeah.
614 00:36:16 - Mm.- We all deserve some joy.
615 00:36:18 Oh yes. I think this is a beautiful thing.
616 00:36:22 I think this is a beautiful, soulful thingyou are offering us.
617 00:36:26 Yes, thank you. Where are we staying?
618 00:36:31 We actually have a place there.
619 00:36:32 - [Sophie] What?- What? Since when?
620 00:36:35 Oliver got it last year.
621 00:36:38 I plan on giving it up.
622 00:36:39 What does it feel like to casually mentionyou're giving up a place in Paris?
623 00:36:43 [Sophie] Sweet thing.
624 00:36:44 He's still finding waysto give us nice things.
625 00:36:48 ["Eyes Without a Face"by Billy Idol playing]
626 00:36:51 ♪ I'm all out of hope ♪
627 00:36:55 ♪ One more bad dream ♪
628 00:36:58 ♪ Could bring a fall ♪
629 00:37:02 ♪ When I'm far from home ♪
630 00:37:06 ♪ Don't call me on the phone ♪
631 00:37:09 ♪ To tell me you're alone ♪
632 00:37:13 ♪ It's easy to deceive ♪
633 00:37:17 ♪ It's easy to tease ♪
634 00:37:20 ♪ But hard to get release ♪
635 00:37:25 [woman singing in French]
636 00:37:29 [Billy Idol in English]♪ Eyes without a face ♪
637 00:37:31 [woman singing in French]
638 00:37:34 [Billy Idol in English]♪ Eyes without a face ♪
639 00:37:37 [woman singing in French]
640 00:37:40 [Billy Idol in English]♪ Eyes without a face ♪
641 00:37:43 ♪ Got no human grace ♪
642 00:37:45 ♪ You're eyes without a face ♪
643 00:37:59 - [suitcase thuds]- ♪ I spend so-- ♪
644 00:38:00 [song stops abruptly]
645 00:38:03 [Thomas exhales]
646 00:38:04 [Sophie] Jesus Christ.
647 00:38:10 Uh, what?
648 00:38:12 [door closes]
649 00:38:14 [Thomas] Jesus, this placehas just been sitting here?
650 00:38:19 No, I get it.
651 00:38:22 This is sexy.
652 00:38:25 [gasps] This is where peoplecome to do sex.
653 00:38:30 Marc doesn't need to be remindedof all the sex they probably had here.
654 00:38:34 I don't know. I think it's a bit much.
655 00:38:36 - Like, what was he trying to prove?- Um, that he has really beautiful taste.
656 00:38:40 And he knows how to createan intensely sensual vibe.
657 00:38:44 - [chuckles softly]- [Sophie moans happily]
658 00:38:47 Can you be in love with a couch?
659 00:38:54 [gentle piano music playing]
660 00:40:05 [Thomas exhaling]
661 00:40:09 [grunts] Sophie is takingthe guest bedroom
662 00:40:12 and is demanding privacyas a 35-year-old single woman.
663 00:40:17 Didn't she share a tentwith a bunch of strangers at Burning Man?
664 00:40:20 Yeah, she wears logiclike one of those little handbags
665 00:40:23 that can't actually hold anything.
666 00:40:25 [chuckles]
667 00:40:28 - You okay?- Yeah.
668 00:40:31 [chuckles] Yes. Yes.
669 00:40:37 [sighs]
670 00:40:40 It's nice.
671 00:40:43 ["Heartbeat" by Annie playing on speakers]
672 00:40:53 [gasps] I got a date for tonight.
673 00:40:56 [Thomas] What?
674 00:40:57 Thomas, before you passany kind of judgment,
675 00:40:59 you're coming with, he's bringing gays.
676 00:41:03 - Bringing gays.- [Sophie] Mm-hmm.
677 00:41:04 Why do straight peoplethink their gay friends
678 00:41:06 will automaticallywant to sleep with each other?
679 00:41:08 I set you two up,and it worked, didn't it?
680 00:41:10 Yeah, for a year, 15 years ago.
681 00:41:13 [Sophie] His name is Sebastian,he works in advertising, he's 6'1".
682 00:41:16 He spends an awful lot of timeon expensive boats,
683 00:41:18 according to his profile.
684 00:41:20 I told him you'd pick the placesince you're paying.
685 00:41:22 I'm not paying for that.
686 00:41:24 Oh, Marcus.
687 00:41:26 I'd very much like for Sebastianto forget his fucking name
688 00:41:29 when he sees me tonight, okay?
689 00:41:31 So I think we shouldstart making that happen.
690 00:41:34 Like, now.
691 00:41:36 ASAP.
692 00:41:38 - Things took a turn.- Yep.
693 00:41:41 She also ashed on the counter.
694 00:41:43 ♪ Feel my heartbeat drumming to the beat ♪
695 00:41:47 ♪ Like a symphony ♪
696 00:41:51 ♪ Feel my heartbeat drumming to the beat ♪
697 00:41:54 ♪ Like a melody, come see ♪
698 00:41:58 ♪ Feel my heartbeat, feel my heartbeat ♪
699 00:42:02 ♪ Feel my heartbeat, come on ♪
700 00:42:06 ♪ Feel my heartbeat, feel my heartbeat ♪
701 00:42:09 ♪ Feel my heartbeat, come on, come see ♪
702 00:42:14 ♪ There was a time everybody was around ♪
703 00:42:17 ♪ And I was dancing with you ♪
704 00:42:21 ♪ Don't know your name ♪
705 00:42:23 ♪ Making me ashamedTo feel the way that I do ♪
706 00:42:29 ♪ The lights went out ♪
707 00:42:31 ♪ Couldn't leave without youIt's the place to be ♪
708 00:42:36 ♪ I won't forget ♪
709 00:42:38 ♪ The greatest times I've hadWhen I was dancing with you ♪
710 00:42:43 [song ends]
711 00:42:45 - [Marc] Hi.- Hi.
712 00:42:48 Um, I would like to exchange this, please.Thank you.
713 00:43:00 This is for Oliver Alston?
714 00:43:03 Yes. Oliver Alston bought this.
715 00:43:06 He spent a lot of money in this store.Probably hit on you.
716 00:43:10 [woman] Do you know what happened to him?
717 00:43:12 It's so sad.
718 00:43:13 He would bring us coffeeswhen he'd come to shop.
719 00:43:19 You wouldn't happen to remember himcoming in here
720 00:43:22 with another man, would you?
721 00:43:26 [clerks speaking French]
722 00:43:29 [in English]Um, there was a boy sometimes, younger.
723 00:43:33 Younger than you.Um, maybe a boyfriend, I don't know.
724 00:43:36 Uh, are you his assistant?
725 00:43:40 I'm his husband.
726 00:43:43 And Oliver bought this for that boy,uh, just before he died.
727 00:43:48 Died in front of me,and not the boyfriend.
728 00:43:51 Now, I have friends upstairs thatwould like to buy something in the store,
729 00:43:54 and I'd like to help pay for thatwith this item.
730 00:43:56 So if you could please make an exception.
731 00:44:00 Unless you'd like to watch meslowly unravel in the store.
732 00:44:05 Okay.
733 00:44:07 Thank you.
734 00:44:11 [Sophie] Too intellectual?
735 00:44:13 Or just... intellectual enough?
736 00:44:16 Nice balance.
737 00:44:18 Smart dress.
738 00:44:20 And there's you in it.
739 00:44:21 [laughs sarcastically]
740 00:44:24 [sighs]
741 00:44:25 One day, my love, a man is going to meltthat cold, cold heart of yours.
742 00:44:31 He's just going to takea hair dryer to it, I promise you.
743 00:44:34 I love those glasses.
744 00:44:36 And the scarf. Get them both. Why not?
745 00:44:43 [uplifting orchestral music playing]
746 00:44:57 [Marc] I loved that apartment.
747 00:44:58 - You loved that flat?- I loved that apartment.
748 00:45:01 You two broke up five months in.
749 00:45:03 I know. Now look at us.
750 00:45:05 I think about that apartmenta lot, actually.
751 00:45:08 Do you think about the day we moved in?
752 00:45:10 - Oh my God.- What did you find again?
753 00:45:12 - A homemade dildo behind the bed.- [Sophie shrieks]
754 00:45:15 - [chuckles] What was it again? A shampoo--- Perfume bottle, yes.
755 00:45:18 It was a perfume bottle thatsomeone had wrapped in a condom.
756 00:45:21 In their defense,those women had a reputation
757 00:45:24 for being very messyand forgetful prostitutes.
758 00:45:27 Legends.
759 00:45:30 Are you ever going to talk about Terrance?
760 00:45:34 See, that's the problem.Everyone wants to talk about Terrance.
761 00:45:37 I want to talk about me.
762 00:45:39 - [Thomas] Hmm.- Okay.
763 00:45:41 Let's talk about you.
764 00:45:42 Thank you.
765 00:45:43 [Thomas laughs]
766 00:45:45 Okay, well...
767 00:45:49 I want to ride that thing at some point.
768 00:45:52 And I want to have fun tonight.
769 00:45:56 I want someone to look at melike I'm fresh out the box.
770 00:45:59 Is that too much to ask?
771 00:46:01 No.
772 00:46:03 You liked that flat?
773 00:46:04 I remember one nightwhen Soph had gotten back from that bar
774 00:46:08 that she worked at that one summer,
775 00:46:10 - and you and I were in a good place...- [Thomas] Mm.
776 00:46:13 ...and we'd won that Elton John CD
777 00:46:14 - from the pub quiz across the street...- [chuckles]
778 00:46:17 ...and we put it onand we opened all the windows,
779 00:46:19 because that place was like a steam room,
780 00:46:22 and we all laid on the bedjust hoping for a breeze.
781 00:46:27 And there was a momentwhen the bass from those guys downstairs
782 00:46:30 remixed perfectly with"This Train Don't Stop There Anymore."
783 00:46:33 - You remember the weirdest shit.- No, and we were all convinced
784 00:46:36 that we were havingthe same heat-induced hallucination.
785 00:46:40 But we weren't.
786 00:46:41 It was just a beautiful memoryin that apartment.
787 00:46:49 Was that the night I spilled my red wine
788 00:46:51 over those awful pointy shoesyou wore all the time, and you cried?
789 00:46:56 - [laughs] Fuck off.- [laughs]
790 00:46:58 [chill music playing on speakers]
791 00:47:01 [man speaking French]
792 00:47:08 - [in English] How do I look?- [exhales]
793 00:47:10 Like you didn't pay for that dress.
794 00:47:12 [Marc laughs]
795 00:47:13 Oh, here he is.
796 00:47:16 - Bonjour.- [Sebastian chuckles]
797 00:47:18 - [snorts]- [Sophie chuckles]
798 00:47:20 That's all the French I know.
799 00:47:22 These are my friends, Marc...
800 00:47:25 - Bonjour.- ...et Thomas.
801 00:47:27 - Just Thomas. Thomas is fine.- [laughs]
802 00:47:29 - [Sebastian] This is Esme...- [Marc] Hi.
803 00:47:31 - ...and Remi.- Bonjour.
804 00:47:33 [Remi and Thomas] Bonjour.
805 00:47:35 Bonjour.
806 00:47:39 - Oh.- [laughter]
807 00:47:41 - So, what are we drinking?- Wine.
808 00:47:43 Mmm. Excusez-moi.
809 00:47:47 So how do you all know each other?
810 00:47:48 [Remi] We work together.
811 00:47:50 Um, I start yesterday.
812 00:47:53 You've known these people for a day?
813 00:47:55 Yes, but, um, Seb asked the officewho wanted to get laid tonight
814 00:47:58 and I thought, "Why not? It could be fun."
815 00:48:02 - You want?- Okay. Yeah.
816 00:48:06 Oh. Okay. Mm-hmm. Mmm.
817 00:48:12 Seb told me your husband is dead.
818 00:48:16 Um... he is, yeah.
819 00:48:18 That he was killed.
820 00:48:20 Mmm.
821 00:48:22 He was, yeah.
822 00:48:24 Not, like, murdered though.
823 00:48:26 - My uncle was murdered.- Oh my God.
824 00:48:28 He work in construction.
825 00:48:30 And we later found outhe was mixed up in the mafia.
826 00:48:34 Burned alive.
827 00:48:36 Wow.
828 00:48:37 I'm... I'm sorry.
829 00:48:40 Yeah.
830 00:48:43 You must miss him.
831 00:48:48 - It's complicated.- Yeah.
832 00:48:51 - Love is that way.- [chuckles]
833 00:48:53 [waiter speaking French]
834 00:48:55 [in English] Are you ready to order?
835 00:48:56 [gasps] Yes, I want meat.
836 00:48:59 ["Sortir ce soir" by Étienne Daho playing]
837 00:49:13 I have a very strong point of view,you know?
838 00:49:17 And I will not apologize for that.
839 00:49:20 I can't keep working under people.
840 00:49:22 I need to take charge of my life.
841 00:49:26 What is she doing?
842 00:49:27 [Sebastian] You need to dowhat makes you feel good inside.
843 00:49:30 - [Sophie] Exactly.- And only you know.
844 00:49:34 Only I know.
845 00:49:35 Okay. All right.
846 00:49:36 In theory, okay,
847 00:49:38 but I thought I'd have my own galleryby now. That's also life.
848 00:49:42 Sometimes you do things you don't wanna doto get to where you want to go.
849 00:49:45 No, no. You don't get it.You don't get it. Mm-mm.
850 00:49:48 Does he not get it,or are you not willing to hear him?
851 00:49:52 Says the boy who worked for his husband.
852 00:49:54 [laughs]
853 00:49:56 Okay, I will not feel badabout working with my husband.
854 00:50:02 Lily fucking Kayne would not have a career
855 00:50:05 if it weren't for my illustrations, so...
856 00:50:07 Babes, babes, babes,I would kill for what you have.
857 00:50:12 Own it.
858 00:50:13 [man speaks French, laughs]
859 00:50:16 - [crowd exclaims]- [applause]
860 00:50:26 [waiter speaking French]
861 00:50:27 [gasps] Who ordered these?
862 00:50:30 [Sebastian] You did.
863 00:50:32 - Send them over.- That's just what you need.
864 00:50:33 [Sophie] Okay.
865 00:50:36 To doing what makes you feel good inside.
866 00:50:49 [hiccups]
867 00:50:49 You're going to find outwhat a good singer I am.
868 00:50:53 I can't wait to see that.
869 00:50:55 [Sophie] Fabulous.
870 00:50:56 - [Sebastian] Are you?- [Sophie] Mm-hmm.
871 00:51:00 [men laughing]
872 00:51:05 [man speaking French]
873 00:51:16 ["We Belong" by Pat Benatar playing]
874 00:51:18 ♪ Whatever we deny or embraceFor worse or for better ♪
875 00:51:24 ♪ We belong ♪
876 00:51:27 ♪ We belong, we belong together ♪
877 00:51:32 Uh-oh.
878 00:51:32 - ["Just Another Day" playing]- ♪ I, I don't want to say ♪
879 00:51:39 ♪ I don't want to fight another day ♪
880 00:51:43 ♪ Make it through the day without you ♪
881 00:51:48 ♪ Without you ♪
882 00:51:50 Well, it's 2:00 a.m.,
883 00:51:51 which means that my husbandofficially died a year ago today.
884 00:51:56 For such a meticulous person,he left behind one hell of a mess.
885 00:51:59 ["This Train Don't Stop There Anymore"by Elton John playing]
886 00:52:03 This is for him.
887 00:52:06 - And for you.- [man chuckles]
888 00:52:08 And her.
889 00:52:11 ♪ You may not believe itBut I don't believe in miracles anymore ♪
890 00:52:20 ♪ And when I think about itI don't believe I ever did for sure ♪
891 00:52:30 ♪ All the things I've said in songsAll the purple prose you bought from me ♪
892 00:52:39 ♪ Reality's just black and whiteThe sentimental things I'd write ♪
893 00:52:44 ♪ Never meant that much to me ♪
894 00:52:48 ♪ I used to be the main express ♪
895 00:52:53 [all singing] ♪ All steam and whistlesHeading west ♪
896 00:52:58 ♪ Picking up my pain from door to door ♪
897 00:53:03 ♪ Riding on the storyline ♪
898 00:53:05 ♪ Furnace burning overtime ♪
899 00:53:07 - ♪ But this train... ♪- [all] ♪ But this train don't stop ♪
900 00:53:12 ♪ This train don't stop ♪
901 00:53:17 ♪ This train don't stop there anymore ♪
902 00:53:22 ♪ Anymore ♪ [chuckling]
903 00:53:37 [door closes]
904 00:53:39 - Your tongue is blue.- [chuckles]
905 00:53:42 The drinks were blue.
906 00:53:45 And I'm only just realizing how thismust look to someone I've only met once.
907 00:53:50 I'm not normally like this.
908 00:53:52 Besides shoving your blue tonguedown my throat...
909 00:53:55 [snorts]
910 00:53:56 - ...and knocking my head against the wall...- Mm-hmm.
911 00:53:59 ...you're not that bad.
912 00:54:01 I don't know what that was.
913 00:54:04 It felt sexy.It felt like a sexy thing to do.
914 00:54:09 Would you liketo give your tongue some air?
915 00:54:13 Yeah.
916 00:54:14 Give me a second.
917 00:54:20 - [laughter]- [Sophie] Mmm.
918 00:54:22 You all right?
919 00:54:24 [Marc chuckling] No.
920 00:54:26 [whines]
921 00:54:27 - [Thomas] Hey.- [Marc] Yeah?
922 00:54:28 Where are you going?
923 00:54:29 - [Marc] I'm gonna go for a walk.- No, sit down.
924 00:54:32 [Marc] No. I'll be right back.
925 00:54:33 I'll be right back. Have fun.
926 00:54:40 [Theo] Come on.
927 00:54:51 I thought I wouldn't hear from you.
928 00:54:54 I also thought that.
929 00:54:57 But things change.
930 00:54:58 - Oh, wow.- Hmm.
931 00:54:59 - What changed for you?- A lot.
932 00:55:05 I guess I felt... lonely.
933 00:55:10 I don't know if that's a rude thingto say to you.
934 00:55:13 Why is it rude?
935 00:55:15 Well, I feel like I might take offense...to that.
936 00:55:18 I-- Like, the only reasonsomeone wanted to get in touch
937 00:55:21 was because they felt aloneand wanted company.
938 00:55:25 Like the reasonfor getting in touch wasn't...
939 00:55:29 romantic enough, it's practical.
940 00:55:32 And what's wrong with that?
941 00:55:34 You were lonely, you thought of me.I think that's kind of romantic.
942 00:55:39 These days, everybody needs a parade
943 00:55:40 to show how much they careabout each other.
944 00:55:46 [Marc] Well, a lot of people are insecure.
945 00:55:50 Like, you're not very confident
946 00:55:52 without being arrogant,which is a very hard thing to pull off.
947 00:55:57 [Theo] I think arrogant peoplehave something to prove.
948 00:55:59 [Marc chuckles]
949 00:56:01 Don't we all have somethingto prove to somebody?
950 00:56:04 Yeah, sure.I'd just rather be upfront about it.
951 00:56:10 I think a lot of people would liketo be upfront about a lot of things.
952 00:56:15 But honesty doesn't justspill out of a lot of people.
953 00:56:20 It should.
954 00:56:23 [waiter speaking French]
955 00:56:26 Merci.
956 00:56:27 [in English] They haven't changedthe recipe in 65 years.
957 00:56:30 - Mmm.- [Theo] Hmm.
958 00:56:31 How are you feeling now?
959 00:56:33 I'm all right.
960 00:56:35 If the waiter came by and asked youwhat you thought about the soup
961 00:56:38 and you said, "All right..."
962 00:56:39 [laughs]
963 00:56:40 ...they would ask us to leave.
964 00:56:44 No, they would probably be asking us
965 00:56:46 why we're eating French onion soupon a date.
966 00:56:48 Is this a date?
967 00:56:51 I don't know, you tell me.
968 00:56:54 You seem like a very transparent person.
969 00:56:56 What does it mean?
970 00:56:58 That you don't look like you lie a lot.
971 00:57:01 I don't know. I try not to lie.
972 00:57:05 [Marc] Hm.
973 00:57:13 I've been lying for a long time.
974 00:57:17 To a lot of people.
975 00:57:19 And it feels really heavy. [sighs]
976 00:57:25 Like I'm... swimming with my clothes onand I can't take them off.
977 00:57:38 I stopped liking my job,but I keep working because it pays well.
978 00:57:43 And that makes me feel sick.
979 00:57:46 - [Marc] Hmm.- But not sick enough to quit.
980 00:57:49 Which makes me feel even more sick.
981 00:57:54 - You should quit your job.- Yes.
982 00:57:57 [laughs]
983 00:57:59 What are you doing?
984 00:58:00 - I'm trying to take your clothes off.- [laughs]
985 00:58:04 I just told you something truthful.
986 00:58:07 Now, it's your turnto tell me something that's not a lie.
987 00:58:11 I'll try not to judge.
988 00:58:19 [clicks tongue]
989 00:58:20 [inhales deeply]
990 00:58:27 [clicks tongue]
991 00:58:29 I feel like I abandoned my momwhen I met my husband.
992 00:58:35 Like I chose a distraction oversitting alone with her death or something.
993 00:58:42 Didn't take the time to grieve...
994 00:58:45 or...
995 00:58:48 live with the reality that she's gone.
996 00:58:51 I didn't do that.
997 00:58:54 I opted out.
998 00:58:56 Hmm.
999 00:58:58 Stopped painting. I avoided thingsthat would remind me of her, even though...
1000 00:59:04 all I want is to be reminded of her.
1001 00:59:10 And I can feel myselfdoing the same thing with Oliver.
1002 00:59:21 I agreed to an open marriage...
1003 00:59:25 out of fear, not trust.
1004 00:59:29 He asked,
1005 00:59:32 and the idea of giving hima reason to leave
1006 00:59:35 felt scarier than keeping him happy,
1007 00:59:38 so that's what I did.
1008 00:59:41 There were rules.Work trips, one and done.
1009 00:59:45 -"I don't want to hear about it."- [Theo chuckles]
1010 00:59:50 But he broke those rules.
1011 00:59:54 And I can...
1012 00:59:56 I can feel myself choosing anger...
1013 01:00:04 to distract from...from how much I miss him.
1014 01:00:15 All I want is to be ableto have that fight with him.
1015 01:00:18 - You should start painting again. I think.- [laughs]
1016 01:00:20 I've also been told I overstep.
1017 01:00:23 [Marc] Mm.
1018 01:00:25 This is a terrible game.
1019 01:00:26 [both chuckle]
1020 01:00:28 [gentle piano music playing]
1021 01:00:31 - [Marc] It's a shame your city's so ugly.- [Theo] I know.
1022 01:00:34 - [Marc] Yeah. It's a real problem.- [Theo] I know. Yeah.
1023 01:00:37 - I should move.- [Marc chuckles]
1024 01:00:42 [Marc] What are we doing?
1025 01:00:45 - [Theo] Surprise.- [Marc chuckles]
1026 01:00:51 - [Theo] Just wait.- [Marc] Okay.
1027 01:00:56 [knocks]
1028 01:01:02 [Theo speaking French]
1029 01:01:15 Merci.
1030 01:01:16 [in English]Have you ever been here?
1031 01:01:18 [Marc] No, I have not.I've always wanted to, but...
1032 01:01:21 Merci.
1033 01:01:23 [gentle music continues]
1034 01:01:34 [music swells emotionally]
1035 01:01:42 [Theo] Monet lost two wives and his son,
1036 01:01:45 and was losing his sightwhen he painted these.
1037 01:01:52 We are standing in a house of loss.
1038 01:01:58 Wow.
1039 01:02:00 - He wins.- [laughs]
1040 01:02:03 This is how someone chose to rememberthe things he loved.
1041 01:02:09 - It's quite special, no?- Hmm.
1042 01:02:11 It's amazing.
1043 01:02:20 Imagine being able to do this.
1044 01:02:23 You can do this.
1045 01:02:24 [laughs]
1046 01:02:26 I... No, I can't do this.
1047 01:02:27 No, you can't do this,because this has already been done.
1048 01:02:33 Pretty successfully.
1049 01:02:37 But you can do something.
1050 01:02:52 You're very nice to me.
1051 01:02:54 It's intentional.
1052 01:03:08 I'm sorry about your husband.
1053 01:03:10 And your mom.
1054 01:03:46 Hello?
1055 01:03:51 [keys jangle]
1056 01:03:57 Hello?
1057 01:04:04 [muffled conversation]
1058 01:04:28 - Where were you?- [Thomas] Where were you?
1059 01:04:31 [sighs] Relax, would you, Thomas?
1060 01:04:34 [Thomas] Where did you go?
1061 01:04:37 I went for a walk. Why? What's going on?
1062 01:04:40 A long walk.
1063 01:04:43 Yeah, it was a long walk.What's the problem?
1064 01:04:46 I had to pay for everyone's billat karaoke.
1065 01:04:49 Okay, I'll obviously pay you backfor the karaoke bill.
1066 01:04:52 That's not the point.I mean, it is, and yes, you will.
1067 01:04:55 You said you'd come back.You didn't come back.
1068 01:04:57 Sophie couldn't talkby the end of the night.
1069 01:04:59 - [Sophie grunts]- And?
1070 01:05:01 And while I was paying 1,500 eurofor everyone's bill,
1071 01:05:04 she fucking left, never picked upher phone again rest of the night.
1072 01:05:07 I told you, I left it at the bar.
1073 01:05:08 Okay, I'm...I don't get where this is going.
1074 01:05:10 She leaves with a guy none of us know.
1075 01:05:14 You were gone.
1076 01:05:15 Sure, maybe I'd taken a pill,maybe I was a bit drunk,
1077 01:05:18 but when I don't hear backfrom our best friend
1078 01:05:19 after something like that,I'm gonna get scared.
1079 01:05:21 Okay, okay. Makes sense.
1080 01:05:24 But you could have taken homethat little thing
1081 01:05:26 and had this entire place to yourself.
1082 01:05:30 - Clearly, we were fine.- Were we?
1083 01:05:33 Soph, do you want to tell himwhere you ended up last night?
1084 01:05:36 Hello?
1085 01:05:38 Thomas, I'm sorry, okay?I appreciate you. Can we just move on?
1086 01:05:43 Soph was picked up by the police.
1087 01:05:44 She was found sleeping near a bus shelter,half an hour outside the city.
1088 01:05:51 So, while you were napping,I was with her dealing with that.
1089 01:05:59 Are you okay?
1090 01:06:03 Yes.
1091 01:06:07 I'm here, aren't I?
1092 01:06:08 I honestly don't know when I becamethe only friend on this fucking trip.
1093 01:06:11 - [Marc] Okay, okay.- [Sophie groans] Jesus.
1094 01:06:15 Thomas, I am sorrythat you had to go through that.
1095 01:06:21 Are you still on the drugs?
1096 01:06:22 [chuckles softly]
1097 01:06:25 I'm... I'm just trying--
1098 01:06:26 How is it your husband dying has onlymade you even more of a spoiled brat?
1099 01:06:31 [lock rattling]
1100 01:06:38 Hello?
1101 01:06:40 I'm... I'm sorry.
1102 01:06:43 I think I have the wrong apartment.
1103 01:06:45 Then how did your keylet you into this one?
1104 01:06:50 [man] I'm sorry, I didn't thinkanyone would be here.
1105 01:06:53 [Thomas] What the fuck is going on?Who are you?
1106 01:06:56 I'm Luca.
1107 01:07:05 Do you wanna tell them,or would you like me to?
1108 01:07:11 Oliver met someone else.
1109 01:07:13 - What do you mean?- That's what this is.
1110 01:07:15 [Sophie] Hold on, hold on.
1111 01:07:17 Oliver gave this kidthe keys to your apartment.
1112 01:07:20 - I didn't know you.- It's not our apartment.
1113 01:07:24 It's Oliver's apartment.
1114 01:07:27 And yours, presumably?
1115 01:07:28 No.
1116 01:07:30 I only found out about all of thisvery recently,
1117 01:07:33 and if I'm being honest,
1118 01:07:35 it was just all too pathetic.
1119 01:07:38 But I needed to see this placebefore I gave it up, and I...
1120 01:07:43 I wanted to do something nicefor you both--
1121 01:07:45 It's the lying that's pathetic, Marc.
1122 01:07:47 - Thomas.- I shouldn't be here.
1123 01:07:48 I'm in the middle of something.
1124 01:07:50 Is there anything you can do on your own?
1125 01:07:54 You have to drag us out hereto, what, keep you company
1126 01:07:57 while you scope outyour husband's double life?
1127 01:07:59 I opened Oliver's Christmas card.
1128 01:08:01 He told me he had met someone else.I fell apart. I made a bad call.
1129 01:08:06 [Thomas] Hmm.
1130 01:08:07 I do want to spend time with you.This was never supposed to be--
1131 01:08:10 - It wasn't like that.- He wrote that in the card to you?
1132 01:08:12 You pretended like you'd been here before.
1133 01:08:15 Thomas, it's like an ache right here.
1134 01:08:18 What is?
1135 01:08:20 Loss.
1136 01:08:22 It's like a little ulcer right herethat never goes away.
1137 01:08:28 And you somehow figure out ways
1138 01:08:31 to take your mind off it enoughto not feel it as much.
1139 01:08:35 But yeah, sometimes you lose sight
1140 01:08:37 of what's going on around youbecause you just... [inhales deeply]
1141 01:08:41 You just want to be ableto breathe the way you did before.
1142 01:08:48 So... yeah, I messed up.
1143 01:08:53 And I'm sorry for being a spoiled brat.I'm just trying to figure out
1144 01:08:57 how to live with the realitythat my husband died...
1145 01:09:03 leaving me...
1146 01:09:07 to get back to this. This.
1147 01:09:18 I'm sorry...
1148 01:09:20 you're having to deal with that,but I'm allowed to feel things too.
1149 01:09:24 I think you should go.
1150 01:09:34 I don't have anywhere to go tonight.
1151 01:09:36 [Marc sighs]
1152 01:09:37 Can I at least stay hereuntil I figure out where to go?
1153 01:09:40 - [Marc sighs]- I can wait in the bathroom.
1154 01:09:42 Oh my God, he's not hidingin the fucking bathroom.
1155 01:09:44 I'm sorry, don't you live here?
1156 01:09:46 I live in Berlin.
1157 01:09:47 Then how did you meet my husband?If there is another apartment in Berlin--
1158 01:09:51 I live in Berlin,but I dance a lot in Paris.
1159 01:09:53 I won Oliver's art scholarship.
1160 01:09:55 [exhales]
1161 01:09:56 [Luca] I was performing in Parislast year,
1162 01:09:58 and Oliver came backstage after the showto introduce himself.
1163 01:10:02 Yeah, I'm sure he did.
1164 01:10:03 We kept in touch, and then we just...
1165 01:10:06 - Where are you gonna go?- He can't stay here.
1166 01:10:09 - He's got nowhere else to go.- [Marc] I know that.
1167 01:10:11 I am not the bad person in this situation.
1168 01:10:14 And what, is he supposedto stay here with us?
1169 01:10:23 [melancholy music playing]
1170 01:10:31 [alarm beeping]
1171 01:10:37 Can I help?
1172 01:10:38 No.
1173 01:10:41 Can you not do that inside, please?
1174 01:10:43 Sorry, but the atmosphere in this roomis strangling me.
1175 01:10:48 - [Luca] Can I have a drag?- Take it.
1176 01:10:53 It's okay?
1177 01:10:54 A cigarette at dinner?I didn't know I'd woken up in 1988.
1178 01:10:59 [Sophie] Yeah.
1179 01:11:28 I'm sorry, I...I don't even know what this is.
1180 01:11:36 I'm sorry, everybody. I've messed up.
1181 01:11:40 Should someone say somethingbefore we eat?
1182 01:11:41 Thomas, I really don't think the Lordshould be allowed anywhere near this food.
1183 01:11:46 I think he was talking about Oliver.
1184 01:11:49 Right. Sorry.
1185 01:11:55 I'm sorry.
1186 01:12:02 I'm sorry.
1187 01:12:07 [clears throat]
1188 01:12:08 It's fine.
1189 01:12:09 [Sophie] Marc, fuck.
1190 01:12:12 Can you just let itnot be fine for me, please?
1191 01:12:18 Just let it not be fine.
1192 01:12:24 Let me apologize for fucking up tonight.
1193 01:12:27 Because if I don't, we'll justmove past it like we always do.
1194 01:12:42 Thomas, I'm sorry about last night.
1195 01:12:46 And I'm sorryfor brushing off your feelings.
1196 01:12:52 And I'm really sorry I scared you.
1197 01:13:03 I don't know you,but I'm sorry you have to listen to this.
1198 01:13:11 Oh, Marc, I'm sorry.
1199 01:13:15 We should be out dancing right now.
1200 01:13:19 That's what he would have wanted.
1201 01:13:22 And I know he did some shady shit to you,
1202 01:13:26 but you have to know thatOliver loved you so hard.
1203 01:13:35 For so long.
1204 01:13:44 And I'm sorry he's not here anymore.
1205 01:13:51 [cries]
1206 01:13:58 [Sophie] And I miss him.
1207 01:14:07 [sighs] Fuck it.
1208 01:14:09 [melancholy music playing]
1209 01:14:24 He expected more from us.
1210 01:14:28 [record thuds]
1211 01:14:33 ["Only Love Can Break Your Heart"by Neil Young playing over speakers]
1212 01:14:36 To the fucking pain.
1213 01:14:46 And you. Come on.
1214 01:14:49 ♪ ...and on your own ♪
1215 01:14:53 ♪ How did it feel to be alone? ♪
1216 01:15:01 ♪ I was always thinking of games ♪
1217 01:15:05 ♪ That I was playing... ♪
1218 01:15:07 Terrance left me.
1219 01:15:14 And I deserved it.
1220 01:15:18 - ♪ Try to be sure right from the start ♪- [Sophie sighs]
1221 01:15:23 I need some air.
1222 01:15:25 ♪ Yes, only love can break your heart ♪
1223 01:15:31 ♪ What if your world should fall apart? ♪
1224 01:15:50 Okay, we're on the Ferris wheel.Can you tell us what's going on?
1225 01:15:54 - Jesus, Thomas, you're intense.- [song fades away]
1226 01:16:00 Terrance got tired of waiting for meto wake the fuck up.
1227 01:16:05 And I don't blame him.
1228 01:16:08 [sighs] I'm a lot.
1229 01:16:14 All this time,I thought Terrance was too safe for me.
1230 01:16:19 But he wasn't safe.
1231 01:16:24 He was safety.
1232 01:16:27 And that's the part I wasn't getting.
1233 01:16:34 Because I'm a lot.
1234 01:16:39 I'm a 35-year-old womanwho had a good man who loved her,
1235 01:16:43 and I chose a bus stop.
1236 01:16:52 If it makes you feel better, I don't thinkanyone actually has their shit together.
1237 01:16:55 Okay. That's where I disagree.
1238 01:16:58 I think peoplecan have their shit together
1239 01:17:00 and live lives that aren't a total mess.
1240 01:17:04 And be kind to people,and be generous to people,
1241 01:17:07 and want good things for people.
1242 01:17:09 So, no, I think that's a cop-out.
1243 01:17:10 It's keeping you both from realizingyour behavior has hurt people.
1244 01:17:13 See, when I asked for the truth--
1245 01:17:15 Okay, is this becauseI left early last night?
1246 01:17:17 No, it's a bigger-picture thing.
1247 01:17:19 Well, what is the bigger picture?
1248 01:17:23 It...
1249 01:17:26 What's the bigger picture, Thomas?
1250 01:17:30 There isn't a bigger picture, okay?Can we get off this thing?
1251 01:17:33 Why is it that you only get this on edgewhen he's let you down?
1252 01:17:38 Why is it only him?
1253 01:17:46 People feel thingsthat are inconvenient, Thomas.
1254 01:17:51 It happens.
1255 01:17:55 It sucks, but it happens.
1256 01:17:59 That's okay.
1257 01:18:05 It's never me.
1258 01:18:10 And I don't know why.
1259 01:18:15 Not just with you, it's just never me.
1260 01:18:21 I'm never the one.
1261 01:18:26 It's like people can smell it on me.
1262 01:18:36 It could be so easy for us, you know.
1263 01:18:39 [Marc] I know.
1264 01:18:41 I know.
1265 01:18:42 But it wasn't.
1266 01:18:45 And that's not on you.
1267 01:18:47 It's on us.
1268 01:18:49 [groans]
1269 01:18:51 [exhales]
1270 01:18:54 I think I just need to go home,and we should lay low for a bit.
1271 01:18:57 - What?- [Thomas] I don't want it
1272 01:18:59 to be a big dramatic thingon a Ferris wheel in Paris.
1273 01:19:04 You're right,people don't have their shit together.
1274 01:19:07 But I think, for our sake...
1275 01:19:12 we have to try harder.
1276 01:19:14 [gentle music playing]
1277 01:19:28 [Marc] No, no.
1278 01:19:29 - No, no, no.- [man] Round we go again!
1279 01:19:32 - We're going again.- No.
1280 01:19:34 [Marc] Maybe he's putting us through.
1281 01:19:36 [laughs]
1282 01:19:39 Fucking hell.
1283 01:19:45 [Marc] So what timeare you planning on heading back?
1284 01:19:48 There's trains every hour,so whenever I can.
1285 01:19:50 I'll come with you.
1286 01:19:53 Got some stuff to do at home.Unless you want me to stay?
1287 01:19:56 No, no, it's fine.Do what you need to do.
1288 01:19:58 [cell phone vibrates]
1289 01:19:59 [Marc exhales]
1290 01:20:05 I think I'm going to take this.
1291 01:20:07 Okay.
1292 01:20:11 See you back in London.
1293 01:20:12 - I'll text you when we get home.- Okay.
1294 01:20:25 I love you.
1295 01:20:41 À plus tard.
1296 01:20:43 Sebastian taught me that last nightwhen I left his house crying.
1297 01:20:48 Get one last lookat this hot fucking mess, my friends.
1298 01:20:52 She has served us well.
1299 01:21:05 [gentle music continues]
1300 01:21:18 [knock on door]
1301 01:21:21 - Hi.- [Marc] Hi.
1302 01:21:23 - Come in.- Okay.
1303 01:21:26 Should I take my shoes off?
1304 01:21:27 - No.- Okay.
1305 01:21:31 [Marc] Mm.
1306 01:21:32 - So...- [Marc chuckles]
1307 01:21:35 [sighs]
1308 01:21:38 Well...
1309 01:21:43 Everything came out,and my friends are going home.
1310 01:21:49 It went over well?
1311 01:21:51 [chuckles] Really, really well. Yeah.
1312 01:21:55 I'm sorry to hear.
1313 01:21:58 I think it was an inevitability.
1314 01:22:03 It's a lot of love,
1315 01:22:06 and misplaced sadness.
1316 01:22:09 You just described half of Paris.
1317 01:22:41 [bag zips]
1318 01:22:46 Hi.
1319 01:22:49 Hi.
1320 01:22:51 [Marc breathes deeply]
1321 01:22:54 He got you a Christmas present.
1322 01:22:59 I took it back.
1323 01:23:16 [Luca] I'm sorry.
1324 01:23:19 He loved you very much.
1325 01:23:22 I don't even know what we were doing.
1326 01:23:25 He didn't want to leave you.
1327 01:23:27 [Marc] Mm.
1328 01:23:28 He didn't want to leave his marriage.
1329 01:23:31 He was planning on talking to youabout this, we were just--
1330 01:23:34 Our marriage.
1331 01:23:36 Yes, I'm sorry.
1332 01:23:38 I knew it wasn't worth all this.
1333 01:23:43 You know...
1334 01:23:46 I had never met anyonewho was so curious about me.
1335 01:23:50 He was curious about everyone.And everything.
1336 01:23:54 That's why being the oneto hold his curiosity felt so good.
1337 01:23:59 I miss that.
1338 01:24:01 A lot.
1339 01:24:05 [exhales]
1340 01:24:06 - So have you been staying here, or--- No.
1341 01:24:10 No, he had only just gotten it.For work, I think.
1342 01:24:15 And it wasn't like that.
1343 01:24:28 I don't blame youfor feeling something for my husband.
1344 01:24:34 It's hard not to.
1345 01:24:43 - A hug might be pushing it, you know.- [chuckles softly]
1346 01:24:46 Yeah. I understand.
1347 01:24:58 [contemplative music playing]
1348 01:25:05 So, the estate agent called to say
1349 01:25:07 they'd like to list the London housenext week.
1350 01:25:10 Okay.
1351 01:25:11 You're okay with that?
1352 01:25:13 I am, yeah.
1353 01:25:15 That house isn't mine. It was always his.
1354 01:25:20 I feel like you're not into this idea.
1355 01:25:23 My opinion is of little relevance here.
1356 01:25:25 Well, you manage my finances,I'm selling my house.
1357 01:25:28 Your opinion isn't irrelevant.
1358 01:25:35 I trust you're not running away?
1359 01:25:38 From him, I mean.
1360 01:25:40 Mmm.
1361 01:25:47 My wife died 12 years ago this month.
1362 01:25:54 I ran.
1363 01:25:56 From her.
1364 01:25:59 From us.
1365 01:26:05 Physiology has a clever wayof protecting us
1366 01:26:07 from what we perceiveto be a threat to our bodies.
1367 01:26:12 Which is whythe more we close ourselves off...
1368 01:26:16 the less we feel.
1369 01:26:20 At the time, that benefited me.I got on with it. Went back to school.
1370 01:26:25 Studied finance.
1371 01:26:28 Built up a successful business.
1372 01:26:31 Nice house.
1373 01:26:34 Good clothes.
1374 01:26:37 Never having desired anyone else.
1375 01:26:40 And you can survive that way.
1376 01:26:44 Until the usualness of it allstarts creeping in.
1377 01:26:49 And the new life you'd built as a refuge...
1378 01:26:55 begins to feel like a void.
1379 01:27:03 Because, as it turns out...
1380 01:27:08 to avoid sadness...
1381 01:27:17 is also to avoid love.
1382 01:27:25 That hindsight is a discomfort thatyou will forever mistake for indigestion.
1383 01:27:35 [gentle music playing]
1384 01:28:38 [Sophie] Well, I've been hustlingto get that trust back,
1385 01:28:41 but he's not making it easy.
1386 01:28:42 Is he playing games?
1387 01:28:44 [Sophie] No.
1388 01:28:46 All the feelings are still there.
1389 01:28:49 And he sayshe still wants to marry me... eventually.
1390 01:28:54 So, if that's going to happen one day...
1391 01:28:57 he needs to know that I'm good, you know?
1392 01:29:00 - And I get it.- Hmm.
1393 01:29:02 It's a miracle he's not the worst.
1394 01:29:04 - Oh my God, biblical.- [exhales]
1395 01:29:07 - Better than it was, huh?- [Marc] Mm.
1396 01:29:12 Have you talked to Thomas?
1397 01:29:14 [Sophie] I have.
1398 01:29:17 Actually set him up on the apps.
1399 01:29:20 Big step.
1400 01:29:21 Oh, huge.
1401 01:29:30 There's an offer in on the house.
1402 01:29:31 - Oh, fuck you.- [Marc chuckles]
1403 01:29:34 I will have a guest room ready for youat the new house.
1404 01:29:37 If you think I'm takingan hour-long train ride to see you,
1405 01:29:40 you're out of your tiny mind.
1406 01:29:41 I need to be somewhere else.
1407 01:29:43 I want to paint alone in a roomoverlooking the ocean
1408 01:29:46 like some sad lesbian in a period drama.
1409 01:29:49 - Oh, Christ, no.- [Marc laughs]
1410 01:29:51 Please, let me have that.
1411 01:29:55 End of an era, huh?
1412 01:29:57 Huge.
1413 01:29:58 Proud of you.
1414 01:30:00 I'm proud of you.
1415 01:30:05 But I'm serious.
1416 01:30:07 You'll be coming up heremore than I'm going to be going there.
1417 01:30:09 Sober and selfish.
1418 01:30:11 Oh my God, that's the title of my memoir.
1419 01:30:16 I love you.
1420 01:30:21 ["Hope" by Haerts playing]
1421 01:30:45 ♪ Love ♪
1422 01:30:49 ♪ Is the air the fools breathe ♪
1423 01:30:56 ♪ As they hope ♪
1424 01:31:00 ♪ That there's more than they see ♪
1425 01:31:09 ♪ Leave ♪
1426 01:31:12 ♪ There's no reason to stay ♪
1427 01:31:20 ♪ I will follow ♪
1428 01:31:32 ♪ And we search for the reasons ♪
1429 01:31:35 ♪ And pray for the gods ♪
1430 01:31:39 ♪ Day by day ♪
1431 01:31:45 ♪ Building our bridges on common ground ♪
1432 01:31:50 ♪ We hope ♪
1433 01:31:54 ♪ For what's never been there ♪
1434 01:32:00 [song fades out]
1435 01:32:01 It's for you.
1436 01:32:04 - Well, I should hope so.- [laughs]
1437 01:32:08 He... He was a beauty, wasn't he?
1438 01:32:13 Yeah, it was almost annoying.
1439 01:32:18 He'd have loved this, Marc.
1440 01:32:22 Thank you.
1441 01:32:24 Really.
1442 01:32:31 [gasps]
1443 01:32:32 Get out of town.
1444 01:32:34 Oh, I don't believe it.
1445 01:32:35 Look. Look!
1446 01:32:38 - [Terrance laughs]- [Sophie gasps]
1447 01:32:40 I love it. You're a genius.
1448 01:32:42 - Aw, I'm glad you like it.- [Sophie] Oh my God, well done. [gasps]
1449 01:32:49 It's nice to see this thing back on track.
1450 01:32:51 Let me see the ring, let me see the ring.
1451 01:32:53 Things are never on track with this one,but it's back.
1452 01:32:58 - And it's on.- [Marc chuckles]
1453 01:33:00 Okay, just becauseyour face is on this wall
1454 01:33:02 does not mean that you can touchor take home any of the paintings.
1455 01:33:05 - Moi?- [Marc] Mmm.
1456 01:33:07 Hands by our sides at all times.
1457 01:33:08 We have some gorgeous sparkling water herefor you tonight.
1458 01:33:12 - Thank you, darling man.- [Terrance] Very nice.
1459 01:33:19 Really wonderful. Really cool.
1460 01:33:51 [sighs]
1461 01:33:52 I'm glad you came.
1462 01:33:53 Considering how many timesI begged you to start painting again,
1463 01:33:56 you're lucky I didn't come out of spite.
1464 01:34:00 I heard I make a cameo in this show?Without my written consent?
1465 01:34:03 - Welcoming lawsuits as Christmas presents.- Hmm.
1466 01:34:15 You're even better than I remember.
1467 01:34:18 It's a step.
1468 01:34:23 I brought my boyfriend.I hope that's okay.
1469 01:34:26 We went with boyfriend and not partner?I had my money on partner.
1470 01:34:29 Oh, fuck off.
1471 01:34:31 - [Marc] Who's this?- Ben.
1472 01:34:33 - Ben, it's very nice to meet you.- [Ben] It's nice to meet you.
1473 01:34:35 Thank you for coming.
1474 01:34:38 - Just meeting Ben.- Hi. Yeah.
1475 01:34:41 - Good to see you.- [Sophie] Hey, pal-so.
1476 01:34:44 [indistinct chatter]
1477 01:34:46 - [all laughing]- Have you seen the ring?
1478 01:34:49 [Thomas] Oh yeah, I heard all about it.
1479 01:34:51 [Sophie] Do you see me?
1480 01:34:52 [Thomas] Yes, we all see you.
1481 01:34:54 ["Hope" continues instrumentally]
1482 01:35:28 ["Hope" ends]
1483 01:35:29 [gentle music playing]
