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1 00:00:53 Cue "Love Sick," Bob Dylan,
2 00:00:55 track one, "Time Out of Mind."
3 00:01:02 ♪ I'm walking... ♪
4 00:01:03 Yeah, that's good.
5 00:01:07 ♪ Through streetsthat are dead... ♪
6 00:01:09 That's real good.
7 00:01:14 We open tight on a man.
8 00:01:16 Oh, hold up, hold up, hold up,hold up, let me rephrase.
9 00:01:19 We open on our hero.
10 00:01:22 We push in on his face.
11 00:01:26 Motherfucker,I said push in on that shit.
12 00:01:30 Mid-20s, handsome, gay...
13 00:01:32 gay in that coolcat kind of way.
14 00:01:34 Gay like"Billy on the Street" gay.
15 00:01:36 Gay like, "It's who I am,it's not all I am, baby."
16 00:01:40 Yeah, that's onecool cat we got over here.
17 00:01:44 But right now,this cat's anything but cool.
18 00:01:47 This cat's in crisis.
19 00:01:49 I feel ashamed, I guess.
20 00:01:52 I know this doesn'tmake me look very good,
21 00:01:55 but it's, uh,breaking me, and, um...
22 00:01:59 Let it go, brother,
23 00:02:00 let it go like a proud asshole.
24 00:02:01 Let it go, let it go.
25 00:02:03 I just...
26 00:02:05 He and I have beentogether for so long.
27 00:02:08 I know it sounds cliché,but I guess...
28 00:02:11 I like knowing he'son my team, you know?
29 00:02:13 I know, my brother.I hear you, my brother.
30 00:02:15 Let it go.
31 00:02:17 Well, this new guyhas come along.
32 00:02:19 Hmm, proceed.
33 00:02:20 He's new, he's exciting,
34 00:02:22 and he's so much younger.
35 00:02:26 Aw, ain't no shame, brother.
36 00:02:29 I know I can't stickwith someone out of loyalty.
37 00:02:32 And you know this.
38 00:02:33 Okay, I'm gonna do it.
39 00:02:35 I'm gonna put Sterling Shepardin my flex wide receiver spot
40 00:02:38 and drop Larry Fitzgerald
41 00:02:39 and maybe I'll pick upMiami D off waivers, too.
42 00:02:42 Say what now?
43 00:02:44 Henry.
44 00:02:46 You know we've talked about howobsessing over fantasy football
45 00:02:49 can't simply replaceobsessing over food.
46 00:02:52 Okay, my bad.
47 00:02:54 That motherfuckeris not our hero.
48 00:02:57 Look at that prettytherapist over there.
49 00:03:00 Calming his anorexic fantasyfootball-loving ass down.
50 00:03:05 Push in on her for a sec.
51 00:03:06 Okay.
52 00:03:08 I said push in, man! Come on!
53 00:03:11 Oh, yeah.
54 00:03:14 Now I'm seeing it.
55 00:03:16 That's a hero right there.
56 00:03:18 Amazing smile,the silky smooth hair.
57 00:03:22 Let me look at you, girl.
58 00:03:25 Whoo! That's whatI'm talking 'bout.
59 00:03:28 Now we in bidness,ladies and gentlemen.
60 00:03:30 We got ourselves a hero.
61 00:03:34 ♪ And I wonder... ♪
62 00:03:37 Now, like any great hero,our hero wasn't perfect.
63 00:03:40 She smoked, first of all,
64 00:03:42 which they normally don'tlet you show in movies anymore,
65 00:03:44 even though we allstill smoke sometimes.
66 00:03:47 You know you smoke sometimes.
67 00:03:49 You and the wifehave a date night,
68 00:03:51 you each have two martinis,you guys are feeling wild
69 00:03:53 so you buy a pack ofsmokes on the way home
70 00:03:56 and you each smoke onein the 7-Eleven parking lot.
71 00:03:58 Then she makes youthrow out the pack,
72 00:04:00 but instead of throwing itout, you hide it in a plant,
73 00:04:03 and some nights,you sneak out and have one.
74 00:04:05 But she smellsthat shit on you
75 00:04:07 like she'sa nicotine detective.
76 00:04:10 She smells that shit on you
77 00:04:12 like she's Mariska Hargitayon "Law & Order: SVU,"
78 00:04:15 - Hey.- Marg Helgenberger on "CSI,"
79 00:04:16 Big fan.
80 00:04:18 S. Epatha Merkersonon "Law & Order,"
81 00:04:19 Angie Harmon on "Rizzoli & Isles..."
82 00:04:20 What the fuck?!
83 00:04:21 Oh, my God.
84 00:04:23 Holy shit!
85 00:04:25 Holy shit!
86 00:04:27 She just got straight-uprun over by a bus!
87 00:04:30 Ma'am?
88 00:04:36 She's gonna be okay, everybody.
89 00:04:38 Probably a little banged up,but she's gonna be fine.
90 00:04:40 She's our hero,she's gonna be...
91 00:04:42 Fuck!
92 00:04:44 Ma'am?
93 00:04:47 Ma'am, can you hear me?
94 00:04:48 ♪ Just don't know what to do ♪
95 00:04:50 - ♪ I'd give anything to ♪- Fuck it, I'm out.
96 00:04:53 ♪ Be with you. ♪
97 00:05:05 Will Dempsey was 35 years old
98 00:05:06 when he gave up on his
99 00:05:08 Sam Jackson UnreliableNarrator screenplay.
100 00:05:22 Will was not well,
101 00:05:25 but you don't need meto tell you that.
102 00:05:27 Top o' the morning to you,good sir.
103 00:05:30 - Oh, boy.- What could I get for you?
104 00:05:32 Double espresso, large cup.
105 00:05:34 You got it.
106 00:05:36 - And what's your name?- Will.
107 00:05:39 Is that Will withone "L" or two "L"s?
108 00:05:42 It's two "L" s.
109 00:05:44 W-I-L-L.
110 00:05:48 ♪ Light in this place ♪
111 00:05:51 ♪ Is so bad ♪
112 00:05:52 Fuck you so much.
113 00:05:53 ♪ Making me sick in the head ♪
114 00:05:56 ♪ And all the laughteris just making me sad ♪
115 00:06:01 ♪ The stars have turnedcherry red... ♪
116 00:06:04 - Will!- Yep.
117 00:06:06 Double espresso, large cup.
118 00:06:08 Oh, delicious.
119 00:06:10 Thank you.
120 00:06:12 Just gonna do a long pour here.
121 00:06:15 Double.
122 00:06:17 Thank you. You want one?
123 00:06:20 No, thanks.
124 00:06:22 - It's Xanax.- Still no.
125 00:06:24 Boo humbug.
126 00:06:26 It's actually "bah humbug."
127 00:06:28 That's what she said.
128 00:06:30 ♪ I got nowhere left to turn ♪
129 00:06:36 ♪ I got nothing left to burn ♪
130 00:06:40 It's Dylan!"Standing in the Doorway."
131 00:06:43 Third track on"Time Out of Mind."
132 00:06:45 It's his comeback album.
133 00:06:46 The whole thing's likea giant fucking Keats poem.
134 00:06:48 - Sir?- You're gonna love it.
135 00:06:50 Just give it a chance.You're gonna make me leave?
136 00:06:52 - I am.- Bah humbug.
137 00:06:57 ♪ I'm strumming onmy gay guitar ♪
138 00:06:59 Sir? Okay. Strum outside.Here we go.
139 00:07:01 - ♪ Smoking a cheap cigar ♪- Okay.
140 00:07:05 Here we go.Thank you very much.
141 00:07:06 ♪ Under the midnight moon ♪
142 00:07:08 - Sir.- You got to give it a chance!
143 00:07:10 - No. Get out.- Give it a chance.
144 00:07:12 It's gonna grow on you.You're gonna love it!
145 00:07:15 Will hadn'talways been not well.
146 00:07:16 It had really only beensince his wife had left him.
147 00:07:20 You know what,we'll get to that.
148 00:07:22 Right now, let's justenjoy them as they were.
149 00:07:24 Give it a chance. It'll grow on you.
150 00:07:26 He sound,he sounds like he's suffering.
151 00:07:28 He is suffering.
152 00:07:29 - He's suffering like...- From a throat infection.
153 00:07:31 ...everygreat artist is suffering.
154 00:07:34 I think it's sinusitis,is what it is.
155 00:07:36 No one rocks a sinusinfection like Bob Dylan.
156 00:07:42 - I'll give him that.- Just, just...
157 00:07:43 just, like, just give him a chance.
158 00:07:45 Well, he ain'tthe only one suffering.
159 00:07:47 Come here, Fuckface.
160 00:07:48 - Uh-oh.- Hello, buddy.
161 00:07:50 Hey, little buddy. What?
162 00:07:52 - You feeling left out?- See, Fuckface gets it.
163 00:07:54 Come here, Fuckface.
164 00:07:55 Will loved hiswife Abby with an intensity
165 00:07:57 usually reserved for stalkers.
166 00:07:59 She was everything a mancould ask for in a wife.
167 00:08:03 She was nurturingand she was beautiful,
168 00:08:05 and she ate any kind ofsushi the chef served to her,
169 00:08:07 even the uni.
170 00:08:09 Yes, Will was sure of it:
171 00:08:11 Abby Dempsey wasabsolutely perfect.
172 00:08:13 At least back then she was.
173 00:08:16 Listen to this for 30 seconds,
174 00:08:17 and then try and tell meBob Dylan's not a poet.
175 00:08:20 Okay. Let's listento Hoobastank now.
176 00:08:22 See? No, no, no, no, no,no, no. Just 30 seconds...
177 00:08:24 - To Mars?- Thir...
178 00:08:27 - Okay, let's pop that in.- Just 30 seconds.
179 00:08:29 Baby, we've beenlistening to him gargle
180 00:08:30 Shh.
181 00:08:31 - ...for, like, a month.- Because... I know,
182 00:08:33 - because I'm in a phase.- I can't hear this, like,
183 00:08:35 - Chewbacca noise anymore.- I'm in a phase...
184 00:08:37 I just want you to justlean into it with me, okay?
185 00:08:41 Will you please?
186 00:08:42 ♪ Is just making me sad... ♪
187 00:08:44 This is an important album.
188 00:08:46 I mean, this isthe comeback album.
189 00:08:48 They thought he was done.Everybody just wrote him off.
190 00:08:50 They said you don't comeback from the crazy he had,
191 00:08:53 and then boom.
192 00:08:54 '97, "Time Out of Mind."
193 00:08:56 He won three Grammys,including Album of the Year.
194 00:08:59 He beat Radioheadand Paul McCartney.
195 00:09:02 It was this intense,unexpected genius.
196 00:09:05 Just hard and dark and...
197 00:09:07 and... I mean, he said,"I'm Bob Dylan, you're not.
198 00:09:11 Eat a dick."
199 00:09:13 He told everybodyto eat a dick?
200 00:09:15 Metaphorically, he toldeveryone to eat a dick.
201 00:09:17 So, listen... like, okay.
202 00:09:20 Okay, okay.
203 00:09:22 Shh, just listen to this.
204 00:09:24 Listen to this.The man's a genius.
205 00:09:26 He's pulling fromthe poetry of Keats.
206 00:09:29 He's getting...
207 00:09:30 Shh. Stop it. Stop.
208 00:09:33 Shh, shh. Stop.
209 00:09:35 Stop.
210 00:09:36 This is important to me.
211 00:09:39 Okay?
212 00:09:42 Thank you.
213 00:09:46 - Come here, Fuckface.- ♪ Shadows are falling ♪
214 00:09:49 Appreciate this with me.
215 00:09:51 ♪ And I've been here all day ♪
216 00:09:56 ♪ It's too hot to sleep ♪
217 00:10:00 ♪ Time is running away ♪
218 00:10:07 - ♪ Feel like my soul has ♪- Stop.
219 00:10:10 ♪ Turned into steel... ♪
220 00:10:13 Stop.
221 00:10:15 It sounds like he has a hugecock lodged in his throat.
222 00:10:17 You are an asshole.
223 00:10:20 You are an asshole.
224 00:10:22 No. No, no.
225 00:10:25 No. Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa!
226 00:10:27 Fuckface, Fuckface, Fuckface!We're crushing him.
227 00:10:30 Careful, careful, careful, careful.
228 00:10:32 Oh, I'm sorry, Fuckface.
229 00:10:33 - No.- He's okay.
230 00:10:34 Hey, we have to get up.
231 00:10:36 - I have to take a shower.- What?
232 00:10:38 And we have to goto your parents'.
233 00:10:39 - But you said that...- We're gonna be late.
234 00:10:41 You said that we couldlisten to Smash Mouth after.
235 00:10:43 - No, I did not.- Yes, you did.
236 00:10:45 Hey.
237 00:10:48 Are you pregnant?
238 00:10:52 What's going on here?
239 00:10:54 Surprise!
240 00:10:58 ♪ The air is getting hotter ♪
241 00:11:03 ♪ There's a rumblingin the skies ♪
242 00:11:08 ♪ I've been wading throughthe high muddy water ♪
243 00:11:13 ♪ With the heatrising in my eyes ♪
244 00:11:19 ♪ Every day yourmemory grows dimmer ♪
245 00:11:24 ♪ It doesn't haunt melike it did before ♪
246 00:11:29 ♪ I've been walking throughthe middle of nowhere ♪
247 00:11:34 ♪ Trying to get to heavenbefore they close the door ♪
248 00:11:42 ♪ You broke a heartthat loved you ♪
249 00:11:46 ♪ Now you canseal up the book ♪
250 00:11:49 ♪ And not write anymore ♪
251 00:11:52 ♪ I've been walkingthat lonesome valley ♪
252 00:11:58 ♪ Trying to get to heavenbefore they close the door... ♪
253 00:12:04 You ever gonnaask me out, Will?
254 00:12:09 I'm just waitingfor the right moment.
255 00:12:13 That's good to know.
256 00:12:16 All right.
257 00:12:18 I'll see you around.
258 00:12:20 Abby, I'm waitingfor the right moment
259 00:12:22 'cause when I ask you out,
260 00:12:23 there's not gonna beany turning back for me.
261 00:12:28 I'm not gonna date anybodyelse for the rest of my life,
262 00:12:31 I'm not gonna love anybodyelse for the rest of my life,
263 00:12:34 I'm not gonna reallycare about anything else
264 00:12:36 for the rest of my life.
265 00:12:40 I'm waiting forthe right moment, Abby,
266 00:12:43 'cause when I ask you out,
267 00:12:46 it's gonna be the mostimportant moment of my life.
268 00:12:50 And I just want to makesure that I get it right.
269 00:13:10 So, how you doing today, Will?
270 00:13:13 Will.
271 00:13:15 Sorry. Did you say something?
272 00:13:17 Yes, I said,"How are you doing?"
273 00:13:20 Uh... you know.
274 00:13:22 Same.
275 00:13:24 Okay.
276 00:13:28 I tried masturbatingthe other day.
277 00:13:30 I tried thinking of Abby, butI couldn't really get it done,
278 00:13:33 so then I, um...
279 00:13:37 I tried thinking of you...
280 00:13:40 but, you know,you jerk off to your therapist,
281 00:13:43 you should beinstitutionalized.
282 00:13:45 You were institutionalized.
283 00:13:49 Touché.
284 00:14:00 She left six months ago today.
285 00:14:03 That's right.
286 00:14:05 And you've been in a facility
287 00:14:07 for almost half that time,
288 00:14:09 and now I, I can'thelp but wonder...
289 00:14:16 Will, are you listening to me?
290 00:14:19 Okay.
291 00:14:21 So, I'm just wonderinghow you're doing
292 00:14:22 being back in the world again.
293 00:14:25 Uh, you know. Same.
294 00:14:30 I did the writing exerciseyou asked me to do.
295 00:14:34 Really? I'm surprised.
296 00:14:36 You've been so resistantto writing down your feelings.
297 00:14:39 Oh, no, I didn't do that.I wrote a movie instead.
298 00:14:41 I did, like, uh, like, well,like, five pages of a movie.
299 00:14:45 It was very bad.
300 00:14:48 Abby and I always talked aboutwriting a screenplay together.
301 00:14:50 Like a...
302 00:14:52 husband and wifeTarantino, you know?
303 00:14:55 ...I'm "Super Fly T.N.T."
304 00:14:57 You wouldn't have liked it.
305 00:14:59 My screenplay.
306 00:15:01 You were in it, kind of.
307 00:15:03 Abby wasn't, which, you know,I know was the whole point.
308 00:15:10 I met this guy,when I was institutionalized.
309 00:15:14 This really sweet guy.
310 00:15:17 Horrible life.
311 00:15:19 All he could talk about withoutcrying was fantasy football,
312 00:15:22 so he talked about it a lot.
313 00:15:27 I liked that guy.
314 00:15:29 Great face.
315 00:15:30 A movie star face, you know.
316 00:15:33 Oh, poor motherfuckerwas the only guy there
317 00:15:35 that seemed worseoff than I was.
318 00:15:37 We'd have dinnerevery night together.
319 00:15:39 And then one nighthe didn't show up,
320 00:15:41 which sucked for him'cause it was pizza night.
321 00:15:43 Turned out he'd...
322 00:15:48 How'd that make you feel?
323 00:15:52 Happy for him.
324 00:15:57 Or at least relieved.
325 00:15:59 I mean, you know,he was pretty miserable.
326 00:16:02 And I'm no doctor,
327 00:16:04 but I don't think he'sever gonna feel any better.
328 00:16:06 Okay, well, that brings meback to my initial question.
329 00:16:09 How are you feeling?
330 00:16:13 Uh, you know. Same.
331 00:16:16 You keep saying that.
332 00:16:18 I keep meaning it.
333 00:16:20 Have you spoken to her,Will, since you've been out?
334 00:16:25 Abby, please,can you come back to me?
335 00:16:27 - I'm sorry.- This sucks, man.
336 00:16:30 - This fucking sucks.- I got to go. I'm sorry.
337 00:16:32 - I got to go.- Please.
338 00:16:35 No.
339 00:16:37 Have you been to yourparents', like we discussed?
340 00:16:41 I don't want to.
341 00:16:43 Will, part of the reasonthat you were discharged
342 00:16:46 and put into my...
343 00:16:48 I don't want to!
344 00:16:54 Sorry. That was weird.
345 00:16:57 Yesterday, you said thatyou'd been feeling aimless.
346 00:17:01 Well, I usually havepretty good aim, so...
347 00:17:07 ♪ It was a teenage wedding ♪
348 00:17:09 ♪ And the old folkswished them well... ♪
349 00:17:12 Thanks, friend.
350 00:17:13 I ain't your friend, palooka.
351 00:17:15 - This is for you, Peggy Sue.- Oh, my.
352 00:17:17 Thanks, daddy-O.
353 00:17:20 We'll name him Fuckface.
354 00:17:24 Sit, Fuckface, sit.
355 00:17:26 Good, dog.
356 00:17:29 ♪ It goes to showyou never can tell ♪
357 00:17:31 ♪ They furnishedoff an apartment ♪
358 00:17:33 ♪ With a two-roomRoebuck sale ♪
359 00:17:38 ♪ The Coolerator was crammed ♪
360 00:17:40 ♪ With TV dinnersand ginger ale ♪
361 00:17:43 ♪ But when Pierrefound work... ♪
362 00:17:45 Marry me.
363 00:17:50 Seriously.
364 00:17:52 Let's get married.
365 00:17:57 We've been datingless than a year.
366 00:17:59 Yeah, I know.
367 00:18:01 And I feel like I've shownincredible restraint
368 00:18:02 waiting this long.
369 00:18:04 Say yes.
370 00:18:05 - You want to say yes.- No, I don't.
371 00:18:08 You want to sayyes so bad it hurts.
372 00:18:10 - You're cocky.- I'm right.
373 00:18:13 Say yes.
374 00:18:15 Say yes.
375 00:18:16 Or I swear to God,if you don't say yes,
376 00:18:18 I will shoot this nimrodon general principle.
377 00:18:21 Stop it.
378 00:18:23 Please say,"Yes, I'll marry you,"
379 00:18:25 or I'll fucking shoot myself...
380 00:18:26 - Stop! Will!- Say, "Yes, I'll marry you."
381 00:18:28 Stop!
382 00:18:30 Sorry. That was weird.
383 00:18:35 I love you.
384 00:18:38 You're the love of my life,I'm sure of it.
385 00:18:42 But sometimes it scaresme how much you feel.
386 00:18:47 You know?
387 00:18:48 It's not somethingI ever thought I would...
388 00:18:50 be scared of, but...
389 00:18:57 I may not be equippedto be loved this much.
390 00:19:06 I'll find another way.
391 00:19:08 - No...- I'll find another way.
392 00:19:10 Hey. I will.
393 00:19:12 I will love you
394 00:19:13 however you're bestequipped to handle it, Abby.
395 00:19:17 I will love you...
396 00:19:18 on odd days of the week...
397 00:19:24 Baby, I will spendthe rest of my life
398 00:19:26 making your life better,not worse.
399 00:19:33 I want to dance.
400 00:19:35 I want to win.
401 00:19:38 I want that trophy.
402 00:19:41 Ah, what a gyp.
403 00:19:43 Come on.
404 00:19:48 Ooh!
405 00:19:50 Oh!
406 00:19:53 One... Everybody.
407 00:19:55 Two...
408 00:19:57 Three!
409 00:20:03 ♪ Deep insideI hope you feel it, too ♪
410 00:20:08 ♪ Feel it, too ♪
411 00:20:09 ♪ I'm the one who wants ♪
412 00:20:11 ♪ I'm the one, whoa ♪♪ To be with you ♪
413 00:20:14 ♪ Oh. ♪
414 00:20:25 We'd have to get a dog.
415 00:20:32 Okay.
416 00:20:34 I mean, I want kids, too,but not yet.
417 00:20:36 Okay.
418 00:20:39 Dog first. Small dog.
419 00:20:42 Yeah.
420 00:20:46 My parents died young;it makes me sad sometimes.
421 00:20:49 I know.
422 00:20:52 It'd probably make mea terrible mother.
423 00:20:54 I disagree, but... okay.
424 00:20:59 Mainly, my bigthing is the dog.
425 00:21:00 Small dog.
426 00:21:03 I am totally on boardwith the dog idea.
427 00:21:08 Okay, I'll marry you.
428 00:21:14 - Okay.- Okay.
429 00:21:18 You want to meet my parents?
430 00:21:22 Sure.
431 00:21:28 Cool.
432 00:21:37 Thanks.
433 00:21:41 - How are you?!- Oh, my God, Abby!
434 00:21:43 Look at you!
435 00:21:44 - Oh...- Oh, you look beautiful!
436 00:21:46 - How are you both?- Great.
437 00:21:47 - Everybody's good?- Yeah.
438 00:21:48 - Hey, buddy boy.- Hey, Pop.
439 00:21:49 - Look at you!- How are you, man?
440 00:21:51 - Good.- Oh, my...
441 00:21:52 - You're positively...- Revolting.
442 00:21:53 - No! Stop. No.- Yeah. And gassy.
443 00:21:55 - You popped.- She is, Mom. She's really gassy.
444 00:21:57 - That means it's gonna be a boy.- Really?
445 00:21:59 Yeah. I practicallyneeded a hazmat suit
446 00:22:00 when your mother waspregnant with you.
447 00:22:01 Stop that!
448 00:22:03 - It's true.- Farts mean it's a boy!
449 00:22:04 That almost makesthem worth it.
450 00:22:05 Anything happening down there?
451 00:22:06 Linda, I'm afraid toask, but did you make that...
452 00:22:08 Meat loaf is comingout of the oven right now.
453 00:22:10 - Oh, yeah!- I have never craved anything
454 00:22:12 like this in my life. Lead meto that meat loaf and...
455 00:22:14 I hate fucking meat loaf.
456 00:22:16 ...and backhandedcompliment me all day long.
457 00:22:18 I'm just grateful she didn'tburn down the fucking kitchen.
458 00:22:20 What'd you do to get the foot
459 00:22:22 - unstuck from the...- You just push.
460 00:22:23 I'm not a big fan of, like,
461 00:22:25 when the face goes like this...
462 00:22:26 Dog dishes.
463 00:22:27 ...against theoutside of the belly.
464 00:22:29 - It's like an alien.- How do you know it's the face?
465 00:22:31 - Looks like an alien.- You actually see the face?
466 00:22:32 - I'm pretty sure it's a face.- No, I don't... that's creepy.
467 00:22:34 Is it possiblethat it's clawing out?
468 00:22:35 This is... Mom.
469 00:22:37 You're aware that the baby'snot gonna actually live with
470 00:22:40 - you guys, right?- I got a little carried away.
471 00:22:41 - This one's very cute.- Sue me.
472 00:22:43 - Isn't that cute?- Yes.
473 00:22:44 You better eat some of thisbefore she gets it all.
474 00:22:46 - Okay.- Baby clothes, baby jumpers.
475 00:22:47 Tell me something,what the hell's
476 00:22:48 a baby jumper for, anyway?
477 00:22:52 Why does a baby need to jump?
478 00:22:54 All I know is I spend all day
479 00:22:55 breaking downthe goddamn Amazon boxes.
480 00:22:57 Oh, shush, you.
481 00:22:59 Here, honey, a littlebit more. Come on.
482 00:23:00 He's good. He's good.
483 00:23:02 - Ay. Ay-yi-yi.- There's two, there's two of me.
484 00:23:05 - Oh.- Oh, piggy-wiggy.
485 00:23:07 I can't believeI'm gonna be a grandma!
486 00:23:09 I still can't believe it.
487 00:23:11 - All right, settle down.- Still can't believe it.
488 00:23:12 - Abby?- Mm-hmm?
489 00:23:14 Don't take this the wrong way.
490 00:23:15 - Oh, here it comes.- Yep.
491 00:23:16 But, selfishly speaking,
492 00:23:18 I'm just so gladyour parents are dead.
493 00:23:22 - And... boom.- Oh, stop it.
494 00:23:24 Abby knows what I mean.
495 00:23:25 Really, yeah?She does? You do?
496 00:23:27 She's gonna explain.
497 00:23:28 What I mean is...all I ever wanted
498 00:23:32 was for Will to marry awoman with dead parents,
499 00:23:34 so I wouldn't have toshare the grandchildren,
500 00:23:36 and, and he did.
501 00:23:37 I mean, my prayer came true.
502 00:23:40 Jesus Christ, Mom!
503 00:23:42 It's okay!She knows what I mean.
504 00:23:46 - Hey, Abby, by the way...- Mm.
505 00:23:47 ...did you get a look atthat book I sent you yet?
506 00:23:49 No.
507 00:23:50 It's really good.It's about preschool
508 00:23:52 - and anxiety separation.- Oh, good.
509 00:23:53 That feels like a firstpriority thing.
510 00:23:56 'Cause when you...
511 00:23:58 Sorry, I will, I will admit.I admit, I'm sorry.
512 00:24:01 Just talk abouther dead parents again, Mom.
513 00:24:04 Thank you.
514 00:24:06 - It's about separation anxiety.- Yeah.
515 00:24:07 So when you drop 'em off atpreschool for the first day...
516 00:24:09 ...and they, they gonuts and they go limp.
517 00:24:12 - Yeah.- Live your own life!
518 00:24:14 - Mind your own fucking...- Shush. Shush.
519 00:24:15 When you dropthe kid off at preschool,
520 00:24:18 if they get hystericaland inconsolable...
521 00:24:20 Both Abby's parents
522 00:24:21 died in a car accidentwhen she was a little girl.
523 00:24:24 Abby was in the car.She was seven.
524 00:24:28 Okay.
525 00:24:31 "Okay" seems kind oflike a strange response
526 00:24:33 to that new information.
527 00:24:36 Well, I was caughta little off guard.
528 00:24:38 You don't talkabout Abby a lot.
529 00:24:41 You don't ask about her a lot.
530 00:24:43 Will, I ask abouther constantly.
531 00:24:46 Tomato, potato.
532 00:24:49 Tomato, to-mah-to.
533 00:24:51 Let's just callthe whole thing off.
534 00:24:54 Well, the sessionsare mandated, so...
535 00:24:57 No. Uh, the...
536 00:25:00 - ...the song, the...- What? I... I'm not following.
537 00:25:02 Oh, my God,
538 00:25:03 this is some kind ofrhythm we have, huh, Doc?
539 00:25:06 Maybe this is whyI can't jerk off to you.
540 00:25:10 Sorry, that wasvery inappropriate.
541 00:25:12 I was institutionalized.
542 00:25:14 Why don't you justtell me about Abby.
543 00:25:16 What, what was she like?I'd like to hear about her.
544 00:25:19 You want me to tellyou about Abby?
545 00:25:20 Well, then you've cometo the right place, Doc,
546 00:25:23 because I am the foremostexpert on all things Abby.
547 00:25:27 Or... I was.
548 00:25:30 No, I still am.
549 00:25:31 I mean, it's not like somebodyelse has learned more about
550 00:25:32 her in the last six months.
551 00:25:33 Or I guess somebody could have.
552 00:25:35 I mean... I've been locked away
553 00:25:37 and Lord knows what she'sbeen up to, wherever she is.
554 00:25:40 - Will?- Right.
555 00:25:42 You want to know about Abby.
556 00:25:43 Let me tell you about Abby.
557 00:25:44 You got it.Last one. Last one.
558 00:25:46 Abby Lesher wasborn June 30, 1985.
559 00:25:51 Legend has it that,when she was born,
560 00:25:54 she didn't make a single peep.
561 00:25:57 For five minutes, littleAbby just laid there
562 00:26:00 taking in the world around her,
563 00:26:02 - not so much as a single cry.- Hi.
564 00:26:05 In the years to come, herparents would always say,
565 00:26:07 "There wasn't anythingwrong with little Abby."
566 00:26:09 She just didn't haveanything to say yet."
567 00:26:13 Now keep in mind, I'mgetting all this secondhand.
568 00:26:16 I've never met any of thepeople here, except for Abby.
569 00:26:20 Her parents died pretty soon.
570 00:26:23 Long before I comeinto the picture.
571 00:26:26 - No, I know.- And it's not like
572 00:26:28 I know the doctoror the nurses here.
573 00:26:30 - Why would I?- Right.
574 00:26:31 Please continue, Will.
575 00:26:33 Okay.
576 00:26:36 By all accounts, Abby'schildhood was a happy one.
577 00:26:40 Family, I've gathered youhere today 'cause I, I need
578 00:26:42 to talk about something veryserious, so no laughing.
579 00:26:45 Uh, as you may have noticed,
580 00:26:46 I... have developed a bitof a drinking problem.
581 00:26:51 Her parents,Jack and Elizabeth,
582 00:26:52 were kindhearted and openhearted
583 00:26:55 and all the otherkinds of "hearted."
584 00:26:56 They were literally bothelementary school teachers.
585 00:26:58 That's actually howthey, how they met.
586 00:27:09 Mind if I sit?
587 00:27:13 If Abby's mother knew
588 00:27:15 that she would meet her futurehusband at exactly that moment,
589 00:27:17 you think she would havetaken such a big old bite
590 00:27:19 of that peanut butterand jelly sandwich?
591 00:27:22 Um...
592 00:27:26 - Would you like some water?- Mm.
593 00:27:29 Wow. You fit half thesandwich in your mouth.
594 00:27:35 So strange to think about.
595 00:27:38 How a completely random momentinvolving peanut butter,
596 00:27:40 a moment that happenedway before I was born,
597 00:27:44 would shape my entire life.
598 00:27:47 Are you glad it happened?
599 00:27:53 Ah, well, Dr. Morris,that is the big question.
600 00:27:57 Isn't it? Because ifit hadn't happened,
601 00:27:59 Abby's parents wouldnever have met.
602 00:28:00 They'd never have married,they'd never have
603 00:28:03 honeymooned in Arubawhere they conceived Abby.
604 00:28:05 They'd never have seen her
605 00:28:07 come into the worldwithout a peep.
606 00:28:08 They'd never have watchedher blonde hair turn brown
607 00:28:11 as she got older.
608 00:28:12 They'd never have watched herbecome obsessed with dancing
609 00:28:14 and then soccer
610 00:28:16 and then horses and,of course, Christmas.
611 00:28:19 Always Christmas.
612 00:28:20 The lights, the gifts,and above all, the Rockettes.
613 00:28:23 So obsessed with theRockettes was Abby
614 00:28:26 that every year,every single year,
615 00:28:28 her parents would haveto drive her into town
616 00:28:30 to watch the Rockettes perform.
617 00:28:31 Every single year,except that one year...
618 00:28:39 Abby's parents died instantly.
619 00:28:41 Abby was trappedin the backseat of the car
620 00:28:43 with them for over an hourbefore they got her out.
621 00:28:47 Her father...
622 00:28:50 ...her father was decapitatedby the steering column.
623 00:28:55 I know, right?
624 00:28:57 That's the detail thatalways gets everybody.
625 00:28:59 I mean, the story in and ofitself is tragic of course,
626 00:29:01 but when you givesomeone that image,
627 00:29:04 that singular image ofa seven year old girl
628 00:29:07 trapped in thebackseat of a car
629 00:29:09 with her decapitated father,
630 00:29:10 well, then it reallyjust lands, doesn't it?
631 00:29:16 Anyhoo, you wanted toknow about Abby, so...
632 00:29:20 I'll continue,but be forewarned,
633 00:29:22 her next decade isn't so great.
634 00:29:26 Abby's parents didn'tplan on dying together,
635 00:29:29 so there was no will andthere was no plan for Abby.
636 00:29:32 And seeing as all hergrandparents were deceased,
637 00:29:34 Abby's Uncle Joe got custody.
638 00:29:41 Now, Uncle Joewasn't a nice man.
639 00:29:43 And when I say hewasn't a nice man,
640 00:29:45 I don't mean likehe didn't hug her.
641 00:29:47 I mean, he bought her apuppy and then he killed it
642 00:29:49 when it chewed up his couch.
643 00:29:51 I mean, he sporadicallymolested her
644 00:29:52 for the betterpart of six years,
645 00:29:54 until, at 15 years old,
646 00:29:56 Abby borrowed a gun fromsome wannabe gangbanger
647 00:29:58 from her high school, shepointed it at Uncle Joe's head
648 00:30:00 and said in nouncertain terms...
649 00:30:03 I'll fucking kill you ifyou ever touch me again.
650 00:30:05 And then she shothim in the knee,
651 00:30:07 so he knew she wasn't playing.
652 00:30:10 Fuck! Ow!
653 00:30:15 It's like a movie, right?
654 00:30:17 I always pictured a youngNatalie Portman playing her.
655 00:30:20 I don't know who that is.
656 00:30:22 You don't know whoNatalie Portman is?
657 00:30:25 - No.- Doc, you got to get out more.
658 00:30:27 Yeah, I'm sure you're right.
659 00:30:29 I'll tell you what.
660 00:30:30 One of these nights,we'll do, like, a marathon
661 00:30:31 of early Portman.
662 00:30:33 Beautiful Girls,The Professional.
663 00:30:35 You'll see whatI'm talking about.
664 00:30:37 - Okay?- Okay.
665 00:30:38 Right.
666 00:30:41 Okay, well, uh...
667 00:30:43 well, things gotbetter from there.
668 00:30:45 Obviously, damagehad been done.
669 00:30:47 Decapitated father, molestinguncle, you don't just, like,
670 00:30:49 bounce back fromthat shit, but...
671 00:30:51 Abby was smart, determined,a dreamer, a reader.
672 00:30:57 She hunkered down, shegot herself into college,
673 00:31:00 started seeing atherapist on campus
674 00:31:02 who truly changed her life.
675 00:31:05 She even made avery close friend.
676 00:31:19 You're gonna get me kicked out.
677 00:31:21 Could you please stop?
678 00:31:23 I'm so sorry.
679 00:31:25 Oh, my God, Doc,look. Oh, my God.
680 00:31:27 Look.
681 00:31:30 Oh.
682 00:31:31 Look at me. This is whatI looked like in college.
683 00:31:34 I have 491 more pages.
684 00:31:37 Oh, my God, lookhow young I look.
685 00:31:40 No, no, I think you lookvery much the same.
686 00:31:42 Oh, well, I think I look likea completely different person.
687 00:31:44 Yeah, tomato, to-mah-to.
688 00:31:47 Doc, look at us.
689 00:31:50 Maybe we have achance after all.
690 00:31:52 Yeah.
691 00:31:54 Anyway, Abby really cameinto her own in college.
692 00:31:58 My aim.
693 00:32:01 She engaged inthe outside world,
694 00:32:03 she became extremely popular,
695 00:32:05 she even fell in love.
696 00:32:07 Not to toot my ownhorn, but toot, toot!
697 00:32:11 She graduated top of her classwith an English lit degree.
698 00:32:13 Yeah, she wroteher thesis on...
699 00:32:15 The Unreliable Narrator!
700 00:32:17 The Unreliable Narrator.
701 00:32:19 - What's that?- My thesis.
702 00:32:20 Hey, guys, what's up?
703 00:32:22 Unreliable narrators areconsidered a device, right?
704 00:32:25 Don't answer.They are. They are.
705 00:32:26 And they don't get alot of literary analysis
706 00:32:28 because it's agimmick, it's a trick.
707 00:32:30 I mean, "Canterbury Tales"gets a, gets a shout-out
708 00:32:32 because, you know, it's good,
709 00:32:34 but then typically, it's usedfor popcorn crime novels
710 00:32:37 and thriller movies, likeAgatha Christie, Usual Suspects,
711 00:32:39 - so on and so forth.- Right.
712 00:32:40 But I'm gonna arguethat every narrator,
713 00:32:43 by its very definition,is unreliable.
714 00:32:46 Because when you tell a story,
715 00:32:48 there's always anessential distance
716 00:32:49 between the storyitself and the telling
717 00:32:51 of said story, right?
718 00:32:53 So, therefore, every storythat has ever been told
719 00:32:57 has an unreliable narrator.
720 00:32:59 The only truly reliablenarrator would be
721 00:33:02 someone hypotheticallytelling a story that unfolds
722 00:33:04 before our very eyes, whichis obviously impossible.
723 00:33:06 So, what does that tell us?
724 00:33:08 That the only trulyreliable narrator
725 00:33:11 is life itself.
726 00:33:14 But life itself is also acompletely unreliable narrator
727 00:33:19 because it isconstantly misdirecting
728 00:33:21 and misleading us andtaking us on this journey
729 00:33:23 where it is literallyimpossible to predict
730 00:33:25 where it's gonna go next.
731 00:33:27 And that is my thesis!
732 00:33:29 Life as the ultimateunreliable narrator.
733 00:33:33 - What do you think?- Yeah.
734 00:33:36 It'll make more sense whenI write it. I love you.
735 00:33:38 Bye, guys.
736 00:33:40 I love you.
737 00:33:42 - You're up.- I love her, Chuck.
738 00:33:44 Yeah. Come on.
739 00:33:46 - Holy shit.- Your turn.
740 00:33:48 I love you, Abby!
741 00:33:53 Hey, before, when Iinvited you over to watch
742 00:33:55 Natalie Portman movies,
743 00:33:56 you know I was justbeing funny, right?
744 00:33:58 - Yes, I do.- Okay.
745 00:34:00 'Cause I'm still married, so...
746 00:34:02 At least I think I am.
747 00:34:04 I mean, I haven't signedany papers or anything yet,
748 00:34:06 so I don't really knowhow the whole thing works.
749 00:34:08 Will, it's fine. Okay?
750 00:34:12 Take a deep breath.
751 00:34:15 And you can tell meabout your marriage now.
752 00:34:25 You want me to tellyou about my marriage?
753 00:34:27 Yeah.
754 00:34:29 So, you haven't, you haven'treally been listening
755 00:34:30 to me, then, because...
756 00:34:32 it doesn't matter whatI tell you, don't you...
757 00:34:34 I don't... Whycan't you lean into this
758 00:34:36 - just one fucking time?- You see that, right?
759 00:34:37 Doesn't matter what I say,'cause I could tell you
760 00:34:39 every detail about our marriage.
761 00:34:40 I could tell you every detail
762 00:34:42 about the day thatshe left me, but...
763 00:34:44 why, why would my memoryeven be remotely accurate?
764 00:34:47 - I'm going through a phase!- Yeah, but why do I
765 00:34:49 - have to listen...- And I'm asking you, just...
766 00:34:50 Maybe...maybe I'd actually
767 00:34:52 been smothering her for years.
768 00:34:54 - No. Stop.- Smothering her with my love
769 00:34:56 and my dreams and a babythat she wasn't ready for.
770 00:34:58 Crushed him.
771 00:35:00 Maybe I was justanother guy that was in her life
772 00:35:03 that seemed like Iwas gonna save it,
773 00:35:04 but really I was justthere to ruin it.
774 00:35:09 Maybe she was reallyunhappy and this dream girl
775 00:35:11 that I created in mymind's eye was just like
776 00:35:13 a narrative trick, to get usthrough a life, you know?
777 00:35:29 I mean, this is really some
778 00:35:31 deep philosophical shitwe're talking about here.
779 00:35:33 Yes, it is. It is.
780 00:35:40 Will...
781 00:35:43 we've been seeing eachother for a while now.
782 00:35:47 And today, you're talking aboutAbby a lot for the first time.
783 00:35:51 And it's good.
784 00:35:54 It's really good.
785 00:35:56 So, tell me about that day.
786 00:36:01 You had a nicemorning with Abby...
787 00:36:02 - No, no.- ...talking about Bob Dylan.
788 00:36:04 I didn't. I didn't.That's not what I fucking said.
789 00:36:07 I just said that it may nothave been a nice morning.
790 00:36:08 - Okay.- I said that it could've been
791 00:36:10 a smothering, horrible morning.
792 00:36:11 Okay. It could've been asmothering, horrible morning.
793 00:36:14 You talked about Bob Dylan,
794 00:36:17 then you went over to yourparents' house for lunch,
795 00:36:19 and then what happened?
796 00:36:23 Then she just left me.Then she just left me.
797 00:36:27 Will, she didn'tjust leave you.
798 00:36:28 She just left. Yes, she did.
799 00:36:33 Have you seen Abby sinceyou've been released, Will?
800 00:36:39 Comeback to me, Abby.
801 00:36:41 Please come back to me.I'll, I'll do anything.
802 00:36:43 - Will?- Just give me another chance.
803 00:36:44 Will?
804 00:36:46 I'm talking to my fucking wife!
805 00:36:49 But your wife wasn'tthere, was she?
806 00:37:01 I don't know. What am Idoing? What are you doing?
807 00:37:04 Will...
808 00:37:06 ...you're not well yet.
809 00:37:08 Okay? You're mixing meds.
810 00:37:11 You're, you're not yourself.
811 00:37:17 Tell me about that day.
812 00:37:30 We talked about Bob Dylan.
813 00:37:32 Okay.
814 00:37:35 We laughed.
815 00:37:38 Okay.
816 00:37:43 Go ahead.
817 00:37:47 We almost crushed the dog.
818 00:37:49 Okay.
819 00:37:54 We went to my parents' house.
820 00:37:56 Right.
821 00:38:01 We ate meat loaf.
822 00:38:03 Oh, my God, my mom's crazy.
823 00:38:05 - She's totally fucking nuts.- She is.
824 00:38:06 We're nevergonna do that again.
825 00:38:08 Oh, gosh.
826 00:38:09 - How you feeling, my love?- I ate too much.
827 00:38:13 - You think?- Just a little bit.
828 00:38:15 You freakin' atethe gross national
829 00:38:17 meat loaf productof a small nation.
830 00:38:19 I think we might have a meatloaf instead of a human baby.
831 00:38:22 You're givingbirth to meat loaf?
832 00:38:23 Yeah, we're having meat loaf.
833 00:38:26 - Cab?- No.
834 00:38:28 - Walk it off?- Yes, please.
835 00:38:29 All right, let's walk it off.
836 00:38:30 My heart's on fire.
837 00:38:32 Not in a good way.
838 00:38:47 The baby's a girl, Will.
839 00:38:50 What?
840 00:38:51 I know we weren'tgonna find out,
841 00:38:53 but then the nurse slipped up,and now I feel shitty knowing.
842 00:38:59 In about three weeks,you're gonna have a daughter.
843 00:39:04 Say something.
844 00:39:08 What?
845 00:39:11 I know what youwant to name her.
846 00:39:15 - Yeah?- Yeah.
847 00:39:18 Yeah, I think so.
848 00:39:20 I know you don't likehis music, but...
849 00:39:22 I love it.
850 00:39:24 Big fan.
851 00:39:25 I think it's cute.I think it's...
852 00:39:32 I was smothering her.I was smothering her.
853 00:39:34 That's why she left me.
854 00:39:38 Will, listen, yousuffered a trauma.
855 00:39:42 It was horrific.
856 00:39:43 - Can you fucking help me?!- Horrific.
857 00:39:45 Help me, please!
858 00:39:47 You thoughtabout killing yourself.
859 00:39:50 You... you were intreatment for months
860 00:39:54 to keep you safe.
861 00:39:56 And now you're,you're constructing a story
862 00:39:59 that somehow makes it bearable.
863 00:40:04 Will... you have a baby.
864 00:40:07 All right?
865 00:40:09 Your baby lived.
866 00:40:12 For whatever reason,miraculously, she's alive.
867 00:40:17 Now, Will, wouldn't Abby wantyou to be there for that child?
868 00:40:23 Now, why haven't yougone to your parents'?
869 00:40:26 Will, look at me.
870 00:40:28 Why haven't you seen that baby?
871 00:40:33 I think it would help you.
872 00:40:35 - Okay.- That's why you're out,
873 00:40:37 and that's why you'reseeing me, to get you there.
874 00:40:39 I, I think you're ready.
875 00:40:41 Okay.
876 00:40:45 I'm gonna go.
877 00:40:47 No, hang on, Will.Will, hang on.
878 00:40:49 No, I don't want youto leave yet. Let's...
879 00:40:51 That's not the right story. No.
880 00:40:53 I'm not really thehero of the story.
881 00:40:55 This is, traumais vicious, Will.
882 00:40:57 I'm sorry. You're very nice.
883 00:40:59 You're very nice.
884 00:41:01 I don't want tobe here anymore.
885 00:41:03 Look, just sitdown. We can...
886 00:41:05 Let me talk youthrough this.
887 00:41:06 Bye.
888 00:41:33 ♪ When the rain isblowing in your face ♪
889 00:41:40 ♪ And the whole worldis on your case ♪
890 00:41:47 ♪ I could offer youa warm embrace ♪
891 00:41:53 ♪ To make you feel my love ♪
892 00:41:57 To sayDylan Dempsey's childhood
893 00:41:59 was marked by deathand tragedy would be
894 00:42:01 the grossestof understatements,
895 00:42:03 and also a little bit douchey.
896 00:42:05 She was literally bornof death and tragedy.
897 00:42:09 Six months intoher little life,
898 00:42:11 her father startedlocking in the pattern.
899 00:42:15 And that was just the start.
900 00:42:21 Dylan lost her grandmawhen she was six.
901 00:42:26 ♪ The storms are ragingon the rolling sea ♪
902 00:42:33 ♪ And on thehighway of regret ♪
903 00:42:36 And her best friendwhen she was seven.
904 00:42:39 ♪ The winds of changeare blowing wild and free ♪
905 00:42:45 ♪ You ain't seennothing like me yet. ♪
906 00:42:51 Tell them I'm nice.
907 00:43:06 Come in.
908 00:43:13 How you feeling, kiddo?
909 00:43:16 I feel like my wholelife is gonna be
910 00:43:19 marked by death and tragedy.
911 00:43:22 She did notsay this, of course,
912 00:43:24 but if she could verbalizewhat she was feeling
913 00:43:26 at eight years old,she would've.
914 00:43:32 I crave a happy life, Grandpa.
915 00:43:35 I have a almostdesperate craving
916 00:43:37 for stability and happiness,
917 00:43:40 the way fat peoplecrave chocolate
918 00:43:42 or lost hikers crave rescue.
919 00:43:44 I want to live a big,great, fantastical life,
920 00:43:48 but I'm concerned that
921 00:43:50 the tragedythat seems to follow me,
922 00:43:52 the tragedy that birthed me
923 00:43:54 will prevent thatfrom ever happening.
924 00:43:56 And I don't knowif I can withstand
925 00:43:59 another body blow like this.
926 00:44:02 But what she really said was...
927 00:44:04 How you feeling, kiddo?
928 00:44:07 Are you gonna die, Grandpa?
929 00:44:10 Yes. I am.
930 00:44:15 Probably sooner thanyou'd like, kiddo...
931 00:44:19 if I'm being honest.
932 00:44:21 I'm gonna fight like hellto stick around for you
933 00:44:24 as long as possible,to prevent one more death
934 00:44:28 from coming anywherenear your doorstep.
935 00:44:31 I'm gonna get onthe fucking treadmill,
936 00:44:33 cut back on the red meat.
937 00:44:36 I'm gonna do my best.
938 00:44:38 Get you throughyour teenage years
939 00:44:40 without losingone more goddamn thing.
940 00:44:44 Gonna do it foryour mother and father.
941 00:44:47 I'm gonna do itfor your grandmother.
942 00:44:50 Most of all, I'm gonna doit for you, granddaughter.
943 00:44:55 I'm gonna squeezeout ten more years
944 00:44:57 from this decrepit old body,for you, my girl.
945 00:45:02 My angel.
946 00:45:04 Again, Irwinexpressed this all with...
947 00:45:07 No. No more dyingaround here, kiddo.
948 00:45:14 - Okay?- Okay.
949 00:45:28 The Dylan Dempseytransformation years.
950 00:45:31 The years brought puberty.
951 00:45:33 Puberty brought sexuality.
952 00:45:36 Sexuality brought angerand fear and confusion.
953 00:45:41 And when the smoke cleared,
954 00:45:42 where that sweetlittle girl once stood,
955 00:45:45 there remained only a woman
956 00:45:47 who scared the absoluteshit out of everyone.
957 00:45:50 ♪ You took a part of methat I really miss ♪
958 00:45:55 ♪ I keep asking myself how longit can go on like this ♪
959 00:46:01 ♪ You told yourself a lie ♪
960 00:46:04 ♪ That's all right, mama,I told myself one, too... ♪
961 00:46:11 Come in.
962 00:46:14 ♪ Still a millionmiles from you. ♪
963 00:46:16 Hey.
964 00:46:18 Hey. I'm going out.
965 00:46:21 With who?
966 00:46:22 Just with some friends.
967 00:46:25 Cigarettes.
968 00:46:27 Grandma used to sayit's a nasty habit
969 00:46:29 of people lighting littlefires under their noses.
970 00:46:33 Cool.
971 00:46:35 You aren't even gonna tryand hide them from me?
972 00:46:39 Aren't we bothbetter than that?
973 00:46:42 I don't know.
974 00:46:44 You hear Vermont'smade them illegal?
975 00:46:46 Remind me neverto go to Vermont.
976 00:46:54 - Can I have one?- No.
977 00:46:56 Just one?
978 00:46:59 No, these things will kill you.
979 00:47:07 Was hoping we couldtalk about college.
980 00:47:09 We talked about it last night.
981 00:47:13 - Didn't get very far.- Yes, we did.
982 00:47:15 We just didn't getwhere you wanted it to go.
983 00:47:18 I'm 21, Irwin.Give up on the dream.
984 00:47:20 I've almost saved enoughto get out of your hair.
985 00:47:23 I promise.
986 00:47:25 Promise you'llbe home by 11:00?
987 00:47:27 I'd rather not lie to you.
988 00:47:29 - Please lie to me.- I'll be home by 11:00.
989 00:47:34 Dylan.
990 00:47:39 Happy 21st, kiddo.
991 00:47:55 Some sugar.
992 00:47:57 Mwah.
993 00:48:03 Peace!
994 00:48:54 Hey.Hey, everyone.
995 00:48:56 We're PB&J.
996 00:48:59 Yeah!
997 00:49:01 Um...
998 00:49:03 Uh, this first songis kind of personal.
999 00:49:06 Um...
1000 00:49:08 My mom died21 years ago today, and...
1001 00:49:10 Take it off!
1002 00:49:17 They tell me she usedto listen to Bob Dylan.
1003 00:49:19 Show us your tits!
1004 00:49:28 Whatever.
1005 00:49:33 ♪ When the rain isblowing in your face ♪
1006 00:49:38 ♪ And the whole worldis on your case ♪
1007 00:49:44 ♪ I can offer youa warm embrace ♪
1008 00:49:48 ♪ To make you feel my love ♪
1009 00:49:54 ♪ When the evening shadowsand the stars appear ♪
1010 00:50:00 ♪ And there is no one thereto dry your tears ♪
1011 00:50:05 ♪ I could hold youfor a million years ♪
1012 00:50:10 ♪ To make you feel my love ♪
1013 00:50:17 ♪ I know you haven'tmade your mind up yet ♪
1014 00:50:21 ♪ But I would neverdo you wrong ♪
1015 00:50:25 ♪ I've known it fromthe moment that we met ♪
1016 00:50:29 ♪ There's no doubt in mymind where you belong ♪
1017 00:50:34 ♪ I'd go hungry,I'd go black and blue ♪
1018 00:50:37 ♪ I'd go crawlingdown the avenue ♪
1019 00:50:42 ♪ No, there's nothingthat I wouldn't do ♪
1020 00:50:46 ♪ To make you feel my love. ♪
1021 00:51:07 - Oh, shit.- Oh, shit.
1022 00:51:13 Hey!
1023 00:51:15 What the fuck?
1024 00:51:21 Hey!
1025 00:51:22 Hey, you owe mea new phone, bitch.
1026 00:51:27 Yeah. You're right, I'm sorry.
1027 00:51:29 That, uh...I shouldn't have done that.
1028 00:51:32 Uh, it's just beena really weird day for me.
1029 00:51:34 Um...
1030 00:51:36 Let me see what I have on me.Can you hold that a second?
1031 00:51:39 I'm so, so sorry.
1032 00:51:45 You think that's funny?You fucking filming me?!
1033 00:51:49 Dylan!
1034 00:51:51 I'm fine. I'm fine!
1035 00:51:53 I'm fine.
1036 00:52:50 The baby's a girl, Will.
1037 00:52:52 What?
1038 00:52:54 I know we weren'tgonna find out,
1039 00:52:57 but then the nurse slipped up,and now I feel shitty knowing.
1040 00:53:01 In about three weeks,you're gonna have a daughter.
1041 00:53:05 Actually, Daddy's gonnablow his brains out
1042 00:53:07 before he even meets me, so...
1043 00:53:09 Say something.
1044 00:53:11 I know what youwant to name her.
1045 00:53:13 I know you don'tlike his music...
1046 00:53:14 Might want to lookto your right, lady.
1047 00:53:16 I love it.
1048 00:53:17 - Big fan.- Mom.
1049 00:53:19 - I think it's pretty cute.- I think it's gonna be...
1050 00:53:21 Mom, Mom, look out!
1051 00:53:43 Are you okay?
1052 00:53:49 Does it matter?
1053 00:53:53 If Rodrigo Gonzalez
1054 00:53:54 had really beenthere that night,
1055 00:53:56 he might have toldthe stoned young woman
1056 00:53:58 sitting in front of him thatit mattered quite a bit to him
1057 00:54:01 that Dylan Dempsey was okay.
1058 00:55:03 Bueno. Bueno. Hombre.
1059 00:56:43 - No, sir.- No, right.
1060 00:57:10 No, señor.
1061 01:01:10 Ay, ay ay.
1062 01:06:26 At exactly this moment,
1063 01:06:28 a mere 4,000 miles away,
1064 01:06:30 Abby Dempsey,then Abby Lesher,
1065 01:06:33 had just finished the firstdraft of her college thesis.
1066 01:06:36 "But lifeitself proves to be
1067 01:06:38 "the most unreliableof narrators,
1068 01:06:40 "forever taking uson a journey
1069 01:06:41 "where it is impossibleto predict
1070 01:06:42 what might happen next.Life its..."
1071 01:06:45 Okay. This next part gets alittle flowery...
1072 01:06:47 Read, woman.
1073 01:06:48 I know, but I feellike it's getting away
1074 01:06:49 - from literary crit...- Read!
1075 01:06:51 Life itself tricks us.
1076 01:06:52 It misleads us.
1077 01:06:54 It paints one man a herowhen he may well be a villain.
1078 01:06:58 Hero or villain?
1079 01:07:00 Villain or hero?
1080 01:07:03 Or maybe neither.
1081 01:07:04 Maybe life is playing the role
1082 01:07:05 of unreliable tricksteryet again.
1083 01:07:08 Maybe those it paints
1084 01:07:09 as the heroes andvillains of our stories
1085 01:07:11 are actually just day playersin a much bigger movie.
1086 01:07:14 Maybe they're simply extras,
1087 01:07:16 filling the framesso the real heroes
1088 01:07:18 can have bodiescrossing in the background.
1089 01:07:23 And then it sort of saysthat over and over again...
1090 01:07:26 You...
1091 01:07:28 ...are so much smarter than me.
1092 01:07:30 I really am, aren't I?
1093 01:07:36 Abby's thesiswas a total disaster.
1094 01:07:39 Her favorite andmost trusted professor argued,
1095 01:07:42 as she feared he might,
1096 01:07:44 that she had strayedfrom literary criticism
1097 01:07:46 and had veered intoan unwieldy cross
1098 01:07:48 of creative writing and17th-century French philosophy.
1099 01:07:52 Then Abby's favoriteand most trusted professor
1100 01:07:55 tried to fuck her.
1101 01:07:57 Which, one might argue,proved Abby's thesis after all.
1102 01:08:09 A continent away,
1103 01:08:11 Javier González wasworried about none of this.
1104 01:08:16 Javier Gonzálezdidn't philosophize
1105 01:08:19 and he never wonderedwhat life had in store for him.
1106 01:08:23 Javier González knewwhere he was going.
1107 01:08:26 He'd known all along.
1108 01:08:36 Oh.
1109 01:08:44 Isabel Diazhad been taught from birth
1110 01:08:46 to expect a very average life.
1111 01:08:49 She was one of six sisters
1112 01:08:51 and was openly consideredto be the fourth prettiest.
1113 01:09:05 Bravo.
1114 01:09:17 Ooh.
1115 01:10:12 No, no.
1116 01:10:28 Una...
1117 01:10:29 Dos...
1118 01:10:31 - Y...- Y tres!
1119 01:12:01 America.
1120 01:12:08 Isabel couldno longer remember
1121 01:12:09 when Mr. Saccione first startedcoming over to visit Rodrigo.
1122 01:12:14 She only knew that the visitshad become more consistent,
1123 01:12:17 usually in themiddle of the day,
1124 01:12:19 always when Javierwas in the fields.
1125 01:12:37 - Si, si.- No, no, no.
1126 01:14:08 No!
1127 01:14:32 Javier Gonzálezwas a simple man,
1128 01:14:34 but not a stupid one.
1129 01:14:36 And that day,he began doing something
1130 01:14:38 he'd never done before:planning a family vacation.
1131 01:14:43 To a place thathe had just learned
1132 01:14:45 his son desperately wantedto visit with someone else.
1133 01:15:31 - Hello.- Hola.
1134 01:15:33 - Hola.- Hola.
1135 01:15:35 Hola. Hola.
1136 01:15:36 Hey, little guy. Look.
1137 01:15:40 Where'd it go? Look.
1138 01:15:42 - Whoa.- There it is.
1139 01:15:44 Where are you from?
1140 01:16:08 A pregnant womaneviscerated by a bus.
1141 01:16:13 A grown manweeping desperately.
1142 01:16:15 Bystanders screaming.
1143 01:16:19 It was only about20 seconds of footage,
1144 01:16:22 but it would replay on a loop
1145 01:16:24 in little Rodrigo González'sbrain for years to come.
1146 01:16:32 Mamá!
1147 01:17:26 Rigo!
1148 01:17:40 Mamá!
1149 01:17:53 - No!- Rigo.
1150 01:19:51 Hm-mm.
1151 01:20:32 Months passed.
1152 01:20:34 Mr. Saccione's visitswere no longer restricted.
1153 01:20:37 His gifts no longer withheld.
1154 01:20:39 Wow.
1155 01:20:42 Ooh. Hola, Oli.
1156 01:20:43 And now,in English.
1157 01:20:47 My name is...
1158 01:20:49 Rodrigo...
1159 01:20:51 González.
1160 01:20:53 But I like to be called Rod.
1161 01:20:56 - Or Rigo.- Yeah.
1162 01:20:59 Oh.
1163 01:21:00 I am from Spain.
1164 01:21:02 Keep going.
1165 01:21:04 I was sad
1166 01:21:06 for a long time.
1167 01:21:09 But my uncle got me a bird,
1168 01:21:12 which helps.
1169 01:25:11 Hola.
1170 01:27:07 If we'velearned anything by now,
1171 01:27:09 it's not to get attachedto new heroes.
1172 01:27:11 They tend to disappoint.
1173 01:27:14 But damn if littleRodrigo González
1174 01:27:17 didn't look likethe real deal.
1175 01:28:32 Rodrigo...
1176 01:29:16 Ay, ay, ay!
1177 01:29:44 Rigo.
1178 01:31:12 Rodrigo enteredcollege a visiting freshman,
1179 01:31:15 and as he'd been doing formost of the previous decade,
1180 01:31:18 he thrived.
1181 01:31:21 He lettered in two sports.
1182 01:31:24 ...proportional to the ratio...
1183 01:31:25 His marks wereat the very top of his class.
1184 01:31:31 He even embarkedon a relationship
1185 01:31:33 with a 20-somethingfrom Long Island
1186 01:31:35 named Shari Dickstein.
1187 01:31:43 She made him laugh...usually not intentionally.
1188 01:31:47 Oh, my God. You've neverbeen to Whole Foods?
1189 01:31:50 - No. But what is that?- Okay, I'll take you there.
1190 01:31:51 It's like a dream.It's like a...
1191 01:31:53 She wasn't his greatlove, but she was company.
1192 01:31:56 And great love wasn'this priority at the moment.
1193 01:31:58 ...clean eating, vegan dream.
1194 01:32:01 What's-what's vegan?
1195 01:32:03 Oh, my God, you're adorable.
1196 01:32:04 I love thatyou don't know things.
1197 01:32:07 He saved every dollar,
1198 01:32:09 coveted every vacation.
1199 01:32:11 Rodrigo Gonzálezhad an internal compass,
1200 01:32:14 and it always pointedin the same direction.
1201 01:32:19 - En Nueva York?- Si.
1202 01:32:29 - Shari?- Shari.
1203 01:32:30 Shari Distin.
1204 01:32:31 Shari Dickstein.
1205 01:32:42 - No.- Si. Si, si, si.
1206 01:32:44 Like so many ofthe biggest years of our lives,
1207 01:32:46 it flew by.
1208 01:32:47 But in truth,that year was just a setup,
1209 01:32:50 a preamble to the biggest dayof Rodrigo González's life.
1210 01:33:11 Where are you going?
1211 01:33:14 I'm just going for a quick run.
1212 01:33:17 - Miarma.- Huh?
1213 01:33:19 When we first started dating,you used to call me "Miarma."
1214 01:33:24 You would've said,
1215 01:33:26 "Just going fora quick run, Miarma."
1216 01:33:29 It always made me feel likeKelly Ripa.
1217 01:33:35 Shari...
1218 01:33:36 I'm pregnant.
1219 01:33:39 I know. Obvi,lots to talk about.
1220 01:33:43 Hey, will youtake me for brunch?
1221 01:33:45 There's this placeI really want to try.
1222 01:33:48 It's Vietnamese,which I'm assuming
1223 01:33:49 is kind of likedim sum or something.
1224 01:33:52 We can talk at brunch,at the Vietnamese place.
1225 01:33:54 I really want to try it.
1226 01:33:58 So, I just started feelingshitty a few weeks ago.
1227 01:34:01 I thought I was just gettinga really bad period.
1228 01:34:03 Ever since I got off the pill,
1229 01:34:04 I have been havingbananas periods, you know?
1230 01:34:07 But it wasn't stopping,so I went to my gyno,
1231 01:34:10 and he was like,"Are you sexually active?"
1232 01:34:12 So I told him about you,
1233 01:34:13 and then he did thetest thing and blammo!
1234 01:34:16 I hadn't even thoughtto try an at-home test.
1235 01:34:18 For whatever reason,
1236 01:34:20 my brain did not go therewhatso-fucking-ever.
1237 01:34:22 Anyways, I know that we haven'tbeen together very long,
1238 01:34:25 and clearly this is as"what the fuck" as things get.
1239 01:34:27 I mean, I don't know what yourdeal is with religious stuff,
1240 01:34:30 but I'm thinking that I shouldprobably just get an abortion.
1241 01:34:35 Are you, like, are you, like,super against that? Abortion?
1242 01:34:38 I know abortion's a reallybig deal for Christians.
1243 01:34:41 There should, like, be,like, a pill or something
1244 01:34:44 for something like this,like, unplanned pregnancy.
1245 01:34:46 'Cause if you'reChristian, I'm...
1246 01:34:49 Anyhow, we don't have todecide any of this right now,
1247 01:34:51 but I would liketo make the call early,
1248 01:34:53 just beforethe thing has, like,
1249 01:34:54 a head and stuff, you know?
1250 01:34:55 Oh, hey, there we are!
1251 01:35:05 So, the way I see it,we have, like, three options.
1252 01:35:09 Option one: we have it.
1253 01:35:11 I mean, a mixed-race baby
1254 01:35:12 with our skin complexionswould be amazeballs.
1255 01:35:15 My family have batshit money,
1256 01:35:17 so we could getnannies and stuff.
1257 01:35:20 I don't know,it's probably a bad idea.
1258 01:35:22 Option two: abort.But again, I would like to make
1259 01:35:25 that call soonerrather than later.
1260 01:35:27 Or option three:we can just both agree
1261 01:35:31 that this is allan insane April Fools' joke!
1262 01:35:34 Ah!
1263 01:35:37 What?
1264 01:35:39 April Fools', bitch!
1265 01:35:41 Wh-What is that?
1266 01:35:43 Seriously?You don't know April Fools'?
1267 01:35:45 No, I don't.
1268 01:35:47 Well, I didn't know that.
1269 01:35:50 So there is no baby?
1270 01:35:52 Dude! Ew, no.
1271 01:35:54 Of course not.
1272 01:35:56 Oh, come on.
1273 01:35:58 You have to admit, that was,that was pretty funny.
1274 01:36:03 Shari...
1275 01:36:08 Oh, fuck.
1276 01:36:12 You're gonna break upwith me, aren't you?
1277 01:36:14 He was.
1278 01:36:16 Yes, I am.I'm-I'm sorry...
1279 01:36:17 Obviously,nothing thus far
1280 01:36:19 had indicatedthat this would be
1281 01:36:20 the most important dayof Rodrigo's life.
1282 01:36:23 No.
1283 01:36:25 Sometimes the most importantdays of our lives begin,
1284 01:36:28 and we're not eventhere to see it.
1285 01:37:07 Isabel.
1286 01:37:40 No.
1287 01:38:01 Hola, Bella.
1288 01:38:12 Mr. Saccionewas a letter writer.
1289 01:38:14 He always had been.
1290 01:38:16 He believed in the powerof the written word,
1291 01:38:19 the force ofactually sitting down
1292 01:38:21 and writingto someone by hand.
1293 01:38:49 And with that,Mr. Saccione's letters
1294 01:38:51 found a new recipient.
1295 01:38:54 A man whose only requestwas that he be kept up to date
1296 01:38:57 on those he had abandonedbut still cherished.
1297 01:39:38 Hola, Bella.
1298 01:40:02 Hola.
1299 01:40:05 Hola.
1300 01:41:52 When critics reviewedAbby Dempsey's favorite album,
1301 01:41:56 Bob Dylan's 1997 release,"Time Out of Mind,"
1302 01:41:59 the song"Make You Feel My Love"
1303 01:42:01 was a sourceof much criticism.
1304 01:42:08 Every track on the album
1305 01:42:10 brimmed with unrelentingmelancholy and sadness.
1306 01:42:15 But there,smack in the middle of it all,
1307 01:42:19 sat an unabashedlypopulist hit song,
1308 01:42:22 a love song...
1309 01:42:24 a song that in yearsto come would be covered
1310 01:42:26 by Garth Brooks, of all people.
1311 01:42:29 Critics argued that puttingan on-the-nose love song
1312 01:42:32 in the middle of an albumabout despair and tragedy
1313 01:42:35 was Dylan's only misstep.
1314 01:42:38 Others arguedthat it was his point.
1315 01:42:41 Are you okay?
1316 01:42:54 Hola.
1317 01:43:04 My father,Rodrigo González,
1318 01:43:06 officially met my mother,Dylan Dempsey, that day...
1319 01:43:10 the most importantday of his life.
1320 01:43:13 Hi.
1321 01:43:14 They would notspend a single night apart
1322 01:43:18 for the next 42 years.
1323 01:43:21 They would go onto have four children,
1324 01:43:24 seven grandchildren.
1325 01:43:28 A love story for the ages.
1326 01:43:31 My grandmother, Abby Dempsey,
1327 01:43:34 argued in herfailed college thesis
1328 01:43:36 that life itself is ourmost unreliable narrator.
1329 01:43:42 She argued that no one knowswhere their story is going,
1330 01:43:47 nor who the heroesin it are going to be.
1331 01:43:52 And while it's true that lifehas often made it difficult
1332 01:43:56 to pinpoint the heroesof my family's story,
1333 01:43:58 my parents have always madeit incredibly easy for me.
1334 01:44:05 They found the onepopulist love song
1335 01:44:08 in our family's oftenvery melancholy album.
1336 01:44:12 Unlike my grandmother Abby,
1337 01:44:14 my grandmother Isabelwas neither a writer
1338 01:44:17 nor a philosopher.
1339 01:44:19 But sometimes I wonderif she didn't understand
1340 01:44:21 exactly what Bob Dylanwas going for.
1341 01:44:26 Spanish does not oftentranslate perfectly,
1342 01:44:29 but what Isabel saidto my father
1343 01:44:31 the day she sent him away,it required no translation.
1344 01:44:35 Mamá...
1345 01:44:40 Enough.
1346 01:44:45 Listen to me.
1347 01:44:47 Rigo, you have had manyups and downs in your life.
1348 01:44:53 Too many.
1349 01:44:57 And you will have more.
1350 01:45:00 This is life.
1351 01:45:03 And this is what it does.
1352 01:45:06 Life brings you to your knees.
1353 01:45:13 It brings you lowerthan you think you can go.
1354 01:45:20 But if you stand back up...
1355 01:45:24 and move forward...
1356 01:45:29 if you go justa little farther...
1357 01:45:35 you will always find love.
1358 01:45:44 I found love in you.
1359 01:45:50 And my life, my story,
1360 01:45:54 it will continueafter I'm gone.
1361 01:45:58 Because you are my story.
1362 01:46:05 You are your father's story.
1363 01:46:09 Your uncle's.
1364 01:46:16 Rigo, my body fails me.
1365 01:46:22 But you are me.
1366 01:46:29 So you go now.
1367 01:46:34 Give me a beautiful life.
1368 01:46:39 The most beautiful life ever.
1369 01:46:43 Yeah?
1370 01:46:47 And if life bringsus to our knees...
1371 01:46:54 you stand us back up.
1372 01:47:01 You get up.
1373 01:47:04 And go farther.
1374 01:47:11 And find us the love.
1375 01:47:15 Will you do that?
1376 01:47:34 I'm not sure whosestory I have been telling.
1377 01:47:38 I'm not sure if it is mine,
1378 01:47:40 or if it's some character'sI have yet to meet.
1379 01:47:45 I'm not sure of anything.
1380 01:47:47 All I know is that,at any moment,
1381 01:47:52 life will surprise me.
1382 01:47:55 It will bring me to my knees.
1383 01:47:59 And when it does,
1384 01:48:01 I will remind myself...
1385 01:48:04 I will remind myself
1386 01:48:06 that I am my father.
1387 01:48:12 And I am my father's father.
1388 01:48:16 I am my mother.
1389 01:48:18 And I am my mother's mother.
1390 01:48:24 And while it may be easy
1391 01:48:26 to wallow in the tragediesthat shape our lives,
1392 01:48:30 and while it's naturalto focus on those
1393 01:48:32 unspeakable momentsthat bring us to our knees,
1394 01:48:38 we must remind ourselves
1395 01:48:39 that if we get up,
1396 01:48:42 if we take the storya little bit farther...
1397 01:48:56 If we go far enough,
1398 01:49:00 there's love.
1399 01:49:05 Hey.
1400 01:49:09 Hey.
1401 01:49:11 Goddamn.
