纽约唯一活着的男孩 The Only Living Boy in New York(EN)Subtitles
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1 00:00:41 In the 20th century,
2 00:00:43 if you wanted to know your neighbors,
3 00:00:44 you moved to the suburbs.
4 00:00:46 If you wanted to become an addict,
5 00:00:48 you moved to New York.
6 00:00:52 The junkies are in the burbs,
7 00:00:54 and the building next door is a fucking kickball league.
8 00:00:58 It was art against commerce, and commerce won.
9 00:01:02 The kids think the only place to find art is in a gallery
10 00:01:05 and the only place to find romance
11 00:01:07 is confessing your love in the rain,
12 00:01:10 like in the movies.
13 00:01:11 But it's messier than that.
14 00:01:13 Well, there's always mess.
15 00:01:17 It's safe here now, but there's still urban decay.
16 00:01:21 It's just migrated into the dinner parties
17 00:01:23 of the upper West Side.
18 00:01:26 The best lack all conviction,
19 00:01:28 while the worst are filled with passionate intensity.
20 00:01:32 Yeats said that, but so did Lou Reed,
21 00:01:35 quoting him live at the bottom line.
22 00:01:38 Lou Reed's gone, and so is the bottom line.
23 00:01:42 It's probably a soulcycle--
24 00:01:45 the only soul the city has left.
25 00:01:48 Everyone's pretending it's all okay,
26 00:01:51 but that's a lie.
27 00:01:53 Something's missing, and we all feel it.
28 00:01:56 Including Thomas webb.
29 00:01:59 He thought he had the answer and her name was Mimi.
30 00:02:05 1976. The city wasdirty, crime-ridden and broke.
31 00:02:10 It was the centerof the creative universe.
32 00:02:13 New York's lost its soul.
33 00:02:15 The most vibrant neighborhoodat the moment is Philadelphia.
34 00:02:20 I like that.
35 00:02:21 -Yeah?-Yeah.
36 00:02:23 Where'd you lift that from?
37 00:02:24 I didn't. It's mine.
38 00:02:26 Well, it's good.
39 00:02:28 So, will you comewith me tonight?
40 00:02:32 No. Your mom's last dinnerparty made me feel invisible.
41 00:02:35 I know, but we wereinvisible together.
42 00:02:38 If you don't like it,then you don't go.
43 00:02:40 I have to go.My mother's unstable.
44 00:02:42 Throwing dinner partiesis how she medicates.
45 00:02:44 Yeah, so what aboutthe lithium and Xanax?
46 00:02:46 Not to mentionthe nicotine and shiraz.
47 00:02:50 Semantics.
48 00:02:55 I have to tell you something.
49 00:02:57 -Yeah?-Yeah.
50 00:02:59 I...
51 00:03:01 Might be going to zagreb.
52 00:03:05 -Where?-Zagreb.
53 00:03:07 It's in Croatia.
54 00:03:09 So, Helmut graph,he runs a workshop there,
55 00:03:12 and I found out that I cantransfer my credits to nyu.
56 00:03:16 That's, um...
57 00:03:18 That's...
58 00:03:21 Terrible.
59 00:03:23 Why?
60 00:03:26 No, why is that terrible?
61 00:03:28 Because you're the only thingin my life that I'm settled on.
62 00:03:30 Thomas, what do you thinkis happening?
63 00:03:33 Between me and you,what do you think this is?
64 00:03:35 August 8. August 8.I think August 8 was real.
65 00:03:38 It was amazing.
66 00:03:40 But it was just one night.
67 00:03:43 I mean, Nick was playing L.A.
68 00:03:45 I was vulnerable.
69 00:03:47 We were both on Molly.
70 00:03:49 I-i thought I was a pirate.
71 00:03:55 And it was just one night.
72 00:03:57 Well, I'm crazy about you.
73 00:04:00 -I'm crazy about you, but...-But don't say "as friends."
74 00:04:03 Why? Why is that so bad?
75 00:04:05 Because pretty girls liketo recruit their rejections
76 00:04:07 and then call them friends.
77 00:04:11 Wow.
78 00:04:38 For Mimi, Thomas was like the new New York--
79 00:04:42 no danger, no deliverance.
80 00:04:45 It made him nurturing
81 00:04:47 and too boring to fall in love with.
82 00:04:50 Mimi thought Thomas was a boy without mystery.
83 00:04:54 Thomas agreed.
84 00:04:55 But all that was about to change.
85 00:05:22 Anything worth opening?
86 00:05:26 Just bills and junk.
87 00:05:30 W.F.
88 00:05:33 W.F. Gerald.
89 00:05:34 I just moved into 2-b.
90 00:05:37 Thomas webb.
91 00:05:40 Why so troubled, Thomas?
92 00:05:42 Excuse me?
93 00:05:44 I know that color of stress.
94 00:05:46 It's much brighterthan job issues,
95 00:05:48 more subduedthan possible disease.
96 00:05:52 Ah.
97 00:05:53 Sorry, I'm being rude.
98 00:05:55 No, I mean...
99 00:05:58 I'm having a bad day.
100 00:05:59 Oh.
101 00:06:01 What's her name?
102 00:06:05 It's Mimi.
103 00:06:08 Ah, Mimi.
104 00:06:09 Derived from williamina.
105 00:06:11 It means "resolute protector."
106 00:06:15 There you go.
107 00:06:16 What, uh...
108 00:06:19 What is it that you likeabout this Mimi?
109 00:06:21 You a psychiatrist?
110 00:06:24 No.
111 00:06:25 You ask psychiatrist questions.
112 00:06:27 Maybe I can help.
113 00:06:29 Maybe I can help youget Mimi to sleep with you.
114 00:06:34 How do you knowshe hasn't already?
115 00:06:49 It's nice meeting you.
116 00:06:51 Yeah.
117 00:06:54 Well, why don't you let a newneighbor help you out, hmm?
118 00:07:01 What do you like about Mimi?
119 00:07:06 I'm in 2-b!
120 00:07:41 Where did you meet her?
121 00:07:43 There's this bookstorecalled the pale fire.
122 00:07:47 -Yeah.-It's named after John sh...
123 00:07:49 John shade's 999-line poem.
124 00:07:53 Nabokov.
125 00:07:55 Right. Well... they sellrare vintage books in there,
126 00:07:58 and I'm into that, justreading off the beaten path,
127 00:08:00 and Mimi works there.
128 00:08:02 She gave methe greatest recommendations.
129 00:08:05 You know?
130 00:08:06 She's putting herselfthrough nyu's writing program.
131 00:08:08 She reads a book a week.She's...
132 00:08:10 Polishing her brain.
133 00:08:12 Huh.
134 00:08:14 Beautiful?
135 00:08:16 - Incredibly beautiful.
136 00:08:19 -Like she's direct from god,you know? -Mm.
137 00:08:22 Not second generation,if that makes sense.
138 00:08:24 Complete sense.
139 00:08:26 You know, we get each other.
140 00:08:30 Problem was--
141 00:08:33 is-- that she hasthis boyfriend.
142 00:08:37 Nick, and he's in that band,fahrenheit 185.
143 00:08:41 The exact temperature it takesto cook heroin.
144 00:08:46 Properly.
145 00:08:51 Eh, let's see what we got.
146 00:08:59 --Yeah.
147 00:09:03 Anyway, so, Nick goes on tour.
148 00:09:07 Mimi's now available, andwe're hanging out more, and...
149 00:09:11 We end up spending...
150 00:09:14 A magical night together.
151 00:09:15 -Mm.-August 8.
152 00:09:18 And then... nothing.
153 00:09:22 All goes platonic.
154 00:09:25 How old is Mimi?
155 00:09:27 She's... 22.She just turned 22.
156 00:09:30 She's young, you know?
157 00:09:32 She's at an age where defensemechanisms are very strong.
158 00:09:37 Despite her outer veneer,she's ruled by fear.
159 00:09:41 Like so many of usat that time, you know.
160 00:09:44 What you need to do,
161 00:09:46 mm, just make her afraidof something more
162 00:09:49 than being with youin that way.
163 00:09:52 Which is?
164 00:09:55 Mm, not being with you.
165 00:09:58 But how?
166 00:10:01 How am I supposed to do that?
167 00:10:03 Mm... let life take over.
168 00:10:08 Uh, find a window, then pounce.
169 00:10:14 That's it?
170 00:10:15 That's your Sageneighborly advice?
171 00:10:17 --Can I have my money back?
172 00:10:19 Thomas...
173 00:10:21 -Is it Thomas or tom?-It's Thomas.
174 00:10:23 Not Tommy?
175 00:10:24 -No, never, never.-No? Ah, Thomas.
176 00:10:27 You're not giving lifeenough credit.
177 00:10:29 The unpredictable forcesof humanity.
178 00:10:31 -My life is not unpredictable.-Life is as much a dream
179 00:10:33 -as it is a nightmare.-My life is conventional.
180 00:10:35 -My life is boring.-No.
181 00:10:36 It's as randomas it is deliberate.
182 00:10:41 You know, as funnyas it is tragic.
183 00:10:46 Yours is no exception.
184 00:10:48 I got to piss.
185 00:10:56 Dinner parties were Judith's safety blanket.
186 00:10:59 A tableful of artists took her mind off herself.
187 00:11:02 The swirl of distraction, seating plans,
188 00:11:05 gossip, food--
189 00:11:07 anything to keep away the dread.
190 00:11:09 They were the perfect antidote to her childhood dinners.
191 00:11:13 The silences, the drunken outbursts.
192 00:11:15 Artists came to New York from all over,
193 00:11:17 and she always took them in, clinging to the illusion
194 00:11:20 of an open, happy family.
195 00:11:23 Do you miss getting muggedon central park west
196 00:11:25 - while walking your dog?- Exactly. Exactly.
197 00:11:26 No, but I do missthe 2nd Avenue deli.
198 00:11:30 -Uh-huh.-I miss the lenox lounge.
199 00:11:32 I mean, do you know what arein those iconic places now?
200 00:11:35 Urban outfitters,
201 00:11:36 -a Starbucks...-Star...
202 00:11:38 There's a John Varvatoswhere cbgb's used to be.
203 00:11:40 --New York's lost its soul.
204 00:11:44 What was that, Thomas?
205 00:11:46 Well, I was just agreeingwith David
206 00:11:48 that New Yorkhas lost its soul.
207 00:11:51 Ever since he returnedfrom three months in Peru,
208 00:11:53 he's decided to hatewhere he's from.
209 00:11:54 No, it's true.
210 00:11:56 New York's most vibrantneighborhood at the moment
211 00:11:58 is Philadelphia.
212 00:12:02 That's very funny, Thomas.
213 00:12:04 So, uh, Ethan, I heard thatyou've commissioned Nick bilton
214 00:12:07 to write the biographyon Evan douriff.
215 00:12:09 Our mandate at kentais very simple--
216 00:12:11 BIOS on any haircut under 40
217 00:12:13 as long as they're stillwithin their 15 minutes.
218 00:12:15 Self-help, political rants.
219 00:12:17 Nobody reads fiction anymore.
220 00:12:19 And once a writer.
221 00:12:21 - So cynical, Ethan webb.- -I know. -
222 00:12:24 if I were a writer, we'd behaving this conversation
223 00:12:27 in a two-bedroom in bushwick.
224 00:12:28 Oh, that's true.-Bushwick is expensive now.
225 00:12:30 --Yeah, exactly.
226 00:12:32 I'm serious.I'm really serious.
227 00:12:33 I mean,most novelists these days,
228 00:12:35 they don't earn enough moneyto support themselves.
229 00:12:38 -True. -No matterhow talented they are.
230 00:12:40 That's why if Thomas came to mewith a desire to be a writer,
231 00:12:43 well... I'd talk him out of it.
232 00:12:47 So, you're stilltutoring, right?
233 00:12:50 Yeah. Just for some extra cash.
234 00:12:52 - He could be a Spanishteacher. - Yes, he could.
235 00:12:54 I don't know if I could bea Spanish teacher.
236 00:12:56 If he went back to collegefor a year.
237 00:12:58 For some reason,he refuses to do it.
238 00:13:00 He lives on the lower east sidewithout any direction.
239 00:13:03 The only thing missingis an opium habit.
240 00:13:05 What aboutdoing a smartphone application?
241 00:13:48 This man moved inacross the hall from me.
242 00:13:50 I don't know what he doesor who he is, but...
243 00:13:53 He seems familiar to me.
244 00:13:55 He's my new friend.
245 00:13:56 -Aw.-Yeah.
246 00:13:58 -He asked about you.-Me?
247 00:14:00 -Mm-hmm.-He knows me?
248 00:14:09 What's my father doing here?
249 00:14:15 Who's he with?
250 00:14:17 I don't know.
251 00:14:21 She's beautiful.
252 00:14:52 Do you have any idea
253 00:14:54 what this is gonna doto my mother?
254 00:14:57 This doesn't meanyour father loves you any less.
255 00:15:03 -Sorry. That was bad.-That was.
256 00:15:06 I know, like dispensing therapyfrom an after-school special.
257 00:15:09 He doesn't care about meto begin with, I know that.
258 00:15:12 This...
259 00:15:15 This is about my mother.
260 00:15:17 Yeah, but...It's their problem.
261 00:15:19 You have your own problems.
262 00:15:20 Like what?
263 00:15:22 -Uh...-Actually, don't.
264 00:15:24 --Don't answer that. Not now.
265 00:15:26 --Thomas.
266 00:15:30 Look at me.
267 00:15:31 Look, your parents,
268 00:15:35 their worldis nothing like ours.
269 00:15:41 I mean, maybeit's their generation or...
270 00:15:45 I don't know-- this island.
271 00:15:50 But you're kind.
272 00:15:52 And you're real.
273 00:16:10 Don't do that.
274 00:16:19 I mean, look, you're young,
275 00:16:22 and your defense mechanismsare strong.
276 00:16:24 But I think that you want this.
277 00:16:26 -I really do.-I think...
278 00:16:28 I think that you're confusedright now.
279 00:16:29 No, Mimi, I'm angry right now.
280 00:16:32 I'm angry.
281 00:16:34 Did you see that woman? Didyou see how beautiful she was?
282 00:16:38 I could never get a womanlike that.
283 00:16:40 But my father,with his publishing house
284 00:16:42 and his-his good looksand his-his cheating...
285 00:16:45 -Fucking hair.-Wow.
286 00:16:47 So, what, you're gonna useyour father's affair
287 00:16:50 as a confirmationof your own inadequacies?
288 00:16:56 No, Mimi.
289 00:17:00 I have you for that.
290 00:17:05 So, you call my office,you say you want to have lunch.
291 00:17:09 You never want to have lunch.
292 00:17:11 I figured you hada big surprise.
293 00:17:13 Maybe you've figured outyour life.
294 00:17:15 No. Definitely haven'tfigured out my life.
295 00:17:17 -Mm. Bruce. -I wantedto speak to you about...
296 00:17:19 -Thank you for the tickets.-Good-good to see you.
297 00:17:21 -Well, of course. Any time.-Oh, she enjoyed the show.
298 00:17:23 -Judith. Very much. -It was...It was good, wasn't it?
299 00:17:25 -Yeah, it was great.-Great. Say hi to Judith.
300 00:17:26 I will, indeed. All right.
301 00:17:28 I want you to movefrom the lower east side.
302 00:17:32 Why do you insist on livingin the farthest corner
303 00:17:35 of Manhattan away from us?
304 00:17:37 I think it's intentional.
305 00:17:39 I think it's almost... hurtful.
306 00:17:43 Look...
307 00:17:46 I'm not asking for me.
308 00:17:47 I'm asking for your mother.
309 00:17:50 She wants you closer to home.
310 00:17:52 How is mom?
311 00:17:56 Better.
312 00:17:58 I guess.
313 00:18:02 Can't get her to quit smoking.
314 00:18:04 Well, she's fragile.
315 00:18:06 Anything, eventhe smallest thing, could...
316 00:18:08 Create another... incident.
317 00:18:19 I'll pay the differencein rent.
318 00:18:21 Hmm?
319 00:18:25 Will you think about it?
320 00:18:27 -Dad...-Also, I set up an appointment
321 00:18:29 with a career counselorfor you.
322 00:18:31 My office will e-mail youthe info.
323 00:18:33 Dad, I know you're...I-i know...
324 00:18:35 You know I'm what, Thomas?
325 00:18:39 I know you're justtrying to help.
326 00:18:42 Don't blow it off, okay?
327 00:18:44 -I had to call in a favorfor her to see you. -All right.
328 00:18:46 She actually hasa waiting list.
329 00:18:50 Are you gonna confront your father?
330 00:18:52 No. Trouble talking to him.
331 00:18:55 Why?
332 00:18:57 I don't thinkhe likes me that much.
333 00:19:01 What, uh...
334 00:19:04 What exactly is wrongwith your mother?
335 00:19:07 I don't know.She's depressed, bipolar.
336 00:19:10 She's a depressive bipolar.
337 00:19:13 She came froma broken home, so...
338 00:19:17 Whenever anything threatensour perfect family,
339 00:19:19 she completely unravels.
340 00:19:24 I can't tell her.She'll be destroyed.
341 00:19:29 Why don't you furnishthis place, hmm?
342 00:19:32 I live in Brooklyn.
343 00:19:36 You have two apartments?
344 00:19:38 I'm rich.
345 00:19:40 I'm a fucking Duke.
346 00:19:50 Or maybe he's...Been faithful all these years.
347 00:19:54 Maybe she came on to him.I've seen her.
348 00:19:56 -She's irresistible. I mean...-Uh, stop.
349 00:20:00 What do you want?
350 00:20:02 -I want my father to stopseeing this woman. -No, no, no.
351 00:20:04 No, in life.
352 00:20:07 In your life.
353 00:20:10 You want more money?
354 00:20:12 You want more respect?
355 00:20:14 You know?
356 00:20:16 What is it that you want?
357 00:20:19 Think about it.
358 00:20:21 Really think about it.
359 00:20:24 I want to be better.
360 00:20:26 -Better?-Mm.
361 00:20:28 Than what?
362 00:20:36 Than them.
363 00:20:38 In the '80s, Ethan was intoxicated
364 00:20:41 by literary New York.
365 00:20:44 But when he accepted that he lacked the talent
366 00:20:46 to create a fictional family,
367 00:20:47 he thought at least he could create a real one.
368 00:20:50 Young Thomas loved to write.
369 00:20:53 Ethan ignored this,
370 00:20:55 wary of nurturing a life of rejections and evictions,
371 00:20:59 and Thomas learned to keep his stories to himself.
372 00:21:02 The intensity of Judith's bond with her son
373 00:21:05 left Ethan feeling like a stranger in his own home.
374 00:21:09 He sought refuge in work,
375 00:21:11 until publishing began its slow decline.
376 00:21:15 Then... came Johanna.
377 00:21:18 You know, private detectivesget paid by the hour.
378 00:21:21 To just-just wait.
379 00:21:23 To do exactly what we're doingright now.
380 00:21:25 I mean, what is the difficultyin a stakeout?
381 00:21:30 I really got to go to class.
382 00:21:32 No, just wait, all right?
383 00:21:33 He'll be out in a minute.
384 00:21:36 I have to seeif he's gonna meet her again.
385 00:21:39 Please, just wait.
386 00:21:44 Okay.
387 00:21:51 Oh, my god, that's her.
388 00:21:52 The other woman.
389 00:21:56 I'll call you later.
390 00:21:57 Wait, are we waitingfor your dad?
391 00:21:59 I'll call you later.
392 00:23:43 What is it, exactly, that you want to accomplish?
393 00:23:47 I want to meet her.
394 00:23:50 And tell herto stop seeing my father.
395 00:23:52 She could kill my mother.
396 00:23:54 Well, so do it.
397 00:23:58 I haven't built upthe courage yet.
398 00:24:00 Mm.
399 00:24:02 So you stalk her, huh?
400 00:24:04 I shouldn't be dealingwith this at all.
401 00:24:06 - I should be on a beach...
402 00:24:09 With Mimi...
403 00:24:11 Naked...
404 00:24:14 In Croatia.
405 00:24:18 We should be together together.
406 00:24:20 "Should" is a dangerous word.
407 00:24:21 I'm serious, man.
408 00:24:24 If it wasn't for my mother,i wouldn't be here.
409 00:24:28 I don't buy it.
410 00:24:32 You don't buy what?
411 00:24:35 I don't buy that this is justabout your mother's health.
412 00:24:39 You want something more here.
413 00:24:41 Something more what?
414 00:24:44 Provocative.
415 00:24:59 Excuse me.
416 00:25:01 - Excuse me.- -Yes.
417 00:25:03 Y-you don't know who I am.
418 00:25:05 Yes, I do.
419 00:25:07 You do?
420 00:25:08 You're the boy who follows me.
421 00:25:10 Yeah, well,i have a good reason.
422 00:25:11 You're also Ethan's son.
423 00:25:14 He keeps a picture of youon his desk.
424 00:25:19 Are you hungry, Thomas?
425 00:25:31 Following someone in this cityhas got to be very difficult.
426 00:25:34 It's so easyto be anonymous here.
427 00:25:37 Why didn't you say anythingwhen I was following you?
428 00:25:39 Why didn't you say anything?
429 00:25:41 Because I didn't knowwhat I was gonna do.
430 00:25:43 -And do you now?-Yes.
431 00:25:45 Is it good?
432 00:25:51 -Johanna.-Johanna?
433 00:25:54 Yeah, I'm Johanna.
434 00:25:56 Okay, Johanna, how longyou been fucking my father?
435 00:25:58 Is that kind of vulgarityentirely necessary here?
436 00:26:01 What kind of vulgaritywould you prefer?
437 00:26:05 A little bit over a year.
438 00:26:07 Why are you even seeing him?He's married.
439 00:26:10 He is married.
440 00:26:14 -Do you work with him?-Sometimes.
441 00:26:17 I'm a freelance editor,so I work for all the houses.
442 00:26:23 Do you love him?
443 00:26:25 Define love, Thomas.
444 00:26:28 Do you thinkthat you're gonna marry him?
445 00:26:30 Is that the plan? You thinkyou're gonna steal him away
446 00:26:33 from my mother?
447 00:26:34 How do you know your motherisn't giving him to me?
448 00:26:37 What's that supposed to mean?
449 00:26:39 I mean that people do thingsall the time without realizing.
450 00:26:43 Your mother may be giving meEthan without comprehending it.
451 00:26:48 I mean, you're doing somethingright now without realizing it.
452 00:26:52 Yeah? And what am I doing?
453 00:26:54 You're tryingto make love to me.
454 00:26:56 I'm trying to make love to you?
455 00:26:58 I'm tryingto make love to you?
456 00:27:02 You just don't realize it.
457 00:27:07 Andy warhol wasa close, personal friend,
458 00:27:09 and he gave us that pieceas a gift.
459 00:27:12 And now this goddamn committeeis going to take all that away.
460 00:27:16 Mom, it doesn't really matter.
461 00:27:17 These people,these non-entities in Chelsea,
462 00:27:19 they're tryingto steal my past.
463 00:27:21 -They're trying toerase my memories. -Mom.
464 00:27:24 We're gonna find the photo.
465 00:27:28 Look at this mess.
466 00:27:32 I need a cigarette.
467 00:27:35 But your father has declared
468 00:27:37 I'm no longer allowedto smoke in the house, so...
469 00:27:40 --All right, well, I'llstay here and keep searching.
470 00:27:46 Thomas, I want to smoke andtalk to you at the same time.
471 00:27:50 -It makes the cigarette better.-Okay.
472 00:27:53 Thank you.
473 00:27:57 It's just this perpetual cycle
474 00:28:00 of expectationsand disappointments.
475 00:28:05 You know?
476 00:28:06 The farthest distancein the world
477 00:28:09 is between how it is and howyou thought it was gonna be.
478 00:28:13 Don't forget that.
479 00:28:16 I won't.
480 00:28:20 You're my light, Thomas.
481 00:28:24 You know?
482 00:28:26 I don't know what I'd dowithout you.
483 00:28:32 It's this klonopin.
484 00:28:35 -Makes me so fucking emotional.-You're fine.
485 00:28:44 I want youto stop seeing my father.
486 00:28:46 Oh, hello, Thomas.
487 00:28:48 Look, you'rea very beautiful woman.
488 00:28:49 You can get any manyou want in this city.
489 00:28:51 Could I get you?
490 00:28:53 --What?
491 00:28:55 You said I can get any manin this city.
492 00:28:57 So I'm asking, could I get you?
493 00:29:01 Which actually begsanother question, really.
494 00:29:03 Are you a man?
495 00:29:05 My mother's in a fragile state.
496 00:29:06 This affair could put herover the top.
497 00:29:08 -How am I responsible for yourmother? -Because you're fucking
498 00:29:10 -my father. -Okay, we knowthat crudeness doesn't
499 00:29:12 -make one a man.-Stop seeing him.
500 00:29:13 Nor do demands.
501 00:29:14 I'm not trying to be a man.
502 00:29:16 I'm not tryingto make love to you.
503 00:29:17 I'm trying to save my mother.
504 00:29:20 You're getting closer.
505 00:29:30 Johanna wasn't raised by writers.
506 00:29:32 She was raised by bankers.
507 00:29:35 But the lingua franca of both is fiction.
508 00:29:38 When Ethan floated the idea of leaving his wife,
509 00:29:41 she assumed it was just talk.
510 00:29:44 But to her surprise, his suggestion unbalanced her.
511 00:29:50 Instead of feeling flattered, she felt suddenly needy.
512 00:29:55 Thomas's attention was the perfect remedy
513 00:29:58 to her rattled confidence.
514 00:30:00 Those visions of Johanna.
515 00:30:03 She's not like anyoneI've ever met.
516 00:30:07 She said I was tryingto make love to her.
517 00:30:10 Oh. Were you?
518 00:30:13 No, I want her to stopseeing my father.
519 00:30:18 Isn't that betweenyou and your father?
520 00:30:20 Why-why would youwant to make contact with her?
521 00:30:24 She's an outsider to what seemsto me to be a family issue.
522 00:30:28 Eat that.
523 00:30:32 -Uh-huh.-It's good.
524 00:30:34 What was it?
525 00:30:36 You don't want to know.
526 00:30:38 So what are you saying, that...I like dealing with her?
527 00:30:42 Uh-huh. That's preciselywhat I'm saying.
528 00:30:44 And that I wantto make love to her.
529 00:30:46 Would you liketo make love to her?
530 00:30:48 No.
531 00:30:50 What kind ofa question is that?
532 00:30:52 -It's sick.-How is that sick?
533 00:30:54 It's sick.
534 00:30:56 She's a beautiful woman.
535 00:30:57 -So?-Her name is Johanna.
536 00:30:59 She's sleeping with my father.
537 00:31:02 Would you like to make loveto Johanna?
538 00:31:04 Will you give mesome credit, please?
539 00:31:06 -This conversation's perverse.-Just ans-answer the question.
540 00:31:08 -Give me some credit.-Stop drowning yourself
541 00:31:10 in what you think is moral.
542 00:31:12 You want to fuck Johanna.
543 00:31:21 Yes. I would.
544 00:31:25 And you saidyour life was boring.
545 00:31:52 I couldn't havehandled today without you.
546 00:31:55 You know, I got hit on threetimes coming from the bathroom.
547 00:31:57 And I'm pretty surethey were all married.
548 00:31:59 Then it's a good thingmy father isn't here.
549 00:32:01 - That's not funny.- Oh, no.
550 00:32:03 Groom's coming.
551 00:32:05 It's my ninja.
552 00:32:06 -It's my motherfucking ninja.-Howard.
553 00:32:09 -Congratulations, man.-Thanks, man.
554 00:32:10 Hey, this is Mimi.
555 00:32:11 -Howard. -Nice to meet you.Listen. -Congrats.
556 00:32:14 I've been running throughriverside park every day,
557 00:32:16 nine miles,murdering sobriety.
558 00:32:18 I've seen a lot of your motherlately, actually.
559 00:32:20 -My mother?-Yeah, yeah. I don't know.
560 00:32:22 She's, uh, always onthe same bench reading a book.
561 00:32:25 That's irwin. Irwin!
562 00:32:27 You guys got to meetirwin Sanders.
563 00:32:28 He's buying the Knicks.
564 00:32:30 Howard.-Hey.
565 00:32:31 How does it feel to be married?
566 00:32:32 -Well, sex already sucks.-Ah.
567 00:32:34 Kidding. Kind of.
568 00:32:36 Uh, cond?nasttook me back, actually,
569 00:32:38 so, uh, maybe I could getan interview at some point?
570 00:32:41 Maybe.
571 00:32:42 Um, Howard,this is my friend, Johanna.
572 00:32:45 -Hi.-Congratulations.
573 00:32:46 Nice to meet you.Thanks. This is Thomas.
574 00:32:49 - Hi. -Johanna.- Mimi.
575 00:32:51 Hi.
576 00:33:02 You're being really obvious.
577 00:33:22 I'm not dating irwin.
578 00:33:25 It's none of your business.
579 00:33:27 I don't have toexplain myself to you,
580 00:33:29 but nonetheless...
581 00:33:31 He's a very good friend.
582 00:33:36 Where's your girlfriend?
583 00:33:37 She's not.
584 00:33:40 She's just a friend.
585 00:33:42 Oh, you shouldn'tlet her do that to you.
586 00:33:50 He's 30 years older than you.
587 00:33:52 He's a billionaire.
588 00:33:54 I'm not stupid.
589 00:33:55 You are quite stupid, Thomas.
590 00:33:58 And you've got no ideahow the world works.
591 00:34:01 And, actually, he's nota billionaire anymore,
592 00:34:03 because Nancygot half of everything.
593 00:34:04 Doesn't really matter.
594 00:34:06 No, it doesn't.
595 00:34:09 You look nice.
596 00:34:11 What?
597 00:34:13 You look very nice.
598 00:34:14 In a suit.
599 00:34:18 I don't really thinkyou're stupid.
600 00:34:20 Just...
601 00:34:22 Confused and... young.
602 00:34:27 Irwin's probablylooking for you.
603 00:34:30 I'm sure he paidfor the whole night.
604 00:34:31 Oh, fuck you, really.
605 00:34:39 Hey.
606 00:34:41 -So, first of all--hooker comments? -I know.
607 00:34:43 -I'm sorry. -You actuallyresorted to hooker comments?
608 00:34:45 I'm sorry. I apologize.
609 00:34:46 Okay, second of all,irwin's gay.
610 00:34:49 Okay? He loves men.
611 00:34:51 In fact, he lovesone man in particular,
612 00:34:53 a man named Billy arnaldi,who happens to be
613 00:34:54 an incredible art dealerand one of my closest friends.
614 00:34:57 So irwin doesn't want tocome out, for business reasons,
615 00:35:00 which is his prerogative,
616 00:35:01 and I come to eventslike this with him.
617 00:35:03 I'm not a glorified hooker.He's not a sugar daddy.
618 00:35:05 I'm his beard.
619 00:35:06 You really don't knowhow the world works.
620 00:35:09 You're an innocent, Thomas.You're a child.
621 00:35:13 I know some things.
622 00:35:15 -Oh, yeah?-Mm.
623 00:35:16 Like what?
624 00:35:20 How it went down.
625 00:35:23 You and my dad, I know.
626 00:35:25 -Do you?-Mm.
627 00:35:27 Okay, Thomas, Mr. Ace sleuth,
628 00:35:31 I want to hear it.
629 00:35:36 You noticed thathe liked to come in early.
630 00:35:40 Really early, like, what,7:00 in the morning?
631 00:35:44 So you startedcoming in then, too.
632 00:35:46 You isolate and contain.
633 00:35:48 Told him it was becauseyou don't sleep well,
634 00:35:50 that the bad dreams, they shakeyou awake before daylight.
635 00:35:53 In the mornings, you put onmusic in your office.
636 00:35:56 Brahms one day, biggie smallsthe next, because, you know,
637 00:35:58 you can't be put into a box;You attack all the senses.
638 00:36:01 You went a little aggressiveon your signature scent,
639 00:36:04 strong on the vanilla.
640 00:36:06 You mentioned a boyfriend,then complained of a bad date.
641 00:36:09 You confuse him,make him wonder.
642 00:36:11 The sex.
643 00:36:13 Ooh, the sex.
644 00:36:15 The sex surprised you both.
645 00:36:17 He was just walking you homeafter dinner.
646 00:36:19 I mean, Jesus, you're notthe other woman,
647 00:36:21 he's not a cheating husband."No, this isn't something
648 00:36:23 that we did, that is somethingthat happened to us."
649 00:36:27 But what? Could it be love?
650 00:36:29 Well, nobody wantsto acknowledge that
651 00:36:31 so soon in the game,but the stars are crossed
652 00:36:33 and peopleare gonna get hurt and...
653 00:36:35 "We've done a bad,bad thing, Ethan,"
654 00:36:37 so, fuck, it must be, right?
655 00:36:38 All of it was just bullshit--calculated and manipulated--
656 00:36:42 from that first lieabout your bad dreams.
657 00:36:44 'Cause I'm-I'm...I'm pretty sure...
658 00:36:48 That you sleep like a baby.
659 00:36:55 You are quite the storytell...
660 00:37:31 Where have you been?
661 00:37:33 - Bathroom. Drank too much.
662 00:37:39 I have tointerrupt now, because, uh...
663 00:37:42 I have to go home.
664 00:37:46 I'm uncle buster.
665 00:37:49 -Let's get out of here.-I'm Casey's father's brother.
666 00:37:51 They haven't evencut the cake.
667 00:37:52 Fuck the cake. Let's go.
668 00:37:54 What?
669 00:37:56 - Come on.- Walter's not here
670 00:37:57 -because...-You smell like vanilla.
671 00:37:59 ...he's doing two to five.
672 00:38:02 It's no secret.
673 00:38:03 As you all know,
674 00:38:04 two to five for doingthe right thing,
675 00:38:07 for believing in the poetryof the constitution.
676 00:38:15 I have only a few thoughts.
677 00:38:18 Drama.
678 00:38:21 The dramaticsof marital romance,
679 00:38:24 staying together.
680 00:38:28 Like the gypsy told me,
681 00:38:31 the poems written in life lines
682 00:38:33 are never guaranteed.
683 00:38:37 They get busted up.
684 00:38:40 Tomorrow begins new poetry.
685 00:38:44 Another romance that will explode from time to time.
686 00:38:50 Poetry of married people like the Aurora borealis.
687 00:38:56 Strewn like stars in the sky,
688 00:39:00 and the drama of your lives begins.
689 00:39:04 Chapter after chapter.
690 00:39:07 Stories.
691 00:39:09 Books.
692 00:39:10 Revolutions, as I know, will come.
693 00:39:16 I've seen many.
694 00:39:17 Lived through them.
695 00:39:19 They play in the least expected places,
696 00:39:22 so get ready.
697 00:39:26 Casey understands Howard.
698 00:39:27 Howard... knows Casey.
699 00:39:31 No.
700 00:39:33 No, not yet.
701 00:39:35 There's always mystery.
702 00:39:37 You both know that.
703 00:39:39 You both know it isn't perfect.
704 00:39:41 Excitement,
705 00:39:43 trust and struggle,
706 00:39:47 and the unknown privacies that keep us together.
707 00:39:52 Glue of struggle.
708 00:39:56 I raise my glass.
709 00:40:00 The fragile glass we stomped on and shattered
710 00:40:04 and will forever be putting back together,
711 00:40:07 like the puzzleswe first worked as children,
712 00:40:12 learning to be patient,
713 00:40:15 searching for what fits.
714 00:40:21 So many puzzles.
715 00:40:25 So many books in this room.
716 00:40:32 And I talk too much.
717 00:40:34 Let's dance.
718 00:40:47 So I have to go to this career counselor.
719 00:40:51 Uh, my father set up the appointment.
720 00:40:54 Why don't you go into journalism?
721 00:40:56 You ranthe high school newspaper.
722 00:40:58 No, that doesn'tinterest me anymore.
723 00:41:00 And you won thatadvertising prize in college.
724 00:41:02 -You could do that.-Uh, how do you know all this
725 00:41:04 about me, huh?How do you know all this?
726 00:41:06 -I know everything.Everything about you. -You do?
727 00:41:08 -Okay, um, yearbook committee.-Uh-huh.
728 00:41:11 -President of the debate club.-Yeah.
729 00:41:12 Arts editorof the high school newspaper.
730 00:41:14 Second singleon the tennis team.
731 00:41:16 Very impressive, Thomas.
732 00:41:17 Huh.
733 00:41:20 Your father hasall your awards on his desk.
734 00:41:23 It's so awful.
735 00:41:24 - Oh, that's awkward.
736 00:41:26 Fuck the career counselor.
737 00:41:30 All right, here's something you don't know.
738 00:41:32 That nobody knows.
739 00:41:34 Okay.
740 00:41:39 I wanted to write.
741 00:41:41 -Huh.-Hmm.
742 00:41:44 I used to write all thesethings when I was younger.
743 00:41:46 A bunch of lettersfrom my dog to, like,
744 00:41:49 the mailman and the vet.
745 00:41:51 And eventually I...
746 00:41:54 Came up with a collectionof essays called
747 00:41:57 "Mary Jane vs. Everything."
748 00:42:00 Which I wasincredibly proud of.
749 00:42:02 And, you know,i show 'em to my dad.
750 00:42:05 What did Ethan say?
751 00:42:08 "Serviceable."
752 00:42:10 Ouch.
753 00:42:12 Yeah. "Serviceable."
754 00:42:14 That was his exact word.
755 00:42:17 Nothing special,just serviceable.
756 00:42:20 He seemed pretty angryafter reading them, though.
757 00:42:22 Well, I want to read them.
758 00:42:23 -You do?-Yeah.
759 00:42:24 -You can't.-Why not?
760 00:42:25 'Cause I threw 'em out.
761 00:42:27 Oh, that's so sad.
762 00:42:30 -That's so sad and lonely.-Mm.
763 00:42:36 That's good.
764 00:42:39 Really?
765 00:42:41 Yeah. What worddid your father use?
766 00:42:45 "Serviceable."
767 00:42:46 I disagree.
768 00:42:48 I think you've got talent.
769 00:42:55 But your father's a publisherand I'm just some...
770 00:42:59 Strange neighbor, so you'regonna go with serviceable, huh?
771 00:43:06 -Johanna wanted to read 'em.-Oh, right.
772 00:43:08 But I don't know if I could...
773 00:43:09 Those visions of Johanna.
774 00:43:12 I think about her...
775 00:43:17 ...all the time.
776 00:43:23 Maybe it's love.
777 00:43:28 Uh...
778 00:43:30 Love is hard to determine.
779 00:43:32 Uh, people thinkthey're in love,
780 00:43:34 and it's somethingcompletely different.
781 00:43:36 You know, infatuation,
782 00:43:39 the rightingof childhood wrongs,
783 00:43:42 you know, companionship. Um...
784 00:43:45 Have you ever been in love?
785 00:43:47 Yeah. Once.
786 00:43:51 Who was she?
787 00:43:53 Oh...
788 00:43:55 She was this woman I knew.
789 00:43:58 She was taken by someone else,a dear friend.
790 00:44:04 We had a profound connection,but she was his girl.
791 00:44:07 It was a mess.
792 00:44:08 So what did you do?
793 00:44:10 Oh, I leftthe scene of the crime.
794 00:44:14 You ran away?
795 00:44:16 Uh, well, at the time,i called it an adventure.
796 00:44:20 But hindsight turned itinto something else,
797 00:44:22 which is what hindsightinevitably does.
798 00:44:25 Yeah, I ran away.
799 00:44:27 I'm gonna take this.
800 00:44:29 Leave you with your heart on.
801 00:44:31 With my hard-on?
802 00:44:32 Heart. Your heart on.
803 00:44:35 You know what, maybe,in hindsight,
804 00:44:37 I'll feel guilty about Johanna,but right now I don't.
805 00:44:44 It's not cut or dry.
806 00:44:45 Congratulations, Thomas.
807 00:44:49 Your world isbecoming contextual.
808 00:44:57 Who the fuck are you?
809 00:45:09 Hey, dad.
810 00:45:11 What's up?
811 00:45:13 Sit down.
812 00:45:19 Is everything all right?
813 00:45:21 Is mom okay?
814 00:45:23 Sit down, Thomas.
815 00:45:38 Is there anythingyou want to tell me?
816 00:45:44 No.
817 00:45:46 No, nothing.
818 00:45:48 Mm-hmm. Anything I should know?
819 00:45:54 No.
820 00:45:58 Thomas...
821 00:46:01 You blew offthe career counselor.
822 00:46:04 Hmm?
823 00:46:05 I told you how hard it wasto get that appointment,
824 00:46:08 and then you justdon't show up?
825 00:46:09 -Whoosh. Gone.-Right.
826 00:46:11 Um, um...
827 00:46:13 I should've called.
828 00:46:15 -Mm-hmm, you should've called.-I'm sorry.
829 00:46:16 I'm sorry. I'm sorry, too.
830 00:46:22 Come work here.
831 00:46:24 --Hmm? Work here.
832 00:46:26 You like to read.
833 00:46:27 I've been conflictedabout giving you a job here--
834 00:46:29 nepotism and all thatbullshit-- but screw it.
835 00:46:32 You can startunder the junior editors,
836 00:46:34 you know, learn something.
837 00:46:36 -No, thank you.-Why not?
838 00:46:37 I mean,what's wrong with learning
839 00:46:39 -the publishing business?-Nothing.
840 00:46:40 It's fine. It's just it's...
841 00:46:43 Serviceable.
842 00:46:55 W.F.?
843 00:46:58 I just wantto get my essays back.
844 00:47:01 Hey.
845 00:48:04 Thomas.
846 00:48:05 I was in your apartment.
847 00:48:11 You're Julian stellars.
848 00:48:14 - Mm, my nom de plume.
849 00:48:16 You've had 12 books published.
850 00:48:19 You don't havemuch mass appeal,
851 00:48:21 but you don't seem to mind.
852 00:48:23 Hard to finda picture of you anywhere.
853 00:48:26 You're an alcoholicwho spends most afternoons
854 00:48:28 drinking in the Brooklyn inn.
855 00:48:30 And you're probablythe only person that I've met
856 00:48:32 that's actually, actually beento an opium den.
857 00:48:38 -And I've been googled.-Mm-hmm.
858 00:48:45 I didn't read it.
859 00:48:48 Your new manuscript.
860 00:48:53 Well, Thomas,i appreciate that.
861 00:49:02 So, um...
862 00:49:06 ...when you saidi had talent...
863 00:49:09 It was a professional opinion.
864 00:49:15 I don't know, man. I...
865 00:49:18 You've experienced the world.
866 00:49:19 I just live here in New York.
867 00:49:22 New York is the world.
868 00:49:24 I haven't done muchwith my life.
869 00:49:29 You've had sexwith your father's mistress.
870 00:49:33 I'd say that's something.
871 00:49:38 Am I the only living boyin New York?
872 00:49:46 You are.
873 00:50:06 Hey, I was outside your apartment.
874 00:50:08 You're not there.
875 00:50:10 I brought the essays.I wanted to show you.
876 00:50:52 Did you sleep with her?
877 00:50:58 With who?
878 00:51:04 Johanna?
879 00:51:07 Why would you ask that?
880 00:51:09 They left the weddingas quickly as we did.
881 00:51:14 I may be oblivious,but I'm not stupid.
882 00:51:16 Why do you care?
883 00:51:17 -I just do.-Why?
884 00:51:18 Thomas.
885 00:51:20 -Are you jealous?-No.
886 00:51:22 -You sure?-Thomas.
887 00:51:24 -I think you're jealous.-Did you sleep with her?
888 00:51:26 She's my father's mistress.
889 00:51:29 You think that I would do that?
890 00:51:33 No.
891 00:51:35 Thank you.
892 00:51:39 You're sweet.
893 00:51:41 You're not like them.
894 00:51:43 -Like who?-This city.
895 00:51:54 I want you to stop seeing him.
896 00:51:57 --Come on,I'm putting my foot down.
897 00:51:59 You don't get to tell mewhat to do, Thomas.
898 00:52:01 I don't careif your foot's down or up.
899 00:52:03 Why? 'Cause you don't careabout anything?
900 00:52:04 -What? -You obviously don'tcare about anything at all.
901 00:52:08 Oh, so I'm a nihilist now,am I?
902 00:52:14 I don't know anythingabout you.
903 00:52:18 Where'd you grow up?
904 00:52:20 Brooklyn, Thomas.That's why I have this accent.
905 00:52:25 Did you play sports?
906 00:52:27 No.
907 00:52:30 When did you first have sex?
908 00:52:32 Oh, my god, we're gonna talkabout my childhood now?
909 00:52:35 Yeah. I want to know you.
910 00:52:38 Where'd you grow up?
911 00:52:41 I grew up in London.
912 00:52:43 Which part?
913 00:52:46 Belsize park.
914 00:52:49 And then kilburn.
915 00:52:51 Why the move?
916 00:52:53 Because kilburn'sso much more real.
917 00:52:57 What'd your dad do?
918 00:53:01 What'd your dad do?
919 00:53:03 He put a gun in his mouthand pulled the trigger.
920 00:53:17 I'm sorry.
921 00:53:24 I didn't know.
922 00:53:30 Why do you sleep with me?
923 00:53:33 Because I like you.
924 00:53:35 What do you like about me?
925 00:53:38 Your innocence.
926 00:53:40 Were you ever innocent?
927 00:53:43 I forgot.
928 00:53:45 Come on. Tell me.
929 00:53:48 I want to knowabout when you were innocent.
930 00:53:50 -Why?-Because I like the idea of it.
931 00:53:53 If you want someone so pure,why are you with me?
932 00:53:56 Because I care about you.
933 00:54:02 Do you care about me?
934 00:54:05 I don't care about anyone,remember?
935 00:54:10 But the truth was she cared about them both.
936 00:54:14 And that's when she knew
937 00:54:16 this mess would only get worse.
938 00:54:18 She had to make a clean break, starting with Ethan.
939 00:54:23 What she didn't anticipate was
940 00:54:26 he'd surrendered too much of his past
941 00:54:28 to give up on his future.
942 00:54:33 They're all movingto, uh, Los Angeles.
943 00:54:37 New York, we're becoming...
944 00:54:39 Do you think he's in love with her?
945 00:54:43 This has to stop.
946 00:54:44 Eh, you and your father,
947 00:54:47 you suffer fromthe same disease.
948 00:54:49 Johanna.
949 00:54:51 "Visions of Johannaconquer my mind."
950 00:54:56 -Mm.-Why are you writing about me?
951 00:55:01 That's what I do.
952 00:55:03 I write about people I knowand then give it a thin veil.
953 00:55:07 But why me?
954 00:55:11 Look, I...
955 00:55:13 I got the apartmentto get out of the house
956 00:55:15 and writea completely different story.
957 00:55:17 It just, it didn'tcome across, you know?
958 00:55:20 -And mine did.-Um...
959 00:55:22 And like everything good,it happened by accident.
960 00:55:25 I met you. Now I got 118 pages.
961 00:55:30 My father's publishing house,
962 00:55:32 they're throwingan anniversary party tomorrow.
963 00:55:34 You should come.
964 00:55:38 No.
965 00:55:40 You've heard all about thesepeople, but you never met 'em.
966 00:55:43 Be good for the book.
967 00:55:47 Huh.
968 00:55:48 Find a window. Pounce.
969 00:55:51 Pounce.
970 00:56:13 I broke up with Nick.
971 00:56:17 Did you?
972 00:56:24 You're supposed to bemore excited than that.
973 00:57:08 Hey.
974 00:57:10 Thanks for coming.
975 00:57:12 It's a great party.
976 00:57:14 Yeah. It always is.
977 00:57:16 Look. That's my motherand Mimi.
978 00:57:24 She's beautiful.
979 00:57:26 Mm. I told you she was.
980 00:57:28 I was talking aboutyour mother.
981 00:57:33 Huh.
982 00:57:50 It's amazing.
983 00:57:51 It is amazing,but I think you could...
984 00:57:53 Uh, sorry.
985 00:57:54 I want you to comemeet someone.
986 00:57:55 Oh! Who are we meeting?
987 00:57:58 -We're meeting my new friend.-Your new friend.
988 00:57:59 -All right, I'll be back.-Sorry. See you later.
989 00:58:01 I'll be back.
990 00:58:07 He was just here.
991 00:58:09 He was?
992 00:58:10 Oh, well, I'll meet him later.
993 00:58:12 -Come on. He was just here.-Oh, there's Diana.
994 00:58:28 "I have looked down uponthe city from high windows.
995 00:58:33 "It is thenthat the great buildings
996 00:58:37 "lose reality and take ontheir magical powers.
997 00:58:45 "Squares and squares of flameset and cut into the ether.
998 00:58:50 Here's our poetry, for..."
999 00:58:53 "For we have pulled downthe stars to our will."
1000 00:58:57 "To our will."
1001 00:58:58 Ezra pound.
1002 00:59:02 Johanna, I'm assuming.
1003 00:59:04 We haven't met, have we?
1004 00:59:07 No, but I know you very well.
1005 00:59:10 And I knowthat you're having your fun
1006 00:59:14 and that he's young and easy.
1007 00:59:17 But you'll have me to deal withif he scars.
1008 00:59:25 I don't likestrange conversations...
1009 00:59:29 So I'm gonna walk away now.
1010 01:00:00 I'll be back in a second.
1011 01:00:10 Hey.
1012 01:00:12 Uh...
1013 01:00:13 What?
1014 01:00:16 I really think we shouldstop seeing each other.
1015 01:00:20 -Thomas.-What?
1016 01:00:22 It looks bad. Come on.
1017 01:00:25 I was ending itwith your father as well.
1018 01:00:28 And not becausei didn't care for him.
1019 01:00:31 I actually really do.I care for him very much.
1020 01:00:34 But, Thomas,the thing is he proposed.
1021 01:00:37 What?
1022 01:00:39 And I said yes.
1023 01:00:42 No. No.
1024 01:00:44 -No, no. -Please, I don'twant this to be disruptive.
1025 01:00:46 -Disruptive? He's not gonnaleave her. -Stop, stop, stop.
1026 01:00:48 I'm not gonna let that happen.
1027 01:00:50 No, this isthe best thing for everybody.
1028 01:00:52 -For who?-For everybody.
1029 01:00:53 Judith's gonna beso much better off.
1030 01:00:55 She won't be suffering anymore
1031 01:00:56 under the weightof a dead marriage.
1032 01:00:58 He's going through a cri...He's just going through
1033 01:01:00 a fucking crisis,that's all this is.
1034 01:01:02 Come on, this doesn'thave to be this difficult.
1035 01:01:03 Please, everybody can win here.
1036 01:01:06 God made a mistakewhen he made you beautiful.
1037 01:01:08 Well, god's mistakeis marrying your father.
1038 01:01:10 Not yet she isn't.
1039 01:01:12 Look, can I just ask youone thing?
1040 01:01:14 If any of this comes out, whodo you think's gonna get hurt?
1041 01:01:17 It's not me.
1042 01:01:19 --It's not Ethan.
1043 01:01:20 We both know how to landon our feet. And it's not you.
1044 01:01:23 -You're so young.-Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
1045 01:01:25 There's one person... oneperson who will be destroyed,
1046 01:01:28 and we both know who that is.
1047 01:01:30 What do you think'sgonna happen?
1048 01:01:31 You think you can get married,you think you can have
1049 01:01:33 the obligatory second familyand live happily ever after
1050 01:01:36 in your dream world?
1051 01:01:37 Well, obviouslythat can't happen.
1052 01:01:39 What is that supposed to mean?
1053 01:01:43 -Wait, what is thatsupposed to mean? -Hey.
1054 01:01:45 What is it supposed to mean?
1055 01:01:47 Stop it.
1056 01:01:52 -Stop it, Thomas. Come on.-I'm gonna tell him everything.
1057 01:01:55 -I'm gonna tell him. Don't...-Thomas.
1058 01:02:49 Thomas!
1059 01:02:52 Thomas, what are you doing?
1060 01:02:55 It's raining.
1061 01:03:01 Um...
1062 01:03:03 Okay.
1063 01:03:07 I...
1064 01:03:09 I broke up with Nick...
1065 01:03:12 Because I got into Croatia.
1066 01:03:16 And I want you to come with me.
1067 01:03:29 I slept with Johanna.
1068 01:03:34 No.
1069 01:03:35 You're not like that.
1070 01:03:39 -And I thought that I wasin love with her. -Mm-mm.
1071 01:03:44 You're good.
1072 01:03:50 No, Mimi, I'm not good.
1073 01:03:58 Mimi!
1074 01:04:01 Mimi!
1075 01:04:09 I'm sorry.
1076 01:04:12 You are just like them.
1077 01:04:15 They won, Thomas.
1078 01:04:17 God, they've fuckingbankrupted you.
1079 01:05:39 -Hey. -Thomas!Did you spend last night here?
1080 01:05:41 Yeah.
1081 01:05:43 Well, that was the best partythat kenta has thrown in years.
1082 01:05:47 Everybody was drunk-- andnot just our alcoholic friends,
1083 01:05:50 but everybody.
1084 01:05:52 - Why did you spend the night?
1085 01:05:54 I don't know.
1086 01:05:56 I just... wanted to come home.
1087 01:06:00 Are you upset?
1088 01:06:04 Tell me about it.
1089 01:06:09 What?
1090 01:06:11 Is it about a girl?
1091 01:06:13 And I'm your mother, so...
1092 01:06:16 Things have gotten messy,and...
1093 01:06:19 I want to bail.
1094 01:06:23 But I can't.
1095 01:06:26 Well, then you know.
1096 01:06:31 The only way out... is through.
1097 01:06:36 Right?
1098 01:06:39 Where's dad?
1099 01:06:41 He left early.
1100 01:06:43 He said he had to go tothe office and get some files.
1101 01:06:46 He seems to havegotten over what a...
1102 01:07:08 Thomas?
1103 01:07:18 -Dad?-Thomas. Huh.
1104 01:07:20 -We need to talk.-Mm-hmm.
1105 01:07:22 There are...There are some things
1106 01:07:24 -that you don't know that...-Thomas, don't.
1107 01:07:25 -Don't.-...That you need to know.
1108 01:07:29 Johanna.
1109 01:07:32 You two know each other?
1110 01:07:34 Yeah.
1111 01:07:38 What?
1112 01:07:40 Well, Ethan,the thing is, is that...
1113 01:07:42 He followed me.
1114 01:07:43 You followed her?
1115 01:07:47 That's not all I did.
1116 01:07:56 I'm sorry, I...
1117 01:07:58 I don't understand.
1118 01:08:05 We slept together.
1119 01:08:07 And not just once.
1120 01:08:11 What?
1121 01:08:32 You slick little shit, you!
1122 01:08:35 -I did right by you!-No, relax!
1123 01:08:37 -You have no idea!-Relax!
1124 01:08:38 You have no idea!
1125 01:08:51 Oh.
1126 01:08:59 Oh.
1127 01:09:12 I deserve you.
1128 01:09:44 --I'm sorry.
1129 01:09:48 We're all sorry, Thomas.
1130 01:09:53 I really do love him.
1131 01:10:03 And he did right by you.
1132 01:10:08 More than you know.
1133 01:10:15 Good-bye, Thomas.
1134 01:11:31 Did you finish it?
1135 01:11:37 I did.
1136 01:11:39 Tell me about it.
1137 01:11:45 Tell me about "the onlyliving boy in New York."
1138 01:11:53 Uh, well...
1139 01:12:02 It's about three people--artists...
1140 01:12:05 And great friends.
1141 01:12:10 One of them isa beautiful young girl.
1142 01:12:13 The other two...
1143 01:12:15 One artist has talent,the other doesn't.
1144 01:12:18 You know,no matter how hard he tries,
1145 01:12:20 and no matterhow badly he wants it,
1146 01:12:23 he just...
1147 01:12:25 Well, he wasn't kissed by godin that way.
1148 01:12:27 But he has the girl.
1149 01:12:29 Yes. And they're married,
1150 01:12:33 and they planto start a family.
1151 01:12:37 Only they havea little problem.
1152 01:12:40 He's infertile.
1153 01:12:42 And they asktheir talented friend for help?
1154 01:12:47 Yeah, you have a knackfor a story, Thomas.
1155 01:12:51 I get it from my father.
1156 01:12:54 Uh-huh.
1157 01:13:05 So...
1158 01:13:07 So, they're artists, and theydon't want to use in vitro,
1159 01:13:11 so they go witha cheap bottle of cabernet
1160 01:13:14 and, uh, some quaaludesand a Simon & Garfunkel record,
1161 01:13:18 and the three of them decide...
1162 01:13:20 And-and... the husband'sokay with that?
1163 01:13:23 Well, th-they want to usesomebody that they know,
1164 01:13:26 somebody that they love.
1165 01:13:28 Well, and, of course,the artist with the talent,
1166 01:13:33 he's, uh, he's flattered,and, of course, he agrees.
1167 01:13:39 And, uh, he and the...
1168 01:13:42 The beautiful girl...
1169 01:13:49 ...they...
1170 01:13:51 Uh, they walk the city streetsthat night...
1171 01:13:54 For hours.
1172 01:13:56 They're both so damn nervous.
1173 01:13:59 And they end upat Washington square park...
1174 01:14:05 ...where they dance...
1175 01:14:08 Uh... to no music.
1176 01:14:15 And the rest comes easy.
1177 01:14:20 And does he love her?
1178 01:14:22 Yeah, he... he does. Mm.
1179 01:14:26 In that moment,he realizes he does.
1180 01:14:36 Uh, so it turns out that...
1181 01:14:39 That the beautiful girl,
1182 01:14:43 she gives birthto a wonderful son,
1183 01:14:46 and her husband gives up art,
1184 01:14:49 becomes a very successfulart dealer.
1185 01:14:52 And the other artist?
1186 01:14:59 He watches the boy growfrom afar, huh?
1187 01:15:04 Sees his own talent alivein this child.
1188 01:15:11 He so desperately wantsto connect with his son...
1189 01:15:16 And tell him everything.
1190 01:15:23 And nurturehis talent, you know?
1191 01:15:34 But, of course,he never does make contact.
1192 01:15:40 Until...
1193 01:15:43 Until he decidesto make it all his next book.
1194 01:16:01 --It's okay.
1195 01:16:23 Mom.
1196 01:16:33 Thomas.
1197 01:16:37 What did he tell you?
1198 01:16:38 Everything.
1199 01:16:43 You here looking for razors?
1200 01:16:45 Empty pill bottles?
1201 01:16:50 Sit down.
1202 01:16:59 What do you know, Thomas?
1203 01:17:02 I know...
1204 01:17:05 I know why you carryso much guilt.
1205 01:17:11 I know that I...
1206 01:17:13 Already forgive you.
1207 01:17:15 I know you're in lovewith someone
1208 01:17:17 you haven't seenin over 25 years.
1209 01:17:19 And you go to riverside parkevery day to read his books.
1210 01:17:22 I know.I know, and it's okay.
1211 01:17:28 -Who told you?-He did.
1212 01:17:31 Julian. W.F.
1213 01:17:32 Whatever you want to call him.
1214 01:17:34 Is he dying?
1215 01:17:38 He's not dying.
1216 01:17:40 - No?-Don't worry, he's not dying.
1217 01:17:42 He's fine. He's just...
1218 01:17:45 I don't know, he's tired.
1219 01:17:46 Think he's lonely.
1220 01:17:50 It was my ideanot to tell you, not Ethan's.
1221 01:17:53 -You have to know that.-Okay.
1222 01:17:55 You were trying to protect me.
1223 01:17:57 Yes, and...
1224 01:18:00 And I knew thatif you found out,
1225 01:18:03 he wouldcome back into my life,
1226 01:18:05 and then everythingwould go to shit.
1227 01:18:07 Well, everything went to shiton its own, so...
1228 01:18:12 Yeah, I guess.
1229 01:18:24 Is he old?
1230 01:18:29 He's messy.
1231 01:18:30 Yeah, he always was.
1232 01:18:34 An unmade bed of a man.
1233 01:18:37 "An unmade bed of a man."
1234 01:18:41 I like that.
1235 01:18:42 You should.
1236 01:18:44 Your father wrote it.
1237 01:19:22 We're closed.
1238 01:19:26 I'm sorry, I thoughti locked the door.
1239 01:19:35 -Hey.-Hey.
1240 01:19:37 I'll be quick.
1241 01:19:39 I know what book I want.
1242 01:19:41 Sure.
1243 01:19:47 Hmm.
1244 01:19:49 What'd you think?
1245 01:19:52 Serviceable.
1246 01:19:55 You're lyingto make me feel good.
1247 01:19:59 Character that surprised methe most was the father.
1248 01:20:07 Which one?
1249 01:20:10 The one that didn't run away.
1250 01:20:18 Whatever happened to Mimi?
1251 01:20:20 She's still in Croatia.
1252 01:20:21 She got a fellowship.
1253 01:20:23 I don't thinkshe's coming back.
1254 01:20:25 Oh.
1255 01:20:28 Did you hear back from viking?
1256 01:20:30 Yeah, it was a pass.
1257 01:20:31 I'm sorry.
1258 01:20:33 You want me to makea few phone calls?
1259 01:20:38 No.
1260 01:20:40 I want to start something new.
1261 01:20:42 I ha... have an idea.
1262 01:20:43 Well, that's good.
1263 01:20:47 You still speaking to Johanna?
1264 01:20:49 No.
1265 01:20:53 -You lying to me?-Yeah.
1266 01:20:57 -How's your mother?-She's good.
1267 01:20:59 She quit smoking.
1268 01:21:01 Started writingfor artnews again.
1269 01:21:03 -That's good.-Yeah.
1270 01:21:05 She has a date tonight.
1271 01:21:06 Oh, good for her.
1272 01:21:10 - Truly.
1273 01:21:14 "The best lack all conviction,
1274 01:21:15 while the worst are full ofpassionate intensity."
1275 01:21:18 --Yeats said that,but so did Lou Reed.
