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1 00:01:24 Where's my primer?
2 00:01:29 Vada, we're late!
3 00:01:31 - Vada.
4 00:01:40 - God...
5 00:02:03 Dude, we are so fucking late!
6 00:02:06 Are the cake pops different flavors
7 00:02:08 or are they just different colors?
8 00:02:10 Different flavors.
9 00:02:11 What are the flavor differences?
10 00:02:24 Honestly, it is a miracle
11 00:02:26 that we made it on time.
12 00:02:27 Dude, we are killing it!
13 00:02:28 Per ushe, yes.
14 00:02:30 Also, is it just me or does coffee
15 00:02:31 immediately make you have to shit?
16 00:02:32 - Oh, immediately, yeah.
17 00:02:34 - Like I smell coffee and I'm shitting my pants.
18 00:02:36 Pause the shit-talking till Justin Dragonas passes.
19 00:02:42 Oh, my God, I want him.
20 00:02:43 We need to come up with a code for shitting.
21 00:02:45 You're right! Alright, let's think.
22 00:02:47 - Okay, like-- - We can say like
23 00:02:49 I need to talk to my boss.
24 00:02:50 - What are you talking about? - Are you picking what I'm putting down?
25 00:02:52 It's like, "Okay, I need to have
26 00:02:54 a long call with my boss and he's mad."
27 00:02:56 Oh my God, my boss is so mad at me
28 00:02:58 that I got a penis call this morning.
29 00:02:59 Oh, and then when you...
30 00:03:01 It could be like you're texting your boss.
31 00:03:03 You're texting your boss. I love it.
32 00:03:04 - We love that. - You have to keep it fancy.
33 00:03:06 We love to keep it fancy,
34 00:03:07 that's what we do.
35 00:03:08 Now that's also a concern
36 00:03:09 because most of that water is paleo water.
37 00:03:12 Dating back to the most rec...
38 00:03:13 Yes, Vada?
39 00:03:14 Does the kind of rock affect how long the aquifer last
40 00:03:17 or how quickly it recharges?
41 00:03:19 Oh, that's a great question,
42 00:03:20 but that depends on many factors.
43 00:03:22 Anybody wanna guess
44 00:03:24 what the next biggest aquifer is?
45 00:03:26 So we have to think
46 00:03:28 about what we know about the aquifers, right?
47 00:03:29 So the Ogallala Aquifer is one of the largest eight
48 00:03:32 in the world, not to...
49 00:03:34 Yes? I'm sorry,
50 00:03:35 can I use the restroom?
51 00:03:36 Yes.
52 00:03:37 It dates back to the recent ice age.
53 00:03:39 So when we think about that
54 00:03:40 we have to say, "Wow, this is one of the largest
55 00:03:42 in the world."
56 00:03:44 Are you okay?
57 00:03:45 - No. - What happened?
58 00:03:50 I don't want anyone to hear me.
59 00:03:51 Dude, literally just tell me,
60 00:03:53 you're freaking me out.
61 00:03:56 I got my...
62 00:03:59 What? I can't hear you.
63 00:04:02 I'll just text it to you.
64 00:04:11 Jesus, Amelia!
65 00:04:12 You don't text 911 when you get your period!
66 00:04:18 You scared the shit out of me. Oh my God!
67 00:04:21 I'm sorry.
68 00:04:26 It's okay.
69 00:04:30 Wait, haven't you been dyin' to get your period for like a year?
70 00:04:32 I thought you'd be stoked.
71 00:04:34 It's different than I thought.
72 00:04:36 Oh, you mean shitty as hell? Yeah, I know.
73 00:04:38 You're the worst. I'm hanging up now.
74 00:04:40 I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
75 00:04:43 Do you, um...
76 00:04:46 have everything you need?
77 00:04:49 Yeah, I stole it from your room
78 00:04:52 a few months ago.
79 00:04:53 It's in my backpack.
80 00:04:55 Just in case.
81 00:04:56 I was just gonna tell you
82 00:04:58 to stuff a bunch of toilet paper
83 00:04:59 in your pants till you get home, but that...
84 00:05:02 That's some pro-level shit.
85 00:05:05 Nice move!
86 00:05:06 Oh, my God.
87 00:05:09 How about this?
88 00:05:10 Let's go to dinner tonight,
89 00:05:11 just you and I, okay?
90 00:05:12 And I will fill you in
91 00:05:14 on all the bloody, chunky,
92 00:05:17 gooey, goopy details.
93 00:05:19 Ew, shut up.
94 00:05:21 I love ya.
95 00:05:22 Congratulations.
96 00:05:24 Don't say congrats, you freak.
97 00:05:31 I love you, too.
98 00:05:51 Photo day.
99 00:05:53 Better get my shit together.
100 00:06:52 You don't even need to wear makeup.
101 00:06:55 Sorry, what?
102 00:06:58 I just said, "You don't even need to wear makeup."
103 00:07:01 - I...
104 00:07:03 - What was that?
105 00:07:07 - Come on, come on! - Was that a gun?
106 00:07:08 - Get down!
107 00:07:13 Take 'em off!
108 00:07:15 No! Oh!
109 00:07:32 We're gonna die.
110 00:07:34 Go, go, go, go, go!
111 00:07:50 Oh my God. Oh my God.
112 00:07:55 Is it over?
113 00:07:57 Is it over?
114 00:08:08 Who's in there?
115 00:08:10 I'm not the shooter.
116 00:08:11 It's Matt Corgan, I saw him.
117 00:08:13 Do you know where he is now?
118 00:08:16 I don't know, I don't know.
119 00:08:20 My brother.
120 00:08:22 Come, come under. Just...
121 00:08:34 Oh, fuck, are you shot?
122 00:08:38 My brother.
123 00:09:03 You! Drop your weapon!
124 00:09:06 Drop your weapon now!
125 00:09:11 Down on the ground!
126 00:09:48 Maybe we should wake her up.
127 00:09:50 She needs to rest.
128 00:09:52 I just wanna talk to her.
129 00:10:29 Did you know him?
130 00:10:32 He follows you on Instagram,
131 00:10:34 so he knew you.
132 00:10:38 It's like on every channel.
133 00:10:39 Like CNN
134 00:10:40 was interviewing your friend Melody.
135 00:10:42 So crazy.
136 00:10:44 Did you know anyone who died?
137 00:10:46 - Amelia. - What?
138 00:10:48 Is there like a list or something?
139 00:10:57 Sometimes, I'm just like,
140 00:10:58 "What year are we living in?"
141 00:11:00 I'm literally gonna Amazon
142 00:11:01 a bulletproof backpack.
143 00:11:03 Amelia!
144 00:11:05 What?
145 00:11:11 Please don't cry, Mom.
146 00:11:14 I'm so sorry.
147 00:11:17 I'm sorry.
148 00:11:33 Do you need something?
149 00:11:37 Was just gonna take a bath.
150 00:11:40 Okay
151 00:11:42 Okay.
152 00:11:45 Okay.
153 00:14:16 Fuck.
154 00:15:55 I'm glad you're going to see Nick.
155 00:15:58 How's he holding up?
156 00:16:01 I think okay.
157 00:16:03 Good!
158 00:16:05 Good.
159 00:16:11 What about you? How... How are you feeling?
160 00:16:24 Better.
161 00:16:26 That's good, so good.
162 00:16:28 I'm really so glad to hear that.
163 00:16:38 I literally thought it was a drill
164 00:16:40 'cause Cambie had us locked in,
165 00:16:41 shades over the window in like two seconds,
166 00:16:43 so I was like, "Okay,
167 00:16:44 clearly, this is a drill." Right?
168 00:16:46 - Yeah. And Olivia Metis is like talking,
169 00:16:47 you know, being annoying,
170 00:16:49 -and Cambie goes "Olivia,
171 00:16:52 be fucking quiet." - No.
172 00:16:54 And we're all like, "Oh shit.
173 00:16:55 Like this is real deal, no joke."
174 00:16:57 It's just so... It's so fucked.
175 00:17:00 I can't stop hearing the sound of it.
176 00:17:07 So last night, I was like,
177 00:17:09 "Okay, why did I survive?
178 00:17:11 Like out of everyone,
179 00:17:12 like why me?
180 00:17:14 Is it so that I can do something
181 00:17:16 to like make this never happen again?"
182 00:17:20 So, I set up this Zoom with Everytown
183 00:17:23 and we're gonna talk about like
184 00:17:24 how to be more reactive, how to start a movement,
185 00:17:27 how to get a fuckin' bill passed.
186 00:17:28 Like something.
187 00:17:36 Why do you think he did it?
188 00:17:40 I don't know, is there like ever a reason?
189 00:17:47 After initial reports of a shooter,
190 00:17:48 officers surrounded the campus,
191 00:17:50 directing the evacuation of hundreds of students from the scene.
192 00:17:53 This tragedy is. I think
193 00:17:54 Anderson Cooper is cute.
194 00:17:57 We've been on the scene. He is.
195 00:17:58 Don't get too attached.
196 00:18:33 Disturbing videos from the students' cellphones
197 00:18:41 In the video, gunshots can be heard in the hall,
198 00:18:44 answered by children screaming in their classrooms...
199 00:18:47 I'm gonna go to Nick's.
200 00:18:50 Uh, okay. ...during the escape,
201 00:18:51 children fled the building.
202 00:19:29 Hey.
203 00:19:30 Hey.
204 00:19:32 Wanna come in?
205 00:19:39 Thank you.
206 00:19:44 Want some water or somethin'?
207 00:19:47 Okay.
208 00:19:54 You have a really nice house.
209 00:19:57 Thanks. Really nice,
210 00:19:59 it's a cool vibe,
211 00:20:00 with the wood and uh...
212 00:20:02 You have a lot of cool art here, too.
213 00:20:04 Yeah, uh, my dads are artists, so...
214 00:20:07 - Your parents are artists?
215 00:20:09 - Yeah.
216 00:20:12 That is so cool.
217 00:20:15 It all makes sense now.
218 00:20:16 Do you know when they'll be back?
219 00:20:19 I'm actually not really sure.
220 00:20:21 Yeah, they're gone like all the time.
221 00:20:29 Uh, I have to be honest with you,
222 00:20:31 'cause if I'm not then I'll probably feel really bad about it.
223 00:20:34 But I watched some of...
224 00:20:36 Thank you.
225 00:20:37 Some of your dance videos on Instagram.
226 00:20:40 In the videos, you come off like, so like hard.
227 00:20:44 And whatever.
228 00:20:46 What I'm tryin' to say is
229 00:20:47 you're a completely different person when you're dancing
230 00:20:49 and in real life, you're like so different.
231 00:20:51 Yeah, I don't know why I'm like that.
232 00:20:54 It's like...
233 00:20:55 Yeah. It's cool though that
234 00:20:57 you're able to like just switch into a different mode.
235 00:21:00 Like I could never do something like that.
236 00:21:02 It's dope.
237 00:21:06 Thank you.
238 00:21:09 Yeah.
239 00:21:14 Is that... Is that wine okay for you?
240 00:21:16 Oh, yeah, no, it's so good.
241 00:21:18 Are you sure? I have like a couple of others--
242 00:21:20 No, it's... Yeah...
243 00:21:21 That's like the best one I've ever had, so.
244 00:21:24 Okay.
245 00:21:31 - I'm sorry, I'm gonna-- - Oh.
246 00:21:33 I'll turn this off, my mom keeps checking in on me.
247 00:21:36 Okay.
248 00:21:39 Nick told me that Quinton's brother's service
249 00:21:42 is tomorrow.
250 00:21:43 Already? That's--
251 00:21:45 - Yeah, I-- - That's great.
252 00:21:47 I guess some religions do them fast.
253 00:21:51 I was thinkin' about going. Do you think that would be weird?
254 00:21:54 No. No, I don't... I don't think so.
255 00:21:57 Okay.
256 00:22:00 I mean, I can, like,
257 00:22:02 come with you if you want.
258 00:22:03 Yeah, no, I--
259 00:22:05 - Yeah, I want... Yeah. - Yeah, if you...
260 00:22:06 Um, yeah. If that's cool with you, so...
261 00:22:12 - Yeah, let's do it. - Cool.
262 00:22:18 Can I ask you a question?
263 00:22:26 Did you have like
264 00:22:28 the craziest nightmares last night?
265 00:22:32 You have to be able to sleep to have nightmares.
266 00:22:54 Hey.
267 00:22:55 - Hey. - Hey.
268 00:22:58 Uh, thank you for coming.
269 00:23:01 Of course.
270 00:24:47 Do you wanna go to Starbucks?
271 00:24:49 No.
272 00:24:50 Do you want a Starbucks?
273 00:24:54 Mmm, no.
274 00:24:56 Okay.
275 00:25:06 I'm literally gonna make Mom
276 00:25:07 get me something with caffeine .
277 00:25:28 I only do that when I play with my little dinosaur.
278 00:25:32 Do the cat pitch.
279 00:25:34 Never again.
280 00:25:39 I only do that when I play with my little dinosaur.
281 00:25:44 Do the cat pitch.
282 00:25:46 Never again.
283 00:25:53 Are you hungry?
284 00:26:00 - That's really good.
285 00:26:03 I'm spilling it everywhere.
286 00:26:06 It is really good.
287 00:26:10 Are your dads really chill?
288 00:26:16 They travel a lot though, huh?
289 00:26:18 Mostly, Europe.
290 00:26:20 For like fun?
291 00:26:22 Work.
292 00:26:24 Do they send people to spy on you
293 00:26:26 or they trust you
294 00:26:27 just to not throw a bunch of ragers.
295 00:26:31 I mean,
296 00:26:32 they know I'm not like a rager person, so.
297 00:26:38 Who do you hang out with at school?
298 00:26:40 Like...
299 00:26:42 Like different people.
300 00:26:46 Like a bunch of different people, so.
301 00:26:49 I'm gone a lot with dance.
302 00:26:52 How often do you dance?
303 00:26:54 Every day.
304 00:26:55 Like classes?
305 00:26:59 But I haven't gone
306 00:27:02 since the thing.
307 00:27:12 Are your parents chill?
308 00:27:16 My dad more than my mom, for sure.
309 00:27:19 - My mom's like very white and anxious.
310 00:27:24 I don't really tell 'em anything though,
311 00:27:27 'cause like they worry.
312 00:27:31 I feel kinda bad for it.
313 00:27:32 They're actually really good parents.
314 00:27:39 I see you're packing for a trip.
315 00:27:41 What's your favorite country to visit?
316 00:27:42 Paris.
317 00:27:43 What's the last country you visited?
318 00:27:45 Europe.
319 00:27:46 What country do you wish to visit?
320 00:27:48 Persia.
321 00:27:51 What's the weirdest word in the English language?
322 00:27:54 Moist. Yuck.
323 00:27:56 When was the last time you cried?
324 00:28:01 Can you stay?
325 00:28:05 It's late.
326 00:28:08 Just till I fall asleep.
327 00:28:14 Okay.
328 00:28:16 Thanks.
329 00:28:23 What's your favorite movie?
330 00:28:24 Mmm, Pizza.
331 00:28:25 Favorite TV show?
332 00:28:26 Um, I would have to say my pilot with Kate Berlant
333 00:28:29 that was passed on by every major network and streaming platform.
334 00:28:31 Meanwhile,
335 00:28:32 rapists everywhere continue to freely make up 10.
336 00:28:34 What up, bitch?
337 00:28:35 Dude, I'm so sorry I missed the march.
338 00:28:37 I mean, it's fine. I was just, like, legit worried about you.
339 00:28:40 It was cool, though.
340 00:28:41 They let me speak.
341 00:28:43 I wish you'd been there, but it's fine,
342 00:28:44 I'll send you a link.
343 00:28:45 I know, I'm sorry. I just...
344 00:28:48 It's a long story,
345 00:28:49 but I ended up goin' to Mia's house and--
346 00:28:51 Wait, lol, Mia Reed?
347 00:28:53 What? Yeah.
348 00:28:56 She... She's just been alone
349 00:28:59 and I feel bad.
350 00:29:00 - So I just-- - No, no, no, I mean, it's fine.
351 00:29:02 It's just like random.
352 00:29:04 Is she okay?
353 00:29:05 I mean, she will be.
354 00:29:08 Are you okay?
355 00:29:10 Yeah.
356 00:29:12 Just tired.
357 00:29:16 We wanna know how a 16-year-old can have access
358 00:29:18 to a military assault rifle
359 00:29:21 and that's considered okay?
360 00:29:23 - It's not okay!
361 00:29:24 We want change.
362 00:29:26 We deserve to feel safe going to our own school every day...
363 00:29:53 It feels like so soon.
364 00:29:54 It's been like two weeks.
365 00:29:56 No, I hear you.
366 00:29:57 It's... It's intense, but I just...
367 00:29:59 I don't want us to be ruled by fear,
368 00:30:00 you know?
369 00:30:02 I feel like it'll be less scary
370 00:30:03 if we were together. I gotta go.
371 00:30:04 Okay, love you. Call me later.
372 00:30:05 Hey! Honey, can I come in?
373 00:30:08 You don't have to ask to come in, Mom.
374 00:30:10 Okay.
375 00:30:13 So it sounds like Nick's going back today, huh?
376 00:30:17 Yup. He is.
377 00:30:20 Well...
378 00:30:22 Well, as long as you wanna stay home,
379 00:30:24 you know, your dad and I support that.
380 00:30:28 Thank you.
381 00:30:34 There's just one thing.
382 00:30:42 Were you tired a lot before the incident?
383 00:30:47 LOL.
384 00:30:51 You called it "the incident".
385 00:30:55 No, I guess I'm just always tired.
386 00:30:58 I mean, I guess, that's what caffeine is for.
387 00:31:00 Right?
388 00:31:02 What do you do when you get tired?
389 00:31:05 Sleep for like 14 hours straight.
390 00:31:08 Ooh, I really like watching early seasons
391 00:31:09 of the Kardashians.
392 00:31:11 The OG Hidden Hills shit.
393 00:31:14 That is my vibe!
394 00:31:23 What's this, you're just gonna fax that
395 00:31:25 to my mom or...
396 00:31:26 - Fax? - Yes. Fax.
397 00:31:29 What are you,
398 00:31:30 a time traveler from the '80s?
399 00:31:33 I mean, I had my suspicions
400 00:31:35 when I saw those sneakers,
401 00:31:36 but now I'm pretty convinced.
402 00:31:39 Touche.
403 00:31:41 Touche.
404 00:31:43 Look, I know this whole therapy
405 00:31:45 thing is weird
406 00:31:47 and can be uncomfortable.
407 00:31:48 But everything that you say
408 00:31:49 in here is confidential.
409 00:31:50 And, side note, I actually do really like your shoes.
410 00:31:54 They're very cool.
411 00:31:55 No, I know. Thank you.
412 00:32:00 Are there things that you don't feel comfortable talking
413 00:32:03 to your parents about that maybe you wanna share with me?
414 00:32:11 Yeah.
415 00:32:14 My porn addiction.
416 00:32:16 Okay.
417 00:32:20 I'm so sorry. I'm...
418 00:32:23 When I get nervous,
419 00:32:24 I make really inappropriate jokes, so, my bad.
420 00:32:26 You don't have to be sorry.
421 00:32:28 And you don't have to be nervous.
422 00:32:31 Well, I know that my parents are worried about me
423 00:32:35 and they think I need help.
424 00:32:37 But I get it, and that's fine,
425 00:32:39 but I personally am fine.
426 00:32:42 Like I feel like I'm really good at managing my emotions.
427 00:32:48 What do you mean by that?
428 00:32:51 I'm just very chill.
429 00:32:54 Like a very low-key person.
430 00:32:56 So when it comes to emotional stuff
431 00:32:59 or drama I'm like
432 00:33:00 "Okay, is this really productive?"
433 00:33:04 Yeah. I get it.
434 00:33:07 But you know, just because--
435 00:33:09 It doesn't necessarily mean that someone's being dramatic
436 00:33:13 because they're emotional.
437 00:33:15 You know, for a lot of people,
438 00:33:16 they need to fully experience their emotions,
439 00:33:18 in order to process what they've been through,
440 00:33:20 so that they can begin to heal.
441 00:33:23 It's actually really healthy to show your emotion.
442 00:33:33 I know most people come in here crying
443 00:33:35 about their cheating husbands.
444 00:33:36 Vada, I wanna talk about you.
445 00:33:40 I wanna know how that shooting at your school
446 00:33:42 has made you feel.
447 00:33:48 I feel...
448 00:33:55 It's okay.
449 00:33:58 I mean, it makes sense.
450 00:34:03 I want you to track how you're feeling
451 00:34:05 using this worksheet.
452 00:34:08 So there's questions on there that'll guide you.
453 00:34:09 You don't have to overthink it,
454 00:34:11 it's just basically there to hold space for you to...
455 00:34:13 To understand whatever emotions may come up.
456 00:34:18 All you have to do is try and feel.
457 00:34:19 That's it.
458 00:34:21 No matter what those feelings are.
459 00:34:23 Then you can bring it back next session
460 00:34:25 and we'll go through it.
461 00:34:27 Or you know, you can fax it to me!
462 00:34:28 If that's easier for you.
463 00:34:33 She said you were incredibly bright, and smart, and funny.
464 00:34:38 Wait, is she in love with me?
465 00:34:40 Oh, what's the point of goin' to therapy,
466 00:34:41 if they're just gonna tell their parents
467 00:34:43 everything they said after?
468 00:34:44 Honey, she didn't tell me anything.
469 00:34:46 She gave me a general assessment of how the session went.
470 00:34:48 - That's all.
471 00:34:49 - She thought you were doing really well,
472 00:34:50 considering what you went through.
473 00:34:52 - Excuse me? - Amelia!
474 00:34:53 She was on speakerphone. It's not like I was trying to listen.
475 00:34:57 I'm sorry. Whatever.
476 00:34:59 Do I need to go again?
477 00:35:00 Because it sounds like she thinks everything is fine.
478 00:35:02 Well, I don't know, honey.
479 00:35:03 I mean, do you think you're ready to go back to school?
480 00:35:10 - Aren't you coming with us?
481 00:35:11 - No. Well, I don't know what you want.
482 00:35:13 - I don't know, turkey.
483 00:35:14 - Toasted? I don't care,
484 00:35:16 Mom!
485 00:37:10 We won't live our lives scared to go to school every day.
486 00:37:13 We can't accept a world in which the federal government
487 00:37:16 thinks American high school students getting gunned down
488 00:37:19 in their classrooms isn't a priority.
489 00:37:21 We won't accept that
490 00:37:22 our leaders have NRA money in their pockets
491 00:37:23 and our blood on their hands.
492 00:37:26 We want real change.
493 00:37:27 We want real leadership,
494 00:37:29 honest politics that make our schools a safe place
495 00:37:30 for us to learn and grow.
496 00:37:33 And we want it before it's too late.
497 00:37:35 Can I have some wine?
498 00:37:36 That was Nick Feinstein,
499 00:37:37 one of the several surviving students.
500 00:38:04 Does it get stuck on your fingers?
501 00:38:06 Yeah.
502 00:38:07 I don't know, it's gonna be good, you know?
503 00:38:13 - You just gotta get in it, you know?
504 00:38:14 - Yeah, like that?
505 00:38:19 - It's the shoulders. - It's all in the shoulders.
506 00:38:21 - Like you can't do it without the shoulders.
507 00:38:23 - Okay, my bad.
508 00:38:25 I feel like that felt right. - Yeah.
509 00:38:28 Yeah, I think so. - Like now it feels ready.
510 00:38:29 - I think if you did it anymore, it'd be overkill.
511 00:38:31 - Okay. Okay.
512 00:38:35 Oh, where did it go?
513 00:38:42 It wasn't enough.
514 00:38:43 No, you definitely have to grind it way more.
515 00:38:45 I need more?
516 00:38:47 Little more.
517 00:38:49 Ooh, yeah. Stoner vibes.
518 00:38:53 It's gonna be good.
519 00:38:54 - So good? - So good.
520 00:38:55 Can't wait?
521 00:38:56 Can't wait. Are you getting pumped?
522 00:38:57 Go! Go! Go! Go!
523 00:39:00 This is it.
524 00:39:04 Look at us.
525 00:39:06 - Who'd have thought?
526 00:39:07 - Who'd have thought?
527 00:39:08 That is fat.
528 00:39:10 Why do you trust me?
529 00:39:12 'Cause you've smoked before.
530 00:39:15 - Okay. Not like too much.
531 00:39:17 - It's so thick.
532 00:39:20 Is it ever too much?
533 00:39:22 - We'll find out.
534 00:39:23 - Stoner thoughts.
535 00:39:26 - Hey, did you just say "stoner thoughts"?
536 00:39:27 - Yes, I did!
537 00:39:35 It's kinda thick.
538 00:39:36 - Curvy queen.
539 00:39:38 So beautiful!
540 00:39:39 - She has curves. - Holy,
541 00:39:40 how do I?-- - Do the honors.
542 00:39:41 - No, just... Just... No. - Do I--
543 00:39:43 Is this cigarette or is it like this?
544 00:39:45 - Cigarette? Weed? - You choose.
545 00:39:46 - Weed? Cigarette? Weed?
546 00:39:47 - You choose. You choose.
547 00:39:49 Wait, other--
548 00:39:55 Okay. This is it.
549 00:40:01 Yo, it has gotten so bad though, like so bad,
550 00:40:03 to the point where they're cutting the elephant tusks off
551 00:40:06 before they release them,
552 00:40:08 so like the poachers can't kill them.
553 00:40:09 So, it's like, "Okay, they don't have tusks,
554 00:40:11 but like at least, they're alive." You know?
555 00:40:13 It's so messed up!
556 00:40:15 No, and then it makes me think about the uh,
557 00:40:17 what's his name?
558 00:40:18 The Jimmy John's founder?
559 00:40:20 Apparently, he's like some trophy hunter.
560 00:40:22 But the thing
561 00:40:23 about that one is like I don't know if I have the right to be mad about that,
562 00:40:25 'cause I don't know if it's true or not.
563 00:40:27 So every time I see it, I'm like,
564 00:40:29 "Is this real?
565 00:40:30 Or is it like this fake news?"
566 00:40:31 Like, "Can I trust this meme?"
567 00:40:36 Can you be honest with me for like 2.5 seconds?
568 00:40:39 - Am I being annoying?
569 00:40:42 Because personally for me,
570 00:40:43 I feel like this weed
571 00:40:44 is making me a little bit chatty.
572 00:40:45 Like I don't even feel sad at this point,
573 00:40:46 I'm just chatty.
574 00:40:49 I don't know, is that bad?
575 00:40:50 What about you, what do you feel?
576 00:40:52 I feel chill.
577 00:40:56 You always feel chill.
578 00:41:06 I feel nothing.
579 00:41:10 - Fuck!
580 00:41:23 - I hate weed.
581 00:41:32 I hope that's not your dinner.
582 00:41:34 Yup.
583 00:41:36 Ew, Vada.
584 00:41:38 Where's your sister?
585 00:41:40 Um, filming a nighttime routine for her YouTube channel.
586 00:41:43 Don't ask.
587 00:41:45 Do you think we should take her phone away?
588 00:41:47 No, but you should probably get that app
589 00:41:48 where you can see
590 00:41:50 everything she does online.
591 00:41:51 That exists? Who knew!
592 00:41:54 Wow, where we'd be without you?
593 00:42:00 So Vada, honey, I was um...
594 00:42:05 I wanted to talk to you about school.
595 00:42:11 What's up?
596 00:42:12 Well, I don't want you to fall too far behind.
597 00:42:14 I won't.
598 00:42:15 Well, you can't stay home forever.
599 00:42:17 Why not?
600 00:42:20 Sure, I just think
601 00:42:21 that the longer you stay home,
602 00:42:23 the harder it's gonna be for you to go back.
603 00:42:27 All...
604 00:42:29 All I want is what's best for you.
605 00:42:32 I wanna see that sparkle back.
606 00:42:40 You know, Amelia got her period.
607 00:42:43 What?
608 00:42:45 - When? - Forever ago.
609 00:42:47 Guess she just didn't want you to know.
610 00:43:00 My mom's tryin' to make me go back to school.
611 00:43:04 Fuck.
612 00:43:06 When are you gonna go back?
613 00:43:09 I don't know.
614 00:43:10 My dads said I could do homeschooling
615 00:43:12 as long as I want.
616 00:43:15 Lucky you.
617 00:43:21 I'm gonna try and get some sleep.
618 00:43:23 Goodnight.
619 00:43:26 Night!
620 00:43:46 Get out of the building and far away from it as you can.
621 00:43:49 Next, you need to find...
622 00:44:01 Always remember these three things.
623 00:44:35 That should be enough for today.
624 00:44:37 You can basically just review your notes for the test.
625 00:44:40 Again, if I've talked about it,
626 00:44:42 it'll be on the test.
627 00:44:43 And guys, remember,
628 00:44:45 I said, "No phones during classes, please."
629 00:45:11 Shit.
630 00:45:15 Oh, you bitch.
631 00:45:19 You dumb fucking bitch.
632 00:45:25 It was a fucking soda can!
633 00:45:29 Dumb fucking stupid--
634 00:45:31 So today at PE,
635 00:45:32 Jack Booth was whopping the beanbag
636 00:45:34 and one hit me in the forearm,
637 00:45:35 and the PE teacher saw it, and didn't say one word.
638 00:45:37 And I was like,
639 00:45:38 "Okay, you're terrible at about your job."
640 00:45:40 I'm sure he's not terrible at his job,
641 00:45:41 Amelia.
642 00:45:42 Dad, he's protected by union and tenure.
643 00:45:44 That's the only reason he's still there.
644 00:45:47 How about you, Vada? How was...
645 00:45:49 How was your first day back?
646 00:45:53 Just low-key.
647 00:45:56 So, is everyone settling in okay?
648 00:45:59 I don't know,
649 00:46:00 it's... It's heavy,
650 00:46:01 but I think everybody's just tryin' to move on.
651 00:46:04 Good. That's good. I'm so glad.
652 00:46:08 Yeah, it's amazing.
653 00:46:11 Ugh, I'm so full.
654 00:46:12 Finish your salad.
655 00:46:14 It's wilted.
656 00:46:16 It's good for you. Finish it.
657 00:46:17 I just can't do arugula, Dad.
658 00:46:19 It's the texture!
659 00:46:32 Hey.
660 00:46:36 Uh, hey.
661 00:46:39 Do you have any E?
662 00:46:42 Uh, what?
663 00:46:48 How much do you want?
664 00:48:10 There's gonna be a quiz, okay? Um...
665 00:48:15 May I go to the restroom?
666 00:48:17 Sure.
667 00:48:21 Okay, so make sure that you are studying.
668 00:48:23 You have to know the difference
669 00:48:24 I'm not gonna help you on this when you have a pop...
670 00:48:27 quiz for this on Friday.
671 00:48:55 - Nick.
672 00:49:42 Vada, Vada!
673 00:49:44 Oh my God, Vada! Hey!
674 00:49:45 Hey, hey, hey! Vada, what'd you take?
675 00:49:47 I hate it here.
676 00:49:49 Vada, what're you doing? Hey,
677 00:49:50 what'd you take?
678 00:49:52 Hey, what's on your face?
679 00:49:53 Vada, come on! Spaghetti.
680 00:49:55 No.
681 00:49:56 Hey, you need to get your shit together
682 00:49:57 before someone sees you. Come on!
683 00:49:58 Ready? We're going. We're going!
684 00:50:00 We're going, okay.
685 00:50:06 Is it at least a good high?
686 00:50:12 Is that an elbow?
687 00:50:19 Why's your mouth all blue?
688 00:50:20 Jesus, Millie, what do you want?
689 00:50:24 A pen exploded in my mouth.
690 00:50:26 Oh, that happened to me once, too,
691 00:50:28 but like it was a marker.
692 00:50:29 Good story, what do you want?
693 00:50:32 Nothing.
694 00:51:05 Motherfucker.
695 00:51:10 Shit.
696 00:51:19 Oh, okay, so I guess you weren't playing.
697 00:51:22 What does that mean?
698 00:51:24 Let me read you this text.
699 00:51:27 "Uh, Q, I did drugs,"
700 00:51:28 with a Z, by the way.
701 00:51:30 That was the Z on the drugs.
702 00:51:32 Uh, "And I'm YOLOing hard.
703 00:51:34 Hit me up, honey.
704 00:51:35 Let's party."
705 00:51:36 And then you did this emoji,
706 00:51:38 and then this emoji,
707 00:51:41 and then a hockey stick.
708 00:51:42 You just spammed, uh, spammed emojis.
709 00:51:45 No, I did not.
710 00:51:47 Yeah, yeah, you did.
711 00:51:48 But uh, now why'd you do the drugs, uh, with the Z?
712 00:51:51 Dude, I literally don't know,
713 00:51:54 so what had happened was...
714 00:51:56 Is, um...
715 00:51:58 I was walking past Dan Bonavure,
716 00:52:00 and I was like, "Okay,
717 00:52:03 I know he's a dealer.
718 00:52:04 I know he has E.
719 00:52:06 I'm gonna take some like right now."
720 00:52:08 Oh shit, okay. Uh, and how're...
721 00:52:09 How're you feelin' now?
722 00:52:12 To be determined.
723 00:52:14 Well, I'm here if you need me.
724 00:52:19 What are you doing later?
725 00:52:22 'Cause I was just gonna be low-key
726 00:52:23 and like watch a movie or something.
727 00:52:25 You should come by.
728 00:52:26 Okay. And I'll bring the acid.
729 00:52:28 Goodbye.
730 00:52:35 So is he your boyfriend?
731 00:52:37 What are you making?
732 00:52:38 Slime. And don't avoid the question.
733 00:52:41 This is way too juicy.
734 00:52:43 You've literally never had a boy over that was straight before.
735 00:52:46 Oh, sorry, sorry.
736 00:52:47 I shouldn't assume his sexual orientation.
737 00:52:49 So like how does he identify?
738 00:52:51 You're asking way too many questions.
739 00:52:53 Vada, you are gonna stay in the living room, right?
740 00:52:56 No, I was thinking we're gonna snuggle in the dark
741 00:52:57 in my room.
742 00:52:58 Yes, Mom!
743 00:52:59 I was just asking.
744 00:53:03 Please don't embarrass me.
745 00:53:04 I'm serious, Amelia.
746 00:53:06 Oh my God.
747 00:53:10 No! No, no, no, don't go in the river!
748 00:53:12 - Why is he going in the river? - I don't know.
749 00:53:13 This is the saddest shit I have ever seen in my life.
750 00:53:16 This is terrible!
751 00:53:18 This is so bad!
752 00:53:19 Why would they let kids watch this?
753 00:53:20 Yeah, you said you wanted to watch this.
754 00:53:22 - I cannot... You picked this.
755 00:53:23 - You said this was your fa-- I gave you options. I gave you options--
756 00:53:26 - Come on. - And you chose this one. What are you guys laughing at?
757 00:53:31 Amelia!
758 00:53:32 Sorry, sorry!
759 00:53:33 I just wanted to let you guys know that the slime is almost ready.
760 00:53:36 If you wanna try it, I'll allow it.
761 00:53:37 I love slime.
762 00:53:39 I wanna try. Okay!
763 00:53:40 Do you want blue or red?
764 00:53:41 Blue, please.
765 00:53:42 Vada? I don't...
766 00:53:44 Red. I don't care.
767 00:53:46 Coming right up!
768 00:53:50 I am so sorry. She's so cute.
769 00:53:53 Do you wanna watch The Staircase?
770 00:53:55 - Do you know what that is? - No, what's The Staircase?
771 00:53:56 It's this white guy,
772 00:53:58 who murders his second wife,
773 00:53:59 and probably his first wife,
774 00:54:00 and gets away with both.
775 00:54:02 Oh, a tale as old as time.
776 00:54:04 Tale as old as time,
777 00:54:05 really? Yeah.
778 00:54:06 Wait, no, have you seen the memes of like you know,
779 00:54:08 all these women are obsessed with these murder docs,
780 00:54:11 people have like taken these photos of the Stepford Wives
781 00:54:13 you know, with the smile, with the knife?
782 00:54:14 - It's like-- - Nah, I haven't seen--
783 00:54:16 Uh, and it says, "Murder me, Daddy."
784 00:54:18 Nah, I haven't seen that.
785 00:54:19 You've never seen that?
786 00:54:20 It's everywhere.
787 00:54:22 Check your timeline, dude.
788 00:54:25 It's really funny.
789 00:54:31 Everything okay?
790 00:54:35 Is everything alright?
791 00:54:36 Yeah, uh, I'm sorry. I just have to go home right now.
792 00:54:42 I'm sorry, but you know, uh, family stuff.
793 00:54:45 Yeah, don't even apologize. That's totally fine.
794 00:54:50 Yeah, um,
795 00:54:52 honestly, I just can't believe that
796 00:54:53 you're gonna leave alone to watch
797 00:54:54 this cat flow down the river all by myself.
798 00:54:57 Oh, you're actually gonna finish it?
799 00:54:58 I have to! I have to see what happens!
800 00:55:00 Okay, well, uh, text me and let me know, you know, what happens.
801 00:55:08 I hope everything's okay at home.
802 00:55:11 You know how it is.
803 00:55:13 Yeah.
804 00:55:15 I'll see you.
805 00:55:35 No, no, no, no, no
806 00:55:38 - You don't trust me? - No!
807 00:55:39 - You don't trust me? - No, mom!
808 00:55:41 - You don't trust me? - Oh my God.
809 00:55:42 - You don't trust me? - Stop! Stop!
810 00:55:44 No, now let me see which one you have.
811 00:55:46 - No, no, no, no, no, no. - Stop! Stop.
812 00:55:48 - But this one, I heard this would be better.
813 00:55:50 - That smells like strawberries. No, that's too--
814 00:55:51 No, smell, smell. Smell, smell. Smell.
815 00:55:55 Oh! Ew! - Disgusting, I know.
816 00:55:56 Oh God! - You're so bad.
817 00:56:01 This one does smell good, though.
818 00:56:02 Just take a little sniff. Come on.
819 00:56:11 - Ow, Jesus!
820 00:56:14 - V! - What?
821 00:56:15 - Let me in! - No.
822 00:56:17 You never lock the door.
823 00:56:19 What are you doing in there?
824 00:56:20 None of your business!
825 00:56:46 Are you wearing my lipstick?
826 00:56:48 What? No.
827 00:56:50 Can you tell Mom I don't need a ride?
828 00:56:51 Nick's gonna take me.
829 00:56:53 Only if you tell me
830 00:56:54 why you're wearing my lipstick.
831 00:56:55 I think those fake glasses are messing with your vision, dude.
832 00:56:59 Well, you know, everyone wears fake glasses now.
833 00:57:01 It's socially acceptable!
834 00:57:04 Okay, wait, serious question.
835 00:57:06 Okay.
836 00:57:07 Now Drake?
837 00:57:09 Degrassi Drake?
838 00:57:10 Choose.
839 00:57:12 I like wheelchair Drake.
840 00:57:13 Wheelchair Jimmy!
841 00:57:15 - Jimmy! - Jimmy!
842 00:57:18 Jimmy!
843 00:57:21 Jimmy!
844 00:57:25 You're, like, yodeling.
845 00:57:27 You probably didn't know this about me,
846 00:57:29 but I'm the best yodeler in my family.
847 00:57:31 Prove it!
848 00:57:32 You can't put me on the spot like that,
849 00:57:35 'cause then that's just like, you know...
850 00:57:36 This is like a little preview.
851 00:57:37 - Yeah, this is like warm-up. - Okay.
852 00:57:39 You know, but I'm gonna get you when you're not even ready.
853 00:57:41 And you're gonna be like...
854 00:57:46 Hey, you know, this might sound weird,
855 00:57:49 'cause like I haven't known you for that long,
856 00:57:52 but, like, I feel so comfortable with you.
857 00:57:54 Like we're bonded or something.
858 00:57:59 Same.
859 00:58:05 When'd you lose your virginity?
860 00:58:10 I haven't.
861 00:58:11 You haven't had sex?
862 00:58:12 No.
863 00:58:13 Do you mean you haven't had today?
864 00:58:15 - What? - You dance like such a fuck princess!
865 00:58:18 What? No, I do not!
866 00:58:20 - Yes, you do! - What does that even mean?
867 00:58:22 It means exactly what it sounds like it means!
868 00:58:24 You know, th... The fuck princess! - Nah. no.
869 00:58:26 - Okay, I get...
870 00:58:27 Okay, that's on me. - You never...
871 00:58:28 - Never assume.
872 00:58:30 Wait, like, have you?
873 00:58:35 What?
874 00:58:36 Obviously not!
875 00:58:40 I am so awkward
876 00:58:43 and like embarra... Like, no!
877 00:58:45 Like, oh my God!
878 00:58:48 I will say this.
879 00:58:49 I feel like high school sex is very '90s.
880 00:58:52 Okay. And waiting until college is more now.
881 00:58:57 I mean, I feel like I'm probably gonna wait until I'm like in love.
882 00:59:05 Oh, that's really sweet.
883 00:59:08 Or when you go on tour with Drake one day.
884 00:59:13 You just let him have it.
885 00:59:17 What's wheelchair Jimmy like in bed?
886 01:00:26 What are you thinkin' about?
887 01:00:43 Hmm?
888 01:00:45 Okay, I know you're a woman of very little words,
889 01:00:49 but I know you got some deep shit happening
890 01:00:53 - in this nice little head of yours.
891 01:00:57 Beep.
892 01:01:00 God.
893 01:01:03 Anything?
894 01:01:06 Okay.
895 01:01:09 Let's say this. Let's say you die tomorrow.
896 01:01:13 Okay?
897 01:01:15 And what if you die sad,
898 01:01:16 'cause you regret not saying
899 01:01:17 what you wanted to say?
900 01:01:21 Then what?
901 01:01:32 I can't say it.
902 01:01:34 Why?
903 01:02:09 Is this okay?
904 01:03:36 Where have you been?
905 01:03:37 We've been freaking out!
906 01:03:39 I was at Nick's.
907 01:03:40 Nick's been calling all morning wondering
908 01:03:42 where you are.
909 01:03:47 Vada, your phone was dead.
910 01:03:48 We didn't know if something terrible had happened to you
911 01:03:50 or-- I'm sorry. I'm fine.
912 01:03:53 The perfect child tells a fat one.
913 01:03:55 She better lose screen time for that one, Dad.
914 01:03:58 Vada, come back here!
915 01:04:01 Vada!
916 01:04:03 I told you, you don't have to know!
917 01:04:05 - Vada - Vada, don't be rude.
918 01:04:07 Vada, what were you doing last night?
919 01:04:09 Nothing, Jesus!
920 01:04:12 Are you... Are you seeing someone?
921 01:04:13 LOL, seeing someone. No!
922 01:04:16 Uh, I'll do it... I'll do it.
923 01:04:22 If you're gonna be spending the night at someone's house, Vada--
924 01:04:25 I'm not having sex, Mom!
925 01:04:29 - Okay. - Oh, my God!
926 01:04:30 What are you doing?
927 01:04:38 Last night, I slept over at my friend Mia's house
928 01:04:41 - and I got drunk. - You got drunk?
929 01:04:43 Yeah, Mom, I got drunk.
930 01:04:46 I am 16 years old and I drink alcohol,
931 01:04:49 and here's the thing, I don't even like drinking.
932 01:04:51 I was just tryin' to live in the moment,
933 01:04:53 and feel shit, and YOLO or something, okay?
934 01:04:59 So...
935 01:05:06 Now if you excuse me, I am hungover as shit
936 01:05:08 and I'm gonna go barf in the shower.
937 01:05:13 Who's Mia?
938 01:05:15 Who's Mia?
939 01:05:30 I'm not even tryin' to be rude, I'm just--
940 01:05:32 I'm super busy and I don't have the time. So.
941 01:05:36 Okay.
942 01:05:41 I'm sorry I never called you back,
943 01:05:43 but you didn't have to get me in trouble, dude.
944 01:05:45 Vada, I was just worried about you.
945 01:05:47 When I didn't hear back from you,
946 01:05:49 I felt like I had to call your mom,
947 01:05:50 'cause the last time I had seen you,
948 01:05:52 you had literally done drugs at school.
949 01:05:54 So I was like, "Okay, cool. Maybe she's like
950 01:05:56 having a serotonin drop from hell
951 01:05:59 and she's like suicidal on a bridge
952 01:06:00 somewhere and...
953 01:06:03 Then to hear like how freaked your family
954 01:06:04 was all night, I just...
955 01:06:06 I don't know, I hoped that
956 01:06:08 whatever you went
957 01:06:09 and did was worth everything you put them through.
958 01:06:11 But, you know what?
959 01:06:12 I'm guessing uh, it's more likely you were with Mia Reed somewhere,
960 01:06:14 acting like nothing happened.
961 01:06:16 Why're you being like this?
962 01:06:19 Because I've waited for you, Vada.
963 01:06:22 For a month, I've given you
964 01:06:24 space and love to heal.
965 01:06:27 But I've been dealing with this my own way!
966 01:06:29 You haven't dealt with anything,
967 01:06:30 that's the problem!
968 01:06:32 All I wanna do is try my hardest to stop this
969 01:06:33 from ever happening again.
970 01:06:35 Like why is that so hard for you to understand?
971 01:06:39 That's not fucking fair, Nick.
972 01:06:42 None of this is fair, Vada.
973 01:06:48 Yeah, yeah. Mmm-hmm, go be with Mia.
974 01:06:51 She's gonna save the world with her hot ass.
975 01:06:53 Fuck you, Nick.
976 01:06:57 Nice.
977 01:07:02 He's just hurtin', I think we all are.
978 01:07:05 He was so cruel about it!
979 01:07:09 Yeah, but you know, he's under a lot of pressure.
980 01:07:12 He has to be the face of this,
981 01:07:13 just act brave,
982 01:07:15 but, well, he's scared, too.
983 01:07:17 You know, fear makes people act crazy.
984 01:07:22 Okay, I...
985 01:07:24 Like I'm sorry for like calling you
986 01:07:26 and dumping all of this on you,
987 01:07:28 especially, because it's been the hardest on you.
988 01:07:32 It's hard on everyone.
989 01:07:38 I think for me, you know, when it hurts too much,
990 01:07:40 I think
991 01:07:41 about how this can't be for nothing.
992 01:07:44 Like, oh, we won't even let this be for not... Like, it...
993 01:07:46 It can't be for nothing, you know?
994 01:07:49 Fuck. Yeah.
995 01:07:57 Tell me about your brother.
996 01:08:03 I just wanna know more about him.
997 01:08:10 He was, uh, real quiet
998 01:08:13 when you first met him.
999 01:08:16 He watched everything now, you know.
1000 01:08:19 Like, he'd be like,
1001 01:08:20 "Oh, that girl is gonna go home
1002 01:08:21 with that guy and that guy
1003 01:08:22 is gonna go home with that girl and..."
1004 01:08:24 Like, he was always right.
1005 01:08:27 He was funny.
1006 01:08:29 Like always making me laugh.
1007 01:08:36 He, uh...
1008 01:08:40 He sounds dope.
1009 01:08:48 I feel him.
1010 01:08:50 Now I know this sounds crazy to say like...
1011 01:08:54 I just... I know he's still with me.
1012 01:08:58 He's not gonna let me go back and be sad,
1013 01:09:00 he's not gonna let me go forward and freak out.
1014 01:09:03 He keeps me here.
1015 01:09:06 He keeps me calm.
1016 01:09:11 I think he's definitely still here.
1017 01:09:15 Lot of people don't ask me about him.
1018 01:09:17 They think I'mma like cry or somethin'.
1019 01:09:24 Um, well, thank you.
1020 01:09:30 You can always talk about him around me.
1021 01:09:50 Wait, wait.
1022 01:09:51 I'm sorry, I... What's wrong?
1023 01:09:54 I'm just going through a lot right now, it's just...
1024 01:09:57 I just don't know if I'm in the right headspace right now.
1025 01:10:02 - I'm sorry. - Oh, my God.
1026 01:10:05 - I am so sorry! - No, you're okay.
1027 01:10:07 I'm... No, of course, you are. I'm so sorry.
1028 01:10:08 You're perfect, I like you, it's just...
1029 01:10:09 - I'm so sorry. - V, I swear, you didn't do anything wrong.
1030 01:10:11 I am so sorry, okay? No, don't be sorry,
1031 01:10:13 it's... It's not like that.
1032 01:10:15 I am so sorry. I am so sorry.
1033 01:10:49 I can't sleep.
1034 01:11:02 You know,
1035 01:11:03 I can always see where you are on Find A Friend
1036 01:11:05 when your phone isn't dead.
1037 01:11:07 You better delete me off of that.
1038 01:11:10 Like tomorrow,
1039 01:11:11 so I don't tell Mom
1040 01:11:12 about your Finsta.
1041 01:11:13 Fine!
1042 01:11:16 Why do you care where I am?
1043 01:11:17 I don't.
1044 01:11:22 You're always at a house in North Bay.
1045 01:11:25 Why?
1046 01:11:26 It's where my friend Mia lives.
1047 01:11:37 V, I'm scared.
1048 01:11:41 Of what?
1049 01:11:45 What if...
1050 01:11:53 What if a shooter comes
1051 01:11:55 to my school next?
1052 01:11:58 It won't happen.
1053 01:12:00 How do you know?
1054 01:12:12 Sorry, I almost got you killed in a shooting.
1055 01:12:20 What're you talking about?
1056 01:12:22 If I hadn't texted you
1057 01:12:23 about my stupid period,
1058 01:12:25 you wouldn't have left the classroom.
1059 01:12:27 You would've been safe.
1060 01:12:30 - You could've died.
1061 01:12:31 - That's not true.
1062 01:12:32 Yes, it is!
1063 01:12:33 Quinton's brother died,
1064 01:12:34 'cause he was walking in the same hallway.
1065 01:12:40 It wasn't safe anywhere
1066 01:12:43 Definitely wasn't your fault.
1067 01:12:44 Then why have you been so mad at me?
1068 01:12:49 I haven't been mad at you.
1069 01:12:52 Why do you keep thinking that?
1070 01:12:53 Because...
1071 01:12:56 You're never home anymore.
1072 01:12:59 You never talk to me.
1073 01:13:02 We never went to dinner
1074 01:13:03 to talk about...
1075 01:13:06 periods.
1076 01:13:12 I'm sorry, but I'm definitely not mad at you.
1077 01:13:20 Can I tell you something
1078 01:13:22 that I've not told anybody before?
1079 01:13:29 We were in the bathroom.
1080 01:13:33 And the stall where we hid,
1081 01:13:36 there was a moment where I...
1082 01:13:38 really thought I was gonna die.
1083 01:13:42 And it was the scariest moment of my life.
1084 01:13:47 And the only person I could think of was you.
1085 01:13:52 Do you remember when I sent you
1086 01:13:53 that "I love you, too"?
1087 01:13:57 I thought I only had time
1088 01:13:58 to text one person,
1089 01:13:59 so I texted you.
1090 01:14:03 I didn't know that.
1091 01:14:08 You're my favorite person on Earth, Millie.
1092 01:14:16 Even if you get married one day?
1093 01:14:18 No, fuck a husband.
1094 01:14:21 You're my number one.
1095 01:14:30 Don't let go.
1096 01:15:26 I don't know what's wrong with me.
1097 01:15:29 Nothing is wrong with you.
1098 01:15:31 Oh, Dad, I...
1099 01:15:34 I feel so...
1100 01:15:37 empty.
1101 01:15:38 Vada, you went through something
1102 01:15:41 no one should ever have to go through.
1103 01:15:48 I can't imagine how scared you feel.
1104 01:15:57 Life's fuckin' hard.
1105 01:15:59 I'm sorry for saying "fucking".
1106 01:16:02 No, you're right.
1107 01:16:04 Life's fucking hard!
1108 01:16:06 Dad.
1109 01:16:08 What? No one's around.
1110 01:16:09 Try it, it feels good.
1111 01:16:12 Life is fucking crazy!
1112 01:16:19 Yeah!
1113 01:16:21 Fuck!
1114 01:16:24 Life's fucking confusing!
1115 01:16:36 I can't fucking feel anything!
1116 01:16:39 Good one.
1117 01:16:41 Fuck you, Matt Corgan!
1118 01:16:43 Yeah, fuck you!
1119 01:16:47 I'm scared to go to school every day!
1120 01:16:51 I'm scared to take my children to school!
1121 01:16:55 I'm scared to sleep!
1122 01:16:58 I'm scared of...
1123 01:17:00 time!
1124 01:17:03 We're not even swearing anymore, Dad.
1125 01:17:05 Still feels good.
1126 01:17:10 I'm incredibly proud
1127 01:17:12 of how smart and amazing my daughter is!
1128 01:17:17 Dad, don't be fucking cheesy!
1129 01:17:21 - Please!
1130 01:17:24 Never again.
1131 01:18:17 Mia?
1132 01:18:37 Mia?
1133 01:18:51 Oh, my god!
1134 01:18:54 Mia?
1135 01:18:57 - Mia?
1136 01:19:01 My God.
1137 01:19:03 I'm just sweating out.
1138 01:19:05 I thought you were fucking dead, dude.
1139 01:19:07 Don't scare me like that.
1140 01:19:10 Come on.
1141 01:19:11 Come on.
1142 01:19:25 Do you hate me?
1143 01:19:29 No. Why would I hate you?
1144 01:19:36 Just scared the shit out of me.
1145 01:19:46 And I don't regret it.
1146 01:19:50 Just scared
1147 01:19:51 it was gonna like ruin our friendship or something.
1148 01:19:58 Yeah, I was scared of that, too.
1149 01:20:06 Then let's not ruin anything?
1150 01:20:11 Okay.
1151 01:20:34 I think I'm gonna go back to dance tomorrow.
1152 01:20:38 Even though, I'm like literally scared to leave my house,
1153 01:20:41 I know I need to do it.
1154 01:20:42 That's amazing. You totally should.
1155 01:20:49 Well, what are you gonna do?
1156 01:20:51 I'm gonna go with you.
1157 01:20:53 No, you're not.
1158 01:20:54 We never discussed this.
1159 01:20:55 Stop trying to get rid of me!
1160 01:21:00 I am Postmate-ing us frozen yogurt.
1161 01:21:05 I think I actually want some.
1162 01:21:07 Okay, then push.
1163 01:21:12 I like the doodles.
1164 01:21:15 Who's that guy? Is that Harry Potter?
1165 01:21:17 That's Paul Dano.
1166 01:21:19 He's my celebrity crush.
1167 01:21:25 How was this?
1168 01:21:27 Processing through all these emotions?
1169 01:21:30 Good.
1170 01:21:32 I had a lot of ups and downs,
1171 01:21:36 but I feel like I felt everything.
1172 01:21:40 So that's...
1173 01:21:42 It's good, I guess.
1174 01:21:44 I noticed that you used
1175 01:21:45 the word "scared" a few times.
1176 01:21:47 When did you feel the most scared?
1177 01:21:54 Being at school.
1178 01:21:58 I don't feel comfortable being back there.
1179 01:22:01 Can you tell me more about that?
1180 01:22:04 You know, all these kids from my school,
1181 01:22:06 specifically one of my closest friends, Nick,
1182 01:22:10 who I love so much, um...
1183 01:22:14 they've been able to take
1184 01:22:17 what happened, and...
1185 01:22:21 are literally using it to change the world.
1186 01:22:26 Like, they're doing so much amazing stuff
1187 01:22:28 and...
1188 01:22:33 For some reason, I feel like I'm unable to do that.
1189 01:22:40 I feel like it has kind of ended our friendship.
1190 01:22:48 Sucks.
1191 01:22:52 'Cause I really, really miss him.
1192 01:22:55 What are you feeling right now?
1193 01:23:00 I don't know.
1194 01:23:02 Yes, you do.
1195 01:23:13 I feel...
1196 01:23:19 mad.
1197 01:23:23 Mad about what?
1198 01:23:25 I feel mad,
1199 01:23:27 because I had no idea one guy with a gun
1200 01:23:30 could fuck up my life so hard in six minutes.
1201 01:23:35 Fuck up so many lives!
1202 01:23:37 Then I think I should be grateful to be alive.
1203 01:23:42 I feel like, I don't know, maybe there's some weird fucked up reason why
1204 01:23:46 I made it and other people didn't.
1205 01:23:51 Um, but then when you sit back
1206 01:23:54 and you think about it, you realize, "No!
1207 01:23:59 There isn't.
1208 01:24:02 There's no fucking reason."
1209 01:24:05 None of us should've died.
1210 01:24:27 I'm having a really hard time moving on.
1211 01:24:52 Oh, hi.
1212 01:24:54 I'm sorry.
1213 01:24:58 I love you.
1214 01:25:00 Sweetheart, I love you, too.
1215 01:25:03 I'm gonna try to be more honest
1216 01:25:05 with you about my life.
1217 01:25:08 You know what? I would really, really like that.
1218 01:25:17 I've been really struggling.
1219 01:25:20 And I don't know why it's been so hard to tell you like,
1220 01:25:23 'cause I just didn't want you to worry.
1221 01:25:25 And you're right,
1222 01:25:26 I was acting funny that time I was drunk,
1223 01:25:28 because I did have sex with someone.
1224 01:25:32 And I was a little bit stoned,
1225 01:25:33 but not as stoned as I was when I was on E.
1226 01:25:37 Jesus, that was rough.
1227 01:25:38 And the person I was having sex with wasn't the person
1228 01:25:40 that I thought I was maybe gonna be having sex with,
1229 01:25:43 but I'm...
1230 01:25:44 I'm telling you all of this, because
1231 01:25:45 I want you to know that I'm...
1232 01:25:47 I'm never gonna do any of that stuff ever again.
1233 01:25:51 You know, the bad... The bad stuff.
1234 01:26:01 Okay. Well, thank you for uh...
1235 01:26:05 For trusting me.
1236 01:26:07 With this information.
1237 01:26:15 Was that too much? No!
1238 01:26:17 I am...
1239 01:26:20 I'm processing.
1240 01:26:24 Don't worry, it was with a girl.
1241 01:26:27 The sex stuff.
1242 01:26:29 It was with a girl,
1243 01:26:30 so it's not like I'm gonna get pregnant.
1244 01:26:33 That's a bonus, right?
1245 01:26:35 Yeah.
1246 01:26:37 Bonus.
1247 01:26:48 Okay.
1248 01:26:51 I'm... I'm ready to talk about it more now.
