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1 00:00:52 At the age of 26, Ludwig van Beethoven went deaf,
2 00:00:56 ending his career as a successful concert pianist.
3 00:01:00 But determined not to let a little thing like his hearing
4 00:01:03 end his music career,
5 00:01:04 my pal Ludwig became a composer.
6 00:01:07 Turned out the new gig suited him.
7 00:01:10 It's like that old saying,
8 00:01:16 Take my dad.
9 00:01:17 When my little brother, Teddy, was born,
10 00:01:19 he quit his band to get a real job.
11 00:01:20 But then he fell in love with teaching.
12 00:01:24 Now he spends his days in the mosh pit
13 00:01:26 that is high school English class.
14 00:01:28 Or my mom, a riot girl who found her calling
15 00:01:31 as a part-time travel agent and a full-time supermom.
16 00:01:36 These days, she only moshes with Teddy.
17 00:01:37 Scooch over, dude.
18 00:01:41 And then there's me.
19 00:01:43 I thought I knew where I was going.
20 00:01:45 I thought I had it all mapped out.
21 00:01:48 Turns out, I had no idea.
22 00:01:51 Your coffee, maestro.
23 00:01:53 - Thank you. - Me too. I want some!
24 00:01:55 No way, dude.
25 00:01:56 You don't give crack to somebody who's already on speed.
26 00:01:58 Don't worry, we switched him to decaf.
27 00:02:00 - Whoa. As long as you don't switch me. - No, baby,
28 00:02:02 that would be child abuse.
29 00:02:04 Hey, did you see this?
30 00:02:10 I got a Google Alert about it yesterday.
31 00:02:12 It's the most we've seen of him in a few months.
32 00:02:14 I know.
33 00:02:18 Oh, my God, is he really opening up for The Shins?
34 00:02:20 Yeah. When they play in Portland tonight.
35 00:02:23 That's huge.
36 00:02:24 Yeah, I know. It's kind of crazy.
37 00:02:27 Everything he's ever wanted's actually coming true.
38 00:02:29 I know you guys haven't been talking much lately.
39 00:02:30 Mom, I really don't want to talk about it, okay?
40 00:02:32 I'm just saying that if you miss each other it's okay to reach out.
41 00:02:35 Okay!
42 00:02:37 Come on. If you guys want a ride, we got to go.
43 00:02:38 Now let's update you on the snowstorm and school closures.
44 00:02:41 Baby, turn that up.
45 00:02:42 Portland and Clackamas counties
46 00:02:43 are now calling for a snow day.
47 00:02:45 All schools in Portland and Clackamas districts will be closed for the day.
48 00:02:48 Yes! That means no school, kids.
49 00:02:50 Well, ain't that a bitch?
50 00:02:51 School's out forever!
51 00:02:56 Did you really just quote Alice Cooper?
52 00:02:58 My God, son, have I taught you nothing?
53 00:03:00 Let's go make a snow monster.
54 00:03:02 We can try. it looks like it's not really sticking out there, though.
55 00:03:05 You guys are all playing hooky without me?
56 00:03:07 It's not hooky if it's a snow day.
57 00:03:08 So not fair.
58 00:03:09 - Life isn't fair. - That is true.
59 00:03:11 But sometimes you got to, like, noodge it a little.
60 00:03:15 It'd be bad to go to work with this cough,
61 00:03:17 spreading my germs around.
62 00:03:25 You know how when you meet someone
63 00:03:26 and they just already are the person they're meant to be?
64 00:03:29 That was Adam.
65 00:03:31 Nobody outside Portland had ever heard of his band.
66 00:03:33 But he already was somebody.
67 00:03:36 Everybody knew who he was.
68 00:03:41 Me?
69 00:03:43 Not so much.
70 00:04:02 What class was this?
71 00:04:04 Advanced Composition.
72 00:04:06 What's she doing?
73 00:04:07 She's more advanced.
74 00:04:10 Adam. What's up?
75 00:04:17 I think everyone left.
76 00:04:21 Let's get some lunch. I am Starvin' Marvin.
77 00:04:24 Oh, and, um, by the way,
78 00:04:25 that Adam rocker dude was totally checking you out.
79 00:04:28 Adam Wilde saw me geeking out?
80 00:04:30 He saw you blissing out and he was into it.
81 00:04:32 No, he isn't "into it" Kim.
82 00:04:35 Uh, yeah, he is, Mia.
83 00:04:37 He's way into you.
84 00:04:38 Do not take his picture, Kim.
85 00:04:40 I'm not an amateur.
86 00:04:45 You're welcome.
87 00:04:49 Over the next couple of weeks
88 00:04:51 I noticed Adam hanging around while I was practicing my cello.
89 00:04:58 You're Mia.
90 00:05:00 - Yeah. - Good.
91 00:05:02 I just wanted to clear that up.
92 00:05:03 There were rumors.
93 00:05:04 I'm Adam.
94 00:05:05 I kno... Um...
95 00:05:07 Hi.
96 00:05:08 Wow.
97 00:05:10 Yo-Yo Ma much?
98 00:05:12 Kinda.
99 00:05:13 What's the deal with that?
100 00:05:14 Is that, like, street or something? Yo-Yo Mama?
101 00:05:16 It's Chinese.
102 00:05:17 And don't mock the master.
103 00:05:19 - It's blasphemous. - I'm sorry, my bad.
104 00:05:22 Hey, I got some tickets to see a cellist.
105 00:05:24 Really?
106 00:05:25 Yeah. You interested?
107 00:05:29 You're asking me on a date?
108 00:05:31 Yeah. Well, a friend of the family had the tickets and can't go.
109 00:05:35 Anyhow, it's this Friday. I could pick you up.
110 00:05:39 What?
111 00:05:40 You can't hide in that rehearsal room forever.
112 00:05:42 It's too late.
113 00:05:44 I see you.
114 00:05:47 Hey.
115 00:05:49 I'm Kim.
116 00:05:50 Hi.
117 00:05:53 Okay. I'll see you guys later.
118 00:05:56 Bye.
119 00:05:57 Oh, my God!
120 00:06:00 What?
121 00:06:01 I told you he was into you.
122 00:06:03 No, no. He just had a question about classical music and...
123 00:06:07 Okay.
124 00:06:09 Better be nice to you or else
125 00:06:11 I'll crush him like the bug he is.
126 00:06:13 God, all right, we get it. You're in love! Go away!
127 00:06:17 You got two types of girls in this world, Mia.
128 00:06:19 Girls who have boyfriends in high school...
129 00:06:20 And girls like us who wait till college.
130 00:06:22 So much happier.
131 00:06:26 I'm totally off the hook.
132 00:06:28 What are we doing today, hmm?
133 00:06:30 We can go the farm, visit Henry, Willow and the baby?
134 00:06:33 Stop by my folks' place for a late lunch?
135 00:06:35 Mia, you gonna come with us?
136 00:06:38 I don't know.
137 00:06:39 There's this tricky part of the Beethoven sonata
138 00:06:40 that I've really gotta nail,
139 00:06:44 and, well, the letters were mailed on Friday.
140 00:06:46 Juilliard.
141 00:06:47 The audition was two months ago,
142 00:06:49 but I can still feel it in my fingers.
143 00:06:52 Okay, this is painful to watch.
144 00:06:55 Look, who knows what time the mail's even gonna be delivered today?
145 00:06:57 Come on, you got to come with us.
146 00:07:00 Come on, baby. Pretty soon you're gonna be off to college,
147 00:07:02 no matter where you're going.
148 00:07:03 How many snow days are we gonna be able to spend together?
149 00:07:06 Are you really playing the guilt card right now?
150 00:07:09 We'll let you pick the music.
151 00:07:10 And bribery.
152 00:07:12 Honey, guilt and bribery are the glue that have held
153 00:07:15 parents and teenagers together for generations.
154 00:07:18 Don't fight tradition.
155 00:07:20 Fine.
156 00:07:22 Boom!
157 00:07:25 # I am a passenger #
158 00:07:29 # And I ride and I ride... #
159 00:07:31 I thought you said I'd pick the music.
160 00:07:34 Oh, yah. She's right, Teddy. Fire up the jams, sister.
161 00:07:37 Let's hear something old-school.
162 00:07:38 How 'bout I kick out a few tunes
163 00:07:40 from our favorite Austrian melody maker,
164 00:07:42 Franz Schubert.
165 00:07:44 Not that old-school.
166 00:07:46 Iggy Pop! Iggy Pop!
167 00:07:48 Teddy, you can listen to Iggy on your iPod.
168 00:07:50 But nothing after 1978.
169 00:07:52 - You understand me, young man? - Yes, sir.
170 00:07:55 Well, I choose Ludwig van Beethoven.
171 00:07:57 Surprise.
172 00:08:17 I've always wondered if
173 00:08:19 Mom and Dad were disappointed
174 00:08:20 that I didn't turn out more like them.
175 00:08:22 I tried to. I mean, Mom and I went to all of Dad's shows.
176 00:08:26 Dad's band was called Nasty Bruises.
177 00:08:29 Embarrassing, I know.
178 00:08:31 They were what you might call "big" in our town.
179 00:08:33 And for a while, everyone thought they might get bigger.
180 00:08:39 That was my preschool.
181 00:08:43 But then one day in second grade...
182 00:08:51 I wanna play it.
183 00:08:55 Cellos are crazy expensive.
184 00:08:57 So, I borrowed a crappy one from school.
185 00:09:00 Mom and Dad found a student from a local college to teach me.
186 00:09:03 And I rehearsed day and night.
187 00:09:05 I couldn't get enough.
188 00:09:08 I love her.
189 00:09:10 But I'm about ready to stab my eyeballs out.
190 00:09:12 This is exactly why I could never procreate.
191 00:09:15 Amen, sister.
192 00:09:20 I loved the order.
193 00:09:23 The structure.
194 00:09:25 But what really hooked me was that feeling I got in my chest.
195 00:09:31 It's like my heart was beating with the cello.
196 00:10:01 Dude.
197 00:10:04 She's been at it since this afternoon.
198 00:10:09 You want me to tell her to hang it up for the night?
199 00:10:12 No.
200 00:10:14 You go in there you'd probably get clubbed with a bow.
201 00:10:17 I wouldn't risk it.
202 00:10:21 I wonder where she gets that from.
203 00:10:23 Ah, naw, guys play music for two reasons.
204 00:10:27 To get laid and because they got rage.
205 00:10:30 But mostly to get laid.
206 00:10:33 Well, that's probably not her motivation.
207 00:10:37 No. Exactly.
208 00:10:40 She's not doing it to get anything.
209 00:10:42 She's just doing it out of pure...
210 00:10:51 We made that.
211 00:11:07 The next day, Dad came home with a present.
212 00:11:11 A cello of my very own.
213 00:11:45 Isn't it amazing how life is one thing and then,
214 00:11:48 in an instant, it becomes something else?
215 00:11:51 Like here I am, Mia.
216 00:11:54 The girl who thinks about the cello and Adam
217 00:11:56 and whether a letter is waiting for me at home.
218 00:12:01 And just like that...
219 00:12:58 Get some cribbing in there. Support those columns.
220 00:13:01 We need a full spinal immobilization.
221 00:13:02 Hello?
222 00:13:04 Our resources are good right now.
223 00:13:06 Excuse me!
224 00:13:07 Sir, excuse me?
225 00:13:09 Hello?
226 00:13:18 Mom.
227 00:13:20 Teddy!
228 00:13:22 Dad!
229 00:13:33 We have foreshortening in this left leg.
230 00:13:35 Yeah.
231 00:13:44 Do you wanna get a tube in her now?
232 00:13:46 Just grab the Ambu bag for now.
233 00:13:48 No!
234 00:13:56 Wake up!
235 00:13:58 Wake up.
236 00:14:02 Wake up.
237 00:14:10 Go, one, two, three.
238 00:14:13 Let's move. Her Glasgow Coma's at a seven.
239 00:14:15 Tell Portland to have a trauma team ready.
240 00:14:18 Glasgow Coma? Why do you need a trauma team?
241 00:14:21 One female, late teens, critical, en route to Portland now.
242 00:14:24 One 8-year-old male, conscious.
243 00:14:25 Mom! Dad!
244 00:14:27 Teddy!
245 00:14:28 Let's go, Demetri.
246 00:14:30 Hang in there, baby. We'll be in Portland soon.
247 00:14:46 You okay?
248 00:14:47 No.
249 00:14:48 You wanna hit up my closet?
250 00:14:50 Your closet's terrifying.
251 00:14:53 I don't even wanna go.
252 00:14:55 Come on, he's just a guy, Mia.
253 00:14:57 Yeah, but he's the first guy I've ever gone on a maybe-date with
254 00:15:00 and I don't know whether to wear date clothes or
255 00:15:01 casual clothes or...
256 00:15:03 Just wear, you know, something you feel good in.
257 00:15:06 And if this Adam dude doesn't see how amazing you are,
258 00:15:08 then he's a total...
259 00:15:09 - Shithead.- Yeah.
260 00:15:12 Oh, I think I'm gonna puke.
261 00:15:17 Better before than during.
262 00:15:22 You must be Adam.
263 00:15:23 Uh, yeah. lam, yeah.
264 00:15:25 Nice threads.
265 00:15:26 Come on in. I'm the old man, Denny.
266 00:15:28 I know. You were in Nasty Bruises, right?
267 00:15:31 Oh, wow, you're impressing me already.
268 00:15:33 Well, I have your CDs.
269 00:15:35 You're the one.
270 00:15:36 They make great coasters, right? Come on.
271 00:15:39 Adam's here!
272 00:15:42 Is that Mia?
273 00:15:43 Yeah. That's our little rock and roll.
274 00:15:46 She was Nasty Bruises' original groupie.
275 00:15:49 Oh, no. Is he telling you old war stories?
276 00:15:52 Hey
277 00:15:53 - We should probably go. - 'Kay.
278 00:15:56 'Kay, you kids be careful out there.
279 00:15:57 I hear it gets pretty wild at the symphony.
280 00:15:59 - Goodbye. -Bye.
281 00:16:01 Bye.
282 00:16:02 Your parents seem pretty cool.
283 00:16:04 So they tell me.
284 00:17:03 Seriously, I respect any musician
285 00:17:05 who just leaves it all on the stage like that.
286 00:17:07 She was awesome.
287 00:17:08 Thought you were a little bored there in the beginning.
288 00:17:10 No. That snoring was the lady next to me.
289 00:17:12 I loved every minute of it.
290 00:17:15 All right, Hall, so what's your story?
291 00:17:18 How did parents like yours end up having a kid like you?
292 00:17:23 - Well, I was certainly bred to be a rocker. - Mmm-hmm.
293 00:17:27 But I have this theory that I was switched at birth.
294 00:17:29 Okay. That explains it.
295 00:17:33 No, but seriously.
296 00:17:36 I don't know, I've always kind of felt like
297 00:17:38 this Martian in my family.
298 00:17:42 I don't look like either of my parents.
299 00:17:44 My mom's this tough chick and my dad's all outgoing
300 00:17:49 and I went and chose Beethoven and the cello.
301 00:17:53 When I was eight, I saw this old video
302 00:17:56 of the Ramones playing I Wanna Be Sedated.
303 00:17:59 And it felt like my head exploded.
304 00:18:02 And I was like, "I have to learn to play the guitar."
305 00:18:05 So, my uncle hooked me up with this old Fender.
306 00:18:11 Yeah, that thing saved my life.
307 00:18:26 You didn't really get those tickets from a family friend, did you?
308 00:18:30 That was two weeks of pizza delivery tips.
309 00:18:33 Why?
310 00:18:36 Why me?
311 00:18:37 Because I like to watch you play.
312 00:18:40 You go to another place.
313 00:18:43 And you're beautiful.
314 00:18:48 You get this crease in your forehead right there.
315 00:18:55 Why do I have this feeling you're about to mess up my entire life?
316 00:18:59 A little mess never hurt anybody.
317 00:19:12 A week later, Adam invited me to see his band play.
318 00:19:15 Liz, Mia. Mia, Liz.
319 00:19:17 Ah, I got to change the tube on this amp. I'll see ya in there.
320 00:19:21 Okay
321 00:19:33 One, two, three, four!
322 00:19:36 Whoo!
323 00:19:43 # I wasn't lookin' for something #
324 00:19:45 # To sink my teeth into #
325 00:19:50 # I didn't know what I wanted #
326 00:19:53 # I never do #
327 00:19:57 # I want what you have #
328 00:19:59 # I want what you have now #
329 00:20:03 # Give it to me #
330 00:20:05 # Do you make it look so good 'cause you know what's up? #
331 00:20:12 # Do you know exactly what to do? #
332 00:20:20 # I want what you have #
333 00:20:22 # I want you have now #
334 00:20:25 Give it to me
335 00:20:27 # I want what you have #
336 00:20:29 # I want you have now #
337 00:20:33 # Give it to me #
338 00:20:40 Thank you and good night.
339 00:20:49 So, what other bands are you into?
340 00:20:51 Um...
341 00:20:52 Classical mostly.
342 00:20:54 Right on. I love classic rock.
343 00:21:06 Mia!
344 00:21:07 Hey. Are you okay?
345 00:21:09 Kinda miscommunicating with people.
346 00:21:11 The usual.
347 00:21:12 Yo, Adam. After-party at Darren's. You comin'?
348 00:21:15 Yeah. Yeah, we're in. Yeah.
349 00:21:16 - You in? - I have my curfew.
350 00:21:18 - Curfew? - Yeah.
351 00:21:20 Okay
352 00:21:23 Well, we'll set you loose early.
353 00:21:32 Thanks for slummin' it with us tonight.
354 00:21:34 Yeah. No problem.
355 00:21:36 Yo, Adam, just kiss her and let's go, man.
356 00:21:40 Come on.
357 00:21:45 We're cool, right?
358 00:21:47 - You and me? - Yeah.
359 00:21:48 We're cool.
360 00:21:50 Hey, you finally got to meet Liz.
361 00:21:51 Yeah.
362 00:21:53 You two have a lot in common.
363 00:21:55 You ever, like,
364 00:21:57 hooked up, or...
365 00:21:58 Actually, I'm glad you brought that up.
366 00:22:00 We do have a lot in common.
367 00:22:02 For instance, we're both
368 00:22:04 into girls.
369 00:22:06 She's with Astrid.
370 00:22:09 Oh, wow!
371 00:22:11 Go, Astrid.
372 00:22:13 And now we've got that out of the way.
373 00:22:18 I'm bummed you can't stay out with us tonight.
374 00:22:21 Yeah, I know.
375 00:22:24 Mia, just go. Have fun.
376 00:22:26 - Mom? - Kat! Get away from the window.
377 00:22:28 - Dad? - Sorry.
378 00:22:31 Like, your mom and dad are cool with you staying out,
379 00:22:32 but you don't want to, or...
380 00:22:35 Um...
381 00:22:37 Look, I think I'm coming down with something.
382 00:22:43 Right.
383 00:22:45 Yeah, well, just give me a shout when you get over it.
384 00:22:49 I'll see you around.
385 00:22:51 - Hey, Adam. - Mom, get back inside.
386 00:22:53 We always do these stragglers' dinners on Sunday.
387 00:22:55 You should come by some time.
388 00:22:57 Thanks.
389 00:22:58 Maybe I'll check it out.
390 00:23:04 You know, that was wrong on so many levels.
391 00:23:13 What? She shouldn't be scared to hang out with those guys.
392 00:23:16 They're us.
393 00:23:17 Exactly.
394 00:23:24 - Okay, bring her out. - Behind.
395 00:23:28 No palpable deformities at this time.
396 00:23:31 Go, go, go.
397 00:23:35 What do we got here?
398 00:23:36 Collapsed lung, broken ribs.
399 00:23:37 Looks like three.
400 00:23:38 Abrasions to the legs, face.
401 00:23:39 Brain contusions, full extent unknown.
402 00:23:41 And an internal bleed.
403 00:23:42 Rest of the family's on the way in.
404 00:23:44 Ultrasound, X-ray, 12-chem, type and cross-match.
405 00:23:46 Let's get the RT down here, please.
406 00:23:48 On my count. One, two, three.
407 00:23:54 Hey, excuse me, I need to check on my family.
408 00:23:57 It's Kathleen Hall, Dennis Hall and Theodore Hall?
409 00:24:00 - Good to go. - Hello?
410 00:24:03 Hey, I was trying to look at that.
411 00:24:05 Ruptured spleen, we need to move.
412 00:24:06 We're taking Mia Hall into operating room one.
413 00:24:09 All right, let's get her in there.
414 00:24:11 We got to remove the spleen, drain the lung
415 00:24:13 and figure out what's causing the bleed.
416 00:24:14 If she wants to live, she better start fighting.
417 00:24:16 Start fighting? How am I supposed to start fighting?
418 00:24:18 Someone just talk to me, please! Just help me.
419 00:24:30 Okay, let's go, folks.
420 00:24:32 Her sutures.
421 00:24:35 Arterial line set.
422 00:24:36 Okay, let's get it cleaned up.
423 00:24:37 Your cut-down tray's almost prepped.
424 00:24:38 Let's go, let's go.
425 00:24:40 Thank you.
426 00:24:42 GCS still looks high.
427 00:24:43 Am I gonna die?
428 00:24:46 Is that what this is?
429 00:24:49 Here's the secret, baby.
430 00:24:51 You control this whole thing.
431 00:24:54 If you live, if you die, it's all up to you.
432 00:24:57 So, whatever fight you got in you, you got to pull it out now.
433 00:25:06 Call the blood bank. I need two units of O neg.
434 00:25:08 Keep two on hold.
435 00:25:09 I think we're gonna need a lot more than that.
436 00:25:11 Let's see if we can track down her relatives, please.
437 00:25:13 Right away, sir.
438 00:25:14 One of her parents is on their way to OR four now.
439 00:25:20 Dad?
440 00:25:22 We just have to relieve the swelling.
441 00:25:24 For a guy who was in such a bad car wreck, he really lucked out.
442 00:25:27 Hey, Mia! Look what I found loitering out front.
443 00:25:31 Do we want him?
444 00:25:35 I was hungry.
445 00:25:37 Well, I'm glad you came.
446 00:25:40 Because you're hungry and we have food for you to eat, or...
447 00:25:43 Well, food to eat is my favorite.
448 00:25:46 Out of my way, people. I just worked a double and I need to feast.
449 00:25:49 I'm eatin' dim sum for a twosome.
450 00:25:51 Hey, what's up, Willow?
451 00:25:52 Welcome, Adam. It's nice to see ya.
452 00:25:55 Play your cards right, we might make you a regular.
453 00:25:57 Okay, Mom, we got it. Thanks.
454 00:26:00 Come on.
455 00:26:14 Okay, so who is it? Bobby Schayer from Bad Religion.
456 00:26:17 - Tim Leitch from FEAR. - Tim Leitch from FEAR.
457 00:26:19 - The guy from Dead Moon. - Andrew Loomis.
458 00:26:21 And the guy from The Wipers, Sam Henry.
459 00:26:24 So if you think about it,
460 00:26:25 Portland's kind of like a haven for legendary punk drummers, right?
461 00:26:29 That's a good point.
462 00:26:30 Mia, your man knows his punk rock history.
463 00:26:33 Thanks.
464 00:26:34 Ow!
465 00:26:35 Oh, my God! Oh, God, something just stung me.
466 00:26:38 Who does that?
467 00:26:40 A bee?
468 00:26:41 - Babe, are you sure it's a bee? - Oh, yeah.
469 00:26:43 We got to get the stinger out.
470 00:26:44 No, we're not doing that.
471 00:26:45 Trust me, this is this only thing I learned in Boy Scouts.
472 00:26:57 Got it.
473 00:27:01 Way hotter than tweezers.
474 00:27:03 Stand down, woman. You're already knocked up.
475 00:27:06 You know, you should get stung more often.
476 00:27:09 I'm sorry to say that's the furthest we've gotten
477 00:27:11 since our first date.
478 00:27:13 Yeah. Maybe we should do something about that.
479 00:27:18 I like where your head's at, Hall.
480 00:27:50 Adam?
481 00:27:52 I'm coming up.
482 00:27:53 No, you cannot come up.
483 00:27:55 I have something to tell you.
484 00:27:57 Besides, it's too late. I'm already climbing.
485 00:28:00 Oh, God.
486 00:28:08 Okay. Um...
487 00:28:12 Oh! Schroeder.
488 00:28:14 Um...
489 00:28:24 Hey...
490 00:28:26 Hey...
491 00:28:29 I thought you went home.
492 00:28:30 I got lost.
493 00:28:36 Did you actually learn that beesting thing from the Boy Scouts?
494 00:28:39 No, I totally made it up.
495 00:28:40 I just really wanted to suck your hand
496 00:28:42 in front of all your parents'friends.
497 00:28:49 What did you want to tell me?
498 00:28:52 Today was awesome.
499 00:28:54 You guys are like a real family here.
500 00:28:57 I don't think I've ever seen one of those up close.
501 00:28:59 It's impressive.
502 00:29:00 Yeah, well, trust me, it hasn't always been that way.
503 00:29:03 When I was a kid, things were so chaotic.
504 00:29:07 They'd be up late, so I was up late.
505 00:29:10 And Dad would be on the road for weeks at a time.
506 00:29:14 They didn't really get it together until Teddy was born.
507 00:29:18 What about you? What are your parents like?
508 00:29:23 They're not really a part of my life.
509 00:29:25 Honestly, I can't remember them ever being in the same place for a meal.
510 00:29:30 And if you want to track down the old man, that's gonna take a while.
511 00:29:33 So...
512 00:29:34 Adam.
513 00:29:35 No, it's cool. I'm good at being mostly alone.
514 00:29:40 But that's the thing,
515 00:29:44 you're not alone.
516 00:29:47 Not anymore.
517 00:29:59 Wait.
518 00:30:01 I need to take it slow, okay?
519 00:30:03 I love slow.
520 00:30:11 # And meet #
521 00:30:17 # Me there #
522 00:30:19 # Bundles of flowers. We wait through the hours of cold #
523 00:30:28 # Winter shall howl at the walls #
524 00:30:31 # Tearing down doors of time #
525 00:30:39 # Shelter as we go... #
526 00:30:48 Is there enough room?
527 00:30:49 A little more underneath, please.
528 00:30:50 - Suture. - There we go.
529 00:30:56 The surgery's been going on for hours,
530 00:30:58 and they're nowhere near done.
531 00:31:05 I need to find my family.
532 00:31:13 Kim?
533 00:31:14 Kim, wait!
534 00:31:20 I came here as soon as I could. What happened?
535 00:31:22 - Is everyone okay? - We don't know.
536 00:31:24 Gran. Granmps.
537 00:31:25 We need to find out what the hell's going on here.
538 00:31:30 Excuse me, my name is Estelle Hall.
539 00:31:33 Our son, Denny Hall, his wife, Kathleen,
540 00:31:35 and their two kids got in a car accident
541 00:31:37 this morning and we'd like to find out how they're doing.
542 00:31:40 - Yes, of course. - Mr. and Mrs. Hall?
543 00:31:41 I'm Liddy. I'm your social worker.
544 00:31:43 I've just been assigned your case.
545 00:31:45 I am so sorry for what's happened.
546 00:31:47 Now, I haven't been able to speak to anyone's doctors yet,
547 00:31:50 but I do know that Mia and Dennis are still in surgery.
548 00:31:53 Most likely they'll be heading to the ICU.
549 00:31:56 There is no information on Kathleen in the system yet.
550 00:31:59 But Theodore...
551 00:32:00 - Teddy? - Yes, Teddy
552 00:32:02 He was conscious when he arrived.
553 00:32:04 He's getting a CAT scan now.
554 00:32:06 Why don't you make yourselves as comfortable as you can
555 00:32:08 and I will come and get you the second
556 00:32:09 I have any new information. Okay?
557 00:32:11 Thank you.
558 00:32:13 Hey, Henry and Willow are on their way.
559 00:32:15 And I tried calling Adam and left a couple messages,
560 00:32:17 but I haven't heard anything yet.
561 00:32:19 There are two types of people in this world, Kim.
562 00:32:21 Those who like real coffee,
563 00:32:22 and those who like froufrou drinks with ridiculous names.
564 00:32:25 Um, wow. You know, I'm not ashamed to be
565 00:32:27 a cinnamon-spice chai latte lover.
566 00:32:28 Thank you very much.
567 00:32:29 Yeah, well, it kind of smells like Christmas threw up in your mug.
568 00:32:32 Fine by me.
569 00:32:34 So, Adam.
570 00:32:36 Is it awesome?
571 00:32:37 It feels big.
572 00:32:39 It's crazy. I can't eat, I can't sleep.
573 00:32:43 But...
574 00:32:44 For starters, I hate going to his shows.
575 00:32:47 Do you not like his music, or...
576 00:32:48 No, I love his music.
577 00:32:49 He writes these amazing songs, and...
578 00:32:52 I don't know, when he comes off stage
579 00:32:54 I just wanna, like, lick the side of his face.
580 00:32:57 Oh, baby.
581 00:32:59 But when I hang out with his crowd,
582 00:33:01 I just feel like...
583 00:33:02 Like a fish out of water?
584 00:33:04 Like a fish on Mars.
585 00:33:05 Come on, it's not his friends you're afraid of, it's him.
586 00:33:09 I mean, he's older, he's in a band.
587 00:33:12 All those girls surrounding him. I mean,
588 00:33:15 it's scary. I get it.
589 00:33:17 What if it doesn't work out?
590 00:33:19 You gonna be there to pick up the pieces?
591 00:33:21 Every last one of 'em.
592 00:33:24 But if it gets serious,
593 00:33:25 you better not turn into one of those girlfriends
594 00:33:27 who only speaks in the first person plural.
595 00:33:29 "We love the winter."
596 00:33:31 "We never use deodorant."
597 00:33:33 "We only like quinoa."
598 00:33:35 If you ever turn into one of those girls, I'm gonna shoot ya.
599 00:33:38 If I ever turn into one of those girls,
600 00:33:40 I'm gonna give you the gun.
601 00:33:47 Hey. Mom?
602 00:33:48 Who's the toughest, hottest rocker chick you can think of?
603 00:33:51 - Debbie Harry. - Okay, cool.
604 00:33:52 Or Patti Smith or Joan Jett.
605 00:33:54 Lucinda Williams, even though she's country.
606 00:33:56 Kim Gordon.
607 00:33:57 What's this, a social studies project?
608 00:33:59 No, it's for Halloween.
609 00:34:03 Tonight, with Adam.
610 00:34:05 Oh, you're going as the rocker chick.
611 00:34:08 I don't even wanna go.
612 00:34:10 Bunny rabbit.
613 00:34:12 What's up?
614 00:34:13 I wanna dive into Adam's world.
615 00:34:15 You know, I wanna be like his friends.
616 00:34:17 But what if I can't pull it off?
617 00:34:19 The whole messy punk rocker live-in-the-moment thing.
618 00:34:22 Then you return all the clothes to my closet in the morning
619 00:34:23 and go about your life.
620 00:34:25 Baby, it's one night.
621 00:34:27 Right?
622 00:34:28 I mean, I know it's not your thing,
623 00:34:31 but why not try out messy and in-the-moment and see how it feels.
624 00:34:34 You might be surprised.
625 00:34:45 Hey, Adam.
626 00:34:49 Whoa, Hall. I didn't think you had it in you.
627 00:34:52 Whoa, yourself.
628 00:34:54 I'm Beethoven.
629 00:34:56 Ludwig.
630 00:34:57 Come on, let's go.
631 00:35:00 What's up, Adam?
632 00:35:03 Debbie Harry always said,
633 00:35:04 "A shot before showtime does the trick." So...
634 00:35:08 Bottoms up.
635 00:35:09 Oh, I'm good.
636 00:35:11 Okay. Well, it's there if you want it.
637 00:35:13 Yo, Adam. We're goin' on.
638 00:35:15 Okay. I've gotta go do my set.
639 00:35:17 No running off with some me wannabe.
640 00:35:19 I'll try.
641 00:35:23 Have fun.
642 00:35:24 Oh, my God, Mia.
643 00:35:26 You look amazing. Did you get this in Seattle?
644 00:35:29 Hey. Wanna bone?
645 00:35:31 You're frickin' embarrassing yourself.
646 00:35:32 Come on, at least give me your bone number.
647 00:35:34 Ladies and gentlemen, Willamette Stone!
648 00:35:42 Happy Halloween.
649 00:35:44 Whoo!
650 00:35:46 Are you coming?
651 00:36:01 # I've gotta say I'm feelin' better than I should #
652 00:36:06 # Don't got a lot, but I know life is always good #
653 00:36:11 # Oh, come on over #
654 00:36:12 # Bring some friends who have the time... #
655 00:36:15 Mia, you have to come.
656 00:36:16 Wait.
657 00:36:18 # I'm feeling fine... #
658 00:36:22 Hey...
659 00:36:23 Excuse me. Move it.
660 00:36:25 # So tell me now, are you in or are you not? #
661 00:36:30 # I don't want to move the world I just wanna sit on top #
662 00:36:35 # Let's raise a glass #
663 00:36:36 # Here's to the best and to the worst #
664 00:36:39 # Here's to the feelings that you just can't put to words #
665 00:36:54 # We got tonight. We got tonight #
666 00:36:59 # For the years #
667 00:37:01 # For the night #
668 00:37:03 # I'm feelin' good #
669 00:37:06 # I'm feeling high #
670 00:37:08 # I'm feelin' like I've never felt #
671 00:37:13 # We got tonight. We got tonight #
672 00:37:18 # For the years. For the night... #
673 00:37:23 Bye, Adam. Bye, Rocker Mia.
674 00:37:25 Bye, you guys.
675 00:37:26 Bye.
676 00:37:31 So...
677 00:37:33 Do you like me like this?
678 00:37:35 At last, you finally figured it out.
679 00:37:37 No, come on.
680 00:37:39 I mean, do you like me how I am tonight?
681 00:37:42 You know what I liked?
682 00:37:44 I liked how into the show you were.
683 00:37:45 How you actually wanted to dance
684 00:37:47 and hang out with us riffraff afterwards.
685 00:37:49 That was cool.
686 00:37:51 Yeah, but do you like me better,
687 00:37:54 you know,
688 00:37:56 - like this? - Better than what?
689 00:37:59 Better than the normal Mia.
690 00:38:00 You know, with the hair and the makeup and the clothing.
691 00:38:05 Mia, I don't give a shit about your clothes.
692 00:38:09 Don't you get it?
693 00:38:11 The you you are now is the same you I was in love with yesterday.
694 00:38:15 The same you I'll be in love with tomorrow.
695 00:38:33 Can we go somewhere?
696 00:38:37 Yeah.
697 00:38:51 Wow.
698 00:38:54 What is this place?
699 00:38:55 It's an old boatworks shed.
700 00:39:00 One day, me and the band are gonna fix it up
701 00:39:03 and we're gonna rehearse and record here.
702 00:39:07 It's perfect.
703 00:39:11 So are you.
704 00:39:26 Adam.
705 00:39:28 Yeah?
706 00:39:30 I've never...
707 00:39:33 Just think of it like we're playing music together.
708 00:39:35 Adam, that doesn't make any sense.
709 00:39:36 Yes, it does.
710 00:39:40 All right, well, take your jacket off.
711 00:39:42 Okay.
712 00:39:51 All right.
713 00:39:53 So we have four strings.
714 00:39:56 We have the C string
715 00:39:59 and G,
716 00:40:01 D
717 00:40:03 and A.
718 00:40:04 And if I were to play glissando,
719 00:40:08 it'd feel like this.
720 00:40:12 And if I were to play pizzicato,
721 00:40:15 it'd feel like this.
722 00:40:18 And if I were to play forte.
723 00:40:20 I know forte.
724 00:40:22 # I ain't never gonna shut you out! #
725 00:40:25 # Everywhere I'm looking now #
726 00:40:28 # I'm surrounded by your embrace #
727 00:40:32 # Baby, I can see your halo #
728 00:40:36 # You know you're my saving grace... #
729 00:40:47 Intensive Care Unit.
730 00:40:49 Yeah, she is.
731 00:40:55 How are we, beautiful?
732 00:40:58 I told 'em that I don't wanna leave you.
733 00:41:01 I'm not gonna let you out of my sight.
734 00:41:07 We have another one from the accident, Nurse Davis.
735 00:41:12 Dad. Thank God.
736 00:41:16 Oh, my God, George.
737 00:41:17 Is he going to be okay?
738 00:41:19 We're updating his chart right now.
739 00:41:20 The doctor will be in to speak with you shortly.
740 00:41:22 Dad?
741 00:41:24 Where is he? Where'd you guys take him?
742 00:41:26 I'll just finish writing the orders and then she's all yours.
743 00:41:28 Girl's been through the wringer.
744 00:41:30 Yeah. And this is the easy part. Accident like that?
745 00:41:33 Mom was DOA. Dad died on the table.
746 00:41:35 Poor kid's waking up an orphan.
747 00:41:36 If she wakes up.
748 00:41:41 Mom.
749 00:41:42 Dad!
750 00:41:58 I'm getting you!
751 00:42:06 Whoo!
752 00:42:10 I love you.
753 00:42:24 Teddy.
754 00:42:43 1814...
755 00:42:54 Teddy.
756 00:42:59 Hey, little man. Look at this room.
757 00:43:02 You got the best place in the joint.
758 00:43:04 Are you okay?
759 00:43:06 That's right. You just get some rest.
760 00:43:09 I'm not going anywhere.
761 00:43:11 Oh, Gran. Hey, I just got here.
762 00:43:15 They're saying he's through the worst of it.
763 00:43:17 They were assigning his room, so, I thought I'd come here
764 00:43:19 before I checked in on Kat and Den...
765 00:43:21 They didn't...
766 00:43:24 Oh, my God!
767 00:43:27 Excuse me.
768 00:43:37 You're mine now, Teddy.
769 00:43:40 And no matter what, I will never leave you.
770 00:43:45 We're gonna make it.
771 00:43:52 Listen, I need to do something.
772 00:43:56 But I promise you, Teddy.
773 00:44:12 Adam.
774 00:44:13 You came.
775 00:44:29 Listen. You can't let Teddy grow up without a family.
776 00:44:32 You have got to fight.
777 00:44:34 You can do this. You have to do this.
778 00:44:36 Mia!
779 00:44:38 - Excuse me. - Sir!
780 00:44:39 - Mia! - Adam.
781 00:44:41 Mia!
782 00:44:42 Mia!
783 00:44:52 Being with Adam was like learning to fly.
784 00:44:56 It was exciting and scary, all at the same time.
785 00:45:03 That spring was a magical time.
786 00:45:08 Adam's band was playing bigger clubs
787 00:45:10 and festival in different cities.
788 00:45:12 Once he graduated, they started getting booked even more.
789 00:45:16 By the fall, record labels were taking notice.
790 00:45:20 People were taking notice of me too.
791 00:45:23 I was the first high school student ever invited
792 00:45:26 to perform solo at the college's fall recital.
793 00:45:33 And even though Adam was away a lot,
794 00:45:35 when he was in town, we spent all of our time together.
795 00:45:39 I can't believe I'm stuck at school for another year.
796 00:45:41 It'll go by fast.
797 00:45:43 You still thinking of applying to Lewis & Clark?
798 00:45:46 Yeah, of course. I mean, they have a great music program.
799 00:45:49 I need someplace with financial aid.
800 00:45:51 Maybe we can live around the corner from each other.
801 00:45:55 Or we could shorten the commute and get a place together.
802 00:45:59 Really?
803 00:46:03 That actually sounds kinda perfect.
804 00:46:26 Kid's good. Whoo!
805 00:46:31 Sir, I told you you can't go in there.
806 00:46:33 What do you mean I can't go in there? This is bullshit.
807 00:46:35 Sir, you can't be in there.
808 00:46:36 You need to calm down.
809 00:46:38 ICU visitations are restricted
810 00:46:39 to immediate family only. Are you family?
811 00:46:42 All right, you got me. I'm not family.
812 00:46:44 Come on, just let him in!
813 00:46:46 Do I need to call security?
814 00:46:48 Adam.
815 00:46:59 Juilliard?
816 00:47:00 Just look on the computer like you do
817 00:47:03 and see what it takes to get in there.
818 00:47:05 They say it's the best there is.
819 00:47:07 Of course it is, but it's across the country.
820 00:47:10 You know, and Lewis & Clark has an amazing performance studies program.
821 00:47:14 Besides, my whole life is here.
822 00:47:33 Dad, can I ask you a question?
823 00:47:35 Always.
824 00:47:36 Do you ever miss being in your band?
825 00:47:39 What brought this on?
826 00:47:41 You always say that you left your band to become a better dad.
827 00:47:45 But you were a great dad when you were in the band.
828 00:47:48 You didn't have to give up something you loved so much just for us.
829 00:47:51 No, baby, I didn't give anything up.
830 00:47:54 I played that adventure out,
831 00:47:55 and then it was time for a new adventure with you guys.
832 00:47:58 And sometimes you make choices in life,
833 00:48:00 and sometimes choices make you.
834 00:48:04 Does that make any sense?
835 00:48:06 Yeah. I mean,
836 00:48:08 I think that the cello was a choice that made me.
837 00:48:11 There you go.
838 00:48:28 Do you think the band would ever relocate?
839 00:48:32 No. Why?
840 00:48:33 I don't know.
841 00:48:34 To see someplace new.
842 00:48:37 Maybe New York.
843 00:48:39 I can't imagine. Portland's where we're from, you know?
844 00:48:44 Oh, yeah.
845 00:48:51 I gotta tell you something.
846 00:48:53 I have to listen to what you have to tell me.
847 00:48:58 I'm going to buy all of these albums.
848 00:49:02 Whoa. The whole three bucks?
849 00:49:05 Slow down, big spender.
850 00:49:27 Whoo!
851 00:49:28 Whoa, Mom. Seriously, that just makes me more nervous.
852 00:49:31 Sorry. Just ignore me.
853 00:49:33 Yeah. Just pretend we're not here.
854 00:49:35 Dad, honestly, how was that one?
855 00:49:37 I thought it was fantastic, Mia.
856 00:49:39 You say that about everything.
857 00:49:40 Because you're awesome. They have to give you an audition.
858 00:49:43 Yeah, but you don't understand.
859 00:49:44 This is Juilliard.
860 00:49:46 This isn't just some punk album
861 00:49:47 where you can throw music at a wall and hope it sounds all right.
862 00:49:50 Whoa.
863 00:49:54 I'm sorry.
864 00:49:55 I really didn't mean that.
865 00:49:57 This is pointless.
866 00:49:59 I'm not good enough.
867 00:50:05 I thought the last one was amazing.
868 00:50:10 Really?
869 00:50:13 I think I can do better.
870 00:50:15 Then let's do it.
871 00:50:18 Okay
872 00:50:20 Yeah. Let's do it.
873 00:50:35 I miss you every time you go.
874 00:50:37 It'll just be a few days. Maybe more.
875 00:50:40 Well, I know you guys are gonna kill it at City Limits.
876 00:50:44 Are you sure you can't come?
877 00:50:45 I'm pretty sure I can fit you in my guitar case.
878 00:50:49 I would, but l got school.
879 00:50:52 Wow.
880 00:50:53 Never thought I'd hear that again.
881 00:50:55 - Come on, man, we gotta hit the road. - Okay.
882 00:51:03 - I'll be back before you know it. - Okay.
883 00:51:05 - Come on. We gotta go. - We're bringing him back, all right?
884 00:51:08 Bye. Have fun.
885 00:51:10 We roll.
886 00:51:20 So what's the whatty-what from Austin? Hear from Adam?
887 00:51:23 No. I called him, but I haven't heard back.
888 00:51:26 It's fine. I mean, he's slammed.
889 00:51:28 Yeah, life on the road.
890 00:51:31 Don't give me that face.
891 00:51:33 Mmm!
892 00:51:34 Speaking of the devil.
893 00:51:36 Hello?
894 00:51:38 Hey, babe.
895 00:51:39 So, you all rich and famous now?
896 00:51:40 Not yet.
897 00:51:41 But Merge Records made an offer to sign us.
898 00:51:43 It's been crazy.
899 00:51:44 Shut up. That's amazing, Adam.
900 00:51:47 Yeah, they're throwing us a party right now.
901 00:51:49 Well, I miss you.
902 00:51:51 Dude! You got champagne
903 00:51:52 all over my phone!
904 00:51:55 Hello?
905 00:52:52 # Waiting for the rejection #
906 00:52:55 # It comes in waves and it feels like a throb #
907 00:52:58 # You wanted only the ending #
908 00:53:01 # But what you got was much too long #
909 00:53:04 # I can't be you, you know #
910 00:53:07 # My heart is underground #
911 00:53:10 # When I believe it was different #
912 00:53:13 # I believe we could turn it... #
913 00:53:15 Wait.
914 00:53:19 Sorry.
915 00:53:22 Mia, wait.
916 00:53:25 Sorry, I didn't see ya there.
917 00:53:26 No worries. Just bringing food for you guys.
918 00:53:28 Oh, cool. Thanks.
919 00:53:30 We're just gettin' ready for tomorrow night.
920 00:53:31 It's gonna be a total homecoming.
921 00:53:33 It's our first gig in town since we got signed.
922 00:53:36 Adam.
923 00:53:38 Yeah?
924 00:53:40 I applied to Juilliard.
925 00:53:44 - What? - Yeah
926 00:53:45 It's this amazing school.
927 00:53:47 Yeah, I know what Juilliard is.
928 00:53:51 Well, it was just on a whim.
929 00:53:52 Isn't it in New York?
930 00:53:54 Yeah.
931 00:53:55 Well, why didn't you tell me?
932 00:53:57 Well, I tried
933 00:53:58 But I figured, why tell you until it was real?
934 00:54:01 Okay. So why you telling me now?
935 00:54:04 Well, I got an audition.
936 00:54:05 In San Francisco.
937 00:54:09 Wow.
938 00:54:11 Wow.
939 00:54:12 Juilliard. Mia, that's...
940 00:54:15 Way to go. That's cool.
941 00:54:17 Yeah, well, I won't get in.
942 00:54:19 But it's kind of a big deal
943 00:54:21 that I even got an audition.
944 00:54:23 Most people don't.
945 00:54:27 Well, Yo Mama better watch his back. Right?
946 00:54:46 # I can't get you out of my mind. #
947 00:54:52 # I can't get you out of my mind. #
948 00:54:59 The homecoming concert was different
949 00:55:01 than any show the band had played.
950 00:55:03 They were tighter, better, more confident than ever before.
951 00:55:11 And Adam seemed,
952 00:55:12 well, like he was becoming a full-blown star.
953 00:55:29 # I can't get you out of my mind. #
954 00:55:42 They're really good. I've been following them.
955 00:55:44 Thanks. Thanks for coming.
956 00:55:46 Did you like the show?
957 00:55:48 Good.
958 00:55:51 - Thanks, guys. - Aw!
959 00:55:53 Hey.
960 00:55:54 You guys were insanely good up there.
961 00:55:56 Yeah, well, I'm glad you could make it.
962 00:55:58 Of course I made it.
963 00:56:00 - A-bomb. - Hey, man!
964 00:56:02 - I can't believe you came! - What's goin' on, bro?
965 00:56:03 - Tight set tonight. - Could I get your autograph?
966 00:56:05 Yeah, sure.
967 00:56:07 Oh, wow. Okay.
968 00:56:09 It says Willamette Stone.
969 00:56:10 Yeah. I can see that.
970 00:56:13 There you go. This is cool.
971 00:56:24 If you're so bored you have to read,
972 00:56:25 maybe you should've just stayed home.
973 00:56:28 I'm just trying to get some homework done.
974 00:56:32 And researching what phrase
975 00:56:33 I'm gonna have tattooed over my left boob.
976 00:56:38 What's all this?
977 00:56:40 We got booked last-minute to do
978 00:56:41 a string of shows in Seattle.
979 00:56:42 We gotta leave tonight, so...
980 00:56:46 For how long?
981 00:56:47 I don't know. Like a week?
982 00:56:48 Ten days?
983 00:56:49 It's hard to say.
984 00:56:51 Yeah, but we had plans.
985 00:56:53 Remember? For my birthday dinner?
986 00:56:55 Oh, right. Shit. Sorry.
987 00:56:57 Well, it's fine. I just wish you would've told me.
988 00:57:00 What, like you told me about Juilliard?
989 00:57:03 And for the record, I didn't even hear about the tour
990 00:57:05 until tonight right before the show, so...
991 00:57:07 So that's what "Glad you could make it" was all about?
992 00:57:09 That's why you're so pissed at me?
993 00:57:10 Why would I be pissed about you going to a school
994 00:57:12 3,000 miles away?
995 00:57:13 I'm not going there, Adam. It's just an audition.
996 00:57:17 Which you didn't even tell me about, Mia!
997 00:57:19 And besides, this isn't about Juilliard.
998 00:57:21 This is about you ditching on our plans.
999 00:57:23 - You're a liar. - Whoa!
1000 00:57:25 Screw you, Adam! I haven't ditched out on anything.
1001 00:57:28 Am I crazy, or did you say that
1002 00:57:30 us getting a place together would be perfect? Huh?
1003 00:57:33 - It's... - No, you know what?
1004 00:57:35 It's fine.
1005 00:57:37 Whatever.
1006 00:57:38 What? You get to follow your dreams,
1007 00:57:40 but I can't follow mine unless I have your permission?
1008 00:57:42 And I just have to sit here and wait around,
1009 00:57:44 hoping that you'll come home every few weeks?
1010 00:57:46 How is that fair?
1011 00:57:47 You lied to me, Mia. We had plans.
1012 00:57:49 One minute, it's one thing. The next minute, it's the other.
1013 00:57:51 I grew up with that shit, okay?
1014 00:57:53 I don't... I don't need it.
1015 00:57:56 Even if I do go to Juilliard,
1016 00:57:57 we can figure it out.
1017 00:58:00 Baby, we can text and we can Skype...
1018 00:58:02 Skype? Skype?
1019 00:58:03 Jesus, Mia! Have you ever even
1020 00:58:05 had a long-distance relationship?
1021 00:58:06 It's bullshit.
1022 00:58:08 Okay? It's like dating a ghost.
1023 00:58:11 But Skype, it solves everything right?
1024 00:58:13 You know, you're so naive, man.
1025 00:58:14 You don't know shit about the world.
1026 00:58:15 I can't believe you just said that to me.
1027 00:58:17 What, you want me to write it down for you?
1028 00:58:19 Adam! Sorry, dude, but we gotta jet
1029 00:58:21 if we wanna make it to the motel before sunup.
1030 00:58:25 No! No. You cannot leave me like that!
1031 00:58:27 Why didn't you tell me?
1032 00:58:29 Maybe because I am terrified of losing you!
1033 00:58:36 You know what? You do your thing. I'm gonna do mine.
1034 00:58:41 Fine, but for the record, you're the one who's getting in the van.
1035 00:58:44 Yeah, whatever.
1036 00:59:20 Mr. and Mrs. Hall?
1037 00:59:21 Yes.
1038 00:59:24 So, Mia's still unconscious.
1039 00:59:26 The respiratory therapists are going to run some tests
1040 00:59:29 to see when they can wean her off the ventilator.
1041 00:59:32 So, that's good news.
1042 00:59:34 If she can breathe on her own.
1043 00:59:36 With comatose patients, the first 24 hours are critical.
1044 00:59:39 If she shows any signs of awareness...
1045 00:59:41 - Adam. - I'm sorry. I gotta go.
1046 00:59:51 # Woke up this morning. #
1047 01:00:08 # Looked up this morning. #
1048 01:00:13 # Saw the roses full of thorns. #
1049 01:00:25 The food was good but the service is a little, you know...
1050 01:00:29 Well, I'm sorry. It's just the way things are.
1051 01:00:31 That's not necessary.
1052 01:00:34 When are we gonna open presents?
1053 01:00:35 - Mia? - That's gonna be fun!
1054 01:00:37 Yeah, you wanna do that?
1055 01:00:38 Yeah, sure.
1056 01:00:42 # I've gone all around #
1057 01:00:47 # till there's nothing left to say. #
1058 01:00:59 # Wrote it all down #
1059 01:01:04 # into something that couldn't be said. #
1060 01:01:24 I thought you were supposed to be, uh,
1061 01:01:27 in Seattle.
1062 01:01:29 No show tonight so I just
1063 01:01:31 thought I'd drive down for the day.
1064 01:01:42 What's that?
1065 01:01:44 It's a replica.
1066 01:01:45 of Jolari Hall in San Francisco,
1067 01:01:47 where you'll be auditioning for Juilliard.
1068 01:01:50 That's the ceiling.
1069 01:01:52 I put it up there.
1070 01:01:54 It's intense.
1071 01:01:55 Yeah. I figured,
1072 01:01:57 you know, if you look at it every night
1073 01:01:59 it wouldn't seem so scary when you get there.
1074 01:02:04 What do you want, Adam?
1075 01:02:08 Mia, I'm sorry.
1076 01:02:09 - I know, I suck. - No, no.
1077 01:02:12 You can't just disappear from my life like that
1078 01:02:14 and pop back into it whenever you feel like it.
1079 01:02:16 I know. It's just,
1080 01:02:18 the people in my life have a habit of disappearing on me
1081 01:02:22 and when you started making plans...
1082 01:02:23 You're not gonna lose me.
1083 01:02:27 Adam, I love you.
1084 01:02:31 But these last few days
1085 01:02:34 have been brutal.
1086 01:02:36 I know.
1087 01:02:37 I know. For me too.
1088 01:02:48 Happy birthday.
1089 01:02:52 Well, at least I know the wrapping's yours.
1090 01:02:53 Shut up. And just open it. Come on.
1091 01:03:02 It's a cello and a guitar.
1092 01:03:04 Do you get it?
1093 01:03:28 God, I hate you.
1094 01:03:46 When did you know you were good in pop music?
1095 01:03:49 Oh, I dunno.
1096 01:03:51 Come on.
1097 01:03:53 What was, like, the moment?
1098 01:03:56 Actually, there was one night,
1099 01:03:59 when we first started playing out.
1100 01:04:03 Right before the show, Liz talked me into going to the liquor store
1101 01:04:06 and getting her a Red Bull.
1102 01:04:10 So I go in
1103 01:04:13 and there's this drunk dude buying a bottle of Jack.
1104 01:04:19 And I realize it's him.
1105 01:04:22 It's my old man.
1106 01:04:26 And I just
1107 01:04:27 stop cold.
1108 01:04:31 And he just looks right at me
1109 01:04:34 and walks out.
1110 01:04:37 No idea who I was.
1111 01:04:41 Shit, Adam.
1112 01:04:44 Then that night, I played like I was on fire.
1113 01:04:47 I don't know if I thought I was good.
1114 01:04:50 I just knew that nothing else mattered.
1115 01:04:54 Till now.
1116 01:04:56 Till you.
1117 01:05:09 When I play,
1118 01:05:13 I kind of picture
1119 01:05:14 myself inside the cello.
1120 01:05:19 It's like my little house.
1121 01:05:20 Really?
1122 01:05:25 Actually, no.
1123 01:05:27 I'm totally just in it for the guys.
1124 01:05:29 Oh.
1125 01:05:32 - I got you, didn't I? - Yeah.
1126 01:05:34 Yeah.
1127 01:06:00 How am I supposed to find the strength to stay?
1128 01:06:04 What would it feel like to wake up an orphan?
1129 01:06:08 To never smell Dad cooking pancakes?
1130 01:06:11 To never stand next to Mom quietly talking as we do the dishes?
1131 01:06:17 But how could I go?
1132 01:06:22 The nurse said I control this whole thing.
1133 01:06:25 If I live, if I die.
1134 01:06:28 It's all up to me.
1135 01:06:31 And that terrifies me more than anything else.
1136 01:06:39 Mia Hall.
1137 01:06:41 Good luck.
1138 01:09:07 Thanks for driving me, Gramps.
1139 01:09:09 I mean, that was...
1140 01:09:14 Thank you.
1141 01:09:16 Mia.
1142 01:09:19 I just wanted to tell you that
1143 01:09:22 I watched your audition,
1144 01:09:24 from backstage.
1145 01:09:26 I wasn't too sure
1146 01:09:27 if that cello was gonna make it out alive.
1147 01:09:29 I know. I didn't know I had it in me.
1148 01:09:31 Well, you do.
1149 01:09:33 You were fearless.
1150 01:09:34 You played your guts out up there.
1151 01:09:37 Mia.
1152 01:09:39 You've got something special.
1153 01:09:42 Your dad had it too,
1154 01:09:44 but I never told him.
1155 01:09:46 I never made too much fuss about his music
1156 01:09:50 and I don't wanna make the same mistake with you.
1157 01:09:52 If those Juilliard people don't take you,
1158 01:09:54 they are damn fools
1159 01:09:55 because what you did up there was magic.
1160 01:10:01 Thank you, Gramps.
1161 01:10:18 # I spend these hollow nights #
1162 01:10:22 # All alone #
1163 01:10:28 # Safe from the looking glass #
1164 01:10:32 # Which you kept home #
1165 01:10:39 I saw the sea and knew
1166 01:10:42 # It was a mirage #
1167 01:10:49 # It wasn't even so #
1168 01:10:52 # I played the odds #
1169 01:10:58 # I never wanted to go #
1170 01:11:00 # And now I'm letting you know #
1171 01:11:03 # I just wanted to feel #
1172 01:11:05 # The life in me. #
1173 01:11:15 Oh, hey! You're back.
1174 01:11:17 That was a really beautiful song, Adam.
1175 01:11:19 It's gettin' there.
1176 01:11:22 How'd it go?
1177 01:11:23 Did you kill the audition?
1178 01:11:25 Are they gonna let you in on a full scholarship?
1179 01:11:28 I did all right, I guess.
1180 01:11:30 But it's kinda like
1181 01:11:32 playing to statues.
1182 01:11:33 Oh, come on. I bet you did better than you think.
1183 01:11:36 And if not...
1184 01:11:39 Actually...
1185 01:11:41 Adam, I played better than I have in my entire life.
1186 01:11:47 It was like I was possessed and the music, it just...
1187 01:11:51 it poured out of me.
1188 01:11:54 God. I've never felt anything like that before.
1189 01:11:59 Wow.
1190 01:12:01 I wish I could've seen that.
1191 01:12:04 Yeah, me too.
1192 01:12:08 You know, for once, I actually felt
1193 01:12:11 like I could do this.
1194 01:12:15 Why didn't you call me after the audition to brag?
1195 01:12:19 I know I should have, but...
1196 01:12:24 I don't wanna fight, okay?
1197 01:12:25 I know. I don't wanna fight.
1198 01:12:30 Okay, well, you played better than you have in your entire life.
1199 01:12:33 We should celebrate.
1200 01:12:44 So how come you've never written a song for me?
1201 01:12:47 I don't know, I'm no good at writing
1202 01:12:49 about things that make me happy.
1203 01:12:50 If you want a song, you're gonna have to, like,
1204 01:12:52 cheat on me or something.
1205 01:12:53 What do I have to do for a whole album?
1206 01:12:55 Come on. Don't get greedy.
1207 01:13:01 You know, I don't think I'll even get in.
1208 01:13:03 There were like 100 other kids there.
1209 01:13:05 Then I don't have to choose, right?
1210 01:13:07 But if you do get in, the choice is already made, isn't it?
1211 01:13:11 Mia, come on. I'm not gonna be that asshole
1212 01:13:13 that stops you from going to Juilliard.
1213 01:13:16 If it was me, you'd let me go.
1214 01:13:19 Yeah, but in a way, I already have.
1215 01:13:22 You know, you're going to your own Juilliard.
1216 01:13:24 Yeah, I know.
1217 01:13:26 But I'm still here.
1218 01:13:29 Okay? And I'm still crazy in love with you.
1219 01:13:34 Yeah, me too.
1220 01:13:55 There you are.
1221 01:13:57 Been looking everywhere for you.
1222 01:14:02 Guess your big show got canceled, huh?
1223 01:14:05 Like I give a shit.
1224 01:14:08 Oh, I'm sorry. I'm just...
1225 01:14:10 No, it's fine. I get it.
1226 01:14:17 The first day, man.
1227 01:14:20 The first day I walked past that room
1228 01:14:23 and saw her playing, that was it.
1229 01:14:30 God, I'm such an asshole.
1230 01:14:32 No, Adam. Don't.
1231 01:14:39 She get in? To Juilliard?
1232 01:14:43 I don't know.
1233 01:14:45 Letters sent out Friday.
1234 01:14:48 I think she was supposed to hear today.
1235 01:14:51 I can't.
1236 01:14:53 I can't lose her again.
1237 01:14:57 Let's go.
1238 01:15:20 What now?
1239 01:15:22 Well, I gotta get in there. I gotta see her.
1240 01:15:31 Excuse me.
1241 01:15:32 Hi, there's this girl and she's having a baby
1242 01:15:35 in the bathroom on the third floor.
1243 01:15:37 And she's down there and she's just grunting
1244 01:15:38 and screaming and there's blood everywhere!
1245 01:15:40 And it's really unsanitary,
1246 01:15:42 and we really need someone down there right now.
1247 01:15:43 Okay...
1248 01:15:44 We really need someone down there right now!
1249 01:15:47 - Shit! - Go!
1250 01:15:54 Excuse me, young man, I've told you you can't be here.
1251 01:15:57 Security, get me Security. Right now.
1252 01:15:58 Mia Hall?
1253 01:16:02 Please, I just wanna feel you touch me.
1254 01:16:04 - Mia. - Please.
1255 01:16:07 Hands off. Come on.
1256 01:16:09 What are you doing? Get off me!
1257 01:16:11 You can't do this to him!
1258 01:16:14 You know, I tried to do this the nice way.
1259 01:16:16 You wouldn't know nice if it bit you in the ass, lady.
1260 01:16:18 Hey. Knock it off.
1261 01:16:20 - Willow? - Willow?
1262 01:16:22 What the hell is going on?
1263 01:16:23 They were trying to break into the ICU.
1264 01:16:25 Yeah, 'cause Jabba the Nurse wouldn't let us in to see Mia.
1265 01:16:28 Well, I know these kids personally, so, why don't you just let me
1266 01:16:30 handle it from here.
1267 01:16:33 Fine. Then just keep them in the waiting room.
1268 01:16:41 What the hell were you guys thinking?
1269 01:16:43 I need to see Mia.
1270 01:16:46 Well, she's gonna need you now more than ever.
1271 01:16:52 Hey, what's going on?
1272 01:16:54 Willow, what's happening?
1273 01:16:58 Willow, why aren't you with Teddy?
1274 01:17:00 Willow.
1275 01:17:03 Oh, shit.
1276 01:17:05 Teddy!
1277 01:17:12 Mr. and Mrs. Hall.
1278 01:17:15 - Teddy. - I'm Dr. DeVenne.
1279 01:17:18 - Teddy? - I am so sorry.
1280 01:17:20 Where is he?
1281 01:17:21 He had an epidural hemorrhage in the brain.
1282 01:17:24 We did everything we could to save him.
1283 01:17:26 No!
1284 01:17:32 He will never graduate from T-ball to baseball.
1285 01:17:35 And never learn to drive.
1286 01:17:38 Never kiss a girl.
1287 01:17:39 You can't catch me!
1288 01:17:41 Never fall in love.
1289 01:17:48 God!
1290 01:17:52 I don't wanna... I don't wanna...
1291 01:17:56 God, I don't wanna...
1292 01:17:58 I don't wanna do this anymore.
1293 01:17:59 I want this to be over!
1294 01:18:16 Give me the chart.
1295 01:18:17 Abdomen's rigid. Full of fluid.
1296 01:18:18 Jesus. Splenectomy, brain contusions, collapsed lung.
1297 01:18:21 We gotta run. BP and pulse ox are dropping.
1298 01:18:24 Okay, let's get her back in surgery. Let's go, come on.
1299 01:18:26 Get out of the way. Swipe the door, please.
1300 01:18:28 - Get that elevator. - Out of the way!
1301 01:18:32 They know we're coming?
1302 01:18:35 All right, sweetheart. We can only carry you so far.
1303 01:18:38 After that, it's all you.
1304 01:18:44 Oh, my God. Mia.
1305 01:18:49 Adam.
1306 01:18:52 Goodbye, Adam.
1307 01:19:01 It's almost time. It's almost time.
1308 01:19:03 I'll take some of that. Yeah.
1309 01:19:05 Do not! Thank you!
1310 01:19:08 Cheers.
1311 01:19:11 Nine, eight, seven, six...
1312 01:19:13 - There you are! - Here I am!
1313 01:19:15 five, four...
1314 01:19:17 three, two, one.
1315 01:19:19 Happy New Year!
1316 01:19:25 "Even when they were just wasting time"
1317 01:19:28 "they weren't wasting time."
1318 01:19:30 "It was as if no time they spent together could ever be wasted."
1319 01:19:34 Who said that?
1320 01:19:35 Some guy in some book.
1321 01:19:37 And what was he talking about?
1322 01:19:39 Some couple in some movie.
1323 01:19:40 My point is...
1324 01:19:42 Yes, maestro?
1325 01:19:43 My point is he could have been talking about us.
1326 01:19:47 That he could.
1327 01:20:02 Promise me.
1328 01:20:03 I promise you.
1329 01:20:05 Wait, what am I promising?
1330 01:20:08 That we'll spend next New Year's together.
1331 01:20:12 Even if we're in different places, you'll still be with me.
1332 01:20:14 No, that's not good enough. Not Skyping,
1333 01:20:16 not texting, together.
1334 01:20:19 Baby, you know we can't promise each other that.
1335 01:20:24 I guess we both know where this is heading.
1336 01:20:40 Yeah, I guess so.
1337 01:20:51 The old thing...
1338 01:20:53 - All right. - Delicious!
1339 01:20:55 What are you looking at?
1340 01:20:57 Because we're fascinated.
1341 01:20:59 - You! - Fascinating.
1342 01:21:00 You're a spatula man now.
1343 01:21:03 Look it, a drummer. He's totally drumming with it.
1344 01:21:05 Come on, give me your plate. All right, get ready.
1345 01:21:07 Hey! There she is.
1346 01:21:09 Hey!
1347 01:21:10 Happy New Year!
1348 01:21:11 If you're still drunk, you're totally grounded.
1349 01:21:13 If not, I'm gonna let it slide.
1350 01:21:15 I'm definitely not drunk.
1351 01:21:16 Well, you were still out all night so come on. Spill.
1352 01:21:18 How was the party?
1353 01:21:20 Fine.
1354 01:21:21 How was Adam?
1355 01:21:27 Okay, everybody. Let's move this party to another room.
1356 01:21:31 Let's go.
1357 01:21:32 Take your mimosas.
1358 01:21:34 We'll go watch the Rose Parade.
1359 01:21:37 Come on. Let's go.
1360 01:21:49 I'm sorry.
1361 01:21:50 Oh, God, it's gross.
1362 01:21:52 It's not gross.
1363 01:21:55 Oh, God.
1364 01:21:57 You wash, I'll dry.
1365 01:21:58 Yeah.
1366 01:21:59 Make us feel better.
1367 01:22:01 Warm water, soap.
1368 01:22:05 Oh, God.
1369 01:22:07 I'm such a mess.
1370 01:22:09 You know, we had this
1371 01:22:12 perfect year and a half together.
1372 01:22:16 And now, we're just moving in different directions.
1373 01:22:21 Is it over?
1374 01:22:24 Yeah.
1375 01:22:30 You're supposed to break up with someone
1376 01:22:31 because you're not in love with them.
1377 01:22:33 Not because you're completely in love with them.
1378 01:22:39 But what do I know, right?
1379 01:22:41 You know plenty.
1380 01:22:44 It's just very inconvenient to fall in love in your age.
1381 01:22:47 Especially if it's the real thing.
1382 01:22:48 You know, if we weren't musicians, we could just...
1383 01:22:51 We could just go to college together.
1384 01:22:54 You know, like normal people do.
1385 01:22:56 There's no such thing as normal, Mia.
1386 01:22:57 Every relationship is rough.
1387 01:22:58 I don't have to tell you that.
1388 01:23:00 Yeah, I know.
1389 01:23:01 Don't blame it on music.
1390 01:23:02 Yeah, but music's the reason we're breaking up.
1391 01:23:05 That is bullshit, Mia. You know that.
1392 01:23:08 What am I gonna do?
1393 01:23:11 I am being completely torn in half.
1394 01:23:16 You're going to go to Juilliard
1395 01:23:17 and play the hell out of your cello.
1396 01:23:20 Or you're not.
1397 01:23:23 You're gonna stay with Adam
1398 01:23:25 and have lots of amazing adventures.
1399 01:23:27 Or you're not.
1400 01:23:29 Or maybe tomorrow, the Earth's gonna smash into a meteor.
1401 01:23:32 Or it's not.
1402 01:23:34 Life is this big fat gigantic stinking mess.
1403 01:23:37 But that's the beauty of it too.
1404 01:23:41 Whatever you do, I support you.
1405 01:23:43 Either way, you win.
1406 01:23:46 And also either way there's something that you lose.
1407 01:23:51 What can I say, baby?
1408 01:23:54 True love's a bitch.
1409 01:24:56 Gramps.
1410 01:24:59 Gramps, what do I do?
1411 01:25:08 I've been trying to think
1412 01:25:10 of what Denny would want me to say to you.
1413 01:25:15 The kid was a helluva of dad, wasn't he?
1414 01:25:18 He sure had me beat.
1415 01:25:21 I remember the day that he quit the band.
1416 01:25:27 He just up and said,
1417 01:25:30 "That's it. The time has come."
1418 01:25:35 I was surprised.
1419 01:25:38 I never really liked the way the band sounded,
1420 01:25:43 but I knew how important it was to him.
1421 01:25:45 And so I asked him, I said, "Why are you quitting?"
1422 01:25:49 And he said,
1423 01:25:51 "You make sacrifices for your kids.
1424 01:25:55 "For your kids."
1425 01:25:58 He said that without even blinking.
1426 01:26:00 That's why he quit the band.
1427 01:26:02 For Teddy.
1428 01:26:04 For you.
1429 01:26:06 It was when he heard you play so well.
1430 01:26:10 I think that's when it clicked for him.
1431 01:26:13 Your incredible talent, it...
1432 01:26:16 He just couldn't believe it.
1433 01:26:20 And all he wanted to do was to give you more.
1434 01:26:24 So, he quit the band,
1435 01:26:26 he sold his drum kit
1436 01:26:29 and he bought you that cello.
1437 01:26:33 Sacrifice.
1438 01:26:35 That's what we do for the people that we love.
1439 01:26:40 And here's mine, Mia.
1440 01:26:43 I want you to live.
1441 01:26:45 I want that more than anything in this world.
1442 01:26:48 I want you to fight like hell to stay with us.
1443 01:26:53 But, with everybody else gone,
1444 01:26:56 I know it might not be what you want.
1445 01:26:58 It might be too hard for you to keep fighting, so...
1446 01:27:05 If you wanna go,
1447 01:27:08 I want you to know it's okay.
1448 01:27:12 It's okay.
1449 01:27:17 I understand.
1450 01:27:30 Thank you.
1451 01:27:40 Gramps?
1452 01:28:35 Hey.
1453 01:28:38 Hey.
1454 01:28:44 So many people have come to see you
1455 01:28:46 I've lost count of them all.
1456 01:28:50 There are like 30 people
1457 01:28:54 in that waiting room.
1458 01:28:59 Some are related to you and some aren't,
1459 01:29:03 but we're your family.
1460 01:29:08 You still have a family, Mia.
1461 01:29:23 Look.
1462 01:29:26 This is my favorite picture of you,
1463 01:29:28 ever.
1464 01:29:32 You were so happy that day.
1465 01:29:38 And no matter what,
1466 01:29:40 that's the way I'm always gonna remember you.
1467 01:29:51 The best day of my life was one I never even saw coming.
1468 01:29:56 It was Labor Day,
1469 01:29:57 early this fall before things started to go bad with Adam.
1470 01:30:01 In some ways, it was just like a usual potluck dinner.
1471 01:30:05 But there was a special feel to it.
1472 01:30:07 People kept on showing up.
1473 01:30:10 All the old friends from Dad's band days
1474 01:30:12 and all the new ones from Adam's band.
1475 01:30:15 Willow and Henry were there with their newborn baby.
1476 01:30:18 Dad hauled the barbecue out of the basement
1477 01:30:21 And he and Teddy spent the day flipping burgers.
1478 01:30:24 And when it started to get dark
1479 01:30:26 Henry had the bright idea to start a bonfire.
1480 01:30:38 Mia!
1481 01:30:42 No way! I'm not playing for you guys.
1482 01:30:44 Not for us, with us.
1483 01:30:46 Seriously, Mia, if you don't, I will.
1484 01:30:47 And have you ever heard the sound of a thousand dying cats?
1485 01:30:50 Come on, Hall. We're playing together.
1486 01:30:53 I really hate you all.
1487 01:31:02 All right, Mia.
1488 01:31:03 Gotta play for us, Mia.
1489 01:31:21 I've always thought of the cello as a solo instrument.
1490 01:31:25 It's probably why it's always made me so comfortable.
1491 01:31:28 Just me and my cello.
1492 01:31:31 But that night, sitting around the bonfire,
1493 01:31:34 jamming with Adam and everyone else,
1494 01:31:36 I realized I was wrong.
1495 01:31:38 The cello isn't a solo instrument.
1496 01:31:41 It's part of something bigger.
1497 01:31:43 # Today is the greatest #
1498 01:31:46 # day I've ever known #
1499 01:31:49 # Can't live for tomorrow #
1500 01:31:52 # Tomorrow's much too long #
1501 01:31:54 # I'll burn my eyes out #
1502 01:32:00 # before I get out #
1503 01:32:06 # I wanted more #
1504 01:32:12 # than life could ever grant me #
1505 01:32:17 # Bored by the chore #
1506 01:32:23 # of saving face #
1507 01:32:29 # Today is the greatest #
1508 01:32:33 # day I've never known #
1509 01:32:35 # Can't wait for tomorrow #
1510 01:32:38 # I might not have that long #
1511 01:32:41 # I'll tear my heart out #
1512 01:32:46 # Before I get out #
1513 01:33:00 The thing is, Mom and Dad
1514 01:33:01 always had their scene.
1515 01:33:03 And Adam had his.
1516 01:33:05 And I was always jealous because I didn't have mine
1517 01:33:08 until the night of the bonfire.
1518 01:33:11 That was my scene.
1519 01:33:13 That was where I belonged.
1520 01:33:19 That's what happiness felt like.
1521 01:33:24 But that could never exist again.
1522 01:35:29 Just after this piece.
1523 01:36:16 Adam.
1524 01:36:33 Mia.
1525 01:36:34 Don't.
1526 01:36:35 Stay.
1527 01:36:39 I know a huge part of your life is forever ruined
1528 01:36:43 because of what happened today.
1529 01:36:45 I'm not dumb enough to think that I can fix it.
1530 01:36:48 You can't.
1531 01:36:51 But I went to your house.
1532 01:36:54 And I had to climb up the balcony to get in like I used to.
1533 01:36:59 And I found this in your mail slot.
1534 01:37:04 I totally broke and entered and stole your mail,
1535 01:37:06 so the Feds might be comin' after me.
1536 01:37:20 "Dear Mia,"
1537 01:37:22 "it gives me tremendous pleasure..."
1538 01:37:28 Mia, you got in.
1539 01:37:31 To Juilliard. Mia, you did it.
1540 01:37:35 I got in.
1541 01:37:39 And if you want me to come with you, I will.
1542 01:37:43 Okay, I'll move to New York.
1543 01:37:45 I'll do whatever you want.
1544 01:37:49 Just please stay.
1545 01:37:52 You're my home, Mia.
1546 01:37:55 I don't care where we are.
1547 01:37:56 I just care that we're together.
1548 01:38:00 I know that now.
1549 01:38:05 I will do anything if you stay.
1550 01:38:09 I can't.
1551 01:38:11 You know I can't.
1552 01:38:19 I'm still kinda working on this thing, but...
1553 01:38:31 You wrote me a song.
1554 01:38:39 # Breathe deep, breathe clear #
1555 01:38:42 # Know that I'm here #
1556 01:38:45 # Know that I'm here #
1557 01:38:48 # Waiting #
1558 01:38:49 # Stay strong, stay gold #
1559 01:38:53 # You don't have to fear #
1560 01:38:55 # You don't have to fear #
1561 01:38:58 # Waiting #
1562 01:38:59 # I'll see you soon #
1563 01:39:09 # How could a heart like yours #
1564 01:39:14 # Ever love a heart like mine? #
1565 01:39:19 # How could I live before? #
1566 01:39:24 # How could I have been so blind? #
1567 01:39:30 # So blind #
1568 01:39:32 # You opened up my heart... #
1569 01:39:37 You still have a family.
1570 01:39:39 # All your love #
1571 01:39:41 # ls all I'll ever need #
1572 01:39:44 I will do anything if you stay.
1573 01:39:48 If you wanna go,
1574 01:39:49 I want you to know it's okay.
1575 01:39:55 # How could I live before? #
1576 01:40:00 # How could I have lived? #
1577 01:40:23 Mia.
1578 01:40:33 # Take my mind and take my pain #
1579 01:40:41 # Like an empty bottle takes the rain #
1580 01:40:48 # And heal, heal #
1581 01:40:54 # Heal, heal #
1582 01:41:00 # Take my past and take my sins #
1583 01:41:07 # Like an empty sail takes the wind #
1584 01:41:16 # And heal, heal #
1585 01:41:21 # Heal, heal #
1586 01:41:27 # And tell me some things last #
1587 01:41:36 # And tell me some things last #
1588 01:42:01 # Take my heart and take my hand #
1589 01:42:08 # Like an ocean takes the dirty sands #
1590 01:42:15 # And heal, heal #
1591 01:42:20 # Heal, heal #
1592 01:42:25 # Take my mind and take my pain #
1593 01:42:33 # Like an empty bottle takes the rain #
1594 01:42:40 # And heal, heal #
1595 01:42:44 # Heal, heal #
1596 01:42:49 # And tell me some things last #
1597 01:42:58 # And tell me some things last #
1598 01:43:06 # And tell me some things last #
1599 01:43:15 # And tell me some things last #
1600 01:43:36 # I spend these hollow nights #
1601 01:43:40 # All alone #
1602 01:43:46 # Safe from the looking glass #
1603 01:43:50 # That you kept home #
1604 01:43:56 # Let's go #
1605 01:44:02 # I saw the sea and knew #
1606 01:44:05 # It was a mirage #
1607 01:44:12 # It wasn't even so #
1608 01:44:15 # I played the odds #
1609 01:44:23 # Full of black and blues #
1610 01:44:28 # From all the nights with you #
1611 01:44:31 # I never wanted to go #
1612 01:44:34 # I don't want you anymore #
1613 01:44:36 # I don't want you to feel the same as me #
1614 01:44:41 # I never wanted to go #
1615 01:44:44 # But now I'm letting you know #
1616 01:44:46 # I just wanted to feel #
1617 01:44:49 # The life in me #
1618 01:44:58 # I went from solid steel #
1619 01:45:01 # To broken glass #
1620 01:45:08 # The darkest side in me #
1621 01:45:11 # You brought out fast #
1622 01:45:19 # The things I said were true #
1623 01:45:24 # I'm taking them back from you #
1624 01:45:27 # I never wanted to go #
1625 01:45:30 # I don't want you anymore #
1626 01:45:32 # I don't want you to feel the same as me #
1627 01:45:37 # I never wanted to go #
1628 01:45:40 # But now I'm letting you know #
1629 01:45:43 # I just wanted to feel #
1630 01:45:45 # The life in me #
1631 01:45:49 # I miss you #
1632 01:45:52 # I wish you #
1633 01:45:55 # Will let me be #
1634 01:46:00 # Just leave it #
1635 01:46:02 # We stopped breathing #
1636 01:46:04 # I need to be free #
1637 01:46:08 # I never wanted to go #
1638 01:46:11 # But now I'm letting you know #
1639 01:46:13 # I just wanted to feel #
1640 01:46:15 # The life in me #
